my life is getting worse and worse...

Okay, I think this is better. I had to

turn the quality down a bit. Internet's

not great today.

I had to turn the bitrate down from 2500

to 1800, so it should be

smoother.

Is it better now?

Better now? Yeah,

it looks a lot better.

Yeah, it looks a lot better.

Okay, message to self, don't use

2500 bitrate. My internet is

not good. I thought it could handle it.

I guess not.

Ah, it's saying the stream's current

bitrate is 1771, is higher than the

recommended bitrate. We recommend you use

a StreamBit Rate

of 750.

750, so low. That's like 140p.

Oh my God, look at the chat. All came in

all at once. Oh, thank you,

T-Pop Fever. Casey's working with McLovin

to ban you from Japan.

Oh, not this bloody Casey drama again.

I'm so fed up. Working with McLovin to ban

you from JPN, lol.

Lol. It's the most

sarcastic sounding lol. I'm so sick, sick

and fed up of hearing about Casey.

There's been nothing new to talk about.

Between me and Casey since the beginning

of last year. Literally since the

beginning of last year.

Yeah, there's been nothing new. I don't

know why he's all of a sudden making a new

video.

It's just really dumb. I've barely said

anything about Casey. There's been nothing

new happening. I don't know why he's so

Suddenly all getting worked up again,

saying we must protect Japan from Daniel.

Get lost, Casey.

Excellent connection, that's what I like

to see. Good, hopefully I can stream

today. Oh,

life is so boring. I can't believe it's

been 5 months like this now since I got

back home from Rotterdam.

Going a little bit crazy.

The annoying thing is other people around

me, they seem to be just carrying on with

their lives like normal. Because they can,

you know, move around and stuff. I can't

do what I want to do until the world

reopens. It doesn't matter

what happens in England, I still can't go

Even if all of England reopened, I don't

really know what I'd do. It's not like I

have girls lining up to meet me. I did

have quite a few girls lining up to meet

me in January, and then one by one They

all just bloody vanished, ghosted me,

disappeared, didn't reply anymore.

Why?

So frustrating. I wouldn't

say it's popular. There's like 10 people

who know who he is. It's always the same

people, isn't it?

What happened to the awakening when you

found Jesus after Mila left you?

That was fake. Sorry to burst your bubble.

He gets most his views using your name.

Yeah, maybe a year ago he did, but my

channel's so dead these days it doesn't

really matter if you use my name in the

title. You're not going to get 20k views.

Back in the day, yeah, maybe you'd get

10-20k views. You put hiding in my room is

a scumbag like Kanaeto did, but it's

2021. Nothing has happened recently. All

the previous drama is so old, I don't

think anyone cares anymore.

Oh, thank you, Oliver.

What you need, not what you want for

happiness. I do want to go

back to Japan. Sucks being here.

So what you need, not what you want for

I want my YouTube views back.

Where'd they go?

Why do I love Japan so much? Because

number 1, it's cheap and affordable.

Number 2, the girls are cute. Number 3,

it's safe and you don't get beaten up on

the street. Number 4, I'm actually

pretty tall in Japan. Compared to most

Japanese people, so I feel bigger.

Number 5, for some reason you

guys seem to care about Japan a lot, so

it's good for views. There's a lot of

weebs on the internet who love all this

Japan stuff. It's easy content.

Just walk into like a karaoke and go,

Japanese karaoke, and then people

think, wow, this is so good content.

He's in Japan,

but no one cares about England,

so there's many reasons.

That was crazy when your place got raided.

Yeah, I can't believe that happened, and

then I can't believe it got such low

views. I thought people wanted drama, and

I literally gave them a police raid,

and then people didn't even care. 20k

views. I get 20k views whining about my

marriage. That was crazy when your place

got raided abroad.

I thought at least a police raid would get

some interest, you know, people would find

it interesting or exciting, but no, it

just got the same as usual.

I have missed a bit. What has happened

with you for the past month?

Absolutely nothing.

Nothing has happened. I'm so bored

and stressed and depressed.

The only thing that happened was that girl

I met in London 2 years ago just showed up

at my house in March, and then she stayed

the night. That was it, really. I didn't

film it because I didn't want to make a

big fuss about it. I don't really want to

encourage other people coming to my house,

so I thought it's best not to make it a

big— make a big scene out of it.

Do I hear random men banging in your

house? Not usually. When will

you get back with Chihiro for the visa?

I'm not sure if I can get a visa again.

But if we did get back together, I think I

would just stay as like a tourist for 6

months and then see how it goes.

