life just keeps getting worse...

Testing. Is this the barbecue stream? No,

it's too cold now.

It's about 14 degrees, cloudy and windy.

Not very nice. My nose is cold.

Um, so I'm waiting for Tesco,

but they're not here.

I thought AJ ordered it to come between 4

PM and 5 PM. It's now 1 minute past 5,

so not sure what's going on.

Hmm, Sunday between 4 and 5 PM.

Hopefully they didn't cancel the order.

She messaged me last night saying that

they kept canceling the order because she

didn't put a phone number in. So then I

gave her my number and then she put it in

and it said confirmed, but I don't know

if it got canceled again or not. Would be

a bit sad if it got canceled, but I guess

we got the leftover pork from yesterday.

Also, there's no room in my fridge, so I'm

gonna have to try and eat something to

make room or finish something.

Last time I washed my jumper— this

one? I don't know.

Um, because I was wearing the other gray

jumper. So since I stopped wearing the

other gray jumper, I started wearing this

one, which hasn't been worn before since

it was last washed, if that makes sense.

God, it's cold again.

It can't even stay warm for a bit, can it?

Where's AJ? Where are my stakes?

I need to know if it's been cancelled or

not. God, my nose is freezing.

Oh yeah, I need a nose warmer.

Yeah, so it's been a very exciting day. I

did laundry and then I cleaned my kitchen

and did food prep.

The content king back

at it again.

I heard an engine, but it's just a car.

BMW. Hmm. So I was hoping that the Tesco

would be here by now.

I come here every 2 years to see how

you're doing. Oh, wow. Thanks for

remembering me. I want to see

your food prepping skills. I just cut

peppers into slices. Not very

skillful.

Oh, shut up, Jenny Craig. I only started 5

minutes ago. How many viewers do

you get? Yeah, exactly.

You get millions of views. Yeah,

whatever.

You don't even have one video and

you joined 2 weeks ago

on YouTube, so you're

basically just a troll.

What happened to your fear of becoming gay

because of OnlyFans? Well, if I have

no choice, then I've got to take it up the

bum, don't I?

Maybe it's not so bad. Things could be

worse, like delivering thousands of

parcels every day.

How much do your viewers need to pay you

to go back to Japan?

I don't know, a lot of money.

First of all, I need to pay off all my

debts before I think about moving

anywhere, so £20,000?

Yeah, Tesco's not here. What's going on,

AJ? She's probably still asleep.

What time is it in New Zealand?

4 AM. She said

she was gonna wake up,

but I don't expect her to wake up at 4 AM.

Hmm,

I don't

know if I'm sick. I feel kind of snotty.

Then you went into $8K debt for Sony.

Yeah, well, I mean, it ended up getting me

out of my mum's house, didn't it? And

living my own independent life.

That was one of my goals anyway.

This has been something I wanted to do.

It's just that I thought when I was going

to do it, I would have a girlfriend with

me, not just in the beginning and then I'd

get abandoned.

So I was planning to do this, but I was

only planning to do it if I had a

girlfriend. Otherwise, I thought,

I thought, what's the point?

You already went independent when you

moved to Manchester. Yeah, but I couldn't

get a girlfriend, so I didn't see any

reason to continue it.

So I'm thinking, if I still can't get a

girlfriend here, then what's the point of

continuing it? Now, the not continuing— I

mean, the continuing it thing is because I

don't want to go back home to my mum's

My 2 mandates: get girlfriend and avoid

Yeah, Tesco's not coming. What's going on?

I bet it's been cancelled. I bet you

anything's been cancelled again. I don't

know why it keeps cancelling her order.

She definitely put the right address.

Because if they say 4 to 5, they would

definitely come between 4 and 5, wouldn't

they? Oh,

maybe it got moved to 5 to 6 because

there's 2 canceled orders, 4 to 5, and

then another canceled order, 5 to 6.

Maybe by— I bet it's 5 to 6.

'Cause if by the time she successfully put

in the order, the 4 to 5 time slot would

have been missed. I reckon it's the 5 to 6

time slot. Do you think they would cancel

the order if they think it's a scam from

overseas? I don't see why they would,

'cause they're still getting the money and

it's a UK address.

No, I'm not going back to my mum's house.

I'll do everything within my power to

continue living here. Now the biggest risk

is I have to move out for some reason,

like, I don't know, he needs to do

renovation, or I don't know, whatever

excuse he can come up with. So my only

risk is I have to find a new place.

