Test Stream

So now I'm on the Twitch app. Not

Streamlabs. Is it better

or worse?

Whoops.

Testing,

testing.

Seems to be better. Do you think it's

better now or before? I guess don't need

Streamlabs.

I don't

know why Streamlabs is so laggy compared

to the Twitch app. It used to be fine

when I used to use Streamlabs back in

Japan. I don't know why. It seems

to have gotten worse.

Might be due to your Wi-Fi connection,

but it's the same connection that I'm

using. Why would the

connection be different depending on which

app I'm using? The stream seems

to be better and more stable when I use

the Twitch app, but then it seems to be

unstable and not reliable on Streamlabs.

Use your PC. I don't think it'd be any

different because my PC connects to the

internet wirelessly now.

Zoro, it's the same, isn't it? I can't

seem to connect my PC to the router with

the cable anymore. It doesn't detect the

I felt kind of annoyed. You know that

stupid YouTube channel Abba and Preach?

Those 2 black guys? They just kind of piss

me off. How they reacted to my video,

and all the comments are just so dumb. It

just reminded me of a couple years ago

when people thought I was being serious

in videos, and they just start saying I've

got Asperger's or autism or whatever.

It's like they don't understand people say

weird stuff on YouTube to get attention so

it gets views. This is so dumb.

It's not Abba and Preach who annoyed me,

it's the comment section. The comment

section reminded me of what my comment

section used to be like back then, like in

2018, when it was just non-stop idiots

going, is this guy Asperger's? Is this guy

got autism? Why is he saying this?

Fucking idiots piss me off.

Oh, this guy's so horrible, he's saying

this about his girlfriend.

Stupid idiots.

But why— what is so hard to understand

about a guy making weird videos on YouTube

to get views? Doesn't mean I'm a

sociopath or I've got some kind of mental

illness. It's called trying to make

content. It's like Mr. Bean or some kind

of stand-up gig.

People just assume it's like a

performance. They don't think Mr. Bean is

actually like that in real life. They know

it's an actor. I don't understand why it's

different for YouTube. So they see a

YouTube video and they think, oh, why is

this guy so weird? It's like they don't

even consider the possibility that

it's just content. It's like material.

Why doesn't he write it in his diary?

Idiots.

Oh, so annoying.

It just kind of reminded me why I started

to hate doing YouTube. So fucking idiots

on the internet, and they all say the same

thing. It's always, oh, this guy got

Asperger's.

Like they all think there's some kind of

genius armchair psychologist throwing

these big words around. I think,

I think he's got autism. You can tell from

the way he speaks in his monotone voice

and the. The way he doesn't care about

other people's feelings, he must have

autism. Shut the fuck up, idiot.

He doesn't understand that the things he

says hurts people. No, I don't give a

fuck. It's not that I don't understand.

Why would I give a shit if the single

mother heard what I said or not? Oh no,

single mother, please don't dump me.

Idiots. Stupid internet fucking bunch of

fucking idiots.

What did you expect from a video that's

titled Why I Don't Find My Girlfriend

Unattractive? Obviously I'm going to be

explaining why I don't find her

attractive.

Now someone's messaging me on Instagram

and I can't check the messages because I

deleted it on my other phone. And if I

download it now, then it's gonna lag out

the stream. So now I can't check out my

Instagram message or else it's gonna

disconnect the stupid stream.

As if, as if I give a shit about the

single mother girlfriend.

Why is this guy saying this about his

girlfriend? What if she finds out?

Obviously I don't care if she found out if

I'm making the video. If I actually cared,

then I wouldn't make the video in the

first place. Fucking hell.

Stupid idiots on YouTube.

My whole YouTube career, it's just been me

non-stop rolling my eyes at the stupidity

in the comment section. I can't take it

Always Asperger's this and autism that.

Oh, he's a psychopath.

Psychopath for trying to make content that

stands out on YouTube. It obviously works,

didn't it, if I got big YouTubers to react

to it? That's the whole point. If I was

just like, hey guys, I'm Daniel, my

hobbies are reading and I respect women,

no one would give a shit. I'd just be like

some normal boring guy.

Look at my channel now, it's dead because

I started trying to be normal so I stopped

losing subs. And now it's boring,

isn't it? It's just like, oh, it's Daniel

trying to be a normal person.

Copyright strike that stupid channel

making their stupid faces like this.

