wow...

In case you didn't know, I am Germany.

Bet you're jealous. Who's jealous?

I waited so long to be able

to travel somewhere. I can't believe it.

Finally, all these stupid lockdowns and

travel restrictions are being lifted, and

I can definitely enter Germany because I

double-checked it on the German website.

It said as of 15th of June,

Germany has lifted all travel

restrictions, so shouldn't be any

problems. Don't need to do

self-quarantine, don't have to fill out

any forms or papers.

Oh wow, thank you, Oliver.

Um, I did watch about 20 minutes of that,

but it was a bit boring, to be honest.

They were just going on and on about

farming. I want to know about the Aztecs.

I guess it's interesting if you want to

learn about farming. But I'm not that

interested. So why am I

going to Germany? Well, that's top secret.

Unfortunately, after what happened last

time, I kind of got a bit burned from

that experience, and I don't really feel

like sharing everything I'm doing.

So sorry about that, but I will have to

keep things secret, be secretive.

Because I don't want— I don't want things

to get messed up again like last time.

I learned my lesson.

I think you can guess without me even

saying anything, but I think it's best if

I just don't say anything— don't say too

much about it.

But this time I think I I feel like it's

gonna be way better than last year's

Germany trip. This time I've got different

mindset, different approach, different

goals. Not gonna just sit in the Airbnb

playing Rainbow Six all day.

I can't believe last year when I went to

Germany, I actually bought a gaming laptop

and I brought it with me, and I brought my

massive heavy Blue Yeti microphone.

My bag was so heavy with all that stuff in

it. This time I'm not bringing any of that

rubbish. I'm just bringing my phone, my

GoPro, and my Switch. That's it.

Not bringing a massive laptop, not

bringing a massive microphone.

And then I almost left my microphone in

Germany, remember? Good thing I brought it

back because I'm using it now.

Yeah, so this time moving around will be

much easier. I don't even know if I'll

bring my iPad.

Do I need my iPad? There's not really

anything I want to watch. I just watch

random stuff on YouTube and I could do

that on my phone. And I don't really think

I'm gonna do any drawing since no one

cares when I do illustrated videos.

Yeah, I don't think I need my iPad, so I

think I'll just leave it at home. Just

need my phone, my second phone, my GoPro,

and my Switch. That's it, really. Travel

It's really demoralizing that people don't

care about my illustrated videos. I think

they're my best videos. I put a lot of

effort into the editing, the music, and

doing the illustrations nicely, but

majority of people just don't seem to

When am I going to Japan? I don't know. I

feel like I want to move

around Europe a bit, travel around Europe.

Can't go to Japan now anyway because

Japan's still in lockdown.

I think now's a good opportunity to check

out Europe.

I feel kind of like,

like that, that era when I was just

sharing every single thing I was doing and

talking about every single thing I was

doing. I feel like that has kind of come

to an end. I just can't— I don't want to

risk messing stuff up because of that

anymore.

I don't really feel like I need to. I

don't know why, but I feel like there was

this compulsive need to just share

everything I was doing on YouTube.

At first I thought it was liberating, and

I thought it was nice because I never

really felt like anyone cared about me. I

always felt like I was kind of ignored.

In real life, and then it was nice when

everyone was interested in what I was

doing, what I had to say, but then I felt

like I was obligated to carry on doing

that, otherwise people think I'm faking

stuff or lying.

I don't know, I thought about this a lot

recently.

And I kept thinking to myself, why do I

keep sharing every single thing I'm doing?

How is it benefiting me? It's not really

benefiting me that much.

Might as well just be a bit more

secretive. Oh,

thank you, Oliver. Aztec had corn and

llamas. Yeah, it's interesting each

continent had a different type of grain

food. Like Asia had rice, America had

corn. I don't know what Europe had.

Potatoes?

No. Was I seeking attention? Well, yeah,

I like the attention because I never had

attention before. Aztec had corn and

llamas for food and farming.

It's nice having attention. Feels, feels

good when people are interested in who

you are and what you, you're doing, what

you think. I never really felt like I had

people's attention before. During school,

I was always that weird quiet kid that no

one cared about, sat in the corner by

I guess you get kind of addicted to it on

YouTube, especially when videos blow up,

and then you start doing anything you can

do to carry on Getting attention, even if

it's negative attention, you don't care.

You start thinking any kind of attention

is what is fine.

Even if I just say stupid dumb stuff that

pisses everyone off, still attention.

People don't really understand it unless

they do YouTube for themselves. You get

all these views and you've got all this

money coming in, you think, wow, this

feels good, I want more. And then you get

desperate and more and more desperate to

carry on getting that stuff.

