think i got catfished again

What did you say?

Oh no,

nearly doxxed myself. Hahaha, Chihiro got

more views than you in her latest video.

2 times more views.

Oh, how did she get 6K views? So annoying.

That was a couple days ago and I checked

it and it was at 2.7K. I woke up the next

day and all of a sudden it was at 5.9K and

then it dropped down to 5.2K and then went

back up to 5.8 and now it's at 6K. Very

strange. Oh,

I don't know why she gets so many views.

Where are all these viewers coming from?

There's not 6,000 people on Discord and

Reddit. Where are these bloody people

coming from? Maybe they're bots.

There's no way there's 6,000 people on

Discord and her Instagram and the

subreddit. The hell is going on?

Very weird.

Don't know, I don't really care anymore.

It's old news.

Yeah, well, my new video has 20K views,

so suck it.

Also, if 6,000 people are watching, then

how come she doesn't have 6,000

subscribers? How come only 700 subbed?

That's another strange thing. Where's my

tripod? Clifford the tripod.

I might have to pee again. I don't know

why I'm peeing so much. I had one glass of

water and I've

had to pee like 4 times now.

Donations all glitchy again tonight.

Is this clickbait? No, got some

bad news about my Tinder date. Ahaha, Che

Hero got more views.

I'll talk about it in a minute. Trying to

get this bloody text-to-speech working.

Uh, why is it so glitchy? Someday—

sometimes— some days it's fine and then

some days it's not fine.

I don't know why is it playing the same

one over and over again. Fucking hell.

How many days on Huel? I've been having

Huel every day since I made the video.

Yeah, well, you can't really compare her

channel to my channel cuz my channel's

like a 5-year-old channel. Her channel is

completely fresh, isn't it? So it's

not a comparison.

I wish people shut up about Chihiro's

bloody channel. Ah, this is why I

didn't want her to do this, because I knew

this would happen. Bloody idiots start

going, haha, Chihiro got more views.

Yeah, well, Chihiro doesn't have a bloody

dead channel, does she?

Am I only eating Huel? No, I went back to

eating my normal meals, but I have Huel

with it. But it's

so filling, I can't have more than 2. I

had one today and I feel so stuffed.

Also, the Huel official YouTube account

left me a comment. They said, thanks for

the video, Daniel.

So people reporting me to customer

service, they can suck it. Hyul likes me.

I've got more subs than Hyul on my chef

channel, Chef Daniel channel.

Have I gained weight? I don't know,

my belly feels a bit big.

I, I have to weigh myself. Haven't weighed

myself since last year,

but I feel the same. I don't really feel

any different.

This whole week's gone past really

I was supposed to have 2 days alone, but I

ended up only having 1 day because my mum

and sister came back early because they

had a— um,

shouldn't tell too many details,

but yeah, that's why I didn't really want

to go, because this stuff happens.

I guess shouldn't talk about it,

otherwise people start messaging my mum

saying Daniel says me me me me.

See why I can't talk about stuff anymore?

Because the idiots ruin it. They just

snitch on me. You want to hear the juicy

details about people, but I can't because

idiots start snitching on me, start

telling people that I said this and I said

that.

I gotta make a bloody video sometime. I

haven't made a video in a week.

I have no idea what to make a video about.

I thought I could make one about dating

black girls, but people get all pissy

about it, don't they? Because I matched

this black girl and I was going to meet

her in London, but I found out something

about her that made me change my mind.

It's kind of weird. So, you know,

I posted a picture of my legs on

Instagram, and on Instagram when you post

a story, you can see who viewed the

picture. Guess who I saw on the list?

Yeah, the girl I was going to meet in

London,

um, was on the list of people who viewed

the picture, and we've been chatting for

like 4 days now and she hasn't said

anything about my channel, so I just

assumed she didn't know about my channel.

Kind of weird. I don't know if she knows

that I know she knows about my channel.

Did Mita see it? No, I don't.

I'm pretty sure she doesn't watch look at

my Instagram anymore. I had like 1,000

people see my Skindex picture. She might

be able to help your channel out since

her— and I scrolled all the way through

it. It's quite interesting. Channel is

more popular than yours now. Oh, shut up.

How many times is it going to pop up the

same thing?

You should ask Chihiro for advice. She

might be able to help your channel out

since her channel

is more popular than yours now.

You should ask— Shut up.

Um, yeah, the photo got about 1,000 views

so far, and I checked through all the

people who saw it. And the girl I matched

on Tinder, I'm pretty

sure it's her. The pictures, it looks like

the same person, but her hair looks a bit

different, but the name's the same. Is

Huell making your baby even smaller than

it is now?