What's he saying? Stupid fucking reaction

channels. Copyright strike them. They must

see us laughing. The whole content is just

them watching my content, making stupid

faces.

What kind of stupid channel name is Abba

and Preach anyway? Trash,

trash channel, trash content, trash

audience.

How am I liking my new mouse? I hate it.

It's rubbish. The stupid buttons on the

side are so unresponsive. You press them 5

times and then 2 times it doesn't do

anything. I don't know

why. I'm pressing it down and it's

clicking and then nothing happens.

So I had to remap all of my key bindings

so I don't have to rely on the side

buttons on the mouse anymore. I had to

remap melee to, to E,

button E. I had to remap,

um, interact and special ability to F and

number 1. It's better with my old mouse,

only cost £10. Now I've got this £200

mouse that doesn't feel good. And the

buttons don't work very well. I didn't buy

it full price, I only spent £90 on it

because I got, uh, got it from Amazon

Warehouse secondhand. It was secondhand

but it was all packaged, originally

packaged,

so it was less than half price. But still,

I wish I got something else like a

Logitech or Razer wireless With a simple

design, not that stupid transformer

design. Buns don't even work.

Why don't you return it? Because then I've

got to go all the way to Bearstead. Last

time I bought something, returned it, I

had to go all the way to Bearstead and

then take it to the stupid convenience

store with the Hermes drop-off.

That was when I was still with Chihiro. I

think it was Christmas. I decided to buy

this Samsung phone which had a rotating

camera. I thought I could do rotate— I

could rotate it and use the wide-angle

lens and then do that for vlogging. But

you rotate it and the wide-angle lens

button vanishes, so it was completely

useless. I had to take it back. But that

was the last time I returned something.

I don't know if it's changed, but I don't

have to go all the way to the Hermes

drop-off place.

Before, you could take it to the post

office. I don't want to go to the post

office. Why can't the postman pick it up

when he comes?

Has anything good happened in your life

recently? Well, I got

some subs on Twitch. I guess that's good.

But no, not really. I had

sex last week. I guess that's good.

But apart from that, it's just been bad

news after bad news. Stocks go down,

didn't get my deposit back. I lost my

number one patron on Patreon.

I only make $5 a month now on Patreon.

Everyone just deserted my Patreon. I

remember back in the day I used to make

like $200 or $150 a month on Patreon.

Add more emotes. I don't know how to. I

forgot. I can't be bothered. I don't think

anyone cares anyway.

My last video did really badly. I can't

believe it. What the hell happened to my

viewers? Look at this.

My new video, 10 out of 10, one day,

4K views. Are you kidding me?

4K views in a whole day. I used to

get like 10, 15K views in a day,

and people were like, oh, why don't you do

more art videos? Because of this? 4K

views?

You stopped uploading for 2 months? No, I

didn't. I've been uploading every week,

didn't stop uploading at all.

Oh, thank you Extra Soft for subbing.

Uh, yeah, really disappointed with my

channel. I've gone to this point where I

don't want to upload anything to the main

channel because it just flops and I get 10

out of 10s. You see this 10 out of 10

ranking system? It's so demoralizing. You

click on it and you're like, but But my

last video got 7k views and now my new one

got 4k even though I put more effort into

it. And then I upload on my second channel

and I constantly get 1 out of 10s, which

is really encouraging. The whole YouTube

thing is like a mental battle of

trying not to get discouraged and trying

to feel encouraged. Even though I get less

views on my second channel, I feel more

motivated to post on my second channel

because I get the number 1. And the

confetti. Look at this.

My new video on my second channel got

number 2 ranking, and I

feel, I feel great. I feel like I did a

good job making a video people wanted to

and the second

channel gets way less views But I still

feel better mentally uploading to it than

I do uploading to my main channel. The

main channel, I just feel so depressed

every time I upload because it just feels

like no one cares anymore.

I don't have anything to interest people

anymore. Like, before, I had a Japanese

wife and I had life in Japan. And I

had my quirky stories that people just end

up calling me Asperger's or autism over.

So what's the point trying to tell a funny

quirky story when people are just going to

call you names over it?

Well, I have good news here.

Charged up my vape.

It's supposed to be banana flavor.

Doesn't really smell like banana. I miss

your Japan videos, that's why I subbed. I

can't go to Japan. Stupid Japan shut

its borders for over a year now.

How can they shut the border for over a

year? Stupid Japan should

open them back up. We've had the

borders open ever since the pandemic here

in England. And it's been completely fine.