And then I would need like $8K or $9K to

add to my income so I qualify the income

check. Now I was thinking I could either

sell my car for a boost, like a lump

sum of money, or I could pull out money

from my credit card into my checking

account like I did for the Airbnbs and

then screenshot the savings and then just

move it back into the credit cards. So

those are my 2 options. Uh, credit card

maneuver is more liquid, whereas selling

the car would probably take a bit more

time. The car is kind of useless now,

to be honest. I need to poo, but I'm

scared if I go poo, the Tesco man comes.

I think it's not poo, it's just fart.

I don't know. I think there's something up

there. Yeah, so my biggest danger

is that if I lose this place, I need to

quickly find a new place. I don't know how

long they give you, like a month, month's

notice. I reckon I could find a place

within a month because I found this place

in 2 weeks? It took

me about 2 weeks and a half. Photoshop the

savings screenshot. Isn't that illegal

though? But how would they know?

It's not like they're gonna check the bank

account, are they? Yeah, that's my biggest

fear right now, is that if I have to move

out, and will I be able to get another

place where I've got a driveway and stuff

like that and it's nice and everything?

That's hopefully not more expensive than

this place. Yeah, I found this place

without a job. They used my tax report

from 2022,

and then they said, oh, you made 17K in

2022. You will need an extra 9K in savings

to meet the income check. So I showed them

I got 9K savings. So That was because I

asked my mum for the money, but now I

don't want to ask my mum for more money.

So my options would be I either sell the

car for the money or I do the credit card

thingy. Even then, I mean, my max credit

limit on the credit card is like $7K. So

if I need $9K, I'm kind of screwed and I'm

planning to sell all my stocks. So if

I sell my stocks, that's like $4K safety

And it could take at least 6 months to

rebuild that safety net.

But I really need to pay off the Amazon

card, otherwise I'm going to be charged £5

a day interest. So yeah, I might have to

sell the car if I have to move out of this

place. That is a possibility because

I could get $7K out the credit card.

And also, I don't know if I can do the

same trick with the Amazon card, or maybe

I can try to apply to increase my credit

because I have, I have actually increased

my credit limit on that credit card twice

because it started off as a $4K credit

limit. I increased it to $5K and then $7K,

so they might let me increase it again So

my, my previous tax year I reported that I

made £18,000. So I'd need another— I

think they wanted me to have— they wanted

me to make £27K a year to qualify for this

place. So I'd need another £9K.

I would need to prove that I've got 9K

So yeah, that's just the main danger,

is how easily I can find another place if

worst-case scenario I have to move out of

this place. Hopefully— I think it's

unlikely because I'm pretty sure he just

wants someone to live here long term. I

don't see why he would want me to move

out. That'd be silly.

Most— I'm pretty sure every landlord wants

their properties to be lived

in, otherwise what's the point?

My rent now is £900 a month.

It's rare for a landlord to accept

savings. It's not really up to the

landlord though, it's the Real estate

agent. The real estate agent needs to do

this stuff. If it's— if

the checks pass the real estate agent,

then that's all you need really,

which is stupid, I think. I mean, the

rent's $900 a month. Why do I need to make

$3K a month?

You really got lucky with the place you're

in. Yeah, I do feel like that. It is

really nice here.

Win Ice's prison stream. Highly risky

and unlikely to win. And very

expensive.

Low chance of winning, high risk,

and very expensive entry to barrier.

Yeah, so things are kind of risky. I'd be

financially devastated If I had to leave

this place and find a new place,

it would be extremely devastating.

So I really got to— I got to pay rent in 3

Winter's going to be hell. Yeah, I know.

I was here from the end of winter and it

was hell. It was so cold.

Was the floor was like ice. It was like

standing on ice.

But yeah, the OnlyFans is steadily

growing. The stream has been making good

money and Yeah,

I should be able to make £400 to £500

more than I need every month, and then

I can start rebuilding my stocks, which

will also act as a safety net for in case

I need to get a new place.

So yeah, I mean, things aren't looking

terrible, but there is risk.

Has your boss reached out? No, I've

deleted all the apps. Deleted the driver

app, the scanning app, the payment app,

whatever. Don't care anymore.

I'm not doing that work. It sucks putting

100 parcels in your car, trying to find

it. When it rains, you get soaked.

Driving up and down, up and down. Oh, I

hated it so much. Just hated

it. Horrible job. And then you just get

people whining at you in the reviews. He

didn't even bother to ring the doorbell.

I only found it because I looked outside

when I opened my door. Why don't you check

the stupid app then, dumb bitch? It

literally says your parcel has been

delivered. I've ordered things from Temu

and they get delivered by Evry and it says

your parcel has been delivered. Check your

fucking phone, moron. Stupid old people.

