[2018-12-12] Why I hate being skinny [MhDqIVFwMj8]

These are my legs. I have 2 of them, just

like most people do, just like you might

have. My legs are a bit weird-looking, a

bit skinny, a bit fragile-looking, but

they're my legs. They're the only 2 legs

I'll ever have. I think they're pretty

good legs, actually. They get me from

point A to point B without any problems,

and I'm glad I have them. In today's

video, we'll be discussing the skinniness

of my body. How I inherited my skinniness,

and just why are my feet so massively big

in comparison? I never really noticed that

my feet were that big until one day at

school when this kid called Martin pointed

at my bare feet and said, Daniel, your

feet are gross. I told him to shut up.

I feel very insecure about my skinniness.

I like to wear lots of layers. I like to

wear 2 pairs of trousers most of the time.

To try and hide the fact that I am this

incredibly skinny. I don't like it when

people point out how skinny I am. I don't

like it when people say, oh, Daniel,

you're so skinny, as if I didn't know how

skinny I am. As if I don't look in the

mirror every single day and wish I wasn't

this skinny. Sometimes people tell me how

big my feet are. They say, Daniel, your

feet are so big. And I say, yes, yes they

are. My feet look big because my legs are

skinny, and in comparison, my feet look

oversized. It's not too difficult to

comprehend, and there's not really much I

can do about it. There's nothing I can do

about it. My feet will remain the same

size for the rest of my life unless I get

some kind of weird surgery where they cut

my toes off. We're all human beings. None

of us have perfect bodies, and we're all

striving for one thing in life. We're very

similar to each other, you and I. The only

difference that makes us different to each

other, the only thing that sets us apart,

is the size of our feet, how big our

bodies are. But really, when you think

about it, we all have our own dreams and

aspirations, and that's what we have to

aim for in our lives. Life is short.

I get a lot of comments from people saying

stuff like, I need to eat more, I need to

go to the gym, I need to work out, I need

to exercise. And in today's video, I'm

going to be telling you why I won't be

doing any of those things. Okay, so let's

address the first point, eating more. I

don't feel like I need to eat more. I eat

plenty. I spend a lot of money on food

every day. I spend about $15 a day on food

just for me, myself. I don't eat

breakfast, but I eat lunch and I eat

dinner and I snack in between. I eat a lot

of junk food actually. I eat pizzas,

burgers, toast things, hot dogs,

crisps, chocolate, cakes, all the stuff

that's bad for you. And for dinner,

usually I have about 200 grams of meat and

a bag of vegetables accompanied by a bowl

of rice. So I do feel like I eat quite a

lot already. After dinner, I usually have

a cake or some snacks or some chocolates

with a cup of coffee. Admittedly, I don't

eat a lot of vegetables or fruits. I only

have vegetables for dinner. So to

supplement vitamins, I have super fish oil

and super calcium vitamin D,

and I have vitamin C. I also drink

multivitamin juice for, um,

drinking. So my point is, I do eat. I eat

quite a lot. Not very healthily. I should

be eating more fruits, less junk food,

but what I'm trying to say is I'm not

starving myself. I eat plenty.

You don't need to tell me to eat more.

Now when it comes to exercise, okay, I

admit I don't exercise at all. The most

exercise I do is walking to the

supermarket or walking to the convenience

store, which is about 10 minutes down the

road. Apart from that, I do a bit of

pacing around my rooms in my apartment,

just walking around in circles. I could

try and force myself to eat more food. I

could just stuff it into my mouth, chew,

and swallow. I've tried it in the past

before. I tried doubling my calorie intake

every day, and it was really difficult. I

managed to do it for a week or 2, but it

just made me feel really sick. Forcing

yourself to eat doesn't feel good. I tried

forcing myself to eat 3,000 calories every

single day for about 2 weeks. And I gave

up because it was just too hard. It was

really difficult forcing myself to eat

food when I wasn't hungry, and it just

felt like a waste of food, a waste of

money. It felt like a waste forcing myself

to eat all this food when I didn't really

need it. And I think that even if I did

try and force myself to eat more food,

even if I managed to force myself to eat

3,000 calories every day for the

rest of my life, I don't think it would

make much difference apart from I'd be

going to the toilet more often. I think

it's kind of funny that people think— they

assume that just because— just if I eat

more food, I would suddenly become fat.

That's not how it works for everyone.

Yeah, for a lot of people, if they eat

more food, they will get fatter.

But that's not what my body's like. My

body's not like that. I don't have a body

where I can easily put on fat. I don't

even know if it's possible for me to put

on fat. I could eat McMacs, McDonald's Big

Macs, every single day for all of my

meals, and I probably won't gain any

weight. It would be very unhealthy, and

I'd probably die in the next 20 years from

heart disease, heart failure, but I'm

pretty sure I won't put on any weight.

