i'm broke and alone...

Uh, testing.

Uh, testing.

Invest.

I don't even bother catching up anymore.

There's probably no point, cuz if you miss

anything I said in the previous streams,

I'm probably just going to say it again in

the next stream.

Every stream is the same.

My hair is getting really long now. It's

still about start thinking about cutting

it soon.

It's getting to that point.

I changed my clothing today. Today's

update, changed my trousers and

my jumper. This one's much thicker than

the other one. Well,

I'm not gonna just— I'm just— I'm not

gonna stop streaming just because I've got

nothing new to talk about.

Then what would be the point of breaking

up with Sunny? Imagine breaking up with

Sunny so I can stream, just so I stream 2

times and then stop streaming again.

Not really worth it.

We need Sunny to come back and give us

more drama. You waste 5 to 6

hours every day streaming. Well, what else

am I going to be doing? If I wasn't

streaming, I'd just be sitting here

staring at the stock market, probably.

Yeah, today's stream, we have so much new

updates and amazing news.

So revolutionary and

great.

It will take 6 hours to explain everything

that happened today.

Make new videos that isn't streaming.

Yeah, I thought about it,

but then what videos am I gonna make?

I have 7 subscribers on my OnlyFans now,

so that's pretty good.

And I found 5 white hairs on the back of

my head. I bought a little mirror, like a

hand mirror, so I could see the back of my

head. I found 5 ugly greys,

plucked them out. I mean,

5 greys is not bad compared— For—

I mean, compared to how stressed I was

with all the Sunny stuff. God, I was so

stressed. I was like having a mental

breakdown. So for all that, only 5

gray hairs. Not too bad.

Or maybe the new gray hairs haven't

sprouted yet. They're like still under the

skin. Every stream the same.

Well, yeah, name one streamer who does

something completely different every

stream. It's like watching a Minecraft

streamer and saying, oh, every stream he

just plays Minecraft.

Sunny's still a mod? No, I unmodded her

before she went on a banning rampage. I

wonder if she would have done that since

she hates you guys so much, like, I'll ban

all Daniel's viewers. I'm surprised she

didn't ban anyone, to be honest, when she

IShowSpeed. Well, IShowSpeed is a

multi-millionaire. If I was a

multi-millionaire, then yeah, I could do—

I could be in Japan next week, and then I

could be in Thailand the next week, and

then I could buy a Tesla, and then I could

do infinite exciting things. But I'm

broke. I don't have any money, so how am I

gonna do anything? Costs money to do

Yeah, today went really well. I didn't

lose any parcels. I was on point.

76 parcels. Delivered a lot of parcels

every day now, so that's pretty good.

I don't have any interesting stories about

today's delivery, unfortunately.

Um,

yeah, not a single interesting thing

happened. No one pissed me off,

no one hit my car. Oh, a dog jumped

into my car. That was funny.

Yeah, I mean, there's just nothing

interesting happening with the job anymore

now that I'm pretty good at it.

Oh, and then the market crashed, didn't

it? Gave back all its gains, nearly. Good

thing I hung on to my Tesla short.

And then I made a cheese and onion

pancake, which was quite good.

Actually, do something exciting. Like

what?

We need some girls for any excitement.

Who wants to be the next volunteer? Who

volunteers to be the next Sunny?

Sunny had her fill and she exited.

Create the plan for 2025. Um,

I want to buy the Switch 2. And I want to

get a TV,

and I'm going to be rich when my

OnlyFans gets started back up. I'm going

to post a link on my OnlyFans— I mean, my

Instagram.

I'm posting secret— I mean, the secret

paid-for videos on my OnlyFans that I

never posted publicly before, so it's kind

of new content, but that was made 3 years

ago. I can't believe I just made that

stuff in my mum's house. When my mum went

out to work, I would like quickly get the

love doll out, get naked, and start

filming. Why did you decide to do OnlyFans

again? Because I'm broke, desperate for

and a bit worried maybe I'll lose the job.

At some point.

Yeah, I did. In 2022, I did loads of

OnlyFans in my mum's house, in my bedroom.

Where else am I going to do it?

Yeah. So I'm thinking about getting some

toys. I don't know what yet. Might go on

the toy shop at some point.

Would I work at Tesco's? Maybe, but you

never see them advertising for staff, so I

don't know how you apply. I want to work

at the Tesco Sunny goes to, and then I'll

be there and I'll be like, hello madam,

how can I help you? Looking mighty

fine today. Since she likes compliments

so much.

Is that the most stressful relationship

you've had? I think so. Yeah, I mean, I

never had a mental breakdown on stream

that badly before, and I was never told to

stop YouTube or else in my entire life.

