Am I Gay

For most of my life, I've always thought that being gay, or the idea of a man and a man having sex, was kind of strange. I've never had anything against homosexuality. I don't hate gay people. I think it's perfectly okay for a man and a man to love each other and to sleep with each other. But for

me personally, I've always felt like the idea of a man and a man being together was was a little bit weird, a little bit strange, and honestly speaking, the idea of gay sex kind of grossed me out. But ever since last December when I started experimenting with prostate stimulation and anal masturbation, I feel like I've started to

develop a curiosity for anal sex between men, and I started investigating into it, and I feel like I'm less grossed out about it now. At the end of one of my previous videos, I joked about how I broke my tripod leg because I was using it to stimulate my prostate. That wasn't actually a joke, it was 100%

true. Sometime during December last year, I decided to start using this tripod as a makeshift dildo. I'm not sure why I decided to do it, I just felt really bored and I heard so much about prostate stimulation and how good it felt, and I wanted to find out for myself. If it really did feel good, and I

experimented using this. I also used this moisturizing milk as lube, which did the job perfectly well. And honestly speaking, as a straight guy, it felt really good. It felt amazing. It kind of felt like taking a shit over and over again. And even as a straight guy, I enjoy taking a shit. It feels good. I get an

erection almost every time when I take a shit. Also, the idea of being penetrated was, was interesting and arousing. I'm not used to being penetrated. As a straight guy who's only had sex with girls, I'm used to being the one who's doing the penetrating. I've never been penetrated before, apart from the occasional finger up the bum. I

was even thinking about buying a proper dildo, but I decided not to because if I end up spending all day playing with myself, I won't really feel like having sex much when my girlfriend comes home. Now, the reason why I don't just go gay is because I'm not attracted to men. I can see a naked guy, an

attractive naked guy, and I won't feel anything. I won't feel aroused. I'll just feel like, oh look, it's a naked guy. But if I see a naked woman, my heartbeat starts to race, I start to get excited, and I just want to touch her. If I see a cute girl walking around outside wearing a short skirt, then

I just want to touch her. My mind goes crazy. I start fantasizing about her. But if I see a guy walking around, for example, shirtless, then I won't feel anything at all. I just love the female body. I love the shapes, I love the curves, I love how soft and smooth it looks. But when I see a

guy's body, it just looks— it just looks so stiff and straight and unappealing. And that's the reason why I would never go gay, is because I'm just not attracted to guys. I'm not against the idea of being penetrated. I'm not against the idea of having something up my anus. It's just that the idea of a guy doing

that to me is, is kind of weird, and I can't, I can't get over that. Now, if it was an attractive cute girl who just happened to have a penis, then would I be interested in receiving anal from her? Um, I think I would actually. I've had this conversation with my girlfriend before. I said that if one

day you woke up and you suddenly had a penis, I think that I would like to experiment with anal sex with you. I actually think that having a girlfriend who has a penis might actually be more fun than having a girlfriend who has a vagina, because if she has a penis, then you can do both things. You

can be penetrated and you can do the penetrating. The problem with having a girlfriend is you can't really be penetrated by her unless she's willing to give you the finger, or if she's willing to use a strap-on with you. I've actually had a pretty gay experience in the past, and if you've seen my old video where I

talked about how a Japanese guy gave me a blowjob, you'll already know this story. But in case you haven't seen that video yet, um, 2 years ago when I was in Japan, I was staying at this guest house and I was really depressed because I couldn't find a girlfriend. There were no girls at the guest house willing

to have a sexual relationship with me, but there was this bisexual Japanese guy who I was close friends with. And one day we decided to go to the park. It was actually late at night. We went to the park and we sat down on the bench and he just started touching me down there. And then he asked

me if he could give me a blowjob, and I just felt so depressed. I just felt so depressed and sexually frustrated. I said to him, sure, why not? And I let him take down my trousers, and he gave me a blowjob. And it felt good because he was, he was very good at doing it. But at the

same time, I felt kind of grossed out about it because I knew it was a guy doing it. And the whole time I was just picturing girls in my mind. I was imagining that this cute girl from the guesthouse was giving me a blowjob. And it's just— it was such a strange experience. I felt like I was

doing something wrong. I felt like I was doing something that I wasn't supposed to be doing. And he asked me if I wanted to finish in his mouth. I said, I said no thanks. And then he asked me if I wanted to come to his room to have proper sex, and I said no thanks again. And we

went back to the guesthouse. I went to the toilet and I washed myself off because Because I felt kind of dirty. I felt like— I felt a bit grossed out. But ever since that happened, I keep wondering to myself, did I make a mistake? Maybe I should have gone to his room and tried it out. Maybe I

should have experienced it at least once. Sometimes I feel like I've wasted a good opportunity because he was a fairly feminine-looking guy. He was a nice person. If I was going to do it with anyone, I think he would have been a good choice. I felt comfortable around him. I didn't feel intimidated or in danger. And if

the same thing happened to me now, for example, if the same thing happened next week, then I think, I think my answer would have been different. I might have— I think I would actually go to his room and experience anal sex because I feel like I'm more open-minded now.

Hey, and welcome back to Cooking with Daniel. Today, what are we making today? What are we making today? We're making ramen, curry flavor ramen, and we have some vegetables, cabbage, bean sprouts, Sliced carrots, very nice. And there's also some sliced up sausages in there as well, right at the bottom. You can't really see it very well. This

is the knife that I use to cut things with. It's very cold right now. I'm really shivering. And this is what the ramen will probably not look like after we've finished making it. Oh, you can hear it sizzling, starting to sizzle. Which is a very good sign that things are getting heated up. Um, as you can see,

I have my condiments lined up here. We have olive oil, black pepper, cinnamon powder, basil, and some garlic powder. Very important things that every decent chef or kitchen cook will need to conjure up some delicious meals. I don't know what this is. A bottle of water, I think. Oh, we also have some kimchi base— kimchi base sauce.

That's pretty good as well for adding to soups to make it taste like kimchi. Um, this is my kitchen. We've got the sink, a sponge, a dirty sponge, washing liquid, spoons, chopsticks, Cups, coffee— coffee needs to be refilled soon— and toothpaste. For some reason this shouldn't be here, this should be over here.

And back to the kitchen. Okay, we also have steak sauce. It's very important to have a good variety of sauces stocked in your kitchen so you can make anything whenever you want to. So yeah, I'm going to fry that up and And then I'm going to add the noodles, and then we'll add some water and let it

boil, and I'll be right back.

I've put the noodles in and the curry powder. Now all we need to do is turn on the tap, get some water, and then get one of these cups. Any cup will do as long as it can hold water, and I think about a cupful should do, and then just pour it in like that. If it's not

enough water, you can always add more water later. It's no problem. Water is free. It falls out of the sky. It's an unlimited resource.

Hey, and welcome back. So it's been a few minutes since we left it to boil, and it does look like things have started to boil. Noodles are becoming soft. The top layer of noodles are still a bit hard and this curry powder hasn't properly dissolved into the water, but that's fine because we just give it a quick

stir with our chopsticks and everything will be okay. Just give it a stir around so everything's mixed evenly, and I think we should be good to go in about 1 minute.

Doesn't it look beautiful? It's a masterpiece of sausage, vegetables, and carbohydrates. I think it's a very well-balanced nutritional meal. You have your protein, you have vitamins from the vegetables, you have carbs from the noodles, all combined into one easy-to-make meal. Why don't you try it out yourself? It's not difficult. If I can do it, then anyone can.

So see you next time on the next episode of Cooking with Daniel.