Going back to the exercise thing, like I

said earlier, I don't exercise now. And I

agree, that's very unhealthy. I really

should try and exercise, do some push-ups,

maybe go outside and walk around for 20

minutes or so. That would be better than

doing nothing. But when I was younger, I

used to be very active. I used to cycle my

bicycle around the village. I used to go

skateboarding. I used to play football

during lunch at school. I used to be very

active when I was a young teenager,

and I was still skinny back then as well.

Even when I was in my early 20s, I used to

be very active, physically active. I'd

walk to the train station once or twice a

week, and it used to take about 20 minutes

to walk to the train station. So walking

there and then walking back to my house

would be 40 minutes at least, just going

to the train station. I used to do jogging

around my garden for about 20 minutes a

day. I used to ride my bicycle to the

train station. Sometimes I'd ride it all

the way to Maidstone and then back to my

house, which took almost an hour of

cycling up and down hills, and I was still

really skinny, exactly the same as I am

now. I wasn't muscular or buff back then,

even when I was very— even when I was very

physically active. And my point is, I

think even if I did exercise, I'm still

going to be skinny. Even if I went to a

gym every single day and I worked out for

hours and hours and hours, I don't think

there would be much difference. Sure, I

might get a bit bit toned around my chest.

Maybe my muscles would get slightly

bigger, but you won't notice it because

I'd be wearing clothing like this and I'll

still look really skinny. I'll still look

slim. I would just look like a, like a

toned skinny person. I mean, look at Bruce

Lee for example, professional martial arts

artist who worked out a lot. He still

looks like a very fragile, tiny looking

guy. Look at Mo Farah, British Olympic

athlete runner. He's so skinny. What I'm

saying is some people can work out and

they can become professional sportsmen and

they still look like skinny little twigs.

Sure, if I really put effort into it, if I

went to a gym every day and I worked out

for hours and hours, maybe if I got myself

a professional trainer, maybe if I forced

myself to eat more food every day, then

yeah, maybe I'd become a bit thicker, a

bit bigger, a bit less twig-like.

But at the end of the day, when you think

about it, that is a lot of effort. I'd

have to put in so much effort and time

into not looking like a twig, and I have

to ask myself, do I really care that much

about being skinny? And the answer is no,

I don't really care that much. Yeah, it'd

be nice to be a bit more buff looking, a

bit more masculine looking, a bit less

like a twig. But it's not worth all

of that effort and hard work I'd have to

put in to changing my physical appearance.

It's genetics. It's all genetics and a

little bit of lifestyle. Yeah, I'm very

lazy. I'm very sedimentary. I don't move

much apart from walking around in circles

in my apartment. But my dad's like this as

well. If you look at my dad, he's skinny.

He's not as skinny as I am because he has

a larger frame. I unfortunately inherited

2 disappointing traits from my parents. I

inherited my dad's skinniness and

inability to put on body fat, and I

inherited my mum's small, petite Asian

frame. I think that as a man, I inherited

the worst traits from both my parents. If

you're a man, looking skinny, fragile,

and having a small frame isn't really

desirable. Maybe if you're a girl. Yeah,

girls always say to me, oh, I wish I was

skinny like you are. But if you're a man,

really, you want to look tough, robust,

big and buff, not like a twig. It's kind

of unfortunate because my sister, she

inherited the complete opposite traits.

She inherited my dad's larger frame and my

mum's ability to put on body fat. My

sister puts on fat really easily. She has

to constantly be on a diet. She puts a lot

of effort into exercising and being

active. Otherwise, she just gets fat.

And she definitely has a more robust,

larger skeletal frame than I have, I would

say. It would be great if we could swap

the traits that we inherited, but

unfortunately, we don't live in a world

where that's possible. My dad is very

skinny as well. He's just like me, but the

only difference is he's very physically

active outside. He does gardening. He

likes building things, digging holes in

the garden, so he's more muscular than I

am, but he's still skinny and

fragile-looking and slim-looking. He has

no body fat. I know I'm skinny. I know my

body doesn't look very attractive. I know

girls aren't going to look at my naked

body and go, I want that in my life!

Sometimes I get undressed and I stand in

front of our mirror and I think to myself,

I look weird. I look like a skeleton that

has skin. It's gross. You don't want to

see me naked. But I feel fine. I'm not in

pain. I can walk for hours and hours. I

can probably walk more than you can. I can

lift heavy objects up to 25 kg. I can move

around and do stuff. Look, all my arms,

my legs, they're all perfectly functional.

I don't have any problems getting around

or living my life. Yeah, my body doesn't

look very pretty, doesn't look very

masculine, doesn't look very attractive,

but I can climb a flight of stairs with no

problems. I can walk 10 miles without

collapsing. I can lift a heavy box without

my arms snapping, even though I look like

a twig. I'm not that fragile and I'm not

that weak. And I am capable of some

physical activity that any other normal

person is capable of.