It can lead down a dark path, I guess.

I still want attention, but I just feel

like the attention is not worth making

weird videos anymore because it's

just gonna harm me in the long run. And

people will see it and think, oh, I don't

want to meet this guy. This guy's a

weirdo. Rice requires many people to work

together. Wheat is more individualistic.

Think about the cultivation of crops and

the culture of the country.

Okay, thanks, but I'm not that interested

in agriculture. To be honest,

you produce good videos when in Japan.

Really? I feel like the videos I made in

Japan were my worst videos. It was either

just clickbait bullshit like why

Japan sucks, why you shouldn't come to

Japan, and drama. Like, I ran away from

my wife, I cheated on my wife. That was

all rubbish.

I didn't feel proud of that stuff. Didn't

finish making it and go, yeah, that's a

good video. I thought,

wow, this sucks, but people seem to like

it, so whatever.

How much money do I make on OnlyFans?

I've made a total of $5,000 now. I can't

believe it.

Oh, my mum's shouting.

In 2 months. I made more money on

OnlyFans than I make in 5 months on

YouTube.

It's just kind of tricky because— Mom's

also in my room. Why is she so loud all

It's so hard to do anything here because I

feel like I'm just surrounded. Never have

any alone time. Am I

getting bored with OnlyFans? I am, to be

honest, because after you've shown your

dick and you've shown your bum, what else

do you do? Any thoughts on Last of Us 2?

You sure do reactions. I don't know why,

but Last of Us never really interested me.

It just seems really depressing and

gloomy, and the characters just look kind

of boring. It never caught my attention.

I'm gonna do another how much

money I made on OnlyFans video in a month

this time,

because I need to prepare some videos when

I'm in Germany because I don't want to

make an Airbnb video and then dox my

location straight away. So I need to

prepare a few videos for when I'm at the

Airbnb and then upload the Airbnb video

When I've left it so people don't

find out where I am. That's the annoying

thing about Airbnb. It's so easy for you

to find out which one I'm staying in

because you just match the furniture to

the picture that's on Airbnb.

So I've booked an Airbnb for a week, for

the first week, and then I'm going to move

somewhere else. I want

to go to different kinds of Airbnbs. They

have all types of Airbnbs. They have

boathouses and motorhomes, treehouses.

They have like these tent things as well

that looks quite interesting.

There's this really nice boathouse About

£200 a night, and I was gonna book it,

but they said they were fully booked

because their friends were staying in it

or something. It's kind of annoying. If

it's not available, they should take it

off Airbnb. It's so disappointing. I

thought I could stay there, make a really

cool video in a boathouse on the river.

He said it's not available until

Kind of silly he prioritizes his friends

over paying customers. I was gonna pay him

£1,500 for a week on his boathouse. He

says, no, sorry, our friends are staying

in it.

I guess I feel kind of relieved because

you had to row a canoe to get there. I

thought it sounded exciting,

but Do I really want to get into a canoe

and row to a boathouse on my first day in

Germany when I'm tired and kind of anxious

and nervous? What if I fell into the

river? Or what if it was raining and

really windy and I got blown away in the

I would like to go though. I have to wait

until September. Maybe I'll go back again

because I have to come back to England to

go to the dentist. Maybe I'll go to the

dentist and then go back to Germany.

Why does

she have to do laundry outside my room as

soon as I start streaming?

Oh, the, the workout video did really

well.

I don't know why it's surprising to me,

but making videos

about things people have been telling me

to do for years has been doing really well

for views, like getting a job, working

out, the spirituality stuff.

I don't know why I didn't expect those

kind of things to get views. I always had

it stuck in my mind, I have to make

negative content whining about stuff to

get views. And now I'm thinking,

why don't I just do stuff that people keep

telling me to do, like getting therapy?

I can't believe how well the working out

video did.

I'm not sure how to carry on doing it in

Germany though. I need weights.

Maybe I can get some weights. Just go to a

shop and buy some cheap dumbbells.

Maybe there's a heavy chair, a heavy chair

there that I could lift up and down.

I don't really feel like I look very

different. It's only been a month. I guess

it's too early. To see big differences,

but I'm not seeing a massive difference

really.

Maybe they have exercise equipment in the

parks like Korea does. In Korea, they've

got They've got weights and gym equipment

just in the parks you can use for free.

Your streams get like the same amount of

views as your videos, lmao. You should

just become a streamer.

Yeah, I thought about that actually. My

streams do usually get about the same

amount as my videos get.