No, I don't really notice any difference

after having Huell.

So I don't think making your VV even

smaller than it is now. I don't think I

want to meet her anymore because it's just

weird. I feel like I'm being trolled if,

if we've been talking all this time and

she hasn't brought up my YouTube channel.

I don't know if she only recently started

following me. I'm pretty sure it's not

recent because it would say in the

notifications tab on the top of Instagram,

it will say so-and-so is following you,

and then it shows you like a whole week's

worth of people who followed you. And

she's not on the list,

so she must have found— she must have been

following my Instagram from before we

matched. And when we were chatting, she

said she was into anime and Japan stuff,

and most people who are into anime and

Japan stuff probably have heard of me from

all the Chris Broad stuff. And, you know,

I was sort of in that J-vlogging

community for a bit. Why not meet

her? Because it's just

weird that she hasn't mentioned it.

So I feel like she's trying to troll me Or

she's saying, yeah, let's meet up, and

then I turn up and she's not there, or

she's there with a bunch of friends to

like mock me. I just have bad feelings

about it.

This is the annoying thing, I can't even

do Tinder now. So at first my channel

died, so girls don't even message me

anymore. Second, I didn't really give

myself a good image from the recent stuff

with Mita. You know, I didn't really

handle the breakup very well, and I,

I ranted on stream about Mita. That

probably looks bad. So girls

are kind of scared of me now, and they

probably don't want to meet up anymore.

And then even when I turn to Tinder and

dating apps, people are going to recognize

me on there. And then what if they match

me because they recognize me and they're

just gonna ghost me or catfish me or trick

me or something? So now I don't know how

to get a girlfriend.

So annoying. I didn't have this problem

before because when I was using Tinder

before my channel blew up, I was in 2017

in Japan, it wasn't really a problem.

People didn't recognize me because I

wasn't recognizable.

And I just met Japanese girls and they

wouldn't know about it anyway. And I only

had a couple thousand subs at the time.

And then after 2017, I just had— I always

had loads of girls messaging me to meet

up, and now I just don't really have that

many. There's a couple, but they just—

they don't seem reliable.

So yeah, I don't know what to do now, to

be honest. I feel like I'm kind of fucked.

I fucked my reputation. I fucked my public

image. Girls don't

want to message me and meet me. They

definitely don't want to be in videos.

Because they saw what happened before.

Girls in England on Tinder don't

like me. I set my location to London on

Tinder and I got like 2 matches,

and one of them must— I think she knows my

channel, and the other one I don't know,

I don't really like that much.

I don't know why girls in England don't

like me, but then I change my location,

location to Japan or Korea, and I get

loads of matches with nice-looking women.

Yeah, some of them a bit old, but that's

fine. I just seem to have no luck in

England.

I think the kind of guys that girls like

in England are just different. They're

into different kind of style, you know,

like shaved sides and short hair and not

like the nerdy look. The nerdy look just

doesn't really work well in England. It

works fine in Japan because most Japanese

guys kind of look nerdy, don't they?

Looking nerdy is like the default look in

Japan for Japanese guys.

Try building muscle. That's what I've been

doing since January. Every stream you see

me doing my lifts, and it's— it has

made a bit of a difference. You probably

can't see, but my biceps have gotten a bit

bigger. I definitely notice it, but it's

not enough. I still look really slender.

I don't know.

I feel like this struggle is getting more

and more difficult now, and I haven't

helped myself with this negative image I

portray on YouTube. But the negative

topics gets views. So I'm kind of

pigeonholed into carrying on

doing this negative portrayal to get

views, but then that just ruins my chances

even more because girls don't want to meet

a guy who's like financially ruined or

cheats or has problems connecting with

people. But that's what they want to see

on the channel from the analytics.

If I do all like this fake happy stuff,

it's not going to get good views. Plus

it's fake.

Oh, maybe Mila's going to be my last ever

And then recently I'm starting to think

more and more, I don't think I can get a

better girlfriend than Mila. She was

pretty good.

I just can't imagine meeting another girl

who I like as much as I liked Mila. I just

feel like giving up.

The perception people have of me is just

so bad, and it's so skewed as well.

It's like you can have 2 examples

of where you treated women badly, like 2

examples out of 100, but the other 98

examples you treated them fine and nothing

happened. But just because of the 2

examples of where you treated them badly,

that's what people— they judge you off.

