feeling sad and lonely again [gN5FqF7zSaA]

Testing.

Hmm,

interesting.

Wait, what did I put the stream title as?

Oh, sad and lonely. Sad and lonely

again.

I'm gonna test out my house. Network, see

if I could stream around the house.

We do IRL stream in the house and maybe

in the garden. I didn't

realize you can do— use 2 connections at

the same time on this app.

Hmm, I'm hoping my mum doesn't

come back soon. She went out with Dave

Gibson because the electric bike had a

So I'm thinking if I go— I don't know if I

can go into the garden. I think I should

be able to go into the garden.

Oh yeah, I'm streaming kind of early today

well, usually I only start the stream

after I've had lunch, but I thought today

I make lunch on stream. Very exciting.

Unless my mum comes back, then I'm stuck

in my room like usual. Yeah, try going

downstairs. Hopefully it flips over to

the repeater automatically.

Let's see what happens. So I've got the

repeater here. I probably got to flip

so I'm going to flip over to the repeater

now.

Whoops, is it working?

Check my YouTube.

Is it working?

So I should be able to come and stand over

here And it should be fine.

It's kind of stuttery.

See if I can go outside. Oh, it's nice

weather today, nearly 20 degrees,

clear skies,

but it's so bright I can't see my phone

screen.

I tested it out, it had stable connection.

I don't know, perhaps we'll see,

because I put the repeater thing over

here, put it over there plugged in.

Yeah, it's kind of choppy.

Why is it chocolatey?

Uh, maybe I just cave and I buy the

Starlink from Elon Musk.

So annoying trying to get this to work.

I think I should be able to walk down

here.

Is it still choppy?

It's not super nice outside.

It's still a little bit windy, but when

the wind doesn't blow, it's quite nice. I

wonder how far down into the garden I can

go. I reckon if I go down there, it will

definitely just F unless my phone

data has good connection.

Hmm, should I just get Starlink? It's only

£300. I mean, it's also £75 a month.

It's kind of expensive. Uh,

look at these weird insects in the pond.

Why is the pond brown? It looks so gross.

It's so nice when there's no people

around. It feels so quiet.

Yeah, I don't want to spend— I mean,

£75 is like 10% of what I make to

be able to stream when I can already

stream without it. Uh,

it's so nice when there's no one here.

When there's people here, I feel like I

can't come outside. I'm trapped in my

room. Where are the tents?

They're all gone. The wedding's over ages

ago.

I could probably do streams outside

because the data should

be quite strong if we go that way towards

the big road. If I wanted to do an IRL,

probably do like a bike ride.

So how is it? So is it watchable? That's

what I mostly want to know.

Unfortunately, the house Wi-Fi, the best

it can do is 2.5 upload, even upstairs.

And the phone signal is really good, but

only when it's up by the window up high.

When it's down here, it's not much better

than the house Wi-Fi.

What's that

Wow, my mum's not back, is she?

If I go around the house, I'd definitely

lag, I think, because then the house would

be blocking line of sight.

No, they're not back yet.

Even my phone is like lagging.

Weird. Oh my God,

it's like the frame rate is not smooth.

Garden tour. Well, I can only stay in

certain parts of the garden because

the Wi-Fi repeater thing is over here.

So if I go around the other side of the

house, all the brick walls are going to be

blocking it.

But I think in this part of the main

garden it's fine, just not down at

the bottom garden or around the front

gardens. I don't know how many acres it

is, but we've got like 7 gardens. So got

the crescent moon garden. I don't know if

I can get there without it dropping.

So my granddad designed it like different

moon shapes. So this is the banana garden

or the crescent moon,

and then you've got half moon over there.

That's— I can't really go that way. I'm

scared it's gonna eff. And then this is

the main garden.

Put the repeater outside using a power

strip, but then

won't it be really far from the router

inside of the house? If I get a second one

and then plug the second one further down

there I thought you'd get a second

repeater and plug it in the garden cabin

and then it'll pick up the signal from the

first repeater.

Yeah, and then there's like little square

gardens over here. My dad was gonna make a

vegetable patch and then this bit was all

overgrown but it's being cut back now.

You could build like 5 houses in here.

You could build like a little house there

house in that corner, a house down at the

and then you got this square bit.

Do you have a gardener? Well, Dave Gibson

likes to come over and do gardening. He

made that flower thing in the middle.

It's kind of funny because My mum and him

keep complaining about all the rabbits,

like, oh, there's so many rabbit holes.