I'm not sure what alternatives there would

be. I guess I could sign up to a school if

they're taking applications for student

visas. But I can't really be bothered to

sign up for all that mumbo-jumbo.

Be positive. Been trying to stay positive

for the last 5 months now. It's getting

very stressful.

Tourist visa, 6 months actually.

How many times do I have to say it?

Tourists can stay in Japan for 6 months

without a visa if you're from the UK and

a couple other countries.

I've said that like a million times

now.

How do you think I stayed there last time?

Last year, after my dad died, I went back

for 6 months without the visa,

and the visa was expired when I got back.

We had to renew it, but I was there as a

tourist. I think

the cheapest way would be like a culture—

a culture visa. If I sign up at a

calligraphy school or Japanese tea

ceremony school, I should be able to sign

up for a cultural visa which lasts about 2

years. It's quite inexpensive compared

to a language— language school's really

expensive. It's like $10,000, $20,000 for

a full course, which is a couple years. I

don't want to learn Japanese. I just want

a bloody visa.

Some people are saying Japan's reopening

in autumn. Some are saying next year.

I was hoping they'd reopen in April, but I

Oh, this is a good question from THY.

What's your goal in life? Maybe I should

make a whole video about it because it

seems like people don't know what I'm

trying to do in life.

I feel like it's a very complicated

matter. Has your old Carson been bringing

random men over? Not recently.

She just has one guy. What's your

goal in life aside fucking every girl and

finding the perfect girl that doesn't? I

mean, I wouldn't say no to effing every

girl if I could, but that's not very

sustainable and it's kind of dangerous.

You don't know what kind of disease you

So basically my life goal would be,

um,

find a partner that I like who

isn't annoying.

Yeah,

find a partner to travel with and make

content.

Travel, vlog everything, put it on

YouTube, OnlyFans, make money off the

internet.

Just have fun, I guess.

What else would you want to do in life?

It's just there doesn't seem to be anyone

who wants to do it. They've all got jobs

and they're stuck in the country they live

in and they don't have the guts to make a

move. And then, I don't know, they don't,

they don't even want to be in videos

because they're scared of the scary people

on the internet. Oh, scary, look, they're

writing stuff in the chat box. Oh no,

people are weird. Oh no,

the scary people on the internet gonna say

mean things. Don't know why people so

No one wants me to film them or talk about

them. Usually they want me to keep them a

Be honest, are you bi? The stuff you post

on there is sus.

No, I don't think I'm bi. What do you mean

the stuff on my OnlyFans is sus? I think

it's good stuff. It's usually my jerk-off

videos that I filmed whilst chatting to

some girl, and I sent it to the girl and I

thought, hey, I could use this for

OnlyFans. This is pretty good.

So recently I've been chatting to this one

girl who I think could be a catfish,

but at this point I don't care because I

think the idea of her not being a catfish

is kind of arousing.

I could say, I don't want to talk to you

until you give me some proof, but then if

she just ghosts me, then it's ruined.

With super high expectations,

but have you accomplished?

Thank you very much. How's your papa

doing? Oh wait, he's not here anymore.

The hell? That's so mean. How dare you use

my dead dad as an insult? I'm so offended.

I have super high expectations. I really

don't think I do, you know. I just want

someone who I'm attracted to who's also

attracted to me. That's like the bare

minimum expectations

of a relationship. Hang in there, Daniel.

Lockdown is tough, but it'll be over soon.

Yeah, it's actually still not over.

It doesn't completely lift until the end

of May, I think. 17th of May is when we

can officially hug people again and go to

hotels. So I still can't

even go to a hotel now. There's been like

a partial lifting.

Yeah, there's like a partial lifting

to the lockdown, but it

doesn't really affect me because I don't,

I don't go to shops anyway.

Can we see a KC beef video? No,

I don't want to make more videos about

Casey because it'll just drive more

traffic to him. The more I talk about him,

the more people are gonna go over to his

channel and check out what he's saying,

and then he's just gonna get more views.

Sometimes it's best to just keep your

mouth shut when these annoying people are

trying to get your attention.

I don't even know what I'd say. I'd be

like, oh no, Casey's trying to get me

banned from Japan. What shall I do? Why I

can't go back to Japan. My arch nemesis

Casey is reporting me. He's trying to save

the Japanese women from my evil dick. My

dirty, dirty dick. He's trying to

save the Japanese women from it.

That's literally what he said in his

video. Well, not word for word, but he

basically said we need to stop Daniel from

coming to Japan and getting with girls.