They judge you based off of the 2 examples

out of 100. People say stuff all the time

like, you treat women terribly, you

cheated on all your girlfriends. It's not

true. I had like 6 or 7 girlfriends

and I only cheated on Chihiro,

but people have it in their minds that I

cheated on all my girlfriends and I cheat

all the time nonstop when I never said

that.

Is Huell making your Vivi even smaller

than it is now?

No. What am I gonna

Thinking of just resorting to

prostitution. I found some places in

London, they charge like £120 for an hour.

Better than Korea, I guess.

Korea was more expensive.

No, I'm not talking about me doing

prostitution. I mean using prostitutes

instead of just trying to find a date,

because it's just impossible.

Oh, I'm fucked. I wish I put more

effort into keeping Mila.

What am I gonna do?

Fake unhappy stuff. It is fake. All the

unhappy stuff I've done recently is all

fake. Like, my Chef Daniel channel is full

of these videos like, my life is going

downhill, I failed at life. But all

that is just exaggerated BS. Yeah, there

is a hint of truthness to it.

But, you know, I don't really feel like— I

don't know, sometimes I do. I guess it

does feel like it is going a bit downhill.

But the problem is, if they believe the

fake stuff, that's not good because it

makes me look really bad because it seems

like my life really sucks. And then if

they notice it's fake, then that's not

good either because then they think I'm

lying and just making stuff up for views.

So either way, I'm effed.

Look at my room. I think it might be time

to start dating men.

That's why a few vloggers do similar style

to me. Yeah, I guess so.

Oh, people are so annoying though. You see

my community post recently and I said,

would you date someone who's cheated

before? And like 80% of people said no.

The whole logic behind people who have

history cheating is so stupid because

just because someone hasn't cheated before

doesn't mean they won't cheat or they

might never cheat. Like, before I cheated

on Chihiro, I didn't cheat before, so I

had a clear history of not cheating, but

then I cheated, so it kind of just

destroys that argument. That oh, if he's

cheated, I'll never date him because he'll

cheat on me again. It's like saying oh,

then someone who has never cheated, they

would never cheat on me. That's not true.

I cheated. I I also never

cheated before I cheated, and then I

cheated. So it's like a stupid thing to

say. And just because someone cheated in

the past doesn't mean they're definitely

100% going to cheat next time. I didn't

cheat on Mila. Yeah, if I did, I would

have said by now. There's no point of

lying about that now. I honestly didn't

cheat on Mila. I had girls message me and

I turned them away, and I didn't even

reply to some of them.

When I was with Mila, I had no interest in

other girls,

so it's just a load of rubbish, the whole,

oh, I wouldn't Ever date someone who

cheated before? Yeah, you're probably

dating someone who has cheated and you

just don't know because they won't tell

you. Because in society, people think,

"Oh, they cheated on a past." You cheat on

me too. It's a stupid way of thinking.

I'm pretty sure nearly everyone has

cheated before, but they would never tell

their partner that they've cheated before

because look at my community post.

And then they say, oh, you're such a liar

because you didn't tell them about your

cheating. Yeah, because 80% of people said

they wouldn't date someone who cheated

before, so obviously you're gonna lie

about it, aren't you? Why would you tell

them something that's just gonna get you

So now I have to lie about cheating.

Because majority of people don't want

to date someone who's cheated before.

Have open relationships? I don't want to

have an open relationship. I want a

committed monogamous relationship. I don't

want my girlfriend sleeping with other

men. And if I find the

right person and I feel strongly about

them, I don't want to cheat either, as

I've proved with Mila. I think I've proved

the fact that if I do find a girl I

really, really like, then I don't have any

interest in cheating. It doesn't—

the idea doesn't even enter my mind.

And I didn't even cheat before Chihiro. I

had the first Japanese girlfriend and she

ghosted me.

And then the French girlfriend, I never

cheated on her. I had the chlamydia

girlfriend, I never cheated on her.

Single mother, um, I didn't cheat on her,

but I did go on a date with another girl

whilst I went to meet her. Does that

count? I don't know, it wasn't really— it

was— we were only together for like 2

weeks. It's not like it was a serious

thing.

What made you cheat on Chihiro? Because it

was just so easy. You have no idea how

easy it is to cheat when you blow up on

YouTube. You get so many girls messaging

you, so many.

Plus it's Japan. Japan is the worst place

to be if you love sex and you're

trying to be in a relationship. You can't

even walk to the train station in Japan

without like walking past some Chinese

massage parlor waving you in for a

Japan is just, oh, it's like a sex

addict's paradise.

They're everywhere, those Chinese massage

parlors. Just out there, right in front of

everyone, in the open public eye. Not like

hidden away in some secret shady place.

So just right next to the train station.