I don't know how to feel about that

because I put a lot of effort into

thinking of the video topic and editing it

and stuff, and if it just gets the same

amount of views as I get from just doing

some MS Paint drawing on, on a stream,

might as well just do streaming.

No, I think having a mixture is good. If I

just did constant streams, most people, a

lot of people don't have hours and hours

to watch it.

And certain topics don't work on streams.

I can't do a workout. Well, I could do a

workout stream, but I don't know.

I think some things work better as videos.

Things work better with streams.

What am I doing right now? Right now

I'm just doing a painting on

MS Paint.

Oh, I dug the hole pretty deep as well

now. I had to put in 2 extra steps to get

in, and it's as deep as

I am tall, so it's about It's about

175 centimeters deep.

It's pretty nice. You step down into

there, there's no wind sound, the traffic

sound kind of goes away, and it's kind of

cool— cooling down in the hole.

And it's really relaxing, actually. It's

like one of those— what are they called?

You know, those chambers? Like a pod you

get into and you float in water.

I wanted to build like a big— a bigger

room and then put wooden boards on the top

as a roof and then make a ladder going

down, but, uh, I don't know,

I kind of ran out of time,

lost motivation a bit.

Don't let it collapse on you. I don't know

why people keep saying that. Because it's

not going to collapse. I don't see how it

It's not like it's just loose earth, it's

pretty hard chalk.

The problem is when it rains, frogs get

stuck in it. I don't know why frogs jump

down it. And then it gets full of insects.

I left my little plastic tray in there

that I used to scoop out dirt, and then

when I lifted it up underneath, it was

just— there were loads of woodlice,

woodlouse, and insects under it. It was

disgusting.

I made a video inside of it yesterday.

I'll upload that when I arrive in Germany

so I have some time,

um, to make the Airbnb video.

They hop across the lawn and don't see it,

then fall in. Well, they should look where

they're going then. It's not my fault.

And then a bee. Fell into the hole as

well. It was flying above me, it just fell

in. So random, and I filmed it. It was

quite funny actually. I put it into the

video. I was— it was really a weird

coincidence because I was complaining

about flies flying into the hole, and then

right at that moment a massive bee falls

into it, and I scream like a girl and I

jump out the hole. I managed to capture it

all. I thought it was pretty funny.

It was like I set it up, like it, like it

was scripted or fake, but it wasn't. It's

just a random bee flew over me and then

stopped flying and fell on top of me and

then into the hole. Very strange.

I wonder if a rabbit would fall down it.

But if a rabbit fell down it, wouldn't it

be able to dig its way back out?

I hope it's still there when I get back.

I hope my mum doesn't bury it. I would

like to come back home and carry on

digging. It's quite nice. It's relaxing.

There's something satisfying about

chipping away at the chalk and then seeing

the hole getting bigger and bigger.

Why don't I turn the hole into a pond? I

guess I could.

I'd rather turn it into like an

underground hideout. That would be

more interesting.

Do I play League of Legends? No,

I play Mortal Kombat 11 now. I don't even

play Rainbow Six. After I got Mortal

Kombat on the Switch, I completely lost

interest in Rainbow Six. This is something

I've noticed about myself. I get really

addicted to one thing, and then when I

find something new, I just completely lose

interest in the previous thing. I think

you could say the same about girls,

maybe.

So I mostly just play Mortal Kombat now on

my Switch.

It's quite fun until you go against

someone who's really good and they just

constantly spam combos. I hate those

people. You can't even stand up

or do anything because as soon as you get

up, they start doing another chain combo,

juggling you into the air. And most of

these people are playing Scorpion, or—

who's that guy who kicks a lot? Starts

with a K. As soon as I come across

one of those people, I just instantly quit

the match because I can't be bothered

playing against them. It's not fun.

You can't do anything. You get up and you

try and block, and then they'll do a low

kick or low punch, and then they'll just

start juggling you again.

They're just too good. I don't want to

play against people who are so good.

Scorpion and Noob Saibot are the most

irritating characters to go against.

Scorpion just constantly whips his chain

around and then does his long-range chain

thing that pulls you in and then teleports

behind you all the time. Noob Saibot just

stays far away spamming his clone range

thing and then teleporting behind you.

So annoying. I used to main

Baraka, but then I got bored and I played

as Kotal Kahn. Then I got bored with him.

Now I play as Erron Black.

Now I'm getting bored of him as well.

Terminator, he's really annoying as well.

No, not Terminator, RoboCop, because he

keeps spamming his rifle attack or his

pistol thing. You can't get close. I hate

when those idiots keep spamming ranged

attacks. You can't get near.

So unfortunately, you do come across a lot

of annoying players. But I can

be annoying as well. I keep spamming that

long-range flying kick with Erron Black.