But then when Pushkin catches a rabbit,

they get all mad at Pushkin and they're

like, oh no, don't kill the rabbit!

It's fine if he kills like a couple baby

rabbits, it keeps the population down.

Why are they like freaking out about him

catching a rabbit? So he caught a baby

rabbit yesterday, and then they freaked

out. They chased him and then brought him

back in the house and shut him in the

house as punishment. He's a predator.

That's what he does. That's the whole

point of a cat, is that they hunt mice

and birds and stuff. It's just what

they're built to do. Can't get a cat and

complain about it killing stuff.

It's not cruel, it's just nature.

Weird way of thinking. I saw him earlier.

He came up to me, meowed at me.

They put the bell on his collar hoping

that the bell would scare off things he's

trying to hunt, but he still manages to

catch stuff.

I feel tired. I'm like out of breath

pacing up and down.

It's cruel? It's not cruel. Everything

that lives kills and eats other things.

Was it cruel when birds eat insects? It's

just the way of the world.

I don't know, some animals are a bit

cruel, like chimpanzees, which just attack

stuff for fun, but cats usually

kill things in a painless way.

They go for the neck. I don't know,

sometimes the cats do toss the mouse— the

mice around a little bit. Oh my God, my

phone overheated! Now I've got to look at

this phone for the chat.

42 degrees.

I need to get that little phone fan.

Yeah, it seems like it streams okay,

doesn't it?

Yeah, it seems like it streams.

Now let's go back upstairs. Test finished.

Don't know what to do out here.

If I sat outside for like 6 hours, I'd get

sunburnt. My skin's starting to

heal from all the sunburn I got when I was

in Japan IRL streaming. My hand, my hand

and my face, the skin aged by years from

all that streaming outside in Japan. And

now it's like my hand is finally getting a

bit better, looking less dry and wrinkled.

Being outside in the sun for so long

really does Make you look older.

Your mum does a good job maintaining this

huge house. Only because she's got David

Gibson. Is it really that hard though?

You just sit on the lawnmower, ride round

and round in circles. If I had to do

gardening, I'd get this electric cordless

hedge trimmer and then I'd just go around

shaving everything. Seems easy.

I don't do it because I don't need to do

it, but if I had to do it, I think it'd be

Use sun cream. Cream. I don't think sun

cream actually works.

I think maybe it stops you from going

brown. I don't know if it stops your skin

from getting damaged.

The windows look clean. She even painted

the chairs. No, she didn't. She bought the

chairs from some shop and they came like

that. And, uh, she— I don't

think I've ever seen her clean windows.

She'll spray the hose at the window, but

she doesn't like sponge the window down.

I was getting all kind of existential

existential crises recently.

Like, I don't know what to do. I thought

I hated Thailand. Now I'm starting to feel

like I miss Thailand.

I don't understand.

I don't know, there's something about

living with your mum that doesn't feel

good. Not that we're fighting or anything,

it's just it makes you feel like a kid.

You know that feeling of feeling like an

adult with your own life and then you go

back to your parents' house and then you

feel like a kid again? It doesn't feel

good.

It just feels— I don't know.

Feels like you're now not the main

character anymore. You're now a side

character in someone else's story. But

when you're an adult and you got your own

place, then you're the main character.

Now I feel like I'm the side character in

my mum's story.

And then I thought, well, I could move out

and then rent a place in the UK. But then

I remembered I don't like UK towns or

cities. I don't

know what to do. I like my house, my home,

and I miss it,

but it doesn't feel like it's my place.

It feels like it's my mum's place.

And then I don't really want to live in

like some crappy UK town. With noisy

neighbors and surrounded by chavs. And I

didn't like Manchester. I would hate

London. I don't know what to do.

And then when I'm in Asia, I feel fed up

because it's so noisy.

I'm just like doomed to be unhappy no

matter what I choose. It's really

frustrating. I would never want to live in

London, it looks so rubbish. But then I'd

only go back to Japan and live in a stupid

guest house. That was rubbish as well. If

I went back to Japan, it would have to be

in a nice apartment, even if it cost, I

don't know, like £2,000 a month. I would

only go back to Japan if I saved up a lot

of money. I'm not gonna go and stay in

Japan. Who's shooting guns? Stupid idiots.

I remember a long time ago they were

shooting guns and one of the bullets

landed on the conservatory. My dad got

triggered and he called the police. He

said someone— he said to the police,

someone's shooting at our house with guns.

There's someone over there. They like to

shoot guns into the air. And then the

pellets drop back down or something.