Everywhere. Why not do fake unhappy stuff

then? Then only tell your The

temptation was just too strong at

the time, and I didn't have intensely

strong feelings for Chihiro like I had for

Mila, because, you know, even your own

mama and baby sister— Rotterdam,

Amsterdam, the Netherlands is also a place

full of prostitution, isn't it? You can

easily get one in Rotterdam. But I

didn't because I, I felt emotionally and

physically satisfied with Mila, but she

obviously didn't feel emotionally

satisfied with me.

Thank you, Mr. Fuji. Wow, these alerts

come in so slowly.

She barely visited you? No, she came over

to my apartment every week for like 4 days

for the week. For about 3 or 4 nights a

week, she would stay at my place.

I don't know what the plan

of action is then. If I want to get a

girlfriend— getting sex is easy

because I found a bunch of prostitution

places in London,

and it's pretty easy. You just message

them, say I'm at this hotel, Can you come?

They say, sure, what time?

They're pretty bog-standard stuff like

everyone else. So if I really wanted sex,

then I

guess if I was that desperate, I'd just go

and book a hotel in London for a few days

and just pay for it. Would I

move back to Rotterdam to get back with

Mila?

I don't know. I miss Mila, but I really

hated Rotterdam so much.

Rotterdam was just shit. So expensive.

Even on the outskirts in the ghetto area,

it was expensive.

So I'd have to get a hotel, which would be

like 1,500 a month. I'm not getting an

apartment again, not after what happened

So I don't know how I could figure out a

living solution. And now we're not in the

EU anymore, so I could only stay there for

a few months. I'd have to get a visa to

So I need to either find a girl who wants

to travel with me or just find one in

England, which is just impossible. I just

can't find a girl in England. I don't know

why English girls just aren't attracted to

me at all. I think it's because they're

all fat and I'm really skinny.

The only European or English girls that

would like me are the kind of weeby ones,

and then the weeby ones probably know me

because I'm bloody famous. This is why it

sucks being famous. I'm not famous enough

to be really rich, but then I'm famous

enough to get recognized on bloody dating

apps,

so I'm stuck in between. If I was really

rich, then yeah, I wouldn't be complaining

about my fame, but my fame is literally

fucking me.

The fame is not helping me at all. It's

infamy. It's not fame.

The fame is just making my chances worse

because they see me and then they

recognize me, or they show my picture to

their friends and then one of their

friends recognize me and they're like,

oh, that's Daniel, he's weirdo, he cheated

and he had chlamydia. That happened a

couple times too. Where the girl didn't

know me, but her friend did know me, and

then the friend warned her to not meet me.

Your fame isn't the problem in Asia.

Yeah, I'd probably have less chance

getting recognized if it's a Japanese

woman because they don't watch YouTube.

Well, they won't watch the English side of

YouTube. Why would Japanese people watch

people like Abroad in Japan? They, they,

they are Japanese. They live in Japan.

Why would they watch channels about their

own country? That'd just be weird.

And then they probably wouldn't be

watching English channels, they'd be

watching Japanese channels.

Why did you think your fame changed from

good to bad? Because in the beginning

People loved me and they thought I was

weird and cool and interesting. And then

as time went on, my bad personality flaws

started coming out more and more. And

because I keep making videos,

most of my videos and streams focus on the

bad aspects of my life. Like, I get

rejected, I have a big rant about it.

That's what gets the views. If I have a

good day and I make some good money, I

don't make a big video about it and no one

cares anyway. So it's like I get

all this judgment from the 10% of the bad.

People judge me based off 10% of the bad,

thinking it's like 100% of what I am,

when that's just like a small part of me.

And then the good parts of me just don't

even get acknowledged, or they get

ignored, or they don't even know about the

good parts of me because I don't really

put as much effort into broadcasting the

good parts of me. You see, I only stream

and I make videos when I've got something

to complain about. If I've had a great day

and I'm feeling good, I won't even stream

because I'm in a good mood and I've got

nothing to rant about. You know, I didn't

stream for the last 4 days because I was

in a good mood because the market's been

doing well.

So my whole channel, you know, you go onto

Instagram and all you see are really nice

photos of people and they're on the beach

and on holiday and you think, wow, their

lives look so great, that's just because

they've cherry-picked the best bits to put

on Instagram. I've cherry-picked the worst

bits of my life and my personality to put

on YouTube, so it just makes me seem like

a shit person.

But that's the only way I get attention.

I don't get attention or views by

pretending or showing my good side,

which is not really good. It's just like

normal, like being a normal person.

So people get this skewed perception of

me.

