[2022-01-17] My response to my Ex Wife's new Boyfriend... [eG5r-JSK3zM]

Testing.

Is it streaming? Why is it spinning? At

the bottom.

Okay, I think

it's streaming.

For some reason on my app,

the little circle thing spinning round and

round on the stop button. That's weird.

I didn't prepare very well.

I was gonna stream on the MacBook, then I

changed my mind.

Very unprepared,

but it's

$500, I'll go outside. Yeah, I've been

setting up today. If you watch my Twitch

stream, my Twitch stream, I was setting up

my new IRL setup.

Hopefully, if I'm still in the mood,

I might stream going to Scotland. I might

stream the whole trip because I've never

done something like that before, you know,

just streaming going from point A to B.

That'd be pretty fun. Or maybe it'd just

be really boring. It would just be me

sitting on a bus not really saying much

for 6 hours.

Depends. If the bus is very empty, then

maybe I would stream on the bus. But if

the bus is packed full of people, I don't

Stream how you did last time. How?

Well, on the laptop, I don't

know. I've got too many options now. I've

got these different webcams. Now my dongle

doesn't work anymore, so I can't do

multi-webcam. I've got this little thing,

but this is not good for moving around

because it just sways everywhere.

Somewhere, like you're on a boat.

And then streaming from the MacBook kind

of works, but then I've got to have the

MacBook in my backpack, and then I've got

to have the microphone attached to it

coming out the backpack,

and the— that webcam is just not great for

streaming. It's not just— it's really

So I'm still trying to figure out what

kind of streaming setup I want to go with.

I kind of liked the phone thing strapped

to my arm. That was pretty funny with the

elastic bands.

Why are you telling us about your webcams?

Because I'm trying to figure out if I'm

gonna do a livestream and how I'm gonna do

it.

How do you think I should do it?

When am I leaving Manchester? Tonight,

midnight. We're going out,

never coming back.

It's finished.

Over forever.

Talk about your hero.

Well, I don't know for sure if she's got a

new boyfriend, but I have my suspicions

that she might have found someone around

May. Because if you were closely following

her activity, you see that she was

quite active posting pictures on

Instagram, wasn't she? And then she made a

YouTube channel, and she

was even on my Discord for a bit. Last

year, and then all of a sudden around May

she just kind of stopped posting anything,

and she stopped posting videos as well,

which I thought was very suspicious. And

then she posted a picture during

Christmas, which was very unexpected. I

wasn't expecting her to post again. I was

just checking her page casually, not in a

creepy way. No, I'm not stalking her. I

was just checking up like you do.

And then she had a picture, a few pictures

uploaded for Christmas, and one of them

was food. And she got KFC and

I think like a pizza thing. And I saw very

clearly On the table that she was sitting

at, 2 boxes

of KFC chicken nuggets. Now,

she's not a very big person. I don't think

she would order 2 boxes of nuggets just

for herself. And what kind of person

orders 2 boxes of nuggets? You'd just

get like a large box, wouldn't you?

So my suspicion is she didn't show

anything else in the picture. It was just

like her food,

and you couldn't really see any

reflections or shadows or signs that there

was a second person. But I have my

suspicions that that second box was

someone else's second box, and she

probably wasn't really paying much

attention to it. Now, who has 2

boxes of chicken nuggets on Christmas?

Very suspicious.

I think so. Okay, let's go back to

webcams. Now, I don't know if I should use

my, my cheap crappy fishbowl webcam, or if

I should use the AI Swivety webcam on a

web cam stick— I mean a selfie stick— or

should I attach it to my chest using my

new GoPro chest mount adapter which is

coming tomorrow? I got this new chest

mount adapter, so instead of having a

GoPro mount attached to it, you can attach

a kind of camera tripod mount screw head

which also has like a selfie stick for

smartphone springy expandable slot thing.

So I could either attach An actual camera

somewhere, or my smartphone from my chest

like this. Wouldn't that be cool if I

could attach it to my chest using my GoPro

strap? Then I don't have to hold the

camera like this everywhere and look like

an idiot.

Maybe someone left it there. Left left the

chicken box, chicken nugget box on her

table. No, it was her table at home, not

in the restaurant.

We need more solid evidence. Well, I'm

working on it. Me and my team, we're

trying to find out for sure, but right now

we're just working on speculations.

It's the special Christmas combo, comes

with fries and chicken, but I'm pretty

sure there were 2 boxes of nuggets, not 1

box of fries and 1 box of nuggets.

And it was like off, kind of half off shot

in frame.