I don't know how they do that. They must

be shooting like vertically up and then it

falls back down. Stupid.

I thought the UK is not supposed to be

like America with guns, but you get the

countryside people, they love shooting air

rifles or little shotguns at

birds. It's like countryside culture.

Yeah, I think those were guns.

Maybe not an air rifle because air rifle

doesn't make that much sound. Or it

could be a farmer. Sometimes you get these

farmer fields and they put these cannons—

it's not like a cannon, it's like a tube

that fires something to scare off birds,

and they'd randomly go off. It might be

Maybe I'll move into the garden house,

then I'll feel like I'm living

independently again.

There's something nice about when you're

an adult, you are responsible for

everything and you've got to get stuff

done.

Gotta get the food and pay the bills. I

don't know why I miss that. You think you

wouldn't miss that.

It is nice here though. I feel like I'm

back in 2022.

And I was wondering, why am I leaving

this? I don't know, I feel like

getting a bit of an itch to look

for somewhere to live.

I don't know, I don't know what I want

anymore. Give up, give up trying to figure

Waste of energy.

What do you mean you don't have any

income? I make like £1,000 a month.

You people still going on about how I

don't make any money. Oh my God.

Not enough for rent. Rent where?

If it's London, then yeah, not enough,

but if it's like Kent in a town,

probably would be enough. Whoa, my God,

massive dragonfly! Whoa,

these plants look weird.

In Manchester, my rent was £890 and

then about £100 for bills. So yeah, it

would be very difficult to live in

Manchester again, but my place in

Manchester was stupidly expensive. I could

have gotten a bigger place that wasn't in

a big fancy tower for like £700 a month,

but I wouldn't want to live in Manchester

Boring. I'm pretty sure I did pay council

tax. Getting hot now, want to go back

inside. I don't know what to do

in the garden. I thought it'd be fun to do

a garden stream, but what do I do in the

garden? Just pace up and down.

I wish I had my wireless mics. I could put

the phone down and then I walk around with

the wireless mic and then you could just

watch me walk up and down.

Damn, it's hot. Feels like

I'm in Thailand again. Look, my football,

it got all deflated. I was getting good at

doing the kick-ups on the football. I

could do like 20. Look,

it's all gross. It's probably

full of dirty pond water. Look at all the

weird insects in the pond. Just swimming

around. I think they're called water

boatmen. They look like they're rowing a

boat.

Imagine all the disgusting stuff in this

pond. Oh, there's little lizards

sometimes. I don't know what they are.

Newts. I think they're called newts. Oh,

one time there was a dead rabbit in the

pond. I had to fish it out. It was so

gross. How did it jump in the pond and

drown? Bit stupid, isn't it?

Oh my God, it's hot.

Oh my God, everything's buzzing around me.

Why not Liverpool? I went to Liverpool for

a few days and it was horrible. I didn't

like it. Ugly city.

The UK doesn't do cities very well.

I think our city's all ugly. The towns

are ugly as well.

They just look very old and abandoned,

shut-down buildings everywhere.

Who's maintaining the garden? Me,

obviously.

In my garden.

Do you remember that garden intro I did

where I was jumping around? It was called

something like Sexual Magic.

So I used to do such weird intros with the

funny music, and I was kicking the

football around, and I was batting the

football with a stick. That was when I

ditched Chihiro and I came back home. I

felt so free. But then I feel lonely

again, and I feel like I miss being an

adult and having a relationship,

and then I feel like I'm just my mum's

side character.

You go through this cycle of you want a

relationship, you get into a relationship,

then you feel suffocated in the

relationship, so you ditch the

relationship, and then you come back home

and And then it's nice for a bit, but then

you feel like a kid and you miss being an

You don't feel like you— you're not

yourself anymore. And then you start

missing having a relationship again. The

cycle repeats. Has anyone else noticed the

cycle, the pattern?

I get bored being single, seek out a

relationship, but then I get bored being

in the relationship.

Why is everything boring? I don't get it.

Oh, what's that stupid noise?

Can't get any peace and quiet here.

Everyone's always mowing something

or chopping something down, and then you

got dogs barking sometimes.

Aren't you glad to be single again?

Uh, I don't know.

I had to ban my mom from my YouTube

channel yesterday. Because she was writing

comments on my stream saying stuff like,

don't know,

my son never appreciates me or something

like that. Because she brought those box

of crisps to my room and I was complaining

about it, and then this idiot was saying,

Daniel, you shouldn't be so rude to your

mum, baby. And then my mum joined in

bashing me, so I banned them.

