Meeting my online girlfriend for the first time in JAPAN

Hey, so I woke up this morning and that

idiot who lives in the room next to me,

he opened my room door and he nearly came

in. And then he saw me in there and he

said sorry and he left. I guess he thought

it was his own room. How hard is it to

check the room number before you open the

door? How can you not even know where your

own room is? In the other video, I was

saying that I thought he was Middle

Eastern or an Arab because of the way he

sounded when he spoke. But I don't think

he is Middle Eastern. He had black hair

and he had fairly pale skin, and he kind

of looks like an Asian person, but he

didn't look like a full Asian person. He

kind of looks like half Asian or a mixture

of Asian and something else. I didn't get

a good look at his face, but it was so

irritating. He just opened my door and he

nearly came in, and he saw me standing

there naked. No, not naked. I was using my

hair straightener at the time, and it was

such a shock, such a surprise. But the

worst thing about it is he saw my face,

so he knows that I live— that I'm in the

room next to him. So if I do something

embarrassing like I fart really loudly or

I make a lot of noise whilst masturbating,

he's gonna know it's me.

I guess it's my own fault because I forgot

to lock the door today. Usually I lock the

door every time I go into my room, but

today I'm meeting Tomoko and I forgot to

lock the door. It's typical, the one day

that I forget to lock the door the idiot

next door comes into my room and he keeps

making this weird noise at night. He

keeps— it sounds like he's banging his

knee or his head against the wall when

he's sleeping, and it's so annoying. I

think he's definitely the most irritating

person in the guest house, maybe second to

the French guy. Anyway, we have to go and

get on the train, meet Tomoko for the

first time ever. This should be

interesting. And we also have to post the

pocket Wi-Fi, so goodbye nice video

quality when streaming. I don't really

feel nervous about meeting her, but she

keeps sending me messages saying that

she's really ugly, and she keeps saying

sorry that when we meet I'm gonna find out

how ugly she is. And I don't know how true

that is. I don't know if it's just her not

having any confidence in her appearance,

but she keeps saying it, and I'm starting

to think to myself, what if I meet her and

she is actually really ugly? What am I

gonna do? Should I just go home? It's

gonna be really awkward. She can't be that

ugly. At least she can't be as ugly as as

some of my exes have been.

I don't really think that's going to stop

me anyway. I'm pretty horny right now.

Why doesn't

it go in? Stupid thing.

お 客 様 に お願いします。 開

く 扉 に 手 や カ バ ン が 引 き 込 ま れる ト

ラ ブ ル が 発 生 して います。 If

I

stand here, I should be able to see where

her bus is. She said it 's a white bus

with a blue and orange rainbow with birds

flying out of it. Can you see it? See any

buses like that? And she's wearing

a red skirt with a white top.

There's someone over there, look!

This person's wearing a red skirt and the

white top. I don't think that's her

though. No.

Oh, what's this? This is a white bus with

a blue and greenish— is that a rainbow? I

think those were birds, Behind this

white van, she should

be arriving any minute now. Let's see if

I can sneak up on her. Hehehe.

Hey guys, so I guess you're wondering what

happened last night after I came back

home. Um,

let's just say she wasn't quite what

I was expecting.

How do I— how do I even start? Talk about

this. I guess I'll just say it in the most

simplest way that I can. I didn't feel

attracted to her. We aren't going to meet

again. She was a different person to— she

wasn't the same person that I was

expecting.

I didn't feel the same way that I felt

when I saw her photos.

I guess I kind of created this false image

of her just based off of her photos, and I

was expecting to see that version of her.

But then when I met her, the instant that

I met her, that version of her just kind

of died. It stopped existing. Well, I

guess it never actually existed in the

first place because that wasn't the real

her. So, what did we do yesterday? Well,

I met her, and the instant I saw her,

I immediately felt like, I don't feel

attracted to this person. I don't— I don't

want to be in a relationship with this

person. And we walked around for a few

hours, and during those few hours, I was—

I was trying to think of a way I can tell

her this. Without sounding too harsh.

So I decided to tell her my true feelings.

I said to her, I really want to have sex

with you, but I don't want to be in a

relationship with you. What do you think

about that? And she said— she said

that's okay. She's fine with it. She said

she was actually expecting me to say

something like that. She wasn't expecting

that I would want to be in a relationship

with her. So we ended up going to a hotel

and we had sex. We had sex a few times.