Like, you look at the subreddit, it's just

100% focusing on all my bad stuff. And

then not even a single piece of

acknowledgement to anything nice or good I

did. It's just completely focused on all

my bad bits. And anyone sees that just

thinks, oh my God, he looks like a

terrible person because they think the 10%

of my past bad personality is the 100% of

my whole personality. It's just so unfair.

What good stuff have I shown? I don't

know, like when I talk about,

um, my feelings that don't

make me seem like a robot or psycho. Like

when I talk about my dad or how much I

miss Mila and my genuine feelings for her.

What about when I donated Venus Angelic

£10? That was a nice thing of me to do,

wasn't it? I do nice things sometimes,

and sometimes I have nice things to say

about people. But does anyone collect a

database of nice things Daniel did and

said? No, they don't. They just gather all

the really bad stuff. Like some idiot now

is taking my clips from Twitch and

compiling them into videos. And yeah, I'm

gonna copystrike the fuck out of you if

you keep doing it.

That even the so-called fans, they only

take all my bad clips that make me look

bad and then put it all into a

compilation. They just completely skip

over the nice bits.

Why can't someone collect the nice bits of

Daniel and put it somewhere?

What was the long-term plan with Mila?

I don't know, I thought we could travel

and get Airbnbs, make vlogs together like

when she first came around.

Just travel different countries,

get a nice cheap place in the countryside

of Sweden. I'll make some vlogs like

cooking together or like camping in

Sweden,

and then she could do her card stuff,

tarot card, or her reading,

and then she could come back here with me,

and then she maybe she'd go back by

herself and we'd have a bit of separate

time, then we meet up again somewhere

else. I don't know, that's what I

imagined.

But it was just too hard because she

didn't want to live together, and then she

had this weird attitude with, oh, I need

my alone time. You know, we could have

just got a separate room. We could have

gotten a place that has a separate room.

You could be in a separate room doing your

alone time. I just found it very upsetting

being told that she didn't want to live

So it's just weird, she's so against the

idea of living with me, but then she's

happy to live with her grandmother, or

she's happy to have a roommate in Korea.

With a friend. How come she doesn't mind

living with a friend or living with her

grandmother? But when it comes to me,

it's like, oh no, we're not going to live

together. I was so shocked. Remember when

I said when we were first talking

about going to Korea together, I think we

were streaming it and

I said, we'll get an Airbnb together. And

she was like, no, I'm going to stay with

my friend. I was like, what? What do you

mean? And we're not gonna live together.

Just weird.

So it would have made it tough. That

stupid spider. Fucking hate these spiders.

Fuck off,

because next thing you— I'll wake up and

it'll be right above my head. Where's my

gun?

I'll do it later. Fucking spider.

Hate them. They look so disgusting. All

brownish, that weird triangle body.

They just sit up there. They keep moving

around. At least those skinny spiders,

they stay in the corner in their webs.

Those thick brown ones, they,

they scurry around all over the place.

So what should I do about the whole dating

situation?

Tinder, I'm not having any luck. I

literally have no matches in London.

I tried this other app called TanTan, and

for some reason I've gotten like 100

matches and these girls are really cute,

so I feel like it's a scam.

Have you heard Tantan before? It's like a

Chinese dating app and it's got a lot of

Asian girls on it, but the girls are like

all over the world and I have so many

matches and the girls are cute. That just

seems really unbelievable.

I chatted with a few girls on it but

didn't go anywhere. Just feels like a

scam. And I tried this other one called

Bumble. I matched

2. One, one is a black girl and then

another one is Asian from South Korea,

but she said she was— she grew up in

England. I don't know, I just

don't really feel like it would go

anywhere. Chill out for a bit.

Law of attraction says love comes to you.

Yeah, I guess so. I just need to forget

about it maybe.

But I just feel like I'm running out of

ideas, running out of solutions.

Did I try premium Tinder? Yeah, I paid £30

to get this special feature where you

could see who likes you. And no one likes

me, so it was a complete waste of money.

I had 10 people liked me, so I paid for

it, and they're all fat and ugly, so I

swiped left on all of them. Like, 2 of

them were post-ops trans, and they look

weird, like Michael

Jackson face. They raise prices. Yeah,

I know. First I paid 20 And

I thought that was unlocking it, and they

said no, I had to pay another 10. They're

really milking it, really taking advantage

of people's loneliness right now. At least

they give you the passport feature for

I don't know about this London trip. I

said I was going to go to London, that's

the whole point of this donation goal,

but the girl who said we're going to meet

at the end of May She hasn't messaged me

in 2 weeks, and I messaged her about a

week ago and she didn't reply. And how

many days left in May? 4 days. I don't

know if she's gonna suddenly message me.