It's so lame, trying to be

such a cockblock.

He says he's worried that I'm gonna come

to Japan and then break more women's

hearts. So we have to stop Daniel from

coming back. Help me report him to

immigration. I haven't even done anything

wrong.

I could do like a fake rant.

I'm just kind of fed up doing the fake

rants. It's just stupid now.

Stand in front of the mirror and go, oh my

god, guys, Casey said he's gonna report

me. It's just so childish now. I can't do

it anymore.

Everything's getting worse. Yeah,

everything is. My stocks are even more

down now. So now I'm down like £10,000.

If you include my gains, I'm down like

£22,000.

But if you just include the initial

investment, I'm down about £10,000.

But I bought the dip today, so hopefully

today was the bottom. We're gonna bounce

straight back up. Have faith,

have conviction.

But today was pretty bad. I can't believe

how low some of them dropped. It'll be

fine, just buy more, buy more.

I bought more Bitcoin stuff and I bought

more Tesla and I bought more— I

bought more something, I forgot now.

Where's the lightsaber? Oh yeah, I forgot.

Oh, it's yellow.

I don't know why it's flashing.

And I forgot how to change the color. It

changed to yellow for some reason.

Wait, let me find out how to change the

color. If I lose the instructions,

I'm gonna forget.

I don't like yellow.

Oh, green. Oh, now it's green.

That's blue.

Do you like blue?

How much of Dad's inheritance is left?

About £10,000, but it's not really

inheritance. It was an insurance payout.

It wasn't my dad's money that was in his

bank account. I didn't get anything

directly. It was like

an insurance thing. Wow, that flashing is

I want it to go red.

Oh, now it's pink.

But why is it flashing?

Ah, pink's quite nice.

I wanted to be like that guy, you know,

Dave2D, with the 2 light sticks

in the background.

Got a beer. I don't know if I have beer

again. I had beer yesterday when I

streamed on Twitch. The streaming life

requires many alcohol.

Stupid hair clip won't stay.

Why is it so bright now?

Casey has been in love with Chi-Chi since

day one. I have this suspicion he, he has

been. The first words he said to us when

he met us, he looked straight at Chihiro

and he was like, Wow, you're so beautiful.

You've got such a beautiful wife. You're

so lucky. It's kind of weird.

I want like a gamer girl bedroom.

Lots of pink.

A gamer girl. I want

like the gamer girl cat ear headphones.

This is my Twitch room setup. Pink lights.

Yeah, it looks pretty nice. I like it.

So, um, Let me think.

Get pills prescribed, you'll stop feeling

bad. No, I don't want to be on pills.

Am I clickbaiting? No, my life is really

getting worse and worse. Views are down,

stocks are down, I've got a big pimple.

No one understands me.

So sad.

What happened? Nothing's happened, that's

the problem. Absolutely nothing is

happening. I don't know what

to do. I don't know where to go.

This one girl invited me to LA. One girl

asked me to come to LA and she said we

could make OnlyFans content, we can make

vlogs and do that kind of stuff. And she

also has a Pornhub, so she's— I don't

think she's the shy type who's gonna be

like, oh, don't show me, don't talk about

me. But it just seems kind of too good to

be true because she ticks almost every

single box. That I want from a girlfriend,

which is like young, attractive, not fat,

willing to make content for YouTube and

OnlyFans, and speaks English.

It just seems like it's a bit too good to

be true. But I don't want to go to LA.

You know, I never really wanted to go to

America. America doesn't really interest

me, and it looks really expensive and

dangerous. Oh,

thank you, Lex, very generous. Grinning

Cafe 1, I love your channel. I'm Grinning

Cafe.

We shall have a San Miguel to celebrate.

But can you imagine if I actually went to

LA? I would get so many views.

I think, I think going to LA would be the

kind of stuff that would bring people back

to the channel.

So maybe it's worth the risk, you know.

If everything goes well, then I get

everything I wanted from a girlfriend

because she's really cute and hot. And she

has a P-Hub. I wonder if she, she would

mind if I told you guys what it was. She

gets a lot of views. She gets— she only

has like 1,000 subs or followers on it.

She gets like 50k views per video.

Pornhub is amazing. You can be a nobody

and just start a Pornhub today, and you'll

probably get like 10,000-20,000 views.

You don't have to have good content or

anything. You just have to be attractive,

I guess. I wonder how much money you can

make from 50k views on Pornhub. I don't

think it'll be much.