Don't see why it's so hard to check your

phone to see if it's delivered or not. It

literally says on the phone your item will

be delivered between this time and this

time. When it is that time, between that

time and that time, then just check to see

if it's been delivered or not. Why do you

need someone to knock on the door? Knock

your backside next time. Knock you up in

your hole. How'd you like that?

Hmm. Got 40 minutes until 6 PM.

See if the test goes comes between 5 and 6

All those old people give me bad reviews

made me lose my job. I curse them all to

hell.

Yeah, it's not a very nice day today.

Very cloudy.

No Sunday.

Make more drawing videos. I need an iPad.

I need the latest iPad with M4 chip,

13-inch iPad Pro.

iPad Pro M4 chip,

13-inch Retina display.

Apple Pencil Pro.

Yeah, I mean, I just don't have the money

to date and drive to—

probably if you go on a date, they

probably meet in Plymouth because that's—

I mean, where would you meet? In the

village. So I'm not really interested

in dating right now unless the

woman's literally just going to come right

on my lap. I'm not putting any effort into

You just can't really. There's things I

want to buy, like a vacuum cleaner. I want

an RTX 5 series desktop computer. I want

an 85-inch TV. I want the Switch 2. I want

iPad Pro. I want so many

things.

I'm trying to promote my OnlyFans, put

posts on Twitter. I might go look for some

gay subreddits to promote my stuff.

Or maybe I can just pay someone on Fiverr

to promote my stuff for me. Surely there's

people on Fiverr who will do this because

I can't be bothered, to be honest.

Well, what about one of you guys do it and

I'll pay you,

pay you 10% of the monthly earnings.

Be my PR manager.

There must be like subreddits for Asian

twink guy fetish.

I think OnlyFans is my best chance of

making money. It's like I get one, I get 2

new members And that's more money than I

make from a video. I make a video, I make

like $15. It's just not worth it anymore.

That's why I only do streams now.

There's no point making a video unless you

really have belief that it's gonna get 10K

views. Did I quit my job?

No, I got banned. Got banned from the app.

Ghosted. No email explaining why. Boss

said he was going to inquire and then I

never heard from him.

So I can't be bothered with this stupid

company anymore. Going to make a video

about why working for Every sucked.

Worst job ever. They make you do unpaid

parcel loading work in the morning.

Get crap money, 50 pence per parcel,

and then they just ghost you without any

explanation.

Do not— why I regret working

for Every. Worst job I ever

had. And then thumbnail. Every's logo and

then worst company ever,

something like that. I'm gonna slam them

just like I slammed Amazon Flex.

They're gonna get it. Yeah, the manager

was useless. He's like, oh yeah, you made

£75 a day easy. Doesn't reply when

you ask him questions, no training, and

then they just ban you for doing the job

Horrible working conditions at the depot.

The depot was literally just a

bunch of shipping containers with all the

parcels chucked in there. I've got

pictures as well of it.

Yeah, it's not— it wasn't a warehouse.

Most of the depots are proper warehouses,

but this one was like, like a,

like a plot of land with a bunch of

shipping containers just dumped there with

a padlock on it. And you go there and you

open it up and you take your parcels out

and you sort them, but if it's raining,

you get soaked. The whole ground gets

soaked, covered in puddles. You just get

drenched. No roof, nothing.

Appalling conditions. I should have taken

some videos, like footage of it.

Exposing the dark side of every— I'm going

to get a lawsuit against me if it gets any

views. Exposing the dark side of every

appalling conditions.

Overworked, underpaid, modern-day slavery.

At least at Amazon you got a roof and they

bring out the parcels on a trolley all

prepared for you, and then all you gotta

do is scan it and put it in the car. This

one you gotta like carry out the parcels

yourself one by one.

And then you get drenched. It was like a

scuffed Amazon.

If you don't include mum debt, you're not

doing too bad. Uh,

yeah, I know, and I've got this— I've got

the money in stocks that I could use to

pay off the Amazon card. It's just that my

stocks have not done well in the recent

weeks. And, um, I would— so

basically I've got 2 months before I have

to pay off the Amazon credit card before

interest kicks in. The interest kicks in

July, 30% APR.

And my gold stock and SPY short are not

doing well because the market's going up.

So I'm hoping that within the next 2

months Market comes down, gold goes

up, and I can sell it. I would like— I

want to get another 10% before I sell it

because currently my portfolio is worth

$4,100 and I need $4,800. So I

need a 15%— I need

a 15% gain on my $4,100.

Yeah, I need a fit. I need 15 to 20% gain

basically. So I really need gold to come

back up and I need the markets to come

back down in within the next 2 months.

That's my time frame.

Really should have sold Barrick Gold when

it was at $21. Now it's at like $18.50.

They've got earnings coming up Wednesday.