I don't know if I said something that

repelled her.

On the other app, it says she was last

active 4 days ago, so I don't think she's

just ignoring me. She might just be having

a break from messaging in general. I don't

know, but I'm feeling less

and less confident

about it.

So I basically have no girls to meet.

It's just annoying. Beginning of January,

I had like 5.

What am I going to do? Like, this whole

year is just going to go by and I'll just

be in my bedroom. And end of the year,

I'll be like, so what did you do, Daniel,

in 2021? I did literally nothing.

Did I enjoy Ice Poseidon's session on Dr.

K? Yeah, it was okay. I found some

of it relatable, like the toxic audience

stuff, feeling like your

audience won't let you do stuff. Like my

audience didn't like Mila and then they

drove her away. Kind of like how Ice's

audience didn't let him date that girl he

wanted to date.

But Ice's situation is always going to be

like 100 times worse than mine. Mine never

got that bad.

But I also found it interesting when Dr.

K said he felt Even though Ice was

apologizing, he still had this feeling

that he was BSing, which is why I think

a lot of people don't like Ice, because

even when he apologizes, it sounds like

he's making excuses. It's just something

about Ice, the way he speaks. I guess he's

trying to come across as apologetic,

but there's just something unconvincing

about it. I don't know why.

Maybe that's why so many people hate Ice,

even though he keeps saying sorry and he

keeps trying to fix what went wrong.

He doesn't seem humble. Yeah, Ice is just

really not humble, but that's what made

him so entertaining.

Ice was never entertaining because of his

humbleness. He was entertaining because he

was like this loud, obnoxious, arrogant

person in public trolling people. That's

why it was funny. It wasn't funny or

entertaining because he was such a nice

guy. That's not why you watched him. You

want to watch a nice guy, watch someone

But his viewers had like this weird

attachment to him because he enabled it.

He even let viewers just come into his

house Which was just weird.

I would never do that unless it's a hot

Have I talked with Chihiro? No, I haven't

talked to her since that argument last

time. I'm done with her.

I kind of missed her and I felt bad before

this, but it's like she's just doing this

stuff for her own, for her own benefit

and doesn't care how it affects me.

I don't think she realizes how much the

hate comments and the cyberbullying annoys

me and upsets me. Maybe she

just thinks, oh, you're used to it now.

Oh, it's your fault because of the content

you make. Oh, why do you care? You get

money, don't you? But It affects me

psychologically. How would it not? And

then she's just like, oh, I don't care.

Why should I care? We're not married

anymore. So it's just a really shit

attitude she has. I take back my

regrets and apologies. I don't want to

talk to her anymore.

She's got a bad attitude, I'm telling you.

I tried to fix things, you know, I tried

to make amends after

I got back from Rotterdam, and then this

is what I get.

For what? Just so she can try and make a

couple bucks on YouTube.

I was already stressed out with trying to

get views, and now I've got this extra

pressure of losing face. Because now I

just feel even more shit that now my

ex-wife gets more views than me, and now

I've got these stupid annoying trolls

going, haha, she gets more views than you.

Ah, fuck off.

I was already really stressed out about my

views going down, and I was kind of

thinking of just going, oh, whatever, I'm

just gonna upload anyway. But now I just

feel even less like uploading because

I'm scared it's going to get really bad

views.

You notice I haven't uploaded in like a

week now because I don't upload anything

unless I feel confident it's going to get

So it's like all this extra pressure and

stress now.

Now I already get mocked all the time

about only getting 10K views or only 15K

or my channel's dead, and now I've got her

channel in the back of my mind as well.

So now I gotta think all this more— I

gotta think of more fake stuff like, I've

got a new girlfriend, but I can't talk

about her because of what happened last

time.

Not uploading will result in less views.

No, if I keep uploading crap videos, I

only get like 8K views. That's— I feel

like that's more damaging than just taking

a bit of a break, trying to think of a

good title. Because algorithm

fucks you. You know why channels die?

It's because it's like constant bad

videos that do badly over and over

and over, and then it just makes the

algorithm turn its back

on you more and more.

Why did she decide to make a channel?

Because some coworker has a channel and

then apparently it blew up and then she

got all inspired or excited about it.

And then she was saying she's bored of her

job and she wants to try something new.

She's fine and all that if she didn't use

my viewers, because now my viewers are

just going to use that to have a crack at

me.

No videos, lower algorithm. I don't think

so. Look at Bold and Bankrupt and Harold.