Oh, thank you, Rockumentary. Yeah, I don't

have like a pop-up to say you've

subscribed because I have to use

Streamlabs for that, and then every time I

use Streamlabs, it's all glitchy and

laggy. It doesn't work very well.

It's just kind of annoying. People see my

videos and their first impression is

either I've got Asperger's or autism, or

I'm mentally ill, or I'm a sociopath.

Instead of, oh, that's a funny story, or

that's a funny thing he's doing,

telling these strange things in videos.

It's like 2 out of 50 comments would be

nice things like, oh, I found that funny,

or this is hilarious. It's always just

some kind of insult.

They think I don't understand that if you

say something rude, then people might get

upset over it.

And if I knew the single mother girlfriend

was watching, I wouldn't say those things.

They think some 40-year-old Japanese woman

is going to be on YouTube. I think they

overestimate the, the globalization

of YouTube. It's not really that popular

in every single country. Like,

middle-aged Japanese people don't sit

around watching YouTube channels like Abba

and Preach. Can you imagine a 40-year-old

Japanese person watching commentary

channels on YouTube? Yeah, right.

The whole world isn't America.

Back then, 2017, when she was my

girlfriend, I was just making videos

documenting the relationship, and I just

didn't really find her attractive, but I

still liked her. That was the point of the

video. The point of the video was I didn't

find her physically attractive But I

still felt attracted to her.

It's like, it's just so frustrating

because Everyone thinks I'm so stupid,

and I know I'm not stupid, and I think

they're the stupid ones.

They keep assuming things about me, like,

he doesn't understand this and he doesn't

know that. I understand it. I know it.

I'm not an idiot.

This is why I got sick and tired

of making content.

Fucking lightsaber their stupid

How do I turn the sound off? Forgot.

Can I report the video? It's not really

the video that I'm upset with, it's the

comments. But how

can I fight against

The whole comment section, it's like

thousands of people and they all obviously

think in the same way.

What am I investing in for the new ISA

year? I don't even have £20,000 spare

to put into the ISA. I already put my

£20,000 into it and I lost a quarter now.

Yeah, I got this new table and mirror. I

don't know if you saw it on my second

channel. I thought it'd be nice to kind of

rekindle the Japan livestream vibes.

I thought people would like to see my face

again, and then I can do stuff on the

table like Tapping.

I need to get a light.

Maybe I'll get my lamp from the table,

but then I have to take it backwards and

forwards. To be honest, you might

be attracting trolls because you often act

like a troll. No, they're not trolls.

That's the problem. These people in the

comment section, they're probably just

normal people, but they're

so dumb. People are so stupid.

They actually think I have Asperger's just

because I was talking about an

unattractive girlfriend.

But to be fair, even my dad, one of his

last messages he sent me was something

like, Daniel, I think you might have

Asperger's syndrome. You might want to get

it checked out. I felt so annoyed that he

even suggested that.

Miss your penis lamp. I put it away.

Because I don't use it anymore.

I don't know if I want to use a

lightsaber. I forgot how to turn the sound

off. I think you turn it on because

then I could put it— where could I put it

I could put it here.

The hell?

What was that?

It's a really annoying lightsaber. They

could have put some buttons on it so you

can change the color and turn the sound

off. But the control system's really

annoying. You have to hold the button down

for 3 seconds and then long press it 2

times to do this and do that. You need an

instruction manual. It's impossible to

remember. Not very good design.

How do I join your Discord? I don't have

one anymore. Had to delete it.

Too many people annoying me.

I don't know why people want to annoy me

so badly all the time.

Stupid Abba and Preach.

Look at his stupid face.

I hate these stupid faces they make in

thumbnails. Like this.

Stupid faces. Look at his stupid face.

Looks like a pedo or something.

Stupid.

Look, that's the video they made about me.

They had to use the absolute worst picture

of me on the entire internet.

I don't understand if you had that

conversation with your boys, your friends,

but just blasting that online, I don't, I

don't— this is so uncomfortable, you know?

Why am I watching this? Yeah, I think

that's part of it. I just— it's called

content, you idiots. You're watching it

cuz you're making content, same as I am.

Ask stupid questions.

Look, this guy, I recognize this user.

He's in my comment section a lot. For

anyone who cares, he broke up with her not

long after this and never talked to her

again. Actually, I did talk to her the

next year. He then went to Japan to meet

up with another woman who told him she was

27 but was actually 45. He had sex with

her twice, dumped her, got married to

another woman. He can't even do women and

woman properly. He barely knew so he could

get a visa. That's not true. I hate when

people keep accusing me of marrying

Chihiro to get a visa.