Hoping it's going to be good earnings,

get the stock up so I can sell it. And I'm

hoping that the indices come down

a bit. I think they will. So I was doing

some research today, and according to AI,

historically, when the indices have a 6%

rally the following week, there's a 70%

chance that there's a 2 to 5% pullback.

So I've got the statistics on my side.

And there's also sell in May, go away

phrase, because May is usually not a great

month for the stock market. Actually, 60%

of the time in May, the indices end

up lower than it started in May. And this

is all backed up by historical data. So

I've been doing some research.

I've also been trying to come up with

systematic trades, like if

these conditions are met, then you take

the trade. So I think, you know, if you

get a 60% rally in one week, then if

there's a 70% chance of a pullback the

next week, then going short on Friday

Doesn't seem like a terrible idea. And

then you aim for a 2 to 5%, uh, take

profit. Said a 70% chance of it pulling

back the next week with a 2 to 5%

pullback.

Now I didn't consult ChatGPT, I consulted

Copilot, and it, it uses historical

financial data from Yahoo Finance going

back decades pulling this info out.

So yeah, statistics on my, my side. I have

set my take profit limits to between 2%

and 5%, which actually is funny because

you, you put the take profit down to where

3%, 5% are, and it's actually at major key

levels where there's a gap a fair value

gap. So I don't think it's a coincidence

that these fair value gaps are placed like

3 to 5% down of where it's

currently made a high. And AI literally

says 70% of the time it has 6% rally,

next week it comes down 2 to 5%. So I've

set 2 take profit levels at 3% and 5%,

and they were actually slightly above or

at 2 fair value gaps.

So yeah, I'm quite confident about next

So what I need to do is become more

systematic with my trading and stop trying

to guess or take potshots or be bored and

take potshots. I need to come up with some

more systems, like if this happens then do

this, otherwise there's no trade.

Also there's a lot of info, red folder

news coming out next week, like I forgot,

unemployment numbers, all that stuff. So

yeah, it's going to be a lot of news that

could tank the market.

A 70% chance of a pullback next week. So

looking pretty good. If all goes well,

um, I can sell all my stocks next week and

pay off the Amazon card. And then start

rebuilding my finances from next week,

that'll be great. But I'm willing to wait

until the 1st of July to pull the trigger.

I'm just not really— don't want to sell it

when it's down so I can squeeze the

maximum amount of money to pay off this

Amazon card. Otherwise I'm not gonna have

enough from just stocks alone to pay off

the Amazon card. I'm gonna have to go into

overdraft, which is not good.

No, it's not gambling. It's statistics and

having risk management. Yeah, it's true.

You can't predict the outcome or you can't

control the outcome of the direction of

the market. But what you can control is

risk management. That is the only thing

you can control. Everything else is out of

your control. So you need proper risk

management, stop losses and stuff.

And you need systems, you need rules.

Like if it, if it loses 2%, then I'm just

gonna stop out. And not chase it.

If it stops me out, stops me out. Don't

chase it back in. That's how you

stay profitable as a trader.

Next week is my last week on Traveling

Traders Discord. I have to, I have to

decide if I'm gonna stick with it or stay

on it or get off it. Not sure yet.

I mean, $100 is quite a lot when you're

25 minutes until 6 PM, still no Tesco.

And no AJ.

We don't have options in the UK. I'm doing

CFDs, which are leveraged 20 to 1.

My suspicion is the order got cancelled

and she fell asleep before realizing, or

the order went through, um, but the time

slot is like 6 PM to 7 PM.

I was predicting it would be 5 to 6. It

can't be 4 to 5 because those got

cancelled, and one at 5 to 6 also got

canceled. So I'm guessing she entered

another order and it got confirmed at 5 to

Where's Cake? Cake's gone. That's over.

She doesn't talk to anyone anymore.

That's done.

Okay, stay. Oh my God,

feels so good.

So I'm hoping gold is gonna find support

soon and go back up again so I can sell

it. That would

be nice.

What happened? She got bullied on Discord

and then stopped coming onto Discord.

People kept saying she looked like a trans

or something. People think

everyone looks like a trans. They

literally say every girl is a trans.

Someone was saying— I remember someone

said Sunny looked like Matt Lucas, and I

was like, oh my God, kind of. Yeah,

that's not a good look.

No, there's no latest on Sunny. She's

gone. I wonder if she still checks the

Reddit or anything. It's just funny that

when she was with me, she couldn't stop

checking it and it really got to her. But

now we're broke up, she has the ability to

stop checking it. If she just didn't check

it when we were together, we wouldn't have

had the problems. So it's really weird. I

don't understand why she felt the need to

check it when we were together, but now

we're not together, she feels like she

doesn't need to check it. That makes no

sense.