They don't upload for months, sometimes 5

months, and they come back and then all

their viewers are desperate for new

content and watch their new stuff.

And their new stuff does really well.

Some people like Chris Brawl, they only

upload once a month and the viewers are

there waiting because they know or they

want more new stuff.

They're not going to go, oh, Chris hasn't

uploaded in a month, I'm never going to

watch him again. They'll wait.

It's like oversaturating people with

videos versus starving them so they want

it more. There's different tactics.

It's like Kevin, Meet Kevin, uploads like

10 videos a day plus

livestreaming. He livestreams whilst

uploading videos, and people keep saying

livestreams damage your channel. I don't

think so because lots of people stream and

upload videos and the views are the same

as usual. I don't know where people get

all these ideas from. It's all rubbish.

So they say, oh, dislikes stop your video

from going viral. Uh, no, it doesn't.

Look at my Resident Evil video. Look at my

Boneworks video. I got 14,000 dislikes on

my Boneworks video and it nearly has 100K

People keep spouting all this rubbish.

It's so annoying.

Do a livestream when you're actually doing

something. But I don't do anything. I, I

trade stocks and then I play Rainbow Six

and then I try chatting to girls.

I guess I could trade stocks live, but I

know you guys don't care about stocks. If

I started doing stocks now, you'd all just

and then as soon as I start talking about

stocks, you will leave. So can't

Aren't you bored living this way? I am

bored. I want to get a girlfriend where I

don't have to hide things from her and

she's on my side and I don't have to keep

defending myself and she understands

me and we've got

similar values and similar objectives.

Everything else is great. It's just,

I don't know,

it's like you live in a, a great place,

but there's one thing missing.

And being in the great place prevents you

from getting the one thing that's missing,

or it makes it very difficult to find

the missing piece. It's like Mario, you

know, or those Final Fantasy games. You

start off in the big nice castle, but you

got to go and find the missing power

crystal, and you got to leave and go on

adventure to get it.

That's not Mario. I don't know, some kind

of JRPG, isn't it? Where you start off in

a castle, you gotta go and get some

magical quest item, bring it back.

If I didn't want— if I didn't care about

having a girlfriend, then yeah, I could

probably just live like this and be pretty

happy. It's a nice house. I've got a

massive garden full of animals and life.

My mum's not too annoying now she's gone

back to work. Still nags too much.

I don't really know what else I'd want to

I spend like 4 hours a day in the garden.

It's so nice. We've got ducks. They had

babies. There's like 11 little baby ducks

running around. They're so cute. And

there's rabbits and birds.

It's just nice. You, you're in nature,

there's animals, there's life,

it's all green.

So much better than living in a little

shoebox in Japan surrounded by gray and

concrete and crows. Japan has wildlife,

but it's like 100% crows. I hate crows,

they're so evil looking. And they just

bring down your mood. They make that

horrible noise. I hate crows.

They're not cute at all.

They're the most depressing looking

creatures in the bird kingdom.

My favorite ones are robins and ducks.

Ducks are nice.

I remember I made that video where half of

it I was just complaining about crows in

Japan. My videos were so random back then.

I started crying about shepherd's pie.

And then I can't even get a prostitute

here because we live in the middle of

nowhere, so I have to go all the way to

London. Maybe I can get one in Maidstone.

I don't know, I feel too lazy to even do

that. I do want sex, but then I can't even

be bothered to get on the train. I could

just go get on the train tomorrow and get

some sex, but it will cost £200.

$250, it's just not worth it. I'd rather

just have the $250 and jerk off for free

and then put the money into a stock.

Stocks are more exciting than sex

sometimes.

And then sometimes the sex isn't great,

and then you feel like you wasted your

money. And then after you finish, it

always feels like you wasted your money.

And then I don't really want to become

that guy who just has to get prostitutes.

It's just a bit sad.

I don't know what to do.

It's not even the sex that I really want.

It's like a combination of sex and human

companionship.

I feel like that's the main thing missing

in my life,

plus a fulfilling job that I enjoy doing,

that I'm good at. That's also one missing

part. I feel like I'm missing everything

important in life. Apart from a nice

house, I guess, and the basics like food.

I would like to have a job that I enjoy

doing. I guess I enjoy streaming,

but I'm not good at it. I don't feel proud

of my streaming skills. I mean, I just

talk into the camera like this. It's not

like Dr Disrespect's quality level.

It's not really a skill, is it,

streaming, unless you put a lot of effort

into it, making it a good stream.

I used to feel proud of my videos. I felt

like I was good at making videos and I was

creative. Now I just can't

be bothered.