That's quite funny.

Why not learn how to play the game

properly so you can beat them? It's just

annoying. You have to block and then walk

forwards and then block, and then if you

mess up the timing, you get shot and

pushed all the way back again. It's not

fun. I want to have a fun match,

not just block and then take 2 steps,

then block, because he keeps spamming

ranged attacks.

I don't really care if I win or not, I

just want to have a fun match where at

least I get to move without getting

juggled half the game. I also finished

Resident Evil 1. It was quite good

but after I finished it, I feel like it

was kind of pointless. The whole game you

just spend running around this big mansion

looking for keys to open doors to get more

keys to open more doors,

and then you eventually go down into the

underground. Research place, and then you

have to find more keys and open more

And it kept making me scared, which I

didn't appreciate. It just jump scares you

all the time, and then the zombies keep

coming back to life even after you've

He should play chess with viewers. How

would I do that? That sounds quite fun,

actually.

Yeah, I feel like the whole going to

Germany thing was kind of random. I wasn't

even thinking about traveling so soon.

Before, I was thinking about learning to

drive, buying a car. I could do a learning

to drive video. I was thinking about going

to London, but what I really

wanted to do was I wanted to travel

So I'm glad, um,

I got this opportunity.

The only thing that's annoying is the

dentist. I was supposed to go to the

dentist 2 days ago, but then they

cancelled my appointment again, changed it

to the end of July, and then they changed

my second appointment to September.

So I have to wait all the way until

September to get my teeth cleaned.

And I've already paid. I paid like £300.

That was before Mila moved

in with me all the way back in March.

Maybe they'll cancel it again. I'll just

stay in Germany for another month. Maybe

I'll just get it done in Germany at this

rate.

Really shouldn't have paid upfront. I

didn't think this would happen. I thought

I could at least get my appointment done

before the lockdown came in effect.

Bad timing, I guess.

People keep asking why Germany. I think

if I had to choose any country in Europe—

oh, thank you, Chess. sparkchess.com lets

you play chess online. But how would

people here be able to play against me?

How would they find me? I think Germany is

the best country in Europe. It just seems

the most modern and safe

and organized.

Which country is better than Germany?

Also, Germany has, has handled the

COVID-19 situation pretty well. I don't

think they even have 10,000 deaths.

I feel like Germany is the Japan of

Europe. Who agrees? I don't know.

I wasn't that impressed with Düsseldorf.

I think I'm saying it wrong. Is it

Düsseldorf? I don't know. Düsseldorf.

Düsseldorf was pretty shit, but I feel

like my whole Düsseldorf experience was

just ruined because of that first German

girl.

Now, one annoying thing about the Airbnb

is he said he left the key

in an envelope. Maybe I shouldn't say

I think it's fine. He said he left the key

in an envelope at some random restaurant,

so now I have to go to this restaurant and

ask for an envelope. What do I say?

Hello, do you have an envelope? I'm here

to get a key. Hopefully they speak

English. Why didn't he just use like a— I

don't know. And in Japan they use a

mailbox with a passcode and they give you

the passcode number. Why can't you just

get like a passcode padlock, put the key

in the padlock, hang it on the door?

So now I have to go to this random

restaurant, communicate with someone

who might not speak English. I don't know

if they speak English well or not in

Berlin.

Bit nervous about it. It's gonna be

embarrassing if they don't understand what

I'm talking about. What did I say? Hello,

do you have a letter? For me. They'd be

like, who the fuck are you?

My first 3 Airbnb choices were rejected

because they said they weren't available.

At first, I found this really nice

apartment near that big park called

Tiergarten or something, and it was on the

20th floor, had this amazing view of the

park. I tried booking it, they said sorry,

we're full up. If you're full up, why is

your listing on Airbnb, stupid? Take it

down. And then I tried booking that

houseboat as well, they said they're full.

So disappointing. I think the one

I booked this time is pretty nice, it's

really big. It's got a nice view of a park

as well. I really wanted a nice view. One

of the most depressing things when I was

in Korea in that tiny, horrible Airbnb was

number one, there was no view. Just

outside you could see a street and it was

just noisy all the time, music playing,

and it was so small, like living in a

closet.

So I think this time it's gonna be nice.

Nice and open, nice and bright.

He asked me to water his plants as well.

I don't mind. It sounds nice having

responsibility over someone's plants.

Do I worry there might be hidden cameras

in Airbnbs? Not really.

I wouldn't even care. I'd be like, so what

if you want to watch me do naked stuff?

Be my guest. That's what I do

for a living anyway, selling naked stuff.