Why does us being together mean you gotta

And she probably just feels like now it's

over, she can just cut it all off and move

Some people have like weird logic when

it comes to internet stuff that I just

don't get how they— how their brains work.

How do they come to these conclusions?

AJ's probably sleeping. It's like 5 AM in

New Zealand.

Where are my damn steaks?

No, cake's old news too.

Although apparently Crypt is in love with

me. And severely emotionally attached,

which I don't know if that's good.

I didn't even do anything.

It's been more than 2 days. Cake hasn't

been here for like 5 days now.

Nearly a quarter of Devon and Cornwall

police officers plan to quit. Oh, maybe

there's an opening. I could become a

police officer.

I thought Crip showing off her nudies to

Thanos was a major turn-off. Yeah, a bit.

But maybe it's like a good thing if

straight from the beginning you don't

expect any kind of loyalty,

because then you can't really be surprised

by it.

19 minutes until 6 PM and there's still no

Tesco.

It would really suck if I start making my

dinner and then it comes and then I can't

make the steak.

Also, there's little pointy thin leaves

coming out of my compost patch. I'm hoping

those are the tomatoes.

It could be exciting.

Would I visit Camden? I've already visited

it with George Trombly, and these weed

sellers started coming up to us.

I went there with George Trombly in 2017.

I've been there before with my sister.

It's like sketchy looking market thingy,

they used to sell kangaroo burgers. Or was

it ostrich burgers?

I do not like London. I don't know why

anyone would want to live in London. It's

horrible.

I remember Amazon Flex doing Morrisons

from Gravesend used to sometimes send me

towards London And I got kind of close and

I didn't like it. It sent me as far up to

Northfleet or Ebbsfleet, which is like

outskirts of London. There were these, I

don't know, coloured people everywhere

riding mopeds with L licences doing Uber

Eats, and I felt very unsafe.

Couldn't wait to get back down into Kent.

Gravesend, shithole. Problem is Gravesend

had a lot of Morrisons pinging off, so I

kept taking them. You'd pray that they

send you back down south towards— I

forgot the name of that place.

It's a weird sound. No, I've forgotten it.

South of Gravesend, weird sounding place.

You pray they send you back down to

Maidstone, not north. Or towards Chatham.

Snodland. Oh, Meopam.

Meppham. Meppham's quite nice, very rural.

Oh God, I hated Gravesend. The drive to

Gravesend was not fun. You got to go onto

the M2 motorway and then

over some bridge, and then there's a bunch

of roundabouts. I nearly had an accident

on the roundabout as well. I got really

confused because I, I thought I entered

the GPS to take me to Gravesend

Morrison's, but I entered it to take me to

Gravesend town centre. And I kind of

remembered the way and I thought, I'm

supposed to be going first exit off the

roundabout, but the map kept telling me to

go straight and I couldn't— I was like,

my brain was having a meltdown and I was

like, should I go left or should I follow

the sat nav? And I was like, like that in

the roundabout. And then someone horned at

me. Because I wanted to take the first

exit, but this car was on my left side

blocking me from taking the first exit.

And I wanted to go, but then I was like,

oh no. And then I tried to go again, but

then it was too late. God, it was scary.

I hate driving in Kent. The motorways,

the roundabouts. Oh no,

no, no, no, no. If I ever go home to my

mum, I'm getting rid of that car. I'm not

driving on the motorways.

Nightmare. Absolute nightmare.

Driving from my house to where Dave Gibson

lived was horrible as well. You get on the

motorway and then you got to go around the

roundabout, horseshoe roundabout,

and then you got to go back up onto the

motorway and then you got to get off the

motorway and go around 2 massive

roundabouts. Make sure in the right lane.

If you're in the left lane, that one only

goes to London, and if you try using that

to go around it, you'll get horned at.

People are so rude as well. I mean,

they'll just cut you off.

I hate roundabouts. Small ones are fine,

but those big ones where you've got to be

in the right lane, and I never know if I

should be in the far right lane or the

second to far right lane to take the third

exit. And then if

you're going straight ahead, which lane do

you get in? The far left lane? I don't

know, it's so confusing. I hate motorway

roundabouts.

Yeah, I would not want to drive if I go

back home. I only like driving here

because it's so easy.

Although I really don't see myself driving

anymore, apart from going to Tesco maybe

once every 2 weeks. It does seem,

hmm, I don't know, like a waste of money

having that car now, because I could just

get a cheap car, and if I get a job,

that'll be good enough. Why do I need a

$10K electric car? That I never

use. That's really

annoying to drive long distance as well.