We, we got married to get the visa so

we could stay together. It wasn't like,

hehe, I'm gonna marry her so I can get a

visa and stay in Japan. It was something

we both decided on so we can get the visa

so I could stay together with her. People

word it like that, so he

could get a visa. Why doesn't he write He

married Chihiro so they could get a visa.

The visa was for both of us, not just me,

because she wanted me to stay.

Idiots. Hate it when they say that.

You don't have to word it as if I

manipulated her into getting me a visa.

We both wanted me to get the visa.

It just makes me sound really bad, like

I'm scheming to get a visa, which is not

how it was. His wife found his SD

card with sex videos with other women,

love women. They went on a break, got back

together. She dumped him because all he

would do is play Rainbow Six. On his

Switch. No, that's not why. She dumped me

because I was chatting on Discord all the

time and saying things that upset her.

Why is he explaining all of this in the

comment section? No one even cares. The

guy is socially awkward due to terrible

parenting. I wouldn't

blame my parents for my social

I don't know, what do you think is to

blame for my social awkwardness?

He used to make good content.

Yeah, maybe I lost motivation to make good

content, as in content like the one that

was on this video, because all these

stupid idiots in the comment section.

Everyone's so judgmental.

Look, this guy acts like he knows my

entire life or something.

I don't know why these people find it so

fascinating that they can go on and on and

on like this in a comment thread. Is my

life story really that fascinating? I

think it's pretty, pretty dull, to be

Is it really that rare to have anxiety and

to be socially awkward?

Oh my God, how many replies are there?

94 replies.

Who's this guy?

Mindful Attraction.

Look at

these stupid comments. That was a lot of

information we didn't need on the

internet. Well then why would you click on

the video if you're not interested in what

I'm talking about? There's a lot of

information on the internet that most

people don't care about. It's the whole

point of the internet, it's full of

information.

He's notorious in the community. What is

the community? What community? Everyone

hates him.

Why did he need to say this online?

Why do content creators make content?

Maybe because they want to make some

money, idiot.

What did he gain from this? Oh, let me

see, what did I gain from it?

Stupid YouTube app, why won't it open?

What do you think I gained from my

unattractive girlfriend video?

I wonder what I gained.

I can't find the stupid thing.

Girlfriend.

Where is it?

Sort by views.

Okay, found it. I gained $445.

That's what I gained from it, idiot.

What did I gain from it? The hell do you

think a YouTuber gains from putting

content out?

Stupid T. Mitch guy.

159 comments? What did you gain from

writing 159 comments, T Mitch?

Get a life.

He should have kept in his diary.

Yeah, because I'd make $440

from writing in my diary. As if I have a

diary. I'm not a 12-year-old girl.

Who actually has a diary?

I hate those comments.

The ones that annoy me most are the ones

that say stuff like, why does he make this

video? Why doesn't he write it in his

diary? What does he gain from this?

It's like some people still don't

understand that we make money from making

videos. Like, they think YouTubers

just put videos out. For some other

You know when I faked getting divorced and

I was pretending to be homeless in Japan?

Chihiro said that those 2 weeks where we

were pretending to be not together were

the happiest 2 weeks during the whole

marriage. It was the least stressful 2

weeks, she said. And then

as soon as I announced we were back

together again, it was like all the

stress, stress came back again. And then

if I didn't announce it, people were like,

Daniel, why are you lying about

not being together?

These comments are almost the same as

Elvis the Alien video comments.

I hate when they call me Asian Onision as

well.

Hiding in my room is gonna blow up again.

I wish I got a tiny bump in

views when this video got released, and I

made a couple hundred dollars from the new

views, but channel just died again. I

mean, look at my newest video, 4K views in

a day. I guess topics

about school or education, people not

interested. Should have known. I thought

people might be a bit interested in my

childhood since they're always trying to

figure out why I'm so weird. I thought I'd

give, give them some background

information. I think it didn't even show

up to most people. YouTube just decides if

it shows the video to people if it thinks

they're going to be interested. It doesn't

even know if they're going to be

interested or not. Maybe more people would

have clicked it if they even knew it was

there.

But the stupid algorithm just decides

everything on its own.