Maybe I'd be turned on by the fact that

someone could be watching.

I saw one news article about some poor

woman who runs an Airbnb, and then her

Airbnb got completely trashed. There was

some kind of party and there were condoms

all over the place and shit all over the

wall, and all the TVs and electronics were

stolen, ripped out. She had to pay about

$50,000 to get it all repaired.

That's scary. I was thinking about doing

Airbnb because I do have about $50,000 in

savings. I don't know if that's enough to

be able to buy my own place and then

furnish it and then put it onto Airbnb,

and then I wouldn't even make any money

back until how many years? It depends how

much, how much money I can make off it.

If I make 2K a month, then maybe it'll

take about 5 years before I make my money

back. But then it seems like so much work.

I have to manage it, and then if something

goes wrong, like the place gets trashed—

what if I want to travel and then

something goes wrong? I have to fly back

and sort it out, or get my sister to sort

it out. But the idea

of having some income coming from property

does sound interesting. So I feel like my

YouTube channel is fucked. I don't know

what to make to grow it. I don't really

feel as motivated as I used to.

I'd love it if I just had an extra 1K

coming from some property.

Don't think Airbnb market in Kent is very

booming. Yeah, maybe it's difficult to get

tenants in Kent. It's not really a hotspot

for tourism, so I'd have to get a place in

London, which would be very expensive.

I don't know, maybe I'd be better off just

investing in stocks. I don't know what to

do with my money. I feel like I've got a

lot of money, but I don't know what to do

with it. I want to do

something with it to make more

money. Love how you work out under the

guise of self-improvement, but really it's

for your OnlyFans.

LMAO. Well, I would like to self-improve.

I don't know if I can stick to it. I want

to. I've stuck to working out for a month

now. And actually, yeah, I do enjoy it.

It's quite nice. The hardest,

hardest thing about it is eating, not the

actual working out. I can lift the

weights, do push-ups and stuff without too

much problem, but forcing myself to eat

food when I'm not hungry is just so

I'm just not really a huge fan of eating.

I like it when I'm hungry, but I just

don't feel hungry much. And one time the

food got— I didn't chew it enough and I

swallowed a big lump and it kind of got

stuck in my chest. I could feel it slowly

sliding down and then it stopped moving.

It felt horrible. It's not pain, but it

was like this horrible feeling of Having a

big lump stuck in your— what's the pipe

that goes to your stomach?

It was horrible. I felt like I was gonna

Yeah, esophagus.

It's really tough eating.

It's funny, fat people

have the complete opposite problem where

they can't stop eating. My problem is I

find it difficult to force myself to eat.

Hmm, I need to get some protein shake when

I'm in Germany as well, I guess.

It's hard moving around and getting the

stuff I need because I don't really want

to stay in the same Airbnb for very long.

I want to go to different places, move

around a bit. But then if I have a big tub

of protein shake and a dumbbell, it's

going to be hard to transport it.

I'll bring some of my protein brownies

with me, I guess.

Today I had a sausage— a fried sausage and

egg sandwich, and I felt sick.

It was so oily and fatty. I put butter on

my bread as well.

I think that's quite a lot of calories. 2

fried sausages and a fried egg.

Do I eat junk food? Yeah, I have crisps,

I have chocolate.

It's so noisy in the house. My sister

ripped out her carpet in her bedroom and

now she's sanding the floorboards. I don't

know why. My sister moved back in from

London. She was living in London before

the lockdown, then she came back home.

And now she's planning, planning to move

back in here because

I guess she figured there's no point

living in London when she can just work

from home and save a lot of money.

But now she's, she's redoing her room.

She painted the walls and she's got these

wooden strips to put in between her

floorboards, and now she's sanding the

And my mum redecorated the living room.

She ripped out the carpet, got some guy to

fit floorboards. So noisy.

Got rid of the piano as well. I felt a bit

sad about that. Just getting rid of

everything. I feel sad about the piano

because The piano was bought by my

granddad. My granddad bought it hoping

that his kids would learn to play, and

it's been here ever since, and now it's

just gone. I feel like it was a historic

sentimental piece.

It was all out of tune and old, but still,

I feel like it had value in a sentimental

way. She also got

rid of my dad's sofa, the speakers.

I feel a bit sad about that.

What do you think of a hiking stream in

Germany?

Yeah, I might do hiking. Not sure about

streaming it. Might just take some video

footage.

I've got lots of things planned to do that

I want to do in Germany, like camping,

maybe swimming in a lake, hiking,

maybe seeing some abandoned

stuff or World War II stuff. There's,

there's a tour that takes you underneath

all the underground bunkers that they,

they used during the bombings.