That little spinny circle thing's pissing

me off. I pressed go live on the go live

button, and then the go live button turned

into a red stop button with a spinny

circle on it.

Strap it to my forehead. Well, like Ice

Poseidon style when he made that stream

ages ago going to Walmart. He strapped the

phone to his forehead, didn't he? It's

pretty funny, actually. I thought you left

Manchester. I will be. This is going to be

the last stream here. After today's

stream, I'm done.

This is the— this is the last time you're

going to see this apartment, guys. Soak it

in. I know it hasn't been very eventful

here, but I've

done a lot of soul searching whilst I've

been here. And my— the conclusion I've

come to is trying to improve as a person

is a load of bollocks. Don't bother with

it. Just be yourself. And even if being

yourself means loads of people are going

to hate you, then let them hate you. Fuck

them. Who needs them?

We don't need them.

It's better to be yourself than try and

pretend to be someone you're not and live

in misery just to get the approval of

people you don't even care about. So

that's kind of what I've come to the

conclusion of whilst I've been here.

Because even if you try and make efforts

to become a better person, no one cares

anyway because they still just judge you

from your past.

Your video game was born here. Yes, the

birthplace of my video game, my femboy

stuff. So this year I'm going to stop

caring about becoming a better person,

and I'm just going to try and enjoy being

me. And just

get on with what I want to do and what I'm

interested in and not worry about doing

stuff to please other people because I

just can't be bothered anymore.

I'm just sick and tired of being nice to

people and then they just kind of trample

all over you anyway.

So everyone expects, expects me to be nice

to them, and then they just treat me like

What's my travel plans? Well, we're gonna

go first, we got to go to the real estate

place, drop off the keys.

And then we got to go to the bus stop,

and then we get on the bus for 7 hours,

and then we arrive in Scotland, my new

swanky apartment. I got a luxury

apartment studio, designer studio in

the heart of Edinburgh for 2 weeks.

And when I'm there, I'm going to try to do

some exploring, hopefully.

And eventually I want to go to Ben Nevis.

I don't know if anyone knows about

mountains in Scotland, but the biggest

mountain in Scotland is called Ben Nevis,

and they've got a very easy trail. Well,

they say it's easy. Well, they don't

actually say it's easy, but It's called

the Tourist Track, implying it should be

easy. And it's, it's just like a track

that you walk up to the summit. There's

all different tracks with varying

difficulty. The Mountain Track is the

easiest, so I want to go up there. That

looks fun. I could vlog

it as well, maybe. I'm just worried

if I go in winter, maybe it'll be really

cold and might be really snowy.

And if there's no one else up there, and I

might, I might trip over and injure

myself, and then there's no one around to

help me. It's a bit scary, isn't it?

Because some of these paths on the

mountain look pretty treacherous, and you

could just slip and roll down and down and

down. And if there's no one around, what

I wonder if I had signal on the mountain,

I could livestream it as well.

The more north you go, the more depressing

it gets. But why?

It looks nice up there.

And then I could get a tent as well and do

like a fake homeless thing again. That

would be pretty funny. I ran out of money.

I'm homeless. I might do that after

my luxury apartment. I'll do like a luxury

apartment, $2,000 Scottish apartment tour,

and then next video, I'm homeless living

in a tent. That would be funny.

The capsule hotel. Yeah, I think I'll

still go there, but I don't want to stay

there. I'm just going to book one night,

film it, and then walk out, not even stay

the night. Cuz apparently I, I was reading

some 1-star reviews and apparently the

place is like full of homeless people that

use it as like a homeless shelter, and the

place smells like piss and it's like

gross. Not really what

I'm used to because usually in a capsule

hotel in Japan you'd have travelers,

budget travelers who want to save money,

but here in England they're used as like

stinky smelly refuge shelters or

something. Doesn't really sound

great. I might just book a night and then

go in, see what it's like, and then walk

out. Apparently it's all self-check-in

as well. Why does everything in England

suck? Why is there like so many homeless

people everywhere? You go to

the shopping center here and there's like

homeless people living in tents on the

street. But in Japan, all the homeless

people live in the park in the little blue

tent things.

Can you imagine the smell in those tents?

It must smell horrible. They don't shower

and they probably piss themselves and they

live in the tent the whole time. And the

tent's pretty closed most of the time. It

must smell horrible in there.

Maybe it's safer, I don't know.

What would I know? It's just strange

there's so, so many homeless people.

I mean, there's loads of homeless people

in Japan as well, but you don't really

notice it that much.

Okay, what should you do now?

Where's my

plug-in mic?

Tell me, let me know if this crackles.