Even Chihiro wasn't like, you better stop

YouTube or else no more marriage visa.

No one has ever said I need to stop doing

YouTube. That's crazy.

Imagine thinking I could stop doing

YouTube. I would obviously end up just

going back to it whenever we had a fight.

I knew that was going to happen.

I thought, when is the next fight going to

happen? Because I know it's going to

happen. And then I'm just going back to

YouTube because it's not worth it.

Maybe if somehow she could guarantee there

would never be any more fights, then maybe

it might be worth it. I don't know. Still

don't think it'd be worth it.

Giving up your online income is just

crazy, especially in this environment, in

this economy. You need all the money you

She tried to make you normie. Yeah, I

know. She was like Pauline from the job

center. Daniel, it's time to give up this

YouTube thing. You've done it already.

You've already been famous.

You've already succeeded. Now it's time to

give it up. Uh, no.

Well, obviously she knew I was a YouTuber

because that's how she met me. She— and

she's been watching me since 2021. How

have you been watching me since 2021 and

you didn't know that I would never give up

YouTube for anything?

You should know all this stuff if you've

been watching that long.

Is Daniel single again? Yeah, I'm single.

It's been— has

it even been a week since she blocked me?

Sunday? No, Saturday.

It was on Saturday. Really?

I swear it's been longer than that.

Last Saturday? Yeah, yeah,

because we had the fight on the 2nd of

April. Didn't talk on Thursday. I think

Friday I came back to YouTube,

ranted, and then on Saturday She

blocked me. It's not even been a week.

It's crazy. It feels like it's been like a

month. It's really weird how all

this has happened in such a short span

Look into voiceover work. I don't like

that because when I used to care about

my videos, I wanted perfect narration and

it would be so difficult to not keep

clicking your tongue. Words that had L

in it were so annoying.

You would end up being like Holy,

like that, and you make this disgusting

click sound, and then I have to like redo

it, redo the whole sentence, and then try

really carefully not to make that weird

saliva sound. I can't

believe back then I used to care so much

about stuff like that. It was insane how

much I cared about every little thing,

like, oh, the way I pronounced this word,

or, oh, did this sentence flow smoothly

into the next sentence, or did I do the

tongue click? When I said lacerated,

or I don't know, God, I cared so much.

And it was just really frustrating. It

would take like 20 takes to say one

sentence sometimes, but I

felt like a perfectionist. Everything had

to be perfect.

I don't know when I stopped caring.

Date a YouTuber? Well, the only YouTuber I

would be able to date is some crazy drama

YouTuber, and then I would probably get

pissed off at them.

The problem is I want to date a normal

person, but a normal person wouldn't want

to date me because I'm weird. And hard to

get along with. But I don't

think I'm hard to get along with. It's

just I'm not super caring.

I don't— I'm not a very caring person.

Like, I'm not really worried about your

well-being and stuff like that. I mean,

obviously I don't want you to die or get

sick because that would just inconvenience

me. And then I've got to go to the

hospital to see you, which which would be

annoying, and then we can't have sex.

So obviously I don't want you to get sick

or ill. Actually,

it was really annoying every time Sunny

got ill. I was like, oh, not again. Now

I've got to wait over a week until we can

do it again. It's just a pain in the

backside. So yeah, I don't want people to

get sick, but that's

how I show that I care. And people think I

don't care.

Sunny's probably sick again. I don't know,

she gets sick every week, seems like.

A super spreader. She said it's from the

nieces because they're always sick. Well,

maybe if the kids are sick Don't

let them out of the house? I don't get it.

Why? If they're obviously sick, why let

them see people and spread it?

I've got 5 more days and then I can go

food shopping again. I'm so excited. I'm

gonna buy some liver and kimchi

and onions and What else?

Cabbage.

No steak. Steaks are too expensive unless

I ration it. If I ration the steak

and make like one ribeye last 5 days,

maybe. But I'm experiment— gonna

experiment with some liver and liver and

How's my Tesla short doing? Oh my God,

Tesla's going back up again.

I was up 20% on my Tesla short.

Now it's only up 10%.

What the hell was that?

Oh, there's a cat on my roof.

Kind of annoying. How do I stop the cat

from getting on my roof? Well, it's just

standing on the roof. I don't— you can't

really stop it, can you?

But I can see its silhouette.

Maybe that Japanese thing where they put

all the bottles of water works.

I have tried scaring it from underneath.

I tried banging on the roof from

underneath, but the roof is double glazed

or something, so they don't feel it or

hear it, or they don't care about it.

Guy streaming constantly talking about

nothing. Yeah.

That is kind of true.