Lots of tours like that I could do. I

don't know if I'd film it though. I don't

think you're allowed to film it, and then

it would be all dark anyway. Maybe I'll

just take some pictures and then talk

about it in the Airbnb.

I also want to do a why I hate living in

Germany video. I've already got one point,

and that's graffiti. Just from looking at

the Airbnb pictures, there seems to be

graffiti everywhere in Berlin.

Doesn't look nice, to be honest. So that's

going to be my first complaint. I'm not

sure what else I could complain about

Germany. But people seem to love those

videos. My Why I Hate Living in South

Korea got 40k views now.

Come to Brazil. Doesn't Brazil have insane

numbers of COVID-19 deaths? Highest in

the world now? I don't think so. I don't

think I'd be going to South America

anytime soon.

Am I meeting up with someone in Germany?

Well, that's top secret. Sorry,

can't comment on that. Not making the same

mistake as last time.

I was binge-watching your old videos.

Can't believe how much you have evolved.

Have I really changed that much?

I feel like I do want to make some tweaks

to my YouTube approach. I don't

want to make videos about sexual stuff.

Or, or badmouthing people anymore. It just

makes me look bad, and then people in the

future won't want to have anything to do

with me because they'll be scared that

I'll make a video badmouthing them. Who

would want to meet me if, if I'm known for

that? So I'm gonna stop stuff like why I

hate some random person I met last Monday.

I really wish I didn't make the Why I Hate

the Turkish Girl video. I wish I didn't

make the Why I Don't Date Black Women

video. I wish I didn't make the video

saying horrible things about the Hong Kong

guy.

Kind of shot myself in the foot, didn't I?

I don't really feel like there's any

reason to, to make those videos anymore.

And what I've noticed is positive videos

also do well. My last 4 or 5 videos

have all been pretty positive and they've

done very well. Plus they get better ad

rates because negative topics just get bad

ad rates.

It's like you could get 40k views from a

negative topic and you'll get half the ad

rate from a 20k video that has a positive

or neutral topic.

Make one big apology video to everyone. I

was actually thinking about that. I was

gonna do apology to Chihiro video,

apology to Hong Kong guy video, apology to

black women, apology to Chris Broad.

I couldn't be bothered in the end.

I don't think it would sound very genuine.

I'm not very good at apologizing.

Oh, thank you, Oliver. Do we know the

girl, or is it a new girl in Germany?

Can't comment on that, very sorry.

Do we know the girl, or is it a new girl

in Germany? It's top

secret.

I don't know, I don't feel like there's

any point bringing up the whole Hong Kong

guy stuff anymore. He's gone quiet,

hasn't he? He stopped making Chihiro

videos. I'm pretty grateful for

that because it was pissing me off, to be

honest. Seeing your ex hang out with some

guy you didn't really like very much.

It's really annoying, and having it shoved

in your face every day was pretty

stressful. So I'm glad they've stopped

doing these livestreams.

Do I ever talk to Chihiro? No, last time

she messaged me was a couple months ago

when she was worried about me selling her

nudes. Since then we haven't talked. I

think she talked to my mum a few times,

maybe a couple weeks ago. Actually, she

talked to my ex-Korean girlfriend

yesterday. She just randomly messaged me.

We had a bit of a chat,

chat about old times. I guess you can be

friends with exes. After some time has

passed. It's been—

I think it's been 4 years since we last

met,

but I don't really see her in that way

anymore. I just— I guess I kind of see her

as a friend. But I don't usually talk to

her. It was just kind of random that she

messaged me.

I've got some really old videos on my

channel with the ex-Korean girlfriend from

4 years ago when we went to Norway. Set to

private. But it's so embarrassing. My hair

looks so stupid. Back then I

had this obsession with having really long

hair, and it just looked like a mushroom,

like a, like a hat. But I thought it

looked really cool at the time for some

reason. And my voice sounded really

strange. I used to talk like a woman, and

I had this weird lisp. I sounded so

different back then. And then I also speak

Korean in the video and I sound really

stupid.

It's weird when, when guys are young, we

think we look so cool with our long hair,

and then we grow up, we cut it, and we

realize how stupid we used to look. I

think my hair looks so much better now

than it used to.

If you think I'm weird now, you should

have seen what I was like 5 years ago or 6

years ago. I had this horrible

haircut and it looked like a mushroom.

Why don't I change my profile? What, my

channel profile picture? Yeah, I might do.

It's quite old now, that— that picture

with long hair. I don't really feel like

that's me anymore.