We talked. We took photos together.

And, and then we just walked around a bit

around the city.

And then we said goodbye. We hugged,

and that was it, basically.

Personality-wise, she was a really nice

person. She was friendly, she was easy to

be around. I didn't feel stressed out

spending time with her, but I can't be in

a relationship with someone just because

they're nice or friendly. I need to feel

physically attracted to someone if I want

to be in a relationship with them, and I

didn't want to lie to her. I didn't want

to pretend that I was in love with her so

I could have sex with her. That was why I

told her the complete truth, that I wanted

to have sex with her but I didn't want to

be in a relationship with her. I don't

have to be physically attracted to someone

in order to have sex with them, but I do

have to feel physically attracted to them

if I want to be in a relationship with

them. Otherwise, it's just not going to

work. I never learned my lesson. I've been

doing online dating for years now.

I've met— I've met close to 8 or

10 girls using websites, online services,

and every single time they never look like

how I think they're going to look like.

People always look better in photos than

they do in real life. And I know this,

but I, I still keep meeting girls and

then I end up feeling disappointed when

they're not quite the same as their

photos. There's just so many applications

and ways you can edit your photo to make

yourself look better. Even I do it.

Beauty skin filters, filters that make

your eyes look bigger, filters that do

this and do that. It's just you can't

trust the photo. You can't tell if you— if

you'll like someone until you've actually

met them in real life. And I think I just

need to stop declaring girls as my

girlfriends before I've actually met them.

I keep doing this. With my last

girlfriend, I did the same. I would say— I

would ask them to be my girlfriend before

we've actually met. And that's a really

stupid thing to do because you can't tell

if you actually like someone just from

photos alone. Even if you see their

videos, it's not good enough. I've seen

videos of girls and then I've met them and

they still seem kind of different.

Tomoko's going to make a video as well on

her YouTube channel talking about the

experience from her side of the story.

She doesn't hate me. She's not angry with

me. She's very understanding and nice.

And I just hope that you guys aren't going

to go over to her video or her channel and

start commenting things like, I told you

so, you should have stayed away from

Daniel. Don't, don't say those kind

of things. It just hurts people's

feelings. We weren't— we both weren't sure

what we were what was going to happen or

what to expect from the experience.

And my plan wasn't to just meet her, have

sex with her once, and then say goodbye.

I wanted a proper relationship. I wanted

to feel love and to be able to love her as

well. But when I met her, I just— I

didn't feel that way. And I can't force

myself to feel that way or pretend to feel

that way if I if I don't.

So what happens now? What do I do? What do

I do in Japan? Should I just go home?

Well, I'm gonna take a few days to think

about things, and I'm going to start

dating, seeing other girls. I'm going to

vlog about the experiences that I've had

meeting different people. I'm going to try

harder to make friends at the guesthouse,

try and hang out more with the Canadian

guy. I'm going to do more livestreaming,

try to go to interesting places like

before with Denny's, you know, different

shops, different places. This isn't the

end. I don't want to go back home. Yeah,

it was a bit disappointing, a bit

unexpected. Everything's changed now. I

have to rethink everything. I have to— I

have to reconsider everything. I just,

I just want to put this all behind me now,

I guess. Move on to something new.

I had a lot of fun yesterday. It was kind

of like a strange mixture of having fun

and feeling a bit upset and depressed.

And I feel really bad for Tomoko. I

watched her videos on her YouTube channel

and I feel really sad. I nearly started

crying. I feel really bad for letting her

down or for giving her false expectations

or false promises. And I can totally

understand why she was so hesitant and

kind of scared of meeting me, because she,

she knew that this was going to happen.

She had a feeling that I wouldn't find her

attractive when we actually met up. That

was why she wasn't eager to meet me

straight away. I'm really sorry. I'm sorry

for messing you around. I wish things were

different. I wish things weren't this way.

I wish I was attracted to you and that we

could have a relationship together.

But I guess it just— it wasn't meant to

be. And we

should move forwards. We should move on,

try and find someone better. Better suited

to each— to ourselves. So I think that's

all I wanted to say about the matter.

Um, bye guys.