I don't want a box of crisps in my

bedroom. Why is she— why did she think I

want a box of crisps in my bedroom? I

don't want food in my bedroom. I've only

got the pot noodle in my bedroom because I

had pot noodle before and my Malaysian—

someone was eating my pot noodle,

so I brought it to my room to hide them.

But I don't usually want to store food in

my bedroom because I make food in the

kitchen. I want the food in the kitchen so

I could prepare the food in the kitchen.

I only bring the food up to my bedroom if

I don't want to eat downstairs because

there's too many people.

I feel like I shouldn't have to keep

explaining such basic things.

I get triggered when people do stupid

My cousin came up to my room. I was kind

of annoyed. Because I went up to my room

to do my evening routine where I just

have tea and I relax and I watch some

YouTube. You know, I unfastened my

trouser string and I put my hand down my

trousers, and then he just came out of

nowhere. I was like, oh my God. And I

farted, so I don't know if he smelt it. I

farted before he came in, but he came up

to my room to give me my laundry and he

was like Daniel, here's your laundry.

Where should I put it? I was so annoyed.

I don't know, put it anywhere. Put it on

the fucking floor. Who cares? Don't need

to come to my room, bring my laundry.

Just leave it somewhere and I'll collect

No, I didn't say that. I just said put it

on the floor, thanks. I don't like people

coming up to my room Cuz sometimes I fart

and it might smell.

My auntie came up to my room to tell me

it's dinner. Scared the crap out of me cuz

she's so quiet. She like snuck up and then

suddenly, Daniel, dinner time! Oh my God,

fucking hell. I know it's dinner time, I

can smell the food, and it's 7, which

means it's dinner time. I don't need

someone come up to my room and tell me

it's Dinnertime.

Annoying.

How old is my cousin? I think he's like

30.

I don't like being disturbed in my room.

They probably don't live with privacy in

their own home. Yeah, I think life in

Malaysia is like they all get

together all the time, they all have meals

together. It's not really this

individualism thing in the UK. I feel

like people place more importance

on privacy and being alone.

In Malaysia, it's like everything's a

group activity. Make food together, eat

together. So more tighter, tighter-knit

feeling,

more of a family feeling, which I guess is

nice, but I'm not really used to that.

I'm used to— I make my own food, I eat

where I want, I do what I want when I

want. You do your own thing, don't care.

I can't stay out here, it's too hot. Oh my

God, I need to go back in. And the sound

is annoying. Let's see if it lags

in the kitchen. I can't—

it's too— worse than Thailand.

Well, at least we know that

I can stream in the garden. Put the phone

down. Oh, my back is

like it's on fire.

Overnight stream in the garden. Yeah, I

could get a tent and then just camp in the

Why go back inside? You can sit outside

because it's so hot.

And that lawnmower outside is annoying me.

I hate noise.

Do I not have a lock for your door? No,

my dad was really against the idea of

having locks. He said something stupid

like, what if there's a fire in your room

and we can't get in? I don't know, kick

the door down then. Damn it,

stupid fire anxiety.

Sandwich time.

Hmm, this is Dave Gibson's

breakfast. He eats Rice Krispies.

My views are really tanking now.

Probably around— we're getting back to

like the Thailand levels now where people

are just bored of seeing the same stuff

over and over.

People don't find England interesting.

You people don't find anything

interesting. No matter what I do, You find

it boring. The only time I feel like

there's more interest is when there's a

girl or a woman on my stream,

like Blood Bucket or something. All you

guys care about is women. You don't care

about gaming. You're bored when I show you

my fish tank. If I cook food, you get

bored. Oh my God, you guys are impossible

to please. To please you people, I need

like an endless harem of women to come on

stream. And then I get a new woman and

then you get bored of her. Fucking

annoying. I get a new girlfriend and then

a couple months into the relationship

you're like, oh, she's boring. Bored, are

you? Fucking idiots.

Everything's fucking boring.

Fucking tired of it.

Fucking Atsushi Vlogs just cleans his

fucking room over and over again for 5

fucking years and his fucking viewers

still watch it. He gets 50K views every

fucking video.

No one gets bored of his stuff. Fucking

hell.

Oh, this stupid

chicken's all bone. There's no meat on it.

Ugh, fed up doing YouTube. So fucking

annoying.

That's enough.

Chicken sandwich.

I feel bored in the UK because nothing

happens.

Oh well.