I just— I don't want like a loud

sputtering engine that could

break down. That's one of the reasons, I

guess.

I feel like if I drive anywhere and I come

back, I've used nearly half of the battery

and I've got to charge it, and that's £5.

I drive to Tesco and back and it's like

quarter of the battery, it's £2.50.

It feels like the battery just doesn't

last as long now. I don't know if it's

because I've used it so much. I've put—

I've Um, 14,000 miles on it since

last year.

Maybe I'll just keep the car as like a

safety net in case I need to

rent a new place, and I could sell it for

like 7K and then just

get a cheaper car like a Toyota Yaris.

Might even get a manual, I don't know.

I feel like my driving's good enough now

and I'm pretty confident on the road that

I could probably drive a manual.

Now that I'm confident with everything

else when it comes to driving, I shouldn't

be that nervous about using a manual

But that's like a last resort. Hopefully I

won't have to resort to that last resort.

10 minutes until 6 PM, no test score.

You don't think AJ tricked me?

I feel like it would be a bit sad if I got

the same cars faster though. That car had

a very iconic look.

I just— I still have the images, like the

memory of Vasta's car fully packed with

all her stuff. Her clothing was like

hanging on hangers in the back. All her

clothing. She just packed her whole house

to move in with me in Bangkok.

The little cup holders under the air

vents. I like the way it's got that

auxiliary port where you could plug it

into your phone and play music without

using CarPlay. AJ trolled you.

That'll be a very elaborate troll.

Why troll me over a steak?

Also, having a petrol car would mean I

don't really need to be able to charge the

car at my house. I could just go buy

She has your phone number too. How'd you

know that? Did I say that? Oh yeah, I said

that. I said it, didn't I?

That's why you know that. She's not like

laughing. Haha, I got Daniel's phone

number. Yeah, we're basically

dating now if she has my phone number.

You said it earlier.

Yeah, she's probably sleeping, but she

said she'd wake up early to join the

stream. Ken's sleeping

too. He's got a little moon emoji next to

his name, same as AJ. AJ and Ken sleeping

at the same time. Are they cheating on me?

They wouldn't dare. That's nearly the same

time zone, isn't it? Japan and New

There's a user in Traveling Traders

Discord. His username is Ken Travels Asia.

What if that's the same Ken? That would be

funny. No, Ken doesn't day trade,

so he wouldn't be on it.

Ken Travels Asia. Yeah, bet you do,

Ken. Bet you travel Asia real good.

Traveling up the pussy.

Would you meet Ken? I was going to because

he was mediating the meet between me and

Shin. But then Shin didn't really want

to be on stream, so I kind

of lost interest. Then no sex, no stream.

What's the point then? If I'm going to

meet Shin, I want at least sex or a

Why do your teeth look white? I don't

know. They look pretty yellow.

Compared to the background,

it depends on the lighting. Maybe because

my face looks yellow, it makes my teeth

look yes, lello. Yeah, what did

I say? Less yellow. Did I say yes, lello?

Less yellow, I meant. Yes,

Lelo. That was good.

Yes, Lelo.

Yeah, I think Shin's still in Japan.

Apparently she got a job. Ken's still in

Japan too. I don't know how they just

managed— how are they all going to Japan,

just living there, and I couldn't?

So how are they doing that? They've got

secret wives or something. So how does

Shin do? Because she's got a degree, she

should probably get an English teaching

job.

Imagine having a degree. Lame.

A friend of mine created a troll profile

using your pictures.

Really? Other girls hot?

I mean, yeah, you get— everyone gets lots

of matches when you sign up because they

boost your profile with the algorithm so

new users feel like, oh wow, I'm getting

so much matches, I'm going to sign up for

gold membership. And then after a bit you

get blacklisted. And no one sees your

profile anymore.

That's how it happens when every, every

time you sign up to a dating app, you get

loads of matches and then it just dies

Well, if you can get me some dates,

that'd be cool.

Oh my God, what if Sunny sees it and she

thinks it's me trying to date in her town?

That'd be so weird.

Pro photoshoot photos— doesn't that just

make it look weird?

I feel like when the photos look too

professional, it looks fake.

You want nice casual-looking selfies that

make you look good with decent lighting.

Profile was in another country. Oh, I

thought you meant You made

a Tinder for me here?

Which country?

You know what I realized? If you want to

get someone blacklisted on Tinder, all you

gotta do is make a fake profile of them

and then put your dick as one of the

pictures and then get banned. And then

that person's going to get blacklisted,

aren't they?

Because anyone could sign up to it, use my

photos Yeah,

it's 6 PM, still no Tesco.

Maybe it's coming between 6 and 7.

Why would you do that? Well, if people

didn't want me to date on dating apps,

they could get me banned. Before I was

already banned.