I wonder what the CPM for Pornhub is like,

because the only companies— what kind of

companies advertise on Pornhub?

Isn't it just mostly porn adverts? If I

keep saying the P word, I'm gonna get

demonetized. We need a code word for

prawns, the lovely delicious shrimp snack.

Prawn Hub.

So I keep thinking pros and cons. So pros,

I get like the perfect girlfriend that

I've always dreamed of and we can make

killer content. And I

can also help her, you know, I can help

promote her Pornhub. Can you imagine if I

promoted her Pornhub? Fuck, I said it

again. Imagine if I promoted her P-Hub.

She'd get so much traffic.

And then we can do like couple vlogs,

drive around LA, and then I could promote

our naughty stuff.

But then the con would be I get catfished

and she ghosts me and changes her mind,

or maybe she was not serious in the first

place, and then I go all the way to LA and

I get Rejected, and they can do like a

massive "I got rejected" kind of

rant stream like in Germany.

Plus, I can make videos like "I'm moving

to LA," "Why LA sucks," "Why I'm leaving

LA," and then I'd probably

go to New York. I wouldn't mind going to

New York. You know, it's like the most

famous city in the world. Apart from New

York, I don't really want to go anywhere

else. I wonder if Ice would meet up.

No, I feel like a weird stalker fan. I

don't want to be like Mexican Andy

stalking Ice.

I watched Ice's stream today. He was in

Disneyland at the water park.

Made me feel a bit sad. Reminded me of

the times when I went to USJ in Japan.

But I need to wait to get my vaccine

before I go anywhere. I don't know when

they're doing vaccines for my age group

here. Oh, my mood's improving.

Yeah, I could, I could just do this, you

know, just go for it. Yeah, there's risk I

might get catfished and ghosted, but If

you don't try, then you'll never know.

So first I need to wait until I get

vaccinated, and then I need to find out if

America is letting foreigners in.

Kind of stupid to think that I'm a

foreigner as an English person. I mean,

we made the country in the first place.

Why are English people foreigners?

The English made America.

Oh, it's out of battery.

Wait, I need my charger.

Can't get it in the hole.

Okay, I got it in.

So I don't know if America is letting

English people in.

Do a cam chat with her. I know she's real.

I used to chat to her in 2018 and she sent

me some very revealing videos and photos.

She was actually on the SD card, the

infamous SD card.

But I don't know how serious she is about

actually doing this.

It does seem interesting though. I've

never been to America before.

But I feel like she's gonna flake. All

these girls are just so flaky. Can we say

the N-word here since it's YouTube? No,

no N-word. I got banned on Twitch because

of the N-word.

Don't get me banned.

I asked her, how come you haven't spoken

to me in such a long time and now all of a

sudden you're inviting me to LA? She said

because she's single now.

I guess that makes sense. I mean, if she

wasn't single, then she wouldn't message

Can anyone recap what's going on?

Basically,

Uh, I've got 2 prospective business

meetings, one in London,

which is like my main priority right now,

the London girl.

But then there's also an LA girl that

I'm quite interested in, in case the

London girl Does not work out.

But if I don't like America and it doesn't

work out, where do I go from America?

If Japan was open, I'd just fly straight

to Japan from America, but I don't think

Japan's going to be open yet.

Could go to Canada. Maybe there's some

Canadians who want to meet.

Stop.

But if Japan's still closed, I guess I

have to fly back to Europe. From America.

Where else could I fly to? Mexico,

Brazil. I don't really want to go to South

America, it looks kind of fishy.

It's surprising how quickly America seems

to have returned to normal compared

to England. We've only just come out of

the highest tier of lockdown, but still

some restrictions.

Still not allowed to book a hotel.

But yeah, hopefully Japan reopens in

autumn. That's what a certain

person told me,

whose name begins with a C.

I'd be so good at being one of those

people who keep secrets.

I don't know if you've seen that, that

viral video. You know that game L.A.

Noire? There's that old guy and he's

trying to tell a fib and his face is like,

like he's trying really hard not to smile.

It's like that bald old guy. I don't know

Virtually no one in Japan is vaccinated.

Yeah, that's what I heard. They, they have

like less than a percentage of the

population vaccinated, and at this rate

it's going to take them like 10 years.

But they've got a huge population, like

120 million people there,

and they've got the highest population of

old people in almost any country, so it's

going to take ages for them to get

vaccinated.

By the time they all get vaccinated, all

the old people would have died from old

age, probably.

When are they going to speed things up?