And maybe I should take a break from

streaming and make some videos. I don't

know. Just don't know. I don't

really predict any more drama now that

Sunny's gone.

Still blocked.

I wonder how she's doing. I remember last

time she blocked me, she said, in the

beginning it felt easy and I felt like I

could easily block you and never see you

again. But then as the days went on, she

started to miss me more and more. I wonder

if she feels the same.

Or if she's also finally done with it.

There'll be drama when you get fired.

Yeah, that'll be fun.

I've got— I've been fired from my job.

It was a toxic relationship. You should be

happy it's over. Yeah, sometimes I do feel

like that. I feel like, oh, thank God. No

more fighting, no more getting blocked,

no more sleepless nights. But then,

you know, I kind of remember the good

times and I feel a bit sad that it's over.

I just don't know why we couldn't stop

All because of texting. It's just so

stupid. I don't even think the last fight

would have happened if I just texted a bit

more. I just— I don't know, I just

couldn't be bothered. I wanted to go to

She was so mad she wouldn't even talk to

me the next day, and then she started

fighting instead of resolving it just

because I didn't text much.

But I don't think— I mean, the real reason

was because she was mad because I was

still making YouTube videos, and then the

texting thing was like the trigger.

What texts make her happy? When, when I

kept just telling her stuff or taking

pictures and sending to her She would say,

oh, I really like it when you text me

throughout the day. And I said, yeah, I

would if there's something to text you

about. If there's nothing to text about,

then I won't say anything. And she'll say,

oh, you don't have to have anything to say

about. Just saying like, I miss you,

would be good.

So what, I just have to like program a

miss you every 24 hours or something

like that? Texting is so boring.

I hate texting.

I mean, if it's the only way you can

communicate, then okay. But if you've got

other ways to communicate, like meeting

up, hanging out, having a phone call,

then texting is like the worst. I don't

deserve better than some faggot who shoves

shit up his ass. Questioning why I blocked

you illustrates just how stupid you are

and how undeserving you are of me. The

best girlfriend you've ever had, which

you've stated. Fuck you.

Yeah, well, if you get mad that I shove

stuff up my bum to make money, then you

don't deserve to be with me. Better than

sitting in that stupid office doing

whatever you do. What would you rather do?

Sit in an office for 8 hours a day,

Monday to Friday, or shove stuff up your

bumhole? For thousands of dollars?

I know what I'd rather do.

Getting rich on the Rich Dad Poor Dad

channel. Isn't that guy a scammer? I heard

he faked that. He faked his whole life

story, or he just like— he makes all his

money from shitting on his dead dad.

I heard he's a massive scammer. Someone

did a video on him. The only way he

makes money is by doing those seminars and

selling books. He looks so shady. I don't

know, there's like something soulless

about him. Like, all he cares about is

money.

Yeah, I did— before I realized he was a

scammer, I did watch some of his videos

and he was— I don't know, he didn't say

anything that was useful. He just said

stuff like, your house is a liability,

your car is a liability. Well, duh.

Real estate and stocks are an asset.

Okay, how's this

supposed to help me?

Yeah, I watched some of the meme shorts

where he would say stuff like, uh, I don't

use money, I use debt, and then he have a

big grin on his face like he thinks he's

so clever. I get the banks

to buy my real estate. And then I

declared bankruptcy. He's like, I'm $1

billion in debt. The guy's pretty funny

sometimes because he says it like he's so

proud of it.

And his teeth look so fake and white.

It's weird. I wouldn't mind buying

a little sofa for the conservatory so I

could sit in there when it's nice and

warm. I don't want to keep moving the big

sofa backwards and forwards. I want the

big sofa in here so this room doesn't

echo. I do kind of miss sitting

in the conservatory. Get a beanbag.

It's just a bit low. I want it to be a bit

higher up so I can see out the window.

Oh, I saw Asmongold's video about Vitaly.

He's in big trouble. He's done way worse

stuff than Johnny Somali, and he's in the

Philippines, which is way stricter.

They're saying they're gonna lock him up

for like 24 years. Why'd he do that?

Isn't he a millionaire? Why'd he just

throw away his life? And he got

banned on Kick.

Oh my God, cat's on the roof again.

It's just sitting there.

What if he shits on my roof?

Move back home? No, I'd rather shove

carrots on my buttocks than move back

home. Why do you hate cats on the roof? I

don't, I don't like the noise.

I just don't like the noise. How did

you get banned on Kick? By doing illegal

stuff and then getting arrested.

That Vitaly guy, he, he ran off with a

police motorbike apparently, and he was

trying to grab a policeman's weapon.

These IRL streamers are so stupid.