I don't know what topic— I know there's

only one topic that's going to get the

attention back. It would be going back to

Chihiro, wouldn't it? If Chihiro was in

the thumbnail again, that would probably

get people's attention back. Or maybe a

new girl, that might work again. But apart

from that, there's not really anything

else I can do content-wise that will get

people clicking,

which sucks.

Obviously stocks don't work. Basically

nothing works.

Maybe gay stuff might still work.

Ah, it's so stressful.

I don't think the fake job stuff works

Oh, I just wish— I wish I had BenDeen's

audience. Just eat a pizza and get 200k

views. Must be so easy for BenDeen.

But then if I did it, I'd probably get 2k

views because I don't have his audience.

I wish I could make content like that

channel, Relaxing End. He just unboxes

stuff and he doesn't talk, he doesn't show

his face or anything. He just gets a

PlayStation or a phone and then he unboxes

it, gets a million views. It's just

weird, some stuff on YouTube gets so many

views even though it seems like it's

boring or easy.

I want to make coffee. I don't know if

it's safe to go downstairs. I'm trying to

avoid people.

Mm, don't know.

It's gonna get to the point where videos

won't even get 10K views anymore,

and then I just have to start spamming it

out to make as much money as I can still

get from the channel. I think this is like

the endgame. We're in endgame, stage 4

terminal cancer. The chemotherapy doesn't

work anymore. It's just like a desperate

grab for any views I can get at this

point.

Before, I would strategically think of— I

would think carefully of what— which topic

would get views.

But now it feels like there's no more

topics that

work really well.

You're too old to become successful.

Yeah, I guess so. You know what's

annoying? You hear stuff like, oh, Jake

Paul or RiceGum, they're washed up,

their careers are over, they've fallen

from their heights, and then they're only

like 24. They're so young still,

and they've made like millions and

millions, so that doesn't really matter.

Like RiceGum, he's not even 25, I think,

and RiceGum gets like 20K viewers on

Twitch now. It's not exactly falling, is

it?

Leafy made 4 million, didn't he? I only

made 100,000. It's rubbish.

I don't know, I guess my brand of content

just didn't really catch on.

But everyone says stuff like I'm a bad

person, I'm annoying, as if Jake Paul and

RiceGum are such great role models for

society. Jake Paul is even worse.

At least I didn't go into shopping centers

and start screaming and making a mess or

setting the neighbor's garden on fire,

being a menace in public. They're even

more obnoxious than I am. Like that David

Dobrik guy, it's probably the most

irritating person I've ever seen on

YouTube. As if they're not annoying.

All these top YouTubers are all really

obnoxious and irritating. Logan Paul,

Jake Paul,

they've all had scandals with women as

well. Wasn't Jake

Paul accused of hitting his girlfriend and

then sleeping with a bunch of supermodels

in his mansion or something?

James Charles is a pedo.

Even Shane Dawson is something.

Just really disappointing.

Twitch. Is it twitch.tv or .com?

Daniel.

I wish I was RiceGum. Make a couple

million dollars, retire, and then do

Twitch. Get 20K viewers for not doing

anything. RiceGum doesn't even do anything

during his streams. He just sits there

Create a post.

MTwitch.tv. Oh well, I tried.

Trying to think of something to do during

streams. I'm not sure.

What can I do? It's kind of— I don't know,

I kind of miss food stuff, but there's

always food downstairs. It just seems

meaningless to be making my own food.

I don't really care about having millions

and millions of viewers. It just would

have been nice if I could have maintained

half my audience.

It's just weird. Channels like BenDeen,

his viewers never get bored even though

he's just doing the same thing over and

over again that's not even interesting in

the first place. But how interesting is it

watching a guy eat a pizza? Apparently

it's very interesting to some people.

He's got a million subs now.

Look at the views he gets just

for eating.

I could

have done more girlfriend reviews, but

every time I do those, I lose thousands,

hundreds of subs, and people get all

angry.

Try making mukbang videos. But the thing

is, when I try and do it, no one cares.

But then other people do it and it's like

half a million views.

Don't be mean to women. I don't want to be

mean to women, but for some reason that's

what people want to see.

That's what got views, being mean to

They call me the misogynist when they're

the ones who are only willing to watch

misogynistic content from me. So who's

the actual misogynist, me or them?

You don't stay consistent with videos

because nothing works, and I'm trying to

find something that works.

So fed up with it.

I tried sticking with the illustrated kind

of storytime videos, but they never do

well. At most they do like 20K

or 30K.