He sucking my pussy while he getting his

hair dreaded. He smoked trees while she

sucking dick.

The phrase sucking a pussy is so gross.

How flabby must it be to be able to suck

on? You would have to be really flappy.

Like a beef sandwich hanging out with

flaps. You suck on the flaps.

Don't keep secrets. I've got lots of

secrets. I've got a secret about Casey.

Gonna expose him.

I wonder if I should just say it.

He's such a loser. Oh my God,

I'd love to just spill the beans.

But I promise not to talk. My lips are

sealed. Sorry about

I don't know why I can't say it. It's just

she said not to tell people about

you know what.

How's it living at your mum's house with

no bills to pay? It's pretty good. I can

just sink all my money into more stocks

without having to worry. I just put

another $2,000 into stocks today and

yesterday. If I was in Rotterdam,

I wouldn't be able to do that because I

would have to pay rent.

How's the new job? It's going so well. I

love my coworkers, and my boss said I'm

doing a very good job, and I might even

get a special uniform.

What's my grand plan in life?

I want to build an

epic backlog of video

diaries on youtube.com full of

adventure, love, betrayal,

heartbreak, you know, everything that

entails in life. And I want to record it

and just build like a massive library of

videos of my life that will go viral,

hopefully,

or at least just generate views as passive

income. And then I want to find an amazing

partner to travel the world and make

memories with and

monetize everything, even our sex.

Everything has to be monetized— the

boredom, the excitement, the The betrayal,

the cheating, the heartbreak,

the sex.

And then we grow to be able to take on

Chris Broad and then kick him out of his

throne. I want to grow

bigger than Chris so I take over as number

one British boy in Japan.

That's my dream.

Uh, I'll show Chris who's boss. Just wait

until Japan's open again.

I'll show you the best ever Japan content.

My, my Japan videos from 2 years ago,

several of them have actually hit 100,000

views. Maybe you guys don't realize

because you don't keep checking my old

videos, but they are racking up views.

Several of them hit 100K views recently.

My slum video and my Capsule Hotel

one, the Japanese inn one got to 90k

views. So yeah, I think it is doable.

I just need, um,

I need to make stuff that people are

searching for and then put it out. And

people love that stuff, like Japanese net

cafes, Japanese convenience store,

Japanese toilet, whatever.

Yeah, I should have made more of that

stuff when I was in Japan, and I should

have focused less on all the stupid

cheating drama.

And then I want to go to different

countries. Experience it, complain about

it, make videos about it,

and then come back home for a few months

to rest and recuperate, play some Rainbow

Six.

That's basically just what I want to do.

Leave me now as I choke and writhe but

feel my body Stuck upon the darn knife of

my suicide.

Are those lyrics Michael Gira?

What about Germany? I went to Germany

twice and I made Why Germany Sucks as

well, didn't I? The Netherlands video is

doing okay, it's got 26K views. I reckon

it could get up to 50k after a year.

Not too bad.

But I think I'm done with Germany. I've

been there twice. Hmm, I'd rather

go somewhere else like Spain.

Germany was okay. I didn't really have

massive problems. But I'm a bit scared now

because of the beating I got in Rotterdam.

And now there's a lot of hatred towards

Asian people because of virus. Bit scary.

Have I ever been to Italy? No, I haven't

been to Italy, Greece, Spain,

Portugal. Maybe I should go check

it out. See what it's like whilst

I wait for Japan to reopen.

Could revisit Europe,

but I don't think it's a good idea to go

traveling before getting vaccinated.

The problem is, if I get a girlfriend who

has a job then it's kind of tricky to

do the travel stuff because she'll be

working. But then if she doesn't have a

job, then she's got no money, and then I

have to pay for everything, and I'm not

rich and famous enough to be able to

afford that. I think I could have with

Mila if she was willing to live with me.

We could have traveled around Europe and

Norway and stuff. I think I could have

afforded it, afforded it.

But not if she keeps telling me to not

film stuff. She kept telling me to stop

vlogging, remember? I tried making a vlog

because I rebuilt my confidence to start

filming. We went to like a clothing store

and she was just like, stop filming.

She was so negative towards it. And then

when I started filming, she'd turn her

back.

It's just annoying because when she first

came here, she was into it and she was

helping me make videos and she was coming

on streams. Not literally coming. There's

a star in her mind that'd like to eat her

breast.

What? Yeah, she was coming on streams and

helping me make videos. And she was

fine with it until she started crying

about the haters. And after

the haters, she just didn't really want to

be part of it anymore, and it just ruined

everything. I couldn't talk about her, I

couldn't film what we were up to. I had to

be really careful not to film her.