Why do they do this dumb stuff and get

arrested?

Yeah, what if I put my rug on the roof and

then it won't make that banging sound when

they run on the roof? Everywhere so noisy

with the sound of sheep going meh.

And then this fertilizer truck was

spilling fertilizer all over the road.

Everywhere stunk. It was like wet and

moist. It looked like chocolate cake.

It was just all over the road. I guess

spring's here now, so they're fertilizing

the fields.

Catch the cat and make him your friend.

He already came in my house. He came in my

house and he ran upstairs and then he came

back down. I don't even know what the

point of that was. And then he also came

into my conservatory before.

When are you gonna pay your mum back?

When I've got money. It turns out my

council tax is £145 a month.

I thought it was £100 a month,

so that's annoying.

When I no longer have deficits and debt,

I will pay her back. But first of all, I

need to buy a Switch 2, 75-inch TV,

sofa for the conservatory, and a fish

tank. I would like to get a fish tank and

some aquatic plants. I want to grow

aquatic grass this time.

How'd you do that? Because you put the

soil in the tank, how does it not float

everywhere? When are you gonna

react to the video of the YouTuber that

can make you lots of money? I think

that ship's already sailed, Turkey Tom.

I don't really have anything to say.

Oh, why would I care about stuff that

happened 7 years ago? Daniel says stuff

about his relationships that upsets

people. Yeah, so what? Who cares?

Gotta make money somehow. At least I

didn't murder them.

Don't I want to move to a different area

or village? Now that you and Sunny broke

up, I am a bit worried about randomly

seeing her, but my house

is really nice and it's really close to

my job and I really like this area and

it'll be such a pain and also expensive to

move. So I'm thinking

only Saturday and Sunday would be a risk.

Because Monday to Friday she would be

working and

then she usually gets back at like 7. So

if I'm going to go to Tesco, I should do

it on the weekday after my shift, not on

the weekend.

I don't really see where— when else I

would see her unless— I think the biggest

risk would be Saturday when I'm delivering

and then I come back from delivering

around 12. As long as she's not in the

town at 12, which I doubt it on Saturday.

I really can't really picture her waking

up that early on a Saturday. She'd

probably be in bed until 11.

So I really doubt she's going to be out

and about from 11 to 12 in the town,

which is when I drive through the town to

come back home.

Sunday, I won't. The only place I go to on

Sunday is the dump. So unless she's at

the dump on Sunday as well at the exact

same time, I think it's very unlikely I

bump into her.

Unless— because she quite often goes to

the moors to walk her dog with her mum.

Sometimes I go through the mall, but early

in the morning, like 10, 11.

Yeah, I doubt it. Very unlikely.

Although, I mean, the idea of her getting

a new boyfriend kind of pisses me off

because then they'll— what if I see them?

It'd be annoying, wouldn't it?

And then I've got to drive past the

restaurant we went to for my birthday

every day now.

Why did she have to choose that restaurant

for us to go to?

Now every time I drive home, I get

triggered. That fucking restaurant.

Well, hopefully she's all depressed and

How are you not dating more women? I can't

be bothered. All the Turkey Tom

fangirls are American or Canadian.

Why aren't any of them British? Turkey

Tom's audience is probably like 80%

American.

So yeah, I mean, it's kind of annoying

that she's so nearby because eventually

she's going to get a new boyfriend, isn't

she? And then they're going to be nearby.

Maybe I should think about eventually

moving.

You won't be living there in 4 months?

Well, why not? All I need to do is make

$1,400 a month.

Where else am I going to go? If I go home

to my mum's, then what's the next plan?

Back to Asia or what? I need a woman.

It's really hard to figure out what to do.

Like, maybe if I got fired from the job,

I might not feel so anchored here.

So I feel like the job is really worth

milking because it's so easy until

I get in trouble. I might get away

with a warning. I'm not sure.

You should go back to Asia. But it's so

boring and you can't build anything and

everything's always temporary and

everything's so expensive.

And then I gotta find a girlfriend.

Danny, let's make a movie. No cuts. You

can put it so deep I can't speak a

sentence. Wow, sounds amazing.

My first gay video, $100 per

person. Why do you act like getting fired

is inevitable? Name one job I've never not

been fired from. I've always been fired or

I quit because I can't stand the people

I wonder if Sunny wants me to leave,

because last time we had a fight, I said,

I'm going to leave. And then she said,

that's probably for the best. I think

that's for the best. So she

probably would want me to leave,

which is kind of selfish considering that

I'm only here because of her. 'Cause she

would— she refused to leave her family.

Like, she could have met me halfway.