YouTube isn't a long-term career plan.

Yeah, I guess not.

I just hoped I could have made more money

out of it to put into stocks and then not

lose it, but then I ended up losing

loads. I made back a couple thousand

this week and last week, so I

still feel confident I'll get the money

but it's been a stressful beginning of the

How much am I down? I'm down about 9,500

now, which is better than last week. Last

week I was down about 12,

11,000. Lost over 50% of

my inheritance money, but now it's,

I think, about 45%.

It'll go back up. Summer's coming.

Summer is always good for stocks. The

worst month is May. May is almost over.

I short— I made some good money today

shorting AMC.

Hopefully I don't get squeezed out

tomorrow. This is a bit scary. What's AMC

at? I don't have a

huge amount of shorts.

How much do I have short?

I've got 811

shares at $27.

Oh shit, that's quite a lot. Fuck, I've

got like $300 shorting AMC.

Hopefully it doesn't go to the moon

tomorrow.

I bought— well, I sold at the top when it

was around 29.

Uh, AMC is currently at 26, so I'm in the

green. Look, this is my shorting account,

so I'm £5 in the money. I already sold my

other shorts. Isn't AMC doing well?

Yeah, but there's no way it's going to

stay up that high. It's going to shoot up

and then crash down. There's no way it's

going to stay above $30.

It's already done a 50% gain. How much

more is it going to go? It's not going to

do like a 150% gain, is it?

It did that last time. It spiked up and

then came straight back down.

So tomorrow I

might sell half my shorts because I'm a

bit scared it might shoot up again, and

then see if it shoots up again and then

try and short the top.

You'll get squeezed out before it comes

back down. I'll probably buy some shares

as well. So I'll ride it up and then ride

it back down. So if it goes up, I'll win

because I've bought some shares, and then

I'll try and time the top and short again

at the top and then ride it back down

again. That's what I did today. It was

quite fun actually.

Made about £30, and then

I'll probably lose it all tomorrow.

That's the annoying thing. One day you,

you win £40 Shorting,

and then you think, "Should I short

again?" And then you try shorting again

next day. It goes up, and then you lose

what you got the last day.

It was really exciting though. I was

so pumped to make my twenty pounds. I was

like, wow, this is more than I make from a

YouTube video.

I don't think it's sustainable for it to

stay up that high. It's going to be like

GameStop again where it shot up and it

would just come back down again. So that's

what I'm betting on. You trade

small amounts? Yeah, because I'm a bit

scared when it comes to shorting. When I

go long, I'll put more, but I don't want

to go long in AMC. It's already up 60%.

Buying a big amount now just seems a bit

crazy.

Shorting is a bit— it's more like

gambling. It's just for fun, so I just put

small amounts. £10 here, £20 there.

I'm out of touch.

Huel gave me a comment on my video. Did I

say it? They said, thanks for making this

video, Daniel. Oh, I did say it.

Ran out of things to say now.

Am I afraid Caesium would show up? No,

I don't think they would do anything

anymore. Which Huel flavor is better?

I don't really notice a huge difference

between caramel and vanilla. They taste

pretty similar.

How much can you get out of the job

centre? I don't know if it's gone up, but

last time I went, they gave about £300.

Guess I should do a YouTube stream

sometime. I even feel nervous

about doing a YouTube stream now because

I, I get worried if the viewers are low,

then I'd be all depressed again. If it's

Twitch, I don't care, so I feel like

there's less pressure.

I don't even know what to do the stream

about on YouTube. I was going to do like

108K sub celebration because I finally got

108K subs and it stayed above. It's now

108,140 subs,

so I think I'm quite safe in 108K

unless I do something really bad, which

I'm trying not to do. It's just every time

I stream, I say something that a bunch of

people don't like and then they unsub. I

always lose like 50 subs when I stream on

YouTube because I probably said something

they didn't like.

Did you know Chihiro's Discord got

wrecked? What, what does wrecked mean?

What happened to it?

It got banned or what?

I feel like even for the YouTube live

streams, I need a clickbait title to get

people to click and watch it. So annoying.

The whole YouTube game is so annoying.

You have to clickbait or you don't get

views.

I don't have anything to clickbait with.

I could say I got a black girlfriend and

then People call me racist, won't they?

You can't even describe people as black

now without people getting all upset.

They keep saying, why did you point out

the black? Because I want to.

I could do a fake girlfriend video,

or I could do a giving up on women video

and just complain about what I complained

just now. But I don't want to complain

about that. I feel like that's just going

to ruin my chances even more.

I think I need to go back into fake