Maybe the channel is shadow banned or

something. I wish they would just tell me

if it was, then I'd give up.

Maybe I'll just start uploading it to my

second channel instead. Maybe the second

channel's shadowbanned as well.

Well,

I don't even have any ideas for like a

viral title or topic.

The problem was the only videos that got

good views for me were the types of videos

that made people hate me.

So every time I made them, I just lose a

bunch of viewers.

I think people aren't getting

notifications because YouTube doesn't

think that they want to see my

videos, or they think they've subscribed

for a different reason. I've seen this

happen lots of different channels. Like,

there's this one channel where they make

drama commentary stuff, like about Shane

Dawson or James Charles. And if they make

a video about Shane Dawson or James

Charles or commentary, it will get good

views. But then if it's anything that's

not commentary, then it will get bad

views. So people— so the algorithm knows

why they subscribed. And then the

algorithm only pushes the videos that

they subscribed for. So if it's like

a channel with a bunch of random stuff and

then a tennis video goes viral, they get a

bunch of tennis viewers, then only the

videos about tennis are gonna get pushed

out to the tennis viewers.

I don't know what the hell kind of viewers

I have.

It's too— what's the word?

It's too scattered. There's not— there's

no focus for the channel because

I built the audience from,

from different types of videos.

Did Caesium pick Pia up, or is she on the

streets? I think she went to Shin's place.

I don't really know what to suggest to

her. She barely has any money.

She doesn't have family.

So how's she gonna get a place to stay?

I'm just wondering, what would I do if

that was me? And I guess I'm really lucky

because I've got, I've got my mum's house.

If I didn't have my mum's house, I think I

might be in a similar situation because I

barely make much money these days. I make

like $700

from my YouTube channel now, and I make

about $600 or $700 from OnlyFans.

I guess I could afford a cheap hotel—

apartment hotel.

But then I'd have content, wouldn't I? So

I guess the views would go up.

I don't think I could support myself now.

I just don't make enough money anymore.

My main channel without livestreaming And

with the rubbish views I get now, it only

makes about $600 a month.

Maybe if I started cranking out more

OnlyFans stuff, I could get back to about

$1,500 a month.

My stock money is just gone. I lost all my

gains. Now I'm just waiting to break even.

Why didn't the landlord pay my deposit

back? Because they're scumbag scammers.

That's the problem with people. Most

people are not decent. If they feel like

they can get away with something, they'll

do it. If they feel like they can get away

with stealing someone's money, then

they'll steal it. Most people are not good

people.

Oh yeah, I wanted to try something on

Twitch. Apparently I can run

ads. I don't have to be a partner.

They changed it.

So should I experiment? There's this

button here, it says run 1-minute ad

break. Would you like a 1-minute ad

break whilst I go and make coffee?

Shall I be cheeky? 1 minute is a

bit long, isn't it?

30 seconds would have been Fair.

Okay, I'll press it and see what happens.

Can you hear me? So who is not watching an

ad right now? It says pre-rolls

disabled for 21 minutes.

Tell me if you can see an ad. Says 30

seconds remaining. If you're

subscribed, I don't think you'll get an

ad. What?

No ads?

Don't know.

What if you raid Tim Schofield? Imagine

Tim Schofield's face when like 100 people

raid his stream, because he only gets

about 6 people in his stream.

Bloody Tim Schofield cost me hundreds of

dollars. But no one saw an ad.

Let me try again.

Ad failed to run because the channel

recently ran a commercial and is on

cooldown. 6 minutes left.

Interesting. Twitch is weird.

But it does say I've made some money on

Twitch. Oh wow, I made $30 on Twitch this

month. Look,

says I made $30 and I got 200 follows.

Oh, I made $1 from ads.

Cool.

Apply for partner? I did, but they won't

accept me? I tried 2 times before,

2 years ago, and they rejected. And then I

tried again last week, they still haven't

replied. But now you don't even

need partnership for ads, and then what's

the point of becoming a partner?

Why would they accept me? Because I've met

all of the I've met all of the

requirements for becoming a partner,

idiot. Asking why would they want

me?

Because it says I've, I've achieved

what you need to achieve to become a

partner.

Look, says path to partner: stream for 25

hours, stream on 12 different days,

average of 75 viewers. Tick, tick, tick.

Says in review.

Um, maybe they don't like what I talk

about. No one likes

what I talk about. People get scared

when I start streaming. They get worried

about, oh no, what's Daniel gonna say?