You see, I want the crisps in the kitchen

so when I make lunch I can just go and get

the crisps instead of going up to my room

to get the crisps. It's called common

sense. I imagine keeping the bread in my

bedroom, and then every time I make a

sandwich, I'll get the bread from my

bedroom, bring it down. Why would I keep

the bread in my bedroom?

Stupid. And that is classic British

lunch.

No spice, no shrimps and crab brains.

No chicken feet.

British lunch.

What is

That's what

the crisps are for.

If the sandwich starts getting a bit

bland, you take some crisps

to spice up the flavor.

Or you can put the crisps in the sandwich.

That's what I used to do when I was a kid.

I don't know why, when I first got home,

I felt so happy, like so optimistic

for the future. And I was buying stuff

for my room and the kitchen, and then 4

weeks later, I don't know what to do with

my life anymore.

If my mum came home now, I'd be really

annoyed. I hope if she's

going to come home soon, I hope it's in

like 30 minutes.

I've got another, like, weird thing with

my wisdom tooth gum. Now it hurts again.

I'm always getting some kind of pain in my

Either I bite it and it causes, like, a

big open wound, or I get a little painful

lump. Get a little painful

lump on my tongue that goes away after a

day. I think it's vitamin deficiency.

Well, I get like an infection around my

wisdom tooth even though I try hard to

I need to get it pulled out. Sick and

tired of all these gum infections.

Why did he stab the chicken? I just

got triggered.

I got

triggered because people getting bored of

my channel again,

and I'm tired trying to keep it

interesting all the time.

I don't know why my viewers are so hard to

entertain when all over YouTube there's

like big YouTubers who have big audiences

that are perfectly happy just watching

them do the most boring stuff.

My numbers are back down to like Thailand

numbers now.

Now, @SushiVlogs has 40K views every video

for like 5 years now, and he does the same

thing every video. He doesn't

do anything apart from go for a walk,

show his minimalist room, do a bit of

cleaning.

Why do I have to bend over backwards just

to get triple digits?

Where's Dave Gibson? I don't know,

he went out with my mum. He left his car

here. He's got quite a nice car, Citroën.

It looks nice.

They had a problem with the electric

bicycle, so I think they went to fix it.

They always have something to do.

They're either chopping down the garden

and burning stuff, or they go out to buy

something for the garden.

They're solving problems. No,

they're just— they're making unnecessary

problems for no reason so they have

something to solve. The problems are not

even important problems. They're just like

pointless, unnecessary problems that they

look for because they're bored and got

nothing else to do. So then you get the

dopamine rush from feeling like you've

fixed the problem when the

problem Wasn't even a problem in the first

I don't have any problems to fix because I

don't go seeking for problems.

People just try and keep busy just for the

sake of feeling busy.

I don't do nothing.

Now, first, I think the side.

Hmm. Hmm.

Where's my cup?

Show you

the garden.

My biggest problem is fucking internet

slow, and it's so hot. Oh my God, it's

like Thailand again.

I can't even open my eyes, so bright.

Look, they built this brick stove.

You make a fire in there and then you put

the pot on top. I should not be wearing 2

pairs of trousers.

I'm not used to it being hot again. It was

14 degrees for weeks and raining, and now

today it's suddenly 20. That's the problem

with the UK weather, it just suddenly

changes.

Look, a solar-paneled water fountain.

The insects keep drowning in it.

Excuse me.

I can't even see my phone screen. It's at

max brightness. A solar panel thing,

I don't even know what it is. Oh, lights.

Solar panels everywhere. And she's got a

strawberry plant.

I can't see my phone screen, it's so

I don't like it when it's so bright. I

like it when there's a bit of cloud like

this. Now it's great.

I don't know why there's so many plants,

potted plants everywhere. It's like we're

running a plant shop.

I don't understand the point. There's

plants everywhere. Look, bush, hedge,

trees. What's the point having more

plants in a pot?

Or at least bury the plants.

What's that? That's weird,

like it's just floating.

What's that sound? That's a motorbike, I

think.

There's a big road that way. You can

always hear the traffic even though we're

not near the road. The road is like way

past all the hedges and fields.

It's the A20.

Yeah,

if you have YouTube Premium, I get money.

When you watch the stream, when the

stream's playing. I don't know how it

works. It's like all the money from the

people paying for premium gets pulled into

a pool, and then I get a percentage of it

based on how much of my content you watch.

So just open like 10 tabs and leave it

running. I don't know.