She could have— we could have like lived

together halfway between Kent and Devon,

but no, she was like, oh, I need to be

with my family. 26-year-old woman

attached to the hip with her family. Just

weird. Like, we could have lived in

between Devon and Kent, and then she could

have gotten a job in Southampton or

something, and then she could have like

visited her family once a month like a

normal person, not live with them and

see them every single week, almost every

day. It's just weird.

But maybe if you're a kid, then it makes

sense. She's going to be pushing 27.

I mean, the whole family is kind of weird.

I mean, the sister lives 5 minutes down

the road from the mum. They all live like

in this tight-knit bubble where they

always see each other almost every day,

like weird village commune where

they don't live their own separate lives.

Which I think is so weird coming

from the guy who lives with his mum.

Yeah, well, I don't live with her out of

choice because I want to live with her.

It was like financial,

uh, for financial reasons.

I can't stand my mum.

So I had to come all the way here and set

up a life, and then she thinks I'm just

gonna abandon it all.

No. Would I move out if I have enough

money to? Well, I don't know. Where am I

gonna move to?

Devon's pretty good. I don't really see

any problem with Devon apart from sunnies

here. Now maybe

if I move a bit further away, like

Oakhampton. I mean, Oakhampton was pretty

nice. I stayed in Oakhampton before I got

this place and I really liked it.

It would be on the other side of the

moors.

Aren't there cheaper studios available? I

don't think this is a studio, it's a

semi-detached house with a garage— I mean

a garden and a driveway.

And not really, if you want a house with a

driveway and a garden, it's going to be

£850, £900, even £950.

If you want £700 and below, You're looking

at room sharing or an absolute dump

in one of the shitty cities like Exeter or

Plymouth. Oh, Exeter is horrible. I hated

Exeter and I hated Plymouth. I want

to live in a nice little village in the

countryside where it's nice and quiet and

you can drive however you like to.

Without any speed cameras or bus lanes.

All this rubbish is so relaxing here.

No bus lanes anywhere, no speed cameras.

I've seen the police maybe twice in 4

So yeah, I really don't know what to do.

I really don't want to do the whole living

in Asia thing again because it's not cheap

and it's not comfortable. I do like

having my own house. I mean, I like

everything apart from the proximity to

Sunny, just because, you know,

it's just a bit weird, isn't it?

6 hours making AI businesses.

They all seem like scams. Like, oh, I use

AI to generate $5,000 a month just

by inputting this text and image generator

and posting it on TikTok. Yeah,

whatever. A load of bollocks.

If it's so good, then why aren't you just

doing that instead of making stupid videos

telling everyone about it? If it's so

good, then you wouldn't tell anyone about

it because it's such a great money-making

system. And if everyone was doing it, it

wouldn't work anymore. So you would keep

it to yourself, wouldn't you? You wouldn't

tell the whole world about how you easily

make money. So it's all just a scam.

They just want to, like, scam you. Either

through getting views or by selling you a

course. If their money-making scheme's so

good, why do they need a course?

Oh wow, thanks, Gerbert. Danny, I'll take

care of you financially. You can do

whatever you want. I'll give you so much

pleasure. Can I say how annoying you are

on stream and rant?

Oh, cats on the phone again.

Imagine 2 of the cats are on there

I wouldn't even want to live in Japan, to

be honest. Even if I could, I don't think

I'd want to. I find Japan very depressing.

I find Japanese people very annoying.

Like the twitchiness. They're very

twitchy, like oh oh oh oh.

And all the weird sounds they make, like,

I hate

that sound. Sounds so stupid.

The sound of the Japanese language just

pisses me off now.

And the head nodding is annoying.

Japanese people are not chill. They're the

most agitated, easily angry people

I've ever come across. I've never had so

many old men tell me to dokete in my whole

life.

And Japanese women, they're so bitchy.

Like, don't film me. I'm not filming

you. I'm just doing a stream and you

walked in front of me, idiot. As if I'm

trying to film you. Yes, degrade me all

you want. Make up stuff if you want.

Anything for you, Daniel. Oh wow, thanks.

And I can still do OnlyFans. Sounds

amazing. Yeah,

it's like you're just pointing the camera

around and you suddenly a Japanese woman

is in front of you. She's like, I'm a

deer. Shut up. I'm not even trying to film

you. No one wants to look at your ugly ass

face, bitch.

You're not that special.

You, you're the one who walked into my

Yeah, I don't like Japan anymore. Boring.

It's full of weird people.

I honestly don't miss anything about

Japan. Maybe yakiniku. Okay, I really miss

my yakiniku. It's really hard to make that

at home unless you get the right meat.

And then you need a charcoal grill to get

the same smoky flavor. Why are

you defensive about the place you live in?

