[2019-05-17] I'm giving up on women [ua7jGYCep6k]

It's been about 4— it's

been a few months since me and my wife

separated, and I've been on a few dates,

as you may know. One in London, 2 in

Germany, another one in London. And I've

been on a few dates with a few women, and

for some reason I just didn't feel

attracted to any of them. None of them

were up to my standards. And I'm just not

really sure why I didn't feel attracted to

any of them. Is it because they were

unattractive? I don't think that's true

because most, most people in the comment

section were saying that they were cute or

attractive and they didn't understand why

I didn't like them. So I don't think that

them being unattractive is the reason why

I didn't feel attracted to them. And I

don't think that they were ugly or

unattractive. I thought that they were

sort of attractive. I just didn't really

feel anything inside my chest. You know

that feeling when you see a really

attractive person and you feel really

attracted to them? You get this fluttery,

exciting feeling of excitement in your

chest. I just didn't feel that at all on

any of the dates, and I'm not quite sure

why. So I started to question my

sexuality, and I started to ask myself,

am I even attracted to women at all in

general? Because when I look back at my

past relationships and all of the dates

that I've been on in the past, I didn't

feel attracted to any of them. Sure, some

of them were quite pretty, some of them

had big boobs, but deep down inside of

my chest, I didn't really feel that

feeling of excitement when I was with

them, and I can't remember the last time I

felt that feeling when I was with a woman.

I just think it's a bit strange that as a

straight guy, I don't find most women to

be attractive, and I could go on a date

with 100 women and you'd be lucky if I

found even 2 of them attractive and I felt

attracted to them. So what is

the meaning of this? Do I like men? Do I

not like women? I don't think that's true

because I've never felt interested or

attracted to men, and there's definitely

certain types of women that I feel

attracted to. It's just that I never get

the opportunity to meet them. For example,

for example, I could walk around outside

in Japan and there'd be cuties everywhere.

I'd walk past them, they'd be working in

shops and I look at their faces and I

think, wow, I wish I was her boyfriend.

And I feel that fluttery feeling of

excitement in my chest. So I definitely

feel attracted to a certain type of girl,

but it's like I said before, I just don't

know how to meet these girls, how to get—

I don't know how to get on dates with

these cuties. It's like they're golden

chocolate. Locked inside of a glass

cabinet and all I can do is stare at them

and I can't touch. A lot of people ask me,

Daniel, what kind of girls do you like?

Give us an example. So here's an example

of a girl that I find very attractive,

and I think her face is very nice, and

this is the kind of face that I generally

find myself feeling attracted to.

I guess you could call her my dream girl.

And I guess you could also say that she's

way out of my league and there's no chance

I would ever be able to get a girlfriend

like that. And I agree, I agree

with you, she is way out of my league.

And at my current level, at my current

status, there's just no way I could get a

girl like that unless I lied about being

rich or something. The only way I could

ever possibly even dream of getting a girl

like my dream girl would be if I went to

the gym, buffed up my body so I looked

more masculine, so I felt more confident.

If I got back into school, got back into

education, got myself a degree, got myself

a decent job, somehow grew a personality.

Maybe if I got some friends and a social

circle so I didn't seem like a weird

hermit, then maybe, maybe I would have a

slight chance of having a shot with a

dream girl like that. And I keep thinking

to myself, do I really want to put that

much effort and time and hard work into

getting my dream girl?

It would take years and years and years

and years and years of dedication, hard

work, study, and I'm

just lazy. I don't have that kind of

motivation. Even for my dream girl, I'm

not that motivated to get an education,

to go to the gym, to get friends.

So I think I'm gonna give up on

my dream girl. I've been trying to find

her for the last 10 years, ever since I

reached the age of 20, and my first plane

ticket to Japan, I've been on this quest

to find my dream girl, and 10 years have

passed, and I haven't gotten any closer to

finding her, and I just don't think it's

gonna happen. I don't think I'm gonna be

able to get her. Do you?

Are you a girl who looks like this? Do you

think I would even have a chance with

someone like you? I don't think I do,

because if I had a chance then maybe I'd

be with you by now. But it's 10 years

later and no,

those, those cuties, they're not

interested in me, and that's totally

understandable.

So I think I'm just going to give up

because I'm not getting any younger.