Testing.

Is it crackling?

Is it crackling?

1, 2.

I thought I could use this microphone for

something. Crackles when you move things

around, but I was moving around quite a

lot earlier today and it was fine because

look, I could do this

and then you can still hear me.

Can you still hear me?

Hello?

That's so useful.

Isn't it useful?

Because if I use this microphone, it means

I can have the phone away from my face,

and then I don't have to adjust the volume

of my voice because the actual microphone

is still near me.

The end of the Manchester saga. Yes, it's

been emotional. It's been such a journey.

How often do I stalk my ex-wife? Well, I

check her Instagram almost every day just

to see. Well, just in case.

Yeah, we did. That was fun.

Why is the penguin not coming up? Ah,

it's just— wait, where's my iPhone? Why do

I keep losing everything?

Fuck's sake, hold on. I can

get the penguin to come up if I do this.

Watch this. Oh,

it's not the penguin, it's me. DIDN.

Did you have cereal with Chi-Chi in a

homeless guy's cardboard box in Osaka?

Maybe,

maybe we did.

I'm gonna put the phone here.

And then I can go over there.

Look, I can sit over here and do this

Can't hear the TTS.

That's weird, because you could hear it

when I was streaming on Twitch.

That's weird, because you could hear it.

Are you sure you can't hear it?

Is it wrong to regularly

check up on your exes? Because I check up

on a lot of my exes just out of curiosity.

How do you know Chi-Chi got a new

boyfriend? Oh, it's playing from over on

my MacBook, that's why.

So I will sit at my MacBook, maybe.

How do I know she's got a new boyfriend?

Well, I don't know for sure. It's just

speculation. It's just speculation from

her behavior recently.

How do you know that she doesn't have one?

I mean, it's been 2 years.

You think she'd stay single all this time?

YouTube.

I think, I think my neighbor got a warning

about his loud music because recently he

still plays the music, but he's turned the

volume down. A lot.

I don't know if he realized that his

music's very loud or if someone finally

complained about it.

Now there's another problem. Some guy

above me keeps singing, and he sings

really loudly. And dragging furniture

Do you think this is a good angle for a

livestream?

I just can't really find a way of

streaming that I really like. I keep

changing my mind. How I want to do it.

There's too many ways to do it. That's the

problem. Can you start

investing your bum bum on chatterbate?

You could make more money than here.

Yeah, I probably would make more money on

chatterbate.

YouTube is just not really that amazing

for money these days.

It used to be great. It used to be really

good for money, but then I don't know what

happened. I guess people just lost

interest.

Do I think my ex-wife still watches your

videos? No, I don't think so, because last

time we talked she said,

how have you been? I'm not sure because I

don't check your videos anymore. See, she

doesn't even care anymore. If she actually

cared, she would have— she would still be

watching to check up on what I've been up

to.

Is my heating on? It's getting hot in

Twitch is worse. Yeah, Twitch is way

worse. Even the top Twitch stars, they

don't really— well, they make a lot of

money, they make millions, but compared to

the top YouTubers, the amount the top

Twitch streamers make is a lot less.

Who's Bob Saget? I saw Gimme a Break Man

made a video about it too. I've,

I've heard of his name before. I feel like

I've heard the name, I just don't know who

he is.

When was the last time you spoke to

Chi-Chi? Spoke to her in

October last year, but not for much.

I spoke to her when I made that clickbait

video about how she doesn't love me

anymore. She said, I thought you were only

making these videos for clickbait.

Kind of.

Because if it was real and it was not

clickbait, then I'd probably keep it to

myself. I hate people who sing

really loudly, don't you?

Go to karaoke.

So I'm still trying to figure out how to

do an outdoor livestream.

If you've got any suggestions— how

did I used to do them? I used to just walk

around with a selfie stick, didn't I? And

I wasn't embarrassed. For some reason, I

feel really embarrassed now holding a

selfie stick. It just feels kind of lame.

After I had my whole stock market investor

phase, which I'm completely over now,

I just don't care about stocks anymore.

You notice I never talk about stocks

anymore. I just don't care anymore. It's

just so boring.

I can't believe I was so into stocks and

investing and finance. I thought I could

be like a crypto millionaire.

So stupid, isn't it? You think you can be

like a Wall Street,

Wall Street kind of investing

person. Trading the stocks

and stuff. It just doesn't work like that.

It doesn't work. I don't get it. Why do

the stocks just go down whenever you buy

and then they go up when you sell? It's

like the most frustrating thing I've ever

tried to do in my life.