I hear a girl's voice coming from over

there. Walking down Dickley

Lane.

Oh, it's too sunny outside, getting hot.

What do I think of streaming on Twitch?

Waste of time. No one donates, no one

watches. Get like

30 viewers.

It's too hard to build an audience

anymore. I don't know how I built an

audience in the first place. If you're

starting from scratch now, you've got to

build a new audience. Oh my God, get ready

to spend like 3 years dedicated to it

until you make any progress, unless you're

a genius and you get lucky.

Hmm,

show us

the cottage. Hopefully I can stream

down this far.

What's that satellite? Didn't notice

there's a satellite here.

Oh, oh, it's for the TV, the sky dish.

Though it's covered in bird shit. Stupid

birds shit on everything. I don't

know how much we're paying for Sky

satellite. Should get rid of it and get,

uh, Starlink.

I've only got 50% battery.

I didn't bring my battery bank.

Yeah, so this is the garden cabin.

Who wants to live here? £2,000 a month.

Is it streaming?

It seems like it's working. So, my

relative stayed here for a month. You've

got this decking bit.

Stream seems to be working well. You've

got this little decking bit. You can sit

here. There's no one in

there now.

You can sit here.

Ah, it is kind of nice.

Did I have cereal in there? Not yet.

I never brought a girl around since this

was built. This was built after Mila left.

I think it was built in 2021. What's this?

They really do love their barbecue stove

stuff. I don't know if I

can stream down there.

Look, another brick stove.

Got a stove there, this rusty bin stove,

this steampunk stove. How many bloody

stoves they want? Oh, excuse me.

My uncle built this, can you believe it?

All by himself. He just bought the wood

And he bought the nails and he just built

it. How'd you build a whole house?

So weird. Seems pretty good construction.

A little spider.

Oh my God, stupid flies buzzing around my

head. And he also built solar panels on

the roof. Look.

How is he so clever? I don't know how to

No, we got planning permission,

and you got these nice double glazing

doors.

It's locked. Look, that's my kettle that I

bought her for Christmas.

Wait, you see that kettle?

That's my kettle.

Remember when I was with Chihiro, came

back for Christmas? I bought my mum a

Christmas present, the kettle, and then

she was whining about how she doesn't want

the kettle. So I took it back to my room.

It's a nice kettle, transparent.

Yeah, stream works quite well around the

I wonder if I can go right down there.

Why don't you stay here instead of staying

at the house with your mum? Well, I would

have to bring all my stuff down there,

like my dumbbells, my clothing. There's no

washing machine in there, so I'd have to

bring my clothing into the house to wash

it. And the internet— I don't know about

the internet. It might be okay now. Now I

got the Wi-Fi repeater. Get Starlink.

Damn, it is a nice day though. Look at the

clouds, they're so fluffy.

Um, yeah, maybe we do like a stream in the

cabin where I stay the night in there. I

feel like my mom won't let me. She never

lets me do anything. She thinks I'm gonna

like wreck it or something. I don't know

why she thinks I'm gonna wreck stuff and

burn stuff and break things. When have I

ever wrecked and broken anything?

And then you got this little passage.

Let's see how the internet holds up in

the tunnel.

So this is where Dave Gibson and my mom

like to burn stuff. They got this camp

thing.

Crap, is it lagging?

Oh my God, I think it's lagging.

My phone is lagging.

Is it back? They got this camp

thing. I think my iPhone was lagging,

not the stream. But anyway, that's like

the campfire where they like to burn

stuff.

Well, the stream works quite well

actually. Don't need Starlink.

And look, there's like a little patch of

mushrooms growing here. It looks weird.

Can you see it?

Just a bunch of mushrooms growing out of

the ground. Do you think you can eat them?

I'm feeling a bit better now. Look at all

the disgusting insects in the pond.

How do we make the pond not brown?

Uh, look at the dragonflies. I hate

dragonflies. They look like flying sticks.

Do you have fish in there? No. Do you

think they would die if I got fish?

Surely there must be something wrong with

this ecosystem if it's so brown. Or maybe

that's just natural. It is like a stagnant

pool of water. Maybe some

plants in there would help detoxify it.

Like some lilies.

Don't have any ducklings this year. Do you

remember 2022? Had those 2 ducks and they

had eggs. They laid eggs and there were

like 12 little baby ducklings running

around the garden. That was really cute.

I miss those. But it seems like

this year they didn't come back. I did see

them in this pond a few times. Wait,

don't they make babies in spring?

So it's finished baby-making season.