I've tried a lot of things. I've tried my

And I just, I don't think it's gonna work

out. And I'm also starting to

think that maybe using my YouTube channel

to try and find a serious relationship or

a girlfriend isn't really a great idea.

So I'm gonna be canceling, closing down my

girlfriend applications. So don't send me

any more applications over Instagram. I'm

still up for hookups, but I don't think

that I'll be able to find anything

meaningful, um, by using my channel.

The problem is my reputation isn't that

great, and there's a lot of people

smearing my name, making stuff up,

making me seem like this crazy person.

And if there are any girls out there who

might have been interested in me, all they

have to do is Google my name and read all

of this rubbish, and then they'd probably

not want to get involved with me anymore.

And the other problem is if I do meet a

girl and then we have a bad experience

together and then I talk about it, which

is something I would probably do because I

talk about things on my channel, she's not

going to be happy. I mean, look at what

happened with the Turkish girl incident.

She went running off to Reddit and she

was commenting and telling everyone about

how horrible I was and this and that.

Trying to make me look bad. And I just

don't really feel comfortable about these

girls telling the side of the story and

telling it in a way that makes me look

worse than what actually happened. And

this brings me to another problem. So if I

don't find— if I can't find a girl using

my channel, that means I have to find a

girl without using my channel. So that

would be a girl who doesn't know about my

channel. So I have to keep my channel

secret from any future relationships. And

yeah, maybe I could keep it secret for a

few months, but eventually she's gonna ask

me what I do for a living, and then I'm

gonna have to tell her. Unless I lie, but

lying's bad. So let's say I tell her,

well, I do YouTube. She's gonna ask me

what my channel is, and even if I don't

tell her my channel name, all she has to

do is type in my name into Google and then

up pops my channel and all of

these articles written by people trying to

smear me and make me look bad? What is she

going to think after reading all this crap

about me? I just can't really imagine any

sane girl wanting to be with me after

reading all of this rubbish on the

internet about me. So I really don't know

how I'm going to find a proper long-term

serious relationship now. And even if I

took down my channel, even if I took down

all of my videos, all these other websites

smearing me are still going to stay up,

and I have no control over that. So my

reputation is pretty much down the

toilet, and it's very easy to look me up

on the internet. All you have to do is

type in my name, and I'm

not going to be able to keep that secret

or hidden from a future potential serious

partner. Unless they don't speak English

at all and they don't use the

internet much and they don't really

understand what things like Reddit and

Discord are, then maybe I'd be safe for

a while. But eventually they're gonna find

out, aren't they? So yeah, I feel a bit

confused. I'm not sure how I'm going

to continue my quest for love, and I kind

of just feel like giving up. Now, and I

bought myself something which I

would love to show you, but unfortunately

because of YouTube and how strict it is

when it comes to these things, I won't be

able to. But I'll do a little unboxing

right now. Let's just say that it's

probably the best— the next best thing to

a real woman, and it's a lot cheaper and

affordable. So this is my love

doll in the box in the corner. The postman

just brought it and I managed to sneak it

into the house without my mum noticing,

which was pretty fun and exciting.

Oh shit.

So this is my Love Doll in this box. It's

Not sure if you can hear it inside there.

And they sent it to me in this brown box,

nice and discreet, no embarrassing

pictures on the outside of the box,

unlike the one in Japan. In Japan, I

bought a Love Doll as well. They sent it

to me in a box, and on top of the box had

this sticker of the actual Love Doll, and

it was really embarrassing. And I would

love to open the box right here and show

it to you on YouTube, but unfortunately

the website is run by a bunch of wet

tissues, and I'd get into trouble if I

showed you what's inside of here. So if

you would like to see it, follow me on

Instagram, @rabbitsatefamily. Send me a

message, follow me, and I'll send you a

picture of it.

Oh well, well, well, well, that was very

interesting, I have to admit.

Let's just say my new toy has a very nice

figure, probably one of the best figures

I've ever had my hands on.

If I had to draw it, I guess it would be a

bit like— a bit like

this. And there's

no legs and no head,

so I think you can use your imagination.

The texture of the item is very realistic.

Still feels a bit rubbery because it's

made out of rubber. But it's fairly

realistic, I would say. Nearly as good as

the real thing. Yeah, I have no

complaints. I'm actually very satisfied.