It was such a pain.

It just made me realize, wow, Chihiro was

such, such a good partner helping me

make content like that. She was never shy

of being on camera. Maybe she liked it.

She even made videos for me. She made that

Why I Hate My Husband video. She made the

I Think My Husband's Cheating on Me video.

She made the Japanese Onsen video. She

made videos if I asked her to.

Were they messaging me as parents? They

were trying to find out her parents'

social media, and then they were saying

stuff like, we're gonna send her parents

your OnlyFans, we're gonna make them hate

you, and all this really twisted stuff.

And they're saying stuff like, we're gonna

find out where they live and send them

your OnlyFans pictures. They're messed up

in the head, these people. It's like

they're so afraid of the idea

of me getting a girlfriend and being

happy, they go to these desperate measures

to try and ruin it.

These people are completely crazy.

So now I have to be extra careful next

time I meet a girl. I'm not really sure

how to do it.

It depends how much I like her. If I

really, really like her, then I would want

to keep it a secret just in case.

But if it's just like another Turkish

girl, then I'd probably just film it,

whack it up, and not care.

It's tricky because if I warn them about

my haters, that might ruin things before

anything even gets started.

Hmm, not sure what to do if I meet a new

I'm not sure how things would have worked

if I just kept Mila a secret. I don't

think I could have. I would have been too

excited about it, and I would have been

really wanting to talk about her.

Would you or your sister inherit the

family house? I'm sure we would receive

half, and then my sister would probably

want to sell it. So I need to make— I

need to make half a million dollars before

my mum dies. So I've got money to purchase

it, buy out my sister.

I've got 100K subs. If everyone just gave

me $5 each, I'd have enough money to

buy my family home.

Wouldn't that great.

Why would you want such a big house to

yourself? Because it's nice. It's not just

the house, it's also the garden. I've got

a huge garden. It's like having your own

personal park, and it's got a pond and

wildlife. It's got ducks. There's a female

duck and she's nesting eggs. I can't wait

until the eggs hatch and there's gonna be

little ducklings wandering around. It's

got birds and rabbits. It's great, I love

it. There's no

neighbors right next to it. The only

problem is it's a bit noisy because we're

nearby a factory and there's traffic.

Sometimes big tractors drive past.

There's like a humming sound from the

factory. It's like,

eeeeeeeeh, during the day,

so it's not really quiet.

It's so nice being isolated from strangers

though. After living in Rotterdam, you've

got strangers living right above you and

right next to you. You feel like you're in

a shoebox,

and even though there's walls separating

you, you can still feel their presence.

And then you come home here and

everything's just so nice

and quiet when there's no people.

Oh wow, thank you, Cupcake. Suck that dick

till it come smack my ass like a— Stop,

keep it family-friendly, please.

Do your neighbors work a job? I don't know

my neighbors. There was one guy who lived

next door, he used to be friends with my

dad. His name was I forgot his

name, but he was old. He died as well a

couple years ago, and his son came and

sold the house. So now there's new people

there. I don't know who they are. So sad

though. I remember that old man.

He used to come over and chat to my dad.

But he was this old man who lived on his

own there. But it just goes to show, you

can get married and you can have kids But

you're still gonna end up an old man

living on your own, probably, if your wife

dies before you. Your kids are gonna grow

up and move out, unless they're like me

and they live here forever. Your kids are

gonna grow up and move out and have their

own life. Your, your wife or husband's

probably gonna die before you do, and then

you're just in a house all by yourself.

Back to square one.

That's what I find a bit depressing.

I think you just have to try not to think

of it. Just try and enjoy life,

create nice memories. Don't have regrets.

You don't want to be old and thinking,

oh, I wish I did this and I wish I did

that.

You can try to be a good father so your

children visit you time to time, but you

never know what would happen. They might

end up moving to Japan, then you see them

once a year, or they might not ever come

back.

How do I feel about friends?

I still feel really against the idea,

even more now because I recently lost an

online friend. I used

to chat to this person quite often, and

then all of a sudden they stopped replying

to me. And I know they're still there

because my message got read and I can see

they're active,

but But they don't reply, and they

unfollowed me, so I must have upset them

somehow.

I can't imagine what it was that I said,

because I've said a lot of stuff that they

just thought was funny and didn't really

And then it just makes me think— it makes

me feel like it was just a big waste of

time fostering

that relationship, you know, putting

effort into finding out about them and

asking them questions.