He's gonna embarrass me.

Like, Mida would get all worried every

time I streamed because I might say

something she doesn't like. Then don't

listen. No one's forcing you to watch my

stream. If you

feel like I'm just going to say stuff you

don't want to hear every time I stream,

then don't click on my stream.

Streaming is the only way I get to

socialize without streaming and without

Discord. I have like no social

interaction. The videos don't really count

as social interaction because you make the

video, you upload it, you get some

comments. It's not the same. I prefer

streaming because I get to talk to people

and then I can respond straight away.

I don't really like making videos that

much because you have to structure it and

think of a topic and at least try and make

it look good.

Did I pay for 4 days at the hotel to be

nice? Yeah, I felt bad. I felt like paying

for the hotel was the least I could do.

If I didn't pay for the hotel, she would

have just been homeless. She would have

been on the street all night. I'm not a

complete monster.

You should talk to people on Discord call.

No, I don't want to call people because

what happens is either they'll be really

talkative and they'll just talk over me,

or all the time and I won't be able to get

a word out, or they'll be really quiet and

then it'll be just really awkward. So I

don't see the point.

It's like, remember when I did that

interview with George? I don't know if

anyone remembers. I did like an interview,

Google call interview with him. And he

would ask me questions and I'd just be

like, yeah, I guess so. Uh, maybe.

I'm not really sure. Same thing happened

with Nobita. We did a Skype call.

I don't know if anyone has it saved. I

deleted it. I wish I still had it. It was

so awkward.

He kept asking me stupid questions like,

Are there lots of feminists in England? I

don't know. There's some.

What am I supposed to say? Yeah, there's

so many. They're all over the place.

That's why they're all stupid.

I'm sick and tired of interviews. Never

again. I would never do an interview

again. They just ask you dumb questions,

and then I look and sound dumb because I'm

nervous, and I'm not very good at thinking

on my feet. I can think of a great reply

like the next day after I've had time to

think about it, but if I'm put right on

the spot I find it difficult to come up

with a good answer. I'm not very

quick-witted.

Do you

like my table? I got this table

especially for Twitch. Look,

it's got a cup holder.

And I've got this new mirror. It's quite

I'm the only person on YouTube who uses a

mirror. No one appreciates my uniqueness.

Can't do any lifting because I hurt my

arm. I think it needs to rest because

it looks bad. It doesn't. You can see me,

so what's the problem?

If you can see me, then it's fine.

If I do selfie mode, then I have to put

the phone over there, otherwise it'd be

too close, and then I can't whisper

because the phone is further away, and

then I have to talk louder. I don't like

talking loudly.

I think it's a good idea because I can

talk quietly and you can hear me

without having to crank up the volume to

max, and then you can still see me,

and then you can see what I'm doing on the

table if I'm doing something. I think it's

a great idea.

But I have to sit far away from the table

because I can't use the wide-angle lens.

I was going to use the wide-angle lens.

Why do I stream on the floor? I don't

know, it's just more comfy.

How's this?

They put a wide-angle lens on the phone

and then the apps don't even let you use

it. What is the point?

It is a bit uncomfortable. Maybe I wasted

my money buying this. Sit back on my

chair. No one cares anyway.

Another waste of money. I was so happy

with my mirror and my table.

Because I thought I could use the

wide-angle lens on Streamlabs, and then

Streamlabs doesn't work. It keeps lagging.

So I thought I'd sit in front of the

mirror. Might put the mirror on my desk.

Ah, streaming's so hard.

I'll put it here instead.

Is that good?

Do I like Asians? Yes,

I would like one right now in my bed.

Had my dinner in my room, had a beer as

well. Asahi. Does anyone

else want to cry when they drink beer?

I don't know why, but alcohol makes me

feel sad.

Ah,

this mirror,

it won't stand upright. This stand

isn't long enough.

It's weird, the taste of beer reminds me

of those nights I would run away from

Chihiro and stay in a hotel and do those

hotel streams.

They were quite fun.

Good old hotel stream.

But most people seem to be in a good mood

when they've had some drinks. Why do I get

all depressed? I feel like I want

to cry when I have a beer, but it tastes

good, so I want to drink it.

Do they sell Asahi in the UK? Yes,

they That's how I got it.

I don't really know what I miss from Japan

though. It's not really anything I really

miss. I guess I kind of miss feeling

like people were interested in me. But I

guess they were more interested in Japan,

and I just happened to be in Japan. And

when I left Japan, then people stopped

caring. No one cares about

life in England in Harrietsham.