So anyway, after I had my whole, I want to

be serious and be into finance and stocks

because girls would think it's cool, then

I can forget about being an idiot on

YouTube for money. I just thought it

would be really impressive when I'm

talking to girls and I tell them, oh yeah,

I do investing and I know about stocks.

But in reality, girls don't give a shit

about stocks because number one, they

don't even understand it. Most girls have

no clue about stuff like investing and

they don't even care anyway.

And then the other half probably think

it's like gambling. Gambling. If it

were easy, everyone would be rich. I

thought it wasn't as hard as everyone

makes it out to be. And I thought everyone

just kind of thinks it's gambling, that's

why they don't do it, and they're missing

out because it's not like gambling if

you're careful. But then even if you're

trying to be really, really careful, you

can still end up losing loads of money.

Do you remember that black guy I used to

follow, Chris Sain? Oh my God,

it's so hilarious. He He's

lost like $100,000 in the

past year. I haven't been watching him for

ages because I got bored, but I used to

watch him in the beginning of 2021 and I

used to follow his stock picks and they

did make me a lot of money in the

beginning. And his account was like— he

used to show his portfolio in the

beginning of every video to like brag

about how much money he's made. And his

portfolio in the beginning of 2021 was

like $160,000.

I suddenly remembered him yesterday and I

looked up his channel and he's still

making videos and his portfolio is like

$80,000 now. He's lost

nearly $100,000 and he's supposed to be

like a stock guru and everyone's

just clowning on him in the comment

section in his videos, all just roasting

him. I can't believe I followed this guy

so much. I used to think, wow, this Chris

Sainz guy knows what he's doing.

He went from getting 200k views a video to

now he only gets about 20k views. And he

looks like— he looks terrible in the

videos, like he's had a mental breakdown

or something. I don't think he's

financially ruined because he makes loads

of money off his YouTube channel, and

apparently he has like 6,000 people paying

him on Patreon for his— I don't know what

he's offering on Patreon, like stock

course things. So he's

got like 6,000 people paying on Patreon

for his stock option things.

I don't know what it's about. It just

shows you how gullible a lot of people can

still be, even though he's lost the

majority of his credibility and his

viewership. There's still like 20,000

people who think he's— who think he knows

what he's talking about and willing to

give him money on Patreon.

And then he just keeps telling people to

buy all these rubbish stocks that are just

going to go down more, maybe. Talking

about Chris Sain, one of those stock

tubers I used to follow in the beginning

of last year, he's down He's lost like

$100,000. It's just embarrassing.

I feel embarrassed for him because his

whole channel and his reputation is built

upon him knowing how to invest and he's

just completely failed. But then the same

can be said for a lot of people like

Cathie Wood. She's just a whole year,

she's— her portfolio has just gone down

the toilet. Why did

you give up? Well, I haven't really given

up because I'm still in the market. It's

just I've lost interest. I'm not

interested in it anymore. I just don't

really care about— I just don't get

excited about it like I used to.

The goal to be a better person is to make

yourself happy whilst being a decent

human, but the problem is It wasn't making

me happy. It was just making

me bored. And then I felt like I was so

restricted on YouTube because I was so

scared of, oh, what if I say this and

so-and-so doesn't like what I said?

What if I make a video about this and,

and people who find my channel think I'm

like a crazy person?

What's up with the title? Well, I already

talked about the title in the beginning.

I would never clickbait. All my titles are

100% accurate and 100% relevant.

I'm the most genuine YouTuber.

In the whole wide world.

Did he eat? I had food before I started

streaming, so you don't have to listen to

me chewing.

I'm running out of food. I don't think

I've got enough food. I might have to get

Uber Eats. I might get Uber Eats for one

day because it would be stupid to go

shopping just to get a few bits when

I'm only here for a few more days.

I might have to eat Huel.

Look, this looks so pathetic in the

stream, like sitting on the floor in the

corner. She got a

new boyfriend.

I'm so sad.

I'm so sad. I'm alone.

Do you remember the wagyu burger that set

off the alarm? Yeah, that was, that was

funny. I was so scared

the alarm was going off. I thought fire

people were gonna come rushing in and go,

what's going on? What are you doing? You

don't even know how to cook a burger.

That wagyu burger wasn't even good. Just

tastes like a really fatty burger.

As you can see, the Christmas tree is

gone. I chopped it

into little pieces. No, I took it apart

and then I wrapped it in elastic bands and

I dropped it down the chute. Got rid of

the Christmas tree, got rid of all these

boxes I had piling up from Amazon, got rid

of the bedsheets from House of Fraser.