Why aren't you showing your face today? I

don't know. I just don't really feel like

I feel like it's less stressful to not

show my face. Don't have to worry about

how I look.

Keep on doing the animated stuff. I don't

really think I want to do any more

illustrated videos. They just don't do

well.

They do so badly. Even my video digging a

hole for an hour did better.

Plus it made more money.

Spend 5 days working on illustrations or

just dig a hole for an hour.

I quite enjoyed buying the outfits for my

recent videos, like the shirt and the tie.

And the spiritual outfit with the bead

necklace. I think I'll bring them with me

to Germany. Might make some Jesus

teachings videos. What I learned from

Jesus today.

The how to get a job video did

well. Yeah, that one did really well as

well. Also made loads of

money. Because the ad rates were amazing

on it, plus it got great views.

I don't think people understood it was a

joke though.

People never understand my videos are a

joke, do they?

I mean, I'm not actually gonna get a job.

It was just like, like a skit, like a

comedy sketch.

Is YouTube my main income? No, OnlyFans is

my main income now. My YouTube income has

just gone down the toilet. Number one,

I've cut my video output by half. I used

to do new videos every 2 days. Now I make

a new video about every 4 or 5 days.

So video output has been cut in half, so

the income has as well. Also, I don't do

as many streams as I used to. It was 10

days ago since my last stream. Plus, the

ad rates haven't been very good, but they

are getting better.

I got a CPM of $12 on the exercise video.

Before the lockdown, that would have

easily been about $18 or $19.

Do I upload anything new onto OnlyFans

these days? Yeah, I uploaded a few bum

I just find it awkward to make stuff here

because my family's here, and then, you

know, I can't make stuff in the other

rooms because then they'll be grossed out.

So hopefully when I get to the Airbnb, I

can make more OnlyFans

stuff. But I also do other things on

OnlyFans, like updates on what I'm doing

or perverted drawings. I sometimes do

You just make so much more money on

OnlyFans than YouTube.

I made a, a video with my love doll. I'm

gonna put on OnlyFans maybe tomorrow

night. The thing is,

you can charge money for

people to unlock the message. So I'd make

a 4-minute video and then I'd charge about

$20 for it, and then about 10 people would

buy it. That's $200. Or if I

charge $5, then maybe more people would

buy it.

It's more than I get from a YouTube video.

But I am looking forward to making more

travel vlogging stuff. People keep getting

upset when I describe myself as a travel

vlogger, but I do. I travel and then I

vlog it. So yeah, I'm a travel vlogger.

I'm planning on doing all kinds of stuff

in Germany. Traveling and vlogging.

My travel vlogging videos in Japan did

really well, like my capsule hotel video.

Maybe you don't notice because you don't

check my videos that are really old, but

it has nearly 60,000 views now. My capsule

hotel video, my net cafe video.

People are finding them from the search

results.

It just takes some time for people to find

them.

I want to go to like a treehouse Airbnb.

Those look pretty fun and that'd be

interesting for a video, living in my

treehouse. But they're never actually

treehouses. They're just like a room on—

raised up on stilts. I want an actual

building that's in a tree. That'd be so

Am I divorced? Yes, I am.

I would like to go to some mountain

chalets in Europe. I found one really nice

one. It's on the border of Germany and

Austria or something. It's in a mountain.

Wooden chalet. Looks really cool. I'm not

sure how I'd get there though.

Not sure where else I could go.

What I really want to do is just go to

interesting places, wear my GoPro on my

chest, and then just film it walking

around showing you what it's like. People

like that stuff. They find it interesting.

They find it kind of ASMR-ish.

Some people said I shouldn't talk in the

capsule hotel video so it's like they're

experiencing it themselves. That'd be

great if I didn't have to talk because I

feel very stupid talking to myself in

public. It'd be so much easier if I just

didn't talk. There's channels like

that where they just walk around. Filming

the atmosphere and the surroundings.

That'd be nice to do.

When am I going to Germany?

Sometime around next week.

But I've prepared a few videos here,

so when you see the next 2 videos,

um, I'll be in Germany,

but I'll still be uploading videos that I

made here, so it looks like

I'm still at home. Sneaky,

sneaky. I'm preparing

in advance this time. So that means I have

a lot of time to make the first day in

Germany video. I think I'll title it First

Day in Germany, My Fresh New Life, Fresh

New Life in Berlin,

Fresh New Start, something like that.

And then I'll have to look for a second

Airbnb. I'm thinking about some kind of

boat. There's a lot of boat Airbnbs in

Berlin.

Living on a boat could be fun.

Germany is in lockdown. Is it?

People told me it's not really in lockdown

anymore. Most shops are back open.