It makes you feel like it's just— it's

like an investment, isn't it? You invest

time and effort into the relationship and

then you never know what's gonna happen.

They could just end up disliking you and

then they don't talk to you anymore.

I was trying to— I was actually thinking

about being friends with Casey in the

beginning. That's why I asked to meet him.

But I don't know, I just felt like there

was something strange about him,

like something autistic.

And I don't think you can say I was wrong

if you look at what he does now. Look at

his reaction to me blocking

him. He makes like 30 videos with my

ex-wife. So weird.

That has to be some kind of mental

illness. I knew there was something weird

about him when I first met him.

I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but

I definitely felt like something was off.

I didn't really enjoy hanging out with him

either, so I just stopped responding to

him, and eventually I had to block him

because he just kept spamming me all the

Not all the time, but it was like every

couple weeks he would message me again

even though I didn't reply. I get

annoyed when people do that. Just block

them. I block loads of people all the

time. There's probably some people

here in the chat who I blocked on

Instagram because you annoyed me. Don't

have to take it personally, just means I'm

not interested in talking to you. Grow up,

please.

There's nothing wrong with being autistic.

No, but there is if

they start doing weird stuff because they

don't have like common sense.

But there's something very strange about

I think it's Asperger's.

I just don't think a normal person would

do that stuff. They would just forget

about it and be mature about it and not

keep dragging it out.

Yeah, I guess I've also done some pretty

autistic weird stuff. Like obsessing over

ex-girlfriends, making weird videos about

ex-girlfriends.

But I do it for money. What does he do it

for? He can't be making any

money just from getting like 1,000 views.

You get like $2 for 1,000 views.

I didn't make 20+ videos about one

ex-girlfriend or one person. I just made

one or two.

No way his channel is monetized. I'm not

sure, it could be.

He's got over 1,000 subs and he probably

gets more than 4,000 hours watch time.

I was surprised Pia's channel's not

monetized. I asked her when she was here

if she gets money from YouTube. She said

she's not monetized. She only has 500

subs. I thought more people would have

subbed to her considering I made a video

about her and it got 66,000 views.

All my spin-off channels kind of flopped,

didn't they? There was Tomoko. What

happened to her channel? I haven't checked

her channel in ages. Let me check.

Tomo L, wasn't it?

Her last video was 7 months ago.

Hi, it's been a while. That voice.

How have you been doing?

I'm doing okay, just a little

stressed. You know, I can't go upload.

By the way, I may— So you suspect

Casey of having Asperger's too?

Too. Your channel is like an autism

networking channel.

Yeah, all these characters all just seem

very aspie, don't they? Like Cesium,

Casey, all these girls, they seem kind of

weird. Tomoko— Tomoko

is like the biggest aspie out of all of

them. Yeah,

Tomoko hasn't uploaded in 7 months now.

Don't know what she does. And then there

was— who else was there? Turkish girl.

What's she doing? She deleted all

her videos.

She had all these vlogs, they're all gone

now. She only has 2 videos from some

movie, a clip, movie clips.

That's Turkish girl's channel. It's called

Pulart. P-U-L-A-R-T.

Why did she delete all the videos?

That is her, isn't it? I'm pretty sure

Yeah, it is.

Wow, it's so sad when you check a channel

and you've noticed They've removed all the

videos. There's just something really

depressing about that, like they gave up

on the idea of doing YouTube.

See, it's not easy. People think, oh,

you're just livestreaming, you're just

making effortless vlogs.

Yeah, well, look at all these people,

they just stop uploading. Tomoko, no

uploads, 7 months.

Turkish girl deletes her whole channel.

When are you gonna fuck up your Discord

again? Discord has been quite good

recently. I banned most of the annoying

people, but now it's a bit dead actually.

Let me link my stream on Discord,

see if it makes any difference. I'm pretty

sure most people are already here.

1, 2. How do I link it? Share,

copy link. Discord announcements

at everyone,

paste. Okay,

send that out. Uh, yeah, maybe I could put

a link. Maybe some people here would like

to join, get some fresh blood into the

Discord. I hate it when I make a Discord,

it's always the same people there,

and then they end up kind of taking over

the server with their overpowering,

overbearing personalities.

Don't know how to do it cuz I would have

to I

could— oh, I know how to do it. I can link

it on my phone.

Discord invite,

copy link,

uh, go to my channel.

There is my Discord link. Can you see it?

We've got all my exes' nudes and

summaries of the characteristics.