Into little pieces. Wow, audio sounds

good. Ready to go.

I've got to get rid of spices. I've got a

lot of condiments and sauces, vinegar,

brown sauce, all that kind of stuff's got

to go in the bin. I've only got one

plastic bag, so I've

got to be careful. I've got one plastic

bag. Oh, I've got a bunch of Sainsbury's

bags I can use as well for rubbish.

When are you leaving? Very soon. In a few

days. So my plan is

I'm gonna leave, drop off the keys. I'm

gonna have to wake up very early in the

morning, have a shower, need my hair

dried, and to be dressed and ready to get

out about 10.

10 might be a bit early.

Maybe 11. I have to go to the real estate

agent, drop off the keys, and then we'll

go to the bus station, make sure I'm at

the right place to get the bus.

And when should I start streaming? I could

stream myself going to drop off the keys,

or I could start streaming when I'm at the

bus station, or I could start streaming

when I'm on the bus. Oh, I don't

And then do I stream the whole bus trip or

just the first hour? Because it'll be a

bit boring just sitting on the bus after a

Make sure they check the apartment when

you are there. No, that's not how it

works. They say you drop off the key and

then within 2 days we will check the

apartment and then we will let you know.

Apparently, if I haven't done a good

enough job cleaning it,

then they'll have to pay for cleaning at

my expense. But the cleaning's not really

that expensive. They gave me like a, a

bill of how much the cleaning would cost

And it was like £25 cleaning, £50 clean

oven, £50 for toilet stuff.

The biggest thing that would be hardest to

clean would be the oven, I think.

I, I just find it very difficult to clean

ovens. The stuff gets stuck on it in very

difficult, awkward places, and You

can just scrub and scrub and the stuff

doesn't come off. So if I don't clean

it properly, they're going to charge me

about £50,

which would be unfortunate but not

the end of the world. Hopefully I get most

of the deposit back. And then I can use it

for adventures in Scotland.

Do you stream coding your game?

I would, it's just I feel like everyone

would leave because it's so boring.

It's just not very fun to watch. And then

I would not talk that much because I'm

trying to concentrate on how to fix

something. I haven't really done much

today because I've just been messing

around setting up stream stuff, but I did

quite a lot yesterday. I made this in-game

computer where you get emails and

you, you've got shopping website where you

can buy ammunition and other stuff. I'll

add to it. You can also buy stocks on it.

It's not real stocks,

it's just like a random

number generator. You put the money in and

it goes up and down a random amount. It's

kind of silly really, but isn't that how

stocks work? You put the money in, then it

goes up and down randomly. And then it's

up to you when you take the money back

Stream it on Chef Daniel. Yeah, I might do

actually do like a game dev journal series

on my second channel.

What cigar?

My microphone fell off. Testing.

It's an annoying thing having these wires

everywhere.

Can you hear me? I broke my microphone.

My microphone fell off.

Yeah, I think you can hear me.

Got to

be careful. Could put this here.

I need a wireless microphone.

I bet that's expensive.

Will my new place have a view? Well, it's

on the third or— no, it's on the third

floor, so it's gonna have a bit of a view,

but not much. And it'll

probably be on a street.

It'll be on, on the street, so the view

would just be a road and the opposite

I think you should stay here, work on your

game. I would if there were like loads of

people willing to pay for it, but I've

been like shitting it for a few weeks now

and I don't have a lot of people

interested in it. I think I've got on

Patreon How

many? I have

to log in.

Having everything logged in on all my

different devices is such a pain. I've got

how many? Where does it say?

Not sure, maybe 15. 10 to 15 people.

Hi Daniel, how's things?

Things are okay.

Relatively. When I did that community poll

and like 1,500 people said they would buy

it, then I was really excited to make the

game. But I guess those

people wanted to buy it on their phones,

and they wanted to buy it when it's

finished, not when it's being made.

Does your family still get harassed by

trolls? I haven't heard anything from them

recently.

It's funny because I was watching Trash

Taste today and they were talking about

the same things, saying stuff like trolls

were trying to contact their mums on

Facebook and trying to ask stuff about

Gant, and Anime Man said he had the same

thing as well. I have the same thing as

well, where my mum gets messaged by these

trolls and they try and trick her into

saying stuff and responding, and my mum

just doesn't know better. Me and

my sister have tried to teach her about

it, tell her to ignore them.

The Anime Man said his mum was quite

smart with all the internet privacy stuff

because she was— she had used Japanese

social media stuff before.