England's starting, starting to come back

out of lockdown by the time I'm there,

which is going to be about Mid-July,

beginning of July should start getting

back to normal.

No bars and clubs. Well, I'm not really

planning to go clubbing and barring

anyway. As long as Airbnbs are

open. And tourist

attractions are open. I could go to that,

that big gate, and I could go to that big

tower.

Hmm, apart from planning for For Germany,

not much else has been happening.

What have I been doing every day? I just

wake up and then I play Mortal Kombat and

then I have lunch and

then I watch the news and then I do some

digging and

then I, I look on Airbnb to try and find

places. That's it really,

not doing much.

Sorry if that's boring.

Oh, I've been watching a lot of Jimmy Carr

recently. Don't know if you've heard of

him. He's a comedian.

I find him very funny.

How come he gets away with saying all this

stuff? For his jokes, and then

no one accuses him of being a pedo or

psycho or whatever.

But I guess that's what he's known for.

Doing offensive jokes, so no one takes it

seriously. I don't know why people take me

so seriously. I guess I'm not a comedian.

But do you have to be a comedian to tell

jokes? If I want to make a joke,

aren't I allowed to make one?

It's like, you don't have to be a chef to

cook dinner, do you?

Do you want to meet up in Berlin?

I don't know who you are.

Maybe. Depends what

happens.

Do I still watch tarot reading videos?

I kind of lost interest actually. I feel

like I have moved on from you

know who. Thank God. I was going

crazy. I can't believe how sad I was.

It was like the worst time of

my life ever.

Just feeling depressed every day, but I

feel like I've, I've come out of it now,

so that's great.

Some days I used to just go out into the

garden around 9 PM and then just start

crying in the garden for about an hour.

That was happening nearly every day up

until a few weeks ago.

It was just weird. I'd go out into the

garden. My mum and sister went up to bed,

so I was all alone. And then all the

memories would come flooding back, and

then I'd just go out into the garden,

just pace around, then I'd just start

uncontrollably crying. It just wouldn't

stop.

I felt terrible.

It was just Ah, horrible experience.

So glad I'm out of it now.

Whew, I survived another traumatic life

event. First it was TotalBiscuit

dying, and then my dad dying,

and then heartbreak.

Life is hard. You think everything's going

fine, and then out of nowhere you just get

hit in the face with some traumatic event.

And you just have to do your best to deal

with it. The tarot card readings did

help me, helped me feel better,

kind of comforted me.

It's kind of like religion, I guess. It

doesn't really make sense, but it

comforts you. It's nice to have something

to believe in when you feel like it's

the end of the world.

Maybe that's why so many people like

religion, even if it does sound like a

load of rubbish. It,

um, helps comfort you.

Wow, this picture's looking pretty good,

I have to say.

Why am I clicking my mouse so much?

Because I'm painting.

You're watching a masterpiece unfold in

front of your very eyes.

I want to get a mouse that doesn't make a

clicking sound. Why do all mice— mouses

have to make that stupid clicking sound?

Whose idea was that?

A clickless mouse. That'd be nice.

Stream gaming videos on Twitch. No,

tried that last time, no one cared. I used

to have about 25 viewers on Twitch.

I don't like Twitch. I think YouTube is

better. I don't know why Ice Poseidon's so

obsessed with getting unbanned on Twitch.

I think YouTube is way better than Twitch.

I think you make more money on YouTube.

What does Twitch do that YouTube doesn't?

Twitch has subs, but YouTube has members.

YouTube has AdSense, Super Chat.

It's the same.

Twitch is stupid because they just

randomly ban people for dumb reasons.

Didn't they ban Dr Disrespect recently?

They didn't even explain why.

I don't understand Dr Disrespect though.

He's like the biggest Twitch streamer,

hugely popular,

supposedly really entertaining. I watched

Dr Disrespect best moments or funny

moments. I didn't find any of it

interesting or funny. It's just some guy

wearing a wig and sunglasses playing a

video game, and then he randomly screams.

What's, what's interesting about that?

He's not funny. He's playing some stupid

character that just looks lame, like from

the '70s, wearing that wig. Wears a weird

costume. I don't get it at all.

How is he so popular?

He just plays that Battlegrounds,

PlayerUnknown's game or whatever.

Didn't find a single bit of that

highlights video funny or entertaining.

I don't really understand Twitch gaming.

I don't understand what's interesting

about it. I don't want to watch someone

play a video game. It's not

interesting to me.

I don't really get the appeal of any of

those Twitch streamers, like Sodapoppin or

that Asmongold guy.

I don't understand how they're so popular.

It's just kind of boring to me.