Maybe I can promote my OnlyFans on Grindr.

No stakes. Very disappointing.

6 PM now. I guess we wait until 7.

We need AJ to tell us if it's been

cancelled or not.

She said, I'm going to have to get up at 3

a.m. New Zealand time, but she's not up.

That was 2 hours ago.

How did I get over my ex?

Um, basically I

pretended me and Cake were in love and

then we had text sex and

then I jerked off to her a few times and I

was kind of done. And I thought, yeah, I

mean, maybe a new girl would be nice.

Fresh start, no baggage. No beef.

Fresh start. Wipe slate clean. New

beginning. Time to move on.

With all these girls, like, sexting me

now, there's no way Sunny would come back

and trust me. She'd be like, delete all

your social media, delete your Instagram,

block all these girls. There'll just be no

trust now. I wanked off to all these girls

now in the DMs.

She— there's no way she'd be happy. She'd

want me to just eradicate it all,

and she wouldn't believe that I would do

it even if I agreed to it. So yeah, it's

done. It's over.

I was hoping maybe I could leave the door

open if I didn't have any girls,

but then all these girls came out of

nowhere. Now there's like 5 girls.

I don't know.

I don't want to be with someone who wants

me to become a full-time driver or worker.

I want to be gay OnlyFans porn star and

day trader with a YouTube channel.

That's my life. That's my dream.

If you can't support that, then it's

not going to work.

I mean, my ultimate dream is I want to

become a day trader. But that's hard. So I

need to support myself however I can until

I can become a profitable day trader.

Obviously, my dream is not to be a gay

OnlyFans guy. I want to trade stocks

and know what I'm doing.

Traveling Trader said it took him 3 years.

So I've got a lot of work to do.

That's why I hate the weekend, because

it's like slowing down my progress.

It's very hard. So I don't think It's

like technically hard, although it can be

if you really want to get into algorithmic

trading and like setting up systems and

all that stuff. It can be really hard or

it can be really simple. You can only— you

could just trade one strategy, one setup.

The hard bit is managing your emotions.

It's not like an intellectually difficult

thing. It's emotionally difficult

to control your emotions and control your

greed. But I think if you can control

that, then you could have like the

shittest strategy ever where you just eeny

meeny miny moe and you could probably win.

I reckon, you know, having a great

strategy but no risk management versus

having crap strategy where you just go

eeny meeny miny moe, but you got the best

risk management. Which one do you think is

going to win?

When did I stop enjoying editing videos?

When I realized it didn't make any

difference. When I realized videos where I

just had no editing and just talked for 10

minutes did better than videos that had

Yeah, maybe I just do it in money mode.

Just drag the thing up and down randomly

and then press buy or sell.

Yeah, my dream in life is I want to be a

But I know it's hard. You could be

profitable for years and then lose it all

in one day if you are careless.

That's what's happening already. Days and

days and days of successful hard work have

been wiped out in one day for me because

of one bad trade, because I didn't have my

risk management.

Too desperate to win.

Oh,

I kind of like the idea of algorithmic

trading. Wait, it basically just does it

for you, but I don't know how you do it.

You've got to write a script, like a

Python script, or AI can do it for you,

but then where'd you put that? So you can

do, I don't know, if this happens then

take the trade. I don't know how the

algorithm can identify stuff like fair

value. I mean, it can because on

TradingView there's indicators that can

identify fair value gaps. And order

But then, I mean, you might— if you know

that, you might as well just manually do

it instead of trying to set up an

algorithm.

Although it would be cool to have a bot

that just automatically trades for you

based on signals that you enter.

Pay for trading bots.

Yeah, and then you gotta pay for that,

pay for this, pay for that.

The exchanges sell your data. God, that

would be so sneaky because the exchanges

and the brokers know where everyone's stop

losses would be.

That's why I don't like having a tight

stop loss.

There's like a very simplified way of

automating it with an algorithm. It's

called price— like set an alert and then

buy at this level or sell at that level,

and that's automated.

But you want to take it a step further.

Like, if it drops 20%

within half an hour, then go long.

Oh God, I didn't think I was gonna be

sitting here waiting hours for Tesco. I

think they're not even going to come.

I bet they're not even coming.

I'll wait until 7:30 and then I'll make

my pork.

I didn't get the order confirmation email

because AJ ordered it.

She said hopefully they won't cancel the

order now. I'm going to wake up early.

Good night. She didn't wake up early

I'll send her a message.

Are you up?

Bro looks depressed. I'm insanely

bored. I've got nothing to do.