But people who have no exposure to this

side of the internet, they just don't

really know about trolls. They don't

understand. They don't even realize that

these kind of internet trolls exist in the

Because you just don't come across these

people in real life. They only exist on

And unless you've had a lot of experience

in gaming stuff like gaming lobbies and

these 4chan kind of forums, you just

won't— you even know that they exist in

the first place until you encounter them.

And it's just sad. They target, they

target our parents who are from an older

generation who didn't grow up with this

stuff, and they're like an easy target

because they don't really understand all

this stuff. And then, uh, us young people

have to explain it to them. It's such a

pain. I don't even know if she still

understands it or not.

Hopefully my sister did a better job at

explaining because I just get annoyed.

I'm like, Mum, just don't reply to these

strangers. I get really annoyed.

Having to explain this basic stuff.

But everyone has to deal with it. It's not

just me. Even like Connor, Anime Man, all

them lot, they get the same— they have the

same problems. I guess it is part of the

How do I cope with loneliness? Well, I do

livestreams, and I livestream for

unhealthy amounts of hours to deal with

it. And just find a good podcast. The

Trash Taste podcast has really helped me

recently. It feels like I'm listening to

my friends, even though they probably all

hate me. It's kind of sad if you think

about it. Because I like the Anime Man.

I like, I like listening to him talk and

stuff, but in the back of my mind I'm

always thinking that Anime Man probably

knows of me and he probably doesn't like

me. Especially when you think

about what Chris said. And I used

to like Gimme a Break Man. I like Gimme a

Break Man's content, and then he started

hating on me too. Made me a bit sad. It's

kind of sad when people you like to watch

find out that you exist and then they

start hating you. It feels not great,

to be honest.

I don't think Anime Man hates me. He

probably doesn't care about me enough to

actually have those strong emotions, but

he probably thinks I'm a weirdo that he

doesn't want to have anything to do with.

That hurts a little bit.

It feels like I'm streaming from a webcam

now, not my phone. What games

am I playing? I tried God of War

yesterday. It was really boring. I don't

understand how anyone can enjoy God of

War. The action combat gameplay is

like hitting a piñata. You just spam the

left mouse button 100 times whilst trying

to dodge and not get hit, and then you got

different upgrades and stuff and abilities

that are not really any fun. I just don't

really enjoy it.

Did they mention you on Trash Taste? No,

they wouldn't. Because they don't

want drama.

Gimme a Break Man wrote like a, a long

hate comment on my video a couple years

ago. I saw it, but he quickly removed it.

You need to stop spending too much time

talking to your fans. But I've got no one

else to talk to. I spend all day on

Discord chatting because I don't have

anyone else to chat to. No one messages me

on Instagram these days.

I got like one message on Instagram in the

past 24 hours. I've got like 8,000

followers and then no one wants to talk to

me. That makes me sad a bit.

Mostly because my audience is like 80%

guys and I don't reply to men. I've got a

load of guys trying to message me, but I

don't respond. You never reply to my

Instagram messages. Because I only reply

to girls. Is that

weird?

If I want to talk to a guy, I talk on

Discord because everyone on Discord are

probably guys. But I don't really want to

talk to guys one-on-one. I find that a bit

too intimate. It's a bit GAY.

It's funny because, you know, people think

that I don't care about people and I'm not

interested in people. And even I started

to think that sometimes. I start thinking,

oh, what's wrong with me? How come I'm not

interested in talking people and hearing

about what they have to say. But then I

watch Trash Taste for hours and hours and

hours because I'm interested in listening

to what they have to say. Obviously, if I

wasn't interested, then I wouldn't watch

it. So I do find people interesting and

their stories interesting,

but only when I'm just sitting there as a

consumer of the content.

When I'm the one having to ask questions

and get the information out, I feel like

that's a lot of work. But if the

information is just getting spoon-fed to

me in the form of a podcast, that's what's

so great about YouTube and watching

podcasts. You don't have to put any effort

into enjoying the information. You just

sit there and it's like being spoon-fed to

you. But if you're having a one-to-one

conversation with another person, you have

to work for it unless they just sit there

talking on and on. Without you having to

So I have very weird ways of dealing with

no social interaction. When I want to

talk, I'll do a livestream. And it's like

very one way. It's just me talking and no

one interrupting me, and I don't have to

listen to anyone else. It's just me, me,

me. And then when I want to listen, I put

on a podcast and I just shut up for hours

and hours, and I'm just listening and

listening, and I'm not saying anything.

So everything I do is like 100% in one

direction. Either I'm just talking, or

either I'm just listening. Can't do both

at the same time for

some reason,

and maybe that's not healthy.