Because I really like it. It is really

nice here. I can't think of anything I

don't like about this place.

The people are nice. There's no police

presence. Driving is so easy.

The countryside is beautiful. There's

animals everywhere. Sheep, horses,

squirrels, pheasants. I've never seen so

many pheasants. We don't get pheasants in

Kent. You don't just see pheasants running

around in Kent. They're everywhere here.

They look funny.

Yeah, I really like it here.

Everyone thinks the UK is a shithole, but

they're only thinking about London or

Birmingham or Leeds, all these big stupid

cities. The real England is places like

little villages and Devon and the

countryside. That's where the beauty of

the country is and where all the nice

people are. For some reason, all the shit

people gather in the same places. In one

spot, so it's easy to avoid them. Just

don't live in a city.

Yeah, I really like it here. It's just

Sunny ruined it with

her depressing Essex vibes.

You can take the girl out of Essex, you

can't take the Essex out of the girl.

So yeah, I really want to live in a house

and have my own stuff and have money

and have little hobbies, like a fish tank

would be nice. I don't want to sit on a

plane and like live out of a stupid hotel.

And eat convenience store food and have to

move out of the country every 3 months.

That's a shit life.

I hated it.

I hate worrying about visas and you gotta

like plan the next country you're going to

and then get used to a new place.

Stressful. Maybe I wouldn't mind going on

holiday like a week or two and then I come

Yeah, I just— I crave a nice wholesome

life. I just need a woman.

Who's okay with me doing YouTube where I

expose the entire relationship and I also

put stuff up about my OnlyFans?

What woman wouldn't want to be with that?

Oh my God, am I getting margin called

again? Oh, for fuck's sake.

It's not that bad.

Oh damn, Tesla did do a big run-up and it

dumped a bit. Uh, I'm still short.

I still think market's going back down.

Barrick Gold did really well though today.

It's up more than everything.

Everything's like dumping and crashing.

Barrick Gold is up 3%.

Told you. I knew that was happening.

Trump just comes out with this silly

statement to fix everything and it's like

a temporary fix, but really holds no

meaning. 90-day pause.

Yeah. And then what happens after 90 days

and it's all back on the table?

You can't negotiate trade deals within 90

months. I mean, 90 days. It will take

Yeah. When I was married with Chihiro, I

felt really depressed and miserable at the

idea of being stuck in Japan my whole

life. Because it was so boring.

Life in Japan, you end up in this tiny

little apartment eating the same food

every day, getting on the train, sitting

in the apartment, going to 7-Eleven.

So boring.

I guess if we stayed together, eventually

we could have maybe bought a house like in

Akita. Done it up,

done the Airbnb like Sharla does with my

YouTube money, got a pet,

lived in a house instead of an apartment

would be nice. Those could have been the

outcomes if I stuck with the marriage,

but I was very short-sighted with it.

Marry Blood Bucket. Get a visa.

It's just I don't want to live in Japan

anymore. It's boring. When I

was younger, it seemed magical.

Everything seemed so great about it. And

now it's just boring.

Japanese countryside. Um,

it's not as good as the British

countryside. It's okay because it's got

mountains and rice fields, which look

quite cool. And one thing

that really bothered me about Japan in the

countryside were the cars. Like the

weird-looking boxcars and the

weird-looking little box trucks. The cars

just look stupid. No one drives cool cars

there. They all drive these weird kei

cars. They look

so dumb. Sunny kept saying she really

liked them and she wanted to import one

from Japan because they were so good. But

they've got rubbish aerodynamics, they've

got rubbish engines. If— even if there's a

slight hill, you floor it and then it goes

like that. The only good thing is the

ceiling is very high, so you don't have to

worry about banging your head, and it is

quite spacious, I guess.

Yeah, I did quite like going to visit

Sunny in her little countryside house

place.

She drove us to the beach and then we had

Indian curry.

We climbed up this tiny little mountain.

She seemed so normal back then. Like just

a normal person who doesn't go crazy.

Maybe I made her crazy. Maybe she was

normal and then I made her go crazy.

I seem to have that effect on women.

Why does your mic look like that? Like

what? Because it

didn't have a wind muffler, so I got some

foam and I just put a rubber band and

attached it to it.

How can Japan be more boring than UK

countryside? Well, there's no pheasants

and there's no cute animals and sheep.

I never saw any sheep in Japan. It doesn't

have rolling hills and trees. It's just

got boring, ugly mountains.

The only thing I miss are things like

yakiniku.

People say, oh, it's safe, but I feel like

it's pretty safe here.

Infinite things to do in Tokyo. Yeah, and

they're all boring. Oh, a muscle bar.