I watched Chris Broad's new video today.

He was eating chicken. Yeah, I do

pronounce chicken Weirdly, I didn't even

realize. And then I noticed that's how my

mum says it. So I probably pronounce a

load of words weirdly because that's how

my mum pronounces it. My mum says chicken,

chicken, like that. I was listening very

carefully to Chris and he would say

chicken, chicken. And then I noticed

everyone else says chicken. Now it feels

like I have to put extra effort in saying

chicken. Instead of chicken? Cuz I've said

chicken my entire life.

I thought it was like kitchen.

Chicken always sounded weird to me.

Chicken. There must be other people who

say chicken.

I also used to say drawer instead of

drawer, like this. This is a drawer.

I used to say it's a drawer because that's

what my mum used to say.

Chris Broad gets half a million views just

eating chicken.

Not fair.

I guess you have a special talent if you

can make just eating chicken entertaining,

and I was entertained. I watched the whole

video. I don't know why Chris is

entertaining. He, he just kind of is

entertaining to watch.

I guess you just have to have a nice,

likable personality.

I wish I had a nice personality. It's hard

to have a good personality when you just

hate everyone.

Same as PewDiePie. PewDiePie is so

likable, isn't he? How can you hate

PewDiePie? He just seems so nice.

People just throw money at him even though

he's a multi-millionaire, even though they

probably need the money more than he does.

They're like, here, take my money, even

though you don't need it.

I wish everyone loved me too.

Yeah, well, they're stupid.

You sound so down, low energy.

Yeah, I am pretty down.

Everything just sucks. I can't think of

anything that's going well.

At least when my stocks were going up, I

was happy about that. I didn't really care

about my channel anymore. Now I have to

care about it again.

What are my next steps?

Uh, I don't know.

Try and make some vlogs, I guess.

Do more streaming.

I can't really think of anything to make

for the main channel.

Why I hate The

Anime

Man.

I just have very little motivation to do

anything. A couple

weeks ago you said you were leaving

YouTube. No, I said that ages ago when

my stocks were doing well. Back when I'd

make like $2,000 in a week from stocks.

I felt like I don't need YouTube anymore,

goodbye.

I should have taken the money.

Stocks are scary. You could make so much

money and you feel like you're a genius,

and then the next day you lose it all.

But the thing is, it doesn't happen in a

day. It happened over weeks, and you

kept thinking, oh, it's gonna go back up

now. Oh, it's gonna go back up now. 4

weeks later, you're still sitting there

going, oh, it's gonna go back up now,

when actually it's gone down 5 or 10%.

Every week. You had all this time to take

it out, but you thought it was going to go

back up, so you didn't.

Do I like something different than just

women in Japan? I like the feeling of

safety in Japan.

I don't, I don't feel worried that I'm

gonna get beaten up in Japan.

I like the, the order

and the safety outside in public.

I like how things just work and people are

I'm not really a huge fan of the food.

It's okay, I guess. Some of it's okay,

a lot of it's not.

I feel like in general Asia kind of sucks.

It's just Japan and Korea that don't suck.

Have you seen this stuff going on in

Myanmar? What a shit show.

And it's just so sad that China has the

power and the resources to

make Asia a better place, and what do they

do? They don't. They support North Korea,

they support the military in Myanmar.

They could make life better for millions

of people, but they don't. This is what

sickens me about China and Russia. The

West and America, they want to put

sanctions on these war criminals and they

want to try and help out, and then China

and Russia just veto and oppose it every

time. They're like, no, we want military

dictators in all the countries surrounding

us. We want more North Koreas.

It just makes you sick.

That's just so selfish. Just because they

want to hold on to power,

they'd rather have North Korea as a

neighbor just because opposing

North Korea would be opposing their own

way of governing.

It would be a contradiction.

Now, what's happening in Myanmar is so

sad.

An entire country doesn't want the

military ruling them. The military is

supposed to be there to protect the

people, not shoot them down in the street.

It's just so frustrating.

Hate China.

You don't care about Myanmar? Well, yeah,

I don't really care, to be honest, but I

care about stability in the world,

and I don't want more countries

to be ruled by the military. I don't want

more dictatorships in the world.

Myanmar is just going to become another

North Korea, isn't it?

Oh well.

What can you do?

The only good countries in Asia are the