Maybe that's weird,

but sometimes I watch Trash Taste and I

think, yeah, that looks kind of fun, just

having a conversation with someone face to

face and then you're kind of bouncing

backwards off of each other.

Go back to telling your sex stories. But I

haven't even had any sex in like a year.

Well, I have. It's just I can't talk about

it yet.

There's trousers hanging on my window

because they were drying. I'm gonna wear

them tomorrow and then put the ones I'm

wearing into the wash. I gotta wash all my

clothing. I haven't washed this in weeks.

It probably smells.

How do I afford the apartment? I do

OnlyFans and I do YouTube.

This month I've made $600 on OnlyFans and

I made So far my YouTube revenue is about

£1,300,

but I'm expecting it to drop because

January is usually pretty bad.

January is pretty bad. That's why everyone

starts doing Vlogmas. In December. Well,

I don't

really care because I don't have to pay

rent anymore. I'm leaving. I'm gonna go to

The Edinburgh studio is a bit expensive.

It's £1,000 for,

for nearly 2 weeks. So for a whole month,

it would be like £2,200 maybe.

January's bad because Christmas is over

and then all of the big companies start

slashing the advertising budgets.

Because why would they care about

advertising in January after the big

holiday has just come and gone? They start

ramping up marketing and advertising again

maybe around March. And you can really

notice it as a YouTuber because you can

just see the amount of money each video

makes just drops drastically in, in

January and February, and then it starts

to go back up to what it usually is in

March.

So if I was going to stay in that Scotland

place every month, it'd be like £2,000 a

month.

But then you think about it this way, all

the bills are included.

The internet is included. You don't have

to pay extra for internet. Everything's

provided for. You don't have to buy

kitchen appliances or furniture. And then

you don't have to pay a deposit.

Because my place here is about £880, and

then I've got to pay Wi-Fi, it's £44 a

month. Then I've got to pay council tax,

like £100 a month. And then I've got to

pay bills. So really it's like £1,100

here.

Stay in hotels? I would, but then the cost

of food becomes just insane without having

a kitchen. Just buying food off Uber Eats

is just really expensive.

When I went to Liverpool, my food bill was

about £20 a day, £20 or £25 a day,

because I would go for lunch, I'd buy a

meal deal at Tesco, I'd get a sandwich, a

KitKat, cat, packet of crisps,

and maybe a drink, and it would cost like

£5 or £6 just for lunch. And then I'd get

dinner on Uber Eats and it'd be like £15.

But if I have a kitchen, all I need to do

is go to Aldi, spend about £25, and then

I'll have a whole fridge full of food that

will last me a week.

Why don't I get lonely? I do get lonely.

I'm incredibly lonely.

I just don't know how to meet people.

Drink Huel? I think I would just get sick.

That stuff just tastes bad.

Drinking it 3 times a day would get you

1,200 calories, which is still not enough.

So you'd have to drink it like 4 times a

day, and it's gross.

And then Huel is— they say it's £1.50

per meal. So I'd have 4 meals of it, so

it's like £3,

£6 a day. Still quite expensive.

If I cook and I make my own food, my meals

are probably less than a pound per meal.

So spending extra money just to get a

kitchen, I think it

makes it worth it, worth the money, just

from the amount of money you save from

being able to cook.

Because I could get like a really cheap

hotel and then it's just a very tiny room,

but then I feel really suffocated in the

room and then I've got to keep going out

to get food. It's just more comfy If I get

an apartment hotel that's a lot bigger and

it's got a kitchen, I feel like I'm in a

home, not in a prison cell.

Oh no.

Oh, I thought I ran out of battery on my

I spent— I think I spent £25 my last shop.

Where did I go? I think I went to Aldi

last week. I got

ramen, I got pork. I got those fried

chicken things. I had some fried— I made 2

meals of fried rice today for lunch and

Do I like the Mac? Yeah, it's good. It's

just the port situation is annoying, and

my dongle Something's gone wrong with

it because now it doesn't work.

And then I had weird battery charging

problems with the MacBook. The charger was

plugged in, but the screen was black and

there was like a battery— red battery bar.

And then I had to— I think I just switched

off the mains and switched back on again,

then it started charging.

Do I wish I never left Japan?

Sometimes.

But I feel like if I stayed in Japan, I

would have just become depressed because

I'd get bored, and then I wouldn't be able

to meet people because Chihiro would get

upset.