So we've got this pond, it keeps drying up

but it looks like it's refilled now, I

don't know how. It's covered in this green

stuff.

I guess they chose somewhere else to make

their babies. We failed,

failed to give them a nice environment.

And this is the Japanese bridge my dad

built.

Would be nice to have more Japanese stuff.

My dad's tree is over there.

My dad's buried there. My dad built this

bridge to look like Japan style, I guess.

It'd be nice to have those lanterns, you

know, in Japan they have those lanterns,

they glow orangey at night. That would

look really nice. Have like a— maybe my

mum will give me like a little segment of

the garden and then I can turn it into

like a Japanese garden.

That'd be cool. I don't know how to do it.

You get gravel, don't you? You get gravel

and then you comb the gravel with a rake

and then you build like a little bridge

over a stream of water. Get a bonsai

tree. Oh my God, it's hot.

What about your dad if the house gets

sold? I don't know. I don't think we— do

you think we would tell them that my dad's

buried under the tree? He's not really

buried under there, it's just ash that's

probably disappeared by now. It's not like

there's a skeleton of bones.

Upstairs room must get hot. What, that

bit? Yeah, that bit's boiling. It's like

an upstairs conservatory. It used to be an

open balcony, but my uncle— my mum paid

my uncle to build windows around

it and a roof.

Yeah, I guess it's nice when there's no

one around.

Live streaming in London would be

expensive. It must be like £25.

Return ticket to London. Probably more

now. It was £25 when I was younger.

I don't know how much it is now to get a

train into London. Probably like £30

return. I mean,

I haven't made any money on today's

stream. I didn't even get one donut. So if

it's gonna cost me £50 to go stream in

London and I'm not even making any money,

What's the point? Might as well put the

money on, I don't know,

betting on the football game,

because at least then I've got a chance of

winning money, whereas if I go stream in

London, it's like 100% chance of losing

money.

I'm pretty sure I'd hear if they came

back.

Oh my God, are they back?

I hear voices.

Oh,

thank God.

I thought they were back.

I've only got 40% battery.

Why does it matter when they're back? I

don't know, I feel like

I'm doing something wrong. I keep getting

told off every time I stream. I get in

trouble with someone, like my mum

got upset last stream,

and then it'd be kind of awkward.

I think Dave Gibson wants to be on stream,

but I don't really want to. I don't

really want to stream with people.

I like streaming just to rant and complain

about stuff.

I don't know why people are so sensitive

about the streams. I mean, there's not

even 100 people watching. Who cares? It's

not like there's 10,000 people watching.

It's not like IShowSpeed and he's got like

200,000 people watching.

I don't care because it's barely anything.

It's like, oh, 99. And girls on Instagram

who don't even have an audience can go

live and they'll have more friends

watching than viewers I have.

But people are like scared of my stream,

especially my sister.

I hear people's stupid voices as they walk

up and down the roads. They talk so

fucking loudly. Sharp.

I should not be able to hear the voice

when I'm standing here. Oh my God, look at

that dragonfly! It's massive.

That's what they sound like. Why are

they yelling at each other when they're

walking down a quiet road?

I hate it.

Some people's voices so damn loud.

The nice thing about the Thailand condo

was it was so high up you would never hear

anyone's voices. Just when they go down

the corridor, you'd hear them a little

Have you heard of Boogie? Yeah, everyone

has. Who hasn't heard of Boogie?

Isn't he faking cancer now?

That's what I said he should do, to be

honest. I said, if your channel is

finished and no one cares anymore, you've

basically got nothing to lose. You just

say anything to get any kind of relevance.

So I don't blame him. I'd do the same,

probably. I mean, I'm not going to do it

now because I don't

see the point.

Should I fake cancer too? Then I'll lose

the last viewers I still have left, then I

really would have to get a job.

I think when your reputation is so toasted

and you're done and doesn't matter what

you do, people will never like you or even

care about your content anymore, then

you've got nothing to lose. Just do

whatever. As long as you don't get banned.

I mean, it is kind of risky though,

because you could get banned. Didn't that—

what's his name— JayPlay— JayStation,

didn't he get banned because he made all

this fake clickbait content?

I think once you've lost your credibility,

you're done. You'll never get it back.

People only give you one chance.

Once you upset them, it's pretty much

impossible to get them back unless you

have like a— an amazing redemption arc,

but that's so difficult.

When did I have credibility? Um, I was

pretty credible back in 2017.

People really believed everything I said.