Oh, a cat cosplay

bar. Yeah, infinite amounts of weird

stupid stuff that I don't care about.

I don't want to go to weird bars where

they've got a weird theme. What's the

Blood Bucket took me to this vampire goth

girl bar and it was so boring. The girls

don't even talk to you unless you buy them

a drink. And then we bought them a drink

and then one of them came and sat with us

and she was just like, eh,

suuuuuiiiiii.

It was so fucking annoying. Everything you

say is, "Eh,

soなんだすごい." Shut the fuck up. It's like

talking to an AI robot. I'd rather talk to

an AI.

It's just

like you're talking to a super advanced

robot. There's no humanness at all with

them. So fake.

I swear Japanese people are just like

robots sometimes.

Although the food was pretty good. We had

smoked sausage. With moldy cheese

and blood sausage.

The food was okay. A bit overpriced

I guess the ambience was kind of nice.

I just— I wouldn't really want to go there

again. I'd rather go to a normal bar and

meet real people. And then

this guy came in on his own, sat at the

bar, and I thought, this is— he's like 50

years old and he's just coming here so he

can chat to young girls that don't care

about him. And he's like sitting in this

goth bar on his own. It's so weird.

What's the point? Go home to your family,

or I don't know, go home and like clean

your house or something. What are you

doing? All the

Japanese salarymen just like pop into the

Chinese massage before getting on the

train home. Such a weird place.

I don't know, it's just like a really sad

state that the country has gotten

themselves into. It used to be like a

country of honor and samurai and tradition

and all that kind of— how did it devolve

into all this degeneracy? Is it

because they got nuked?

They just— they went from like a super

traditional country to this weird country.

All these lame subcultures like otakus.

Train otakus are the dumbest things ever.

They just stand there with the big camera

waiting for the train to come. Who cares?

It's just a fucking train. Imagine caring

that much about a stupid train.

So you're gonna take a picture of the

train and then what are you gonna do with

it? Print it and frame it in your house?

You've probably got 1,000 pictures of the

same train. What do they do at home? Like

go on the computer and go, oh, oh, I took

this picture yesterday. Oh, I took this

picture last year. Oh wow, it's a

different color. Get a life.

I can't imagine caring that much about a

How about South Korea? Well, at least

South Korea is a bit more normal. They

don't have all this weirdness.

Where did my downfall start?

Hmm. When did the upfall even start?

Has there ever not been a downfall? I feel

like it's been downfall since I was born.

When was life ever good?

It's just always seemed— it seems like

it's always rubbish at the

time it was happening.

Oh my God, market's going up and I'm still

It's okay, I'll hold it overnight. It'll

go down.

No, I don't blame my parents. I just— I

blame my mind. For some reason,

every life situation I get into,

I seem to not like it. But I do quite

like my life now.

I do quite like living here. It is nice.

Maybe I can thank Sunny for finally

getting me to move out of my mum's house,

even if it ended up not being with Sunny.

Because I don't— I wouldn't be here if it

wasn't for her. Maybe this is what was

meant to be. I'd probably still be at my

mum's house doing Uber Eats.

No, it wasn't my mum that pushed me out

because I've had fights with my mum

before. It's just that this

time I had a car and I had a girlfriend,

so I was happy to leave and I was able to.

Before, I didn't have a car, so I couldn't

just leave, could I?

You moved out before? Yeah,

that is true.

But I don't think I would have moved out

again. Again unless I had a good reason

to. And I thought Sunny was a good reason,

a good motivation.

Because if I stayed at my mom's house, I

think the relationship would have been

over. She would have gotten more and more

stressed out having to get the 8-hour bus

to see me. She would have gotten more and

more angry about the texting. And more and

more jealous over my YouTube channel.

I think it would have just— if I didn't

move, it would have been over.

Especially because she got the job. She

wouldn't have any time to come and see me

anymore. She wouldn't be able to just come

over for a week or 10 days. It would be

So it would have ended up in a breakup,

and then I stay at my mum's house, and

then what would I do?

I'm trying to figure out what to do in

life. So hard.

Sometimes you don't end up figuring it

out, and life just chooses for you.

You won't be able to sustain a

relationship in this setup.

You don't do anything.

What should I do? I've got a job. I've got

my hobbies like YouTube and stocks.

What do I need to add to my life?

I've got my routine.

Like, what is wrong with my life that

makes it so unappealing?

I've got a nice car.

I've got a nicer car than probably 80% of

the people out there. I see. I drive a

lot. I see all the other cars on the road.

Everyone's driving shit cars.

My car's way nicer.