And then some girl would start messaging

me, tempting me, and then out of boredom

I'd probably just like flirt with her,

and then it would get leaked, and then

there'd be drama. I don't know,

maybe it was the best decision to leave

Japan. But sometimes it doesn't feel like

it. I feel a bit annoyed

sometimes because I had such an easy

ticket into Japan. Everyone struggles so

much trying to get to Japan and move to

Japan, applying for visas and studying for

bachelor's and trying to get a job,

trying to get someone to sponsor their

visa. And I just kind of just walked into

Japan, went on Tinder, and then just like

that, got marriage. I had like

golden ticket into Japan that so many

people would kill for, and then

I just flushed it down the toilet. And now

I'll probably never be able to get a visa

to live in Japan again unless I go to

university and study for 4 years and get a

bachelor's and then get a job at a company

that can sponsor me for a visa. As if I'm

going to do any of that. I'm so lazy and

used to my lifestyle that the

idea of doing things the proper way just

seems so alien.

Well, we just have to wait for this virus

thing to finish, and then I can go back to

just spending half the year in Japan, a

few months in Korea, a few months in some

new country. That was what my plan was.

I didn't want to stay in one place

forever. I wanted to like move around,

travel to new places.

Well, how was I supposed to know that

bloody COVID was gonna happen? If I knew

COVID was gonna happen, I might have

stayed in Japan.

Because if— because then it's like asking

me, what do I want to do, be stuck in

Japan or be stuck in England?

I think being stuck in Japan sounds a bit

better. Because it would be like, do you

want to be stuck in England where you're

all by yourself and you can't really go to

the places you want to, and you won't be

able to get any girls because you suck at

socializing? Or do you want to stay

in Japan where you've got a wife and

then you wouldn't be miserable and lonely,

and then you could still make Japan

content, which would be more interesting

than the stuff I'm making now?

I see all these small channels popping up

now, just blowing up from doing stuff like

solo trip on ferry to Kyoto, and then it

gets like a million views. Or like some

random Japanese guy interviewing people on

the street blowing up. Not that I could do

it, but I could probably like get Chihiro

to do it. I could have gotten Chihiro to

do it so easily. I could have been the

cameraman. Just get her to go and

interview a bunch of strangers on the

street. Boom, million views.

Do Japanese people like white men?

Interview with real Japanese people.

I just see that constantly popping up on

YouTube now. So all these random street

interviews in Japan blowing up.

Maybe people are just really interested in

Japan right now because they can't go

there, so find watching videos about it is

like their only way to get what they want.

Well, I hope if Chihiro does get a new

boyfriend, I hope he's just like a normal

Japanese guy and not some weirdo foreigner

who knows me.

Imagine my viewer, like a viewer, is

dating her. That would be so weird.

Did I marry my ex-wife only to be able to

stay in Japan? No,

there were many reasons. Um,

reason number one was I thought she was

pretty good-looking. Not fat, not

weird-looking. I thought she was quite

good-looking compared to what I was used

to. So I thought,

yeah, Chihiro is not a bad-looking woman

to be with. And it's probably

unlikely I could get someone better.

And I do— I did feel comfortable around

her, and it wasn't weird.

And I've always wanted to live in Japan,

and going back to my parents' house didn't

really sound like a very appealing thing.

So all of these reasons combined, I

thought, yeah, why not? Let's get married.

Also, I was desperate for YouTube content.

I could see my YouTube channel was gaining

traction, getting attention. I just

thought, damn, if I got married for

content, imagine the views I'd get. I got

like 100,000,

120,000 views just for the marriage

announcement.

Should let your fans vote for where you go

next. They'll all just say Thailand,

won't they? I will eventually get to

Thailand. It's just I want to go to other

places nearby first.

My second favorite place to visit besides

Japan would be Korea.

Problem with Manchester is the only girls

I match with are like really big and

not really my type.

Wow, did you see the rings? I made loads

of rings.

Why haven't I considered Korea? I've been

to Korea like 5 times. I went there 2020.

It's just

I heard You have to do like 2 weeks in a

hotel quarantining, and then you've got to

pay $2,000 as well. I don't

know if I can skip that because I'm

vaccinated.

I heard there's like a quarantine

exemption if

you're double vaxxed. I didn't get the

booster because I can't be bothered.

I feel like people are caring less

and less about the vaccine. I don't really

feel like there's this get the vaccine,

get the vaccine thing going on as much as

it was happening before with the second

one. It just feels like, uh, if it feels

like if you want to get the booster, then

yeah, you should get it. But yeah,

people don't really seem to be making— the

media doesn't really seem to be making a

huge fuss about it.

I can't believe how scared I was of

getting vaccinated, and then I just got it

and it was fine. I had a bit of a headache

for one day, then the next day I just felt