They really found me genuine, relatable.

They're rooting for me, cheering me on.

Everything I said had power behind it,

but then I just kind of took advantage of

it and I abused it with clickbait and

trolling.

Yeah, I did a few fake things. Like,

I faked my divorce. Remember that? That

was pretty bad, I guess. I lost a lot of

viewers because of stuff like that, but I

felt like it was a good idea at the time.

Oh, Bitcoin's going up.

Did you see the recent NATO stuff?

They're sending F-16 fighter jets to

Ukraine now, and Keir Starmer gave

Zelensky permission to use the UK

Long-range missiles to strike Russia.

Yep, we're going into World War III.

There's no turning back now.

We're screwed.

You have more than 100K subs. Yeah, but

they don't even watch.

Like 1% of them watch.

It's very difficult because it

feels like you either fake stuff and risk

people hating you and then you get views,

or you just don't fake stuff and watch

your channel die.

So it's very tempting to fake stuff,

even if it is just short-term, because you

think, well, it's short-term. Short-term

100,000 views is better than long-term

10,000 views, isn't it?

No, I don't think I'd want to go to

America. It looks scary, scary,

expensive, and I just have no interest.

Well, I started faking stuff because I was

scared the channel was going to die. I

tried being honest and normal, but it just

wasn't getting views, so I had to

think quick— quickly,

think fast, and I had to— no,

I'm not faking cancer yet.

Maybe if I had 10 viewers.

Well, maybe I will just actually get

cancer though, then it won't have to be

fake when I'm old.

I'm not faking stuff now, there's no

point. It doesn't get any views, no one

believes it anymore. There's literally no

point faking stuff anymore because It

doesn't work.

Do you

like my IRL stream? Is your connection

okay? Yeah, it seems pretty good. I'm

watching it on my iPhone.

I'll have to check it later to see if it's

actually okay. Make a positive title.

Every time I do a positive title, I get

half the views I usually get. I did a

bunch of positive stream titles in

Thailand and they've got like 2K views.

Like, uh, hey guys, chat with Daniel, or

making pie today gets 2K

views. But if I do, oh my God, my life is

over, I get 5K views.

Yeah,

I'm quite pleased with how the stream—

look, if I do this lens, I wonder if

it's better. It's like all jittery now.

What the hell? What?

Why is it like all laggy? You know what I

think the problem is? The phone is really

hot, so it's making it lag.

The hardware is lagging.

Might go back to my bedroom soon.

I think I scared Sunny away. She joined

when I was stabbing the chicken and

shouting at it, and then she left.

Not a good point to join.

I don't want to get a job because I don't

really care about money.

I mean, I do care about money, but I care

about how I make it.

I mean, I could get a job and just get

money, but then it's not really what I

I want to do YouTube and I want to do

stocks, not get a stupid job.

If I had some money, I would like to get a

Starlink, although my internet now seems

okay. No,

Starlink's waste of money. £75 a month.

Why would it be interesting if I got a

job? I would just moan all the time

saying, oh, there's an idiot at work,

he's so annoying, he said this and he said

I'm not terrible at stocks. I've got a 48%

gain on Tesla. My gold stocks are up 10%.

I made £1,000 over

the last year. How much did you make?

Yeah, exactly. Nothing.

How did you already pay her back so much?

I didn't. What do you mean?

I might go back to my room now.

Oh, fuck.

The fuck?

That was good timing.

I knew I heard something. I just

saw them coming back.

Good thing his voice is loud because I can

hear when he's around. Sometimes it's

annoying when people are too quiet and

they sneak up on you.

Oh my gosh,

she's coming.

I didn't get my water.

Whose car is the red one? It's my brand

new Citroën. Do you like it?

I bought it off Amazon. I need to take

some clothing off.

Back in

the room.

I don't want to be around when— I mean, I

don't want to stream when they're around

because they say embarrassing stuff.

They'll say embarrassing stuff and then

people will make fun of them, and then my

mom would get upset or something and then

blame me.

Or they'll be on camera and then the

stupid subreddit will clip it and then

post it, and then my mum will find out and

then she'd be like, oh my God, Daniel,

don't stream in the house.

Everyone just whines at me when I stream.

People would say my mum's English is bad

and then she'd get upset about it.

I have the camera so I can see who's

coming down the driveway and who's here.

Why is it so hard to understand? Why do I

need to explain why I have a camera?

Obviously, it's so I can see who's coming

in and out. Why else would I have it?

If the doorbell rings, I'm gonna be like,