It's not a budget electric. A Nissan Leaf

is a budget electric. Mine's like a

mid-range. It's not as expensive as a

Tesla. It's not as cheap as a Nissan Leaf.

It's banged up. Oh, it's just got a couple

scratches. Who cares?

Yeah, I don't know. How do I make my life

look cooler?

Buy more stuff.

Create a business.

I have multiple businesses. Got OnlyFans,

got YouTube.

I guess I'll make spaghetti again tonight.

I'm— I want to make like a butter chicken

consommé garlic

spaghetti with onion and green pepper

and broccoli. Sounds good.

Stop doing gaming videos.

Nope. I spent $70

on Monster Hunter Wilds. I make about

80 cents per video. I gotta make 80 videos

to break even.

That was not a good idea to buy that game.

Your mic quality is bad. It's the same

mic. Do you think this sounds bad?

It was just because the audio level on

Bandicam was a lot higher than I thought

it was. I didn't realize the sensitivity

was up so much.

And my computer is

just not good enough to run modern games

and a screen recorder.

So I've gotta buy a new computer. I can't

Yeah, it's weird how some games work

and then some games just don't get any

views at all. All the clickbaiting doesn't

work, and then some games it just works,

like Path of Exile 2, Diablo 4, easy to

farm. I'm not getting any views on Monster

Hunter. I just don't get it.

Why is it not working?

I've got loads of views doing Elden Ring.

The game is not very deep. That's the

problem. There's no builds like a talent

tree or anything. There's a very basic

weapon crafting system where you just need

to get like a couple claws and scales.

The game's just really shallow. I think

that's the problem.

Maybe I'd give up.

Take the L. £60 business expense.

Tax harvesting write-off.

Has tons of weapons. Yeah, but they're all

shit.

There's a really good weapon I want to

craft, but it needs scales from a thing

called a Kutsuku, and I can't find it

Yeah, I picked the wrong game. I just

really wanted something to pump out

content.

What should I get next? I don't think I

can get the Switch 2. It's just going to

be out of stock everywhere.

I got banned from Path of Exile for

promoting that gold website. I was stupid

and I showed my username in the videos.

If I just use really low quality video so

you can't read the text, I wonder if they

would have found my, my account. Can't

believe they banned— I've never been

banned from a video game before. Can't

believe I got banned. Give me my money

back then.

I did the same thing on Diablo 4. They

never banned me. I promoted— I mean, even

on Elden Ring, I promoted the gold website

and I never got banned on Elden Ring. I

don't even know you can get banned on

Elden Ring. What would

really excite you?

Yeah, I mean, that's what you got to do.

What genuinely excites you?

Going to bed. Going to bed and

wanking. And having a massive

Buying phones excites me. I can't just

keep buying phones though. I quite

like cooking. Cooking's fun.

Not a lot excites me, to be honest.

I quite like looking at the stock market.

Lives in a retirement town. Yeah,

everyone here is kind of old.

My current goals is to make money,

pay off debts, create a solid

foundation, improve my

quality of life,

uh, get better at cooking and trading

stocks.

The roads. I was, I was behind this Tesla

Model Y and then the roads opened up and

it just went and it shot off and I floored

my car on eco mode. And I couldn't keep up

at all. He just took off.

Yeah, well, I was in eco mode, okay?

Obviously I can't keep up.

He didn't get far though. I just— he got

stuck behind someone else and then I

Damn, look at Barrick Gold. Is it gonna

break $20 anytime soon?

What should I do if Barrick Gold reaches

my take profit zone? I should take

some off the table, to be honest,

although my price target is like 3x.

I just don't, don't think I can pay off

this Amazon credit card unless I sell some

stocks because I'm in a deficit.

The 0 to 60 of my car is about 8 seconds.

I think if you put into sport mode, it

might do it in 7 or 6.

Should have stayed at home, pocketed the

£900 a month. Well, I would have to give

it to my mum, wouldn't I? And then

I would have missed out on loads of sex.

Had sex with Sunny probably 851

times. If you divide that

by the amount of money I spent, It's

pretty affordable. It's like

getting a big massive bag of pasta and

then divide it by how many meals you get

out of it. It's better than going to a

Sunny is now etched in the history of

hiding my room as one of the HMR girls.

Her proudest achievement.

How come you can't get out of debt with 3

income sources? Well, I don't know how

much I could make on OnlyFans yet.

YouTube and my job, I probably make

£1,800-ish, but my expenses are about

£1,400. And then I always end up buying

something off Amazon every month.

Like, I don't know, bag of rice,

a phone case.

What else? Toilet paper. Bought some

toilet paper yesterday.

You always end up having to buy something

you didn't expect to buy— have to buy