Not really.

Smoky. It's my vape blueberry flavor.

It's not real nicotine or anything, it's

just Like e-liquid. It's got nothing in

it.

It's just got a nice smell.

What's a droog gang?

No, most of those people left now. Pia

left. I'm pretty sure Cesium is not there.

Most of those weirdos are gone.

Thank God.

I'm sure some of them are lurking in the

background secretly.

Are new people joining?

Oh wow,

welcome!

But I don't want trolls. I just want

people who are nice and we can chat

and talk about stuff like traveling,

YouTube. Business ideas,

maybe dating stuff. I don't want all these

trolls coming on and saying, did you fuck

Mira with a 10-inch pole? I don't know.

I don't want disrespectful stuff about my

exes.

Please behave.

The best way to get people to not behave

is by telling them to behave.

You only care if it's Mira. Maybe Chihiro

too. I don't like people badmouthing

Chihiro and Mira. But any of the other

girls, I don't really care. I mean, you

can say what you want about Turkish girl

Tomoko or single

mother girlfriend. I don't really feel any

kind of connection to them.

Am I an anti-vaxxer? I don't think

so. I mean, I wouldn't get the

vaccine if I didn't have to. I already

traveled all around Europe last year. I

didn't even get the virus.

I feel like directly putting the virus

into you in a vaccine form, it's more

dangerous than the chance of you chances

of you just getting it unless

you're going to parties and discos and

stuff, but I don't really have much

interaction with people anyway, so the

chances of me getting it are pretty low.

I go to different countries, but I just

stay in my room most of the time and I

just meet maybe 1 or 2 people.

I would just love a nice fun girl who is

confident about herself enough to not be

worried about stuff like internet haters

and would just like to make some content

with me. And yeah, I could

help her grow her own stuff, like promote

her OnlyFans or her Pornhub.

Or her own channel.

But I guess those type of girls won't be

interested in me.

Though I have some 6-foot-tall mega Chad

who drives a Tesla and has abs, surfs on

the beach like Casey Neistat.

I play Rainbow Six in my bedroom.

Not all girls care that much. Like, look

at iDubbbz's girlfriend, she does

OnlyFans. Look at Venus Angelic, There's

loads of girls on the internet who aren't

I guess there are some horror stories,

you know, people getting attacked or

stalked.

But I think in general, most, most people

do YouTube and have OnlyFans and stuff

like that, and they live pretty normal

lives. They don't get murdered.

Do I want to get back into the J-vlogger

sphere? Not really. I don't really feel

like I'd be part of them.

I always get isolated,

you know. I never feel welcomed into any

kind of group, and the whole J-vlogger

group just— they all seem so pretentious

and annoying and nerdy and they're

all into anime.

Lame. Lame.

I couldn't care less about anime. There's

only one anime I used to love, but then I

realized its core message is really shit.

So you know that anime I used to talk

about a lot called Welcome to the NHK?

I've been thinking about it, and the core

message of that story is is so against

my core message.

So basically the story is about this young

guy who's got no job and no friends and no

life, and he's hiding in his room. And

then he tries all this stuff to try and

make money and to try and become famous

and to try and get rich. He joins

a pyramid scheme, he tries making money on

an online game, he tries making his own

video game, he, he tries

getting with this cute girl, and then

everything fails. And then at the end, he

ends up getting a job in construction

where he stands by the side of the road

waving a sign, and that's it. That's the

end. And apparently that's how he becomes

happy. By giving up on his dreams and

becoming a normal member of society.

And then there's another character in the

anime, um,

who also was hiding in his room, had video

game addiction, and his ending of his

story was his big sister who was giving

him food, she vanishes, so he has to leave

the room to get food, and he ends up

getting a job delivering stuff on a

bicycle. So the whole core message of the

whole show was basically just, you have to

get a job. Don't follow your dreams.

Just give up and cave,

cave in and get a job. That's just

so against my ideology. Such a depressing

way to end things.

I got a Super Chat, but it didn't show up.

It showed up in the chat box.

JNMHREA, Thailand will boost your channel.

Yeah, I wouldn't mind going to Thailand.

It looks okay.

The core message of Welcome to the NHK

just seems like the complete opposite of

the American dream. The American dream is

like, become your

own boss, grow your own business out of

your garage, and become like Elon Musk and

get success, you know,

follow your dreams,

leave the corporate plantation. Japan is

like the complete opposite. Japan's like,

don't even think about starting your own

company, don't even think about

being innovative, just do what everyone