I literally just sit here thinking, what

am I going to do? And then I do some

laundry and I'm like, thank God I've got

something to do now for 5 minutes. My

favorite part of the day was when I put

the laundry out.

And then made a pancake.

I'm so bored. There's nothing to make

videos on. There's no new games out. The

market's not open. Oh man, I'm so bored.

I just don't know what to do with my life.

Literally just sat here for like 5 hours

waiting for 5 PM until I go live.

I've never had such a boring, empty life

before.

The problem is I'm not passionate about

YouTube. I've got no video ideas.

I don't enjoy— I don't want to do it, to

be honest. It makes me depressed.

Streaming too much makes me depressed.

When there's nothing to talk about, it

makes me depressed.

I don't want to make videos, to be honest.

Boring. I don't know what to make videos

about. If I knew what to make it about,

I'd make one. I just don't know what to

make a video about.

Why this and how that? Who cares?

Yeah, I might make a video about how I

lost my job. I was just hoping I'd get an

email or something.

Maybe on Monday something will happen.

I could message him to see if there's any

news, but I just— I don't know why he

doesn't message me. He knows that

I'm sitting around waiting to go to work.

Why does he just forget and, like, not

message me? He's so annoying.

Really bad manager.

I can't be bothered to message him.

Irritating. I don't want the job

anymore anyway, so who cares?

Although I would like closure, I guess.

I can come over tomorrow and we can talk

about things, and if it comes to it,

you can get closure. God,

I hated that day. Worst day of my life.

Oh my God, I've never experienced such

mental torture in my life before.

And then being told that I had to quit

YouTube.

I'm not promising anything, but we can

talk about things. You deserve the chance

to say your piece, and if it comes to it,

get closure.

Yeah, whatever.

I hope girls stay away from me if it means

I never have to go through that again.

Leave me alone.

Absolute mental torture, that was.

The constant blocking.

Jesus Christ, it's horrible.

You know what it feels like being blocked

for weeks?

Not being able to talk about it.

I don't know how you do that to someone.

It's just— it's sick. I wouldn't do

that to anyone apart from the Korean

woman, but that was just like a Like a

2-day fling, wasn't it?

Disgusting thing to do to someone you're

supposed to love, to block them.

She blocks her dad as well, you know,

because he upset her. She just blocks

people like that. It's a horrible thing to

I mean, I blocked my mom because I got my

reasons. It's different.

I don't know. What did she say?

I don't even remember. I wasn't even

listening, to be honest.

I can't even leak the story because I

don't even remember the story because I

wasn't even paying attention when she was

telling it.

Yeah, I don't want to be with someone if

every time we have a fight they block you

and you don't get to talk and explain

things or try and fix things. Just radio

silence.

Stop banning people from your chat.

Well, I'd rather have a dead chat than a

chat full of idiots like that guy

yesterday. I said, when you make money on

stock market, you're taking it from

someone else. And then he's like, that's

not how trading works. Yes, it is. What

are you talking about?

That's exactly how trading works.

Even Traveling Trader said it. He said one

thing that motivates him to become a

better trader is the idea that if he loses

a trade, some other guy is enjoying

a nice meal or taking his girl out on a

nice date using your money. So if he

said it, I think

he knows what he's talking about.

This is really annoying. I hate waiting

around, waiting for a reply, or waiting

for something to happen. So on, I'm

getting PTSD flashbacks. Where's AJ?

Where's my steak?

It's 5 AM.

Why is she snoozing?

I didn't have a very big lunch because I

was looking forward to the steaks. I only

had a pancake with some crisps.

It looks like Ken's up. If Ken's up,

maybe Eijirou wakes up soon.

Oh my God,

sometimes I feel like living here is so

dead and quiet. I want quietness, but

sometimes it just feels like You're in a

video game and then it's just empty,

devoid of life.

Something kind of suffocating about it.

So yeah, I've got 2 choices. If I have to

move out of this house, I've got 2

choices. One, I look for another rental

property. 2, I just ditch

everything, sell the car, and then fly to

Thailand or something. I don't know,

what do you think?

I think losing the house could be a sign

to move on to something new. We sell the

monitor, get like $600 for it, maybe sell

get rid of the bed and the sofa somehow.

Maybe just burn it.

Do 3 months Thailand, 6 months Japan,

3 months South Korea, and then rotate

until I'm dead. I don't know.

What other countries? Maybe Malaysia,

a few months,

and then maybe I could like stay at

viewers' houses, like Crypt's house.

Could do that life, or just try and get

another rental place and then just live

Drowning in bills and debt.

Taiwan. I think I can stay in Taiwan for 3

months, but the plane ticket is going to

start getting a bit expensive, aren't

they? And then I'm going to get tired and

exhausted from it.