thinking of going to THAILAND-

I'm standing on you.

Why would I want to escape to London? Because I was supposed to meet a girl

and now she doesn't reply to me anymore.

So at this rate, doesn't look like I'm likely to go.

Still got my fingers crossed.

Got loads of nice comments on your recent video. Yeah, I guess so, but still the same annoying ones all over, over and over, saying stuff like, it's your fault, it's not your content, it's your personality.

Well, they keep bringing up the cheating thing.

No girl wants to be with someone who cheated before.

I bet you 80% of the women out there who are in relationships are with a guy who's cheated before and they just don't know it.

Is the American girl still contacting me? No. That's why I don't really feel confident about her. She never just chats to me. She— I don't know, a couple— when did I start talking about the LA girl? That was weeks ago now, and she just randomly messaged me that one time. Telling me about her Pornhub. I don't know

why that was the first thing she wanted to say to me. She was like, hey Daniel, check out my Pornhub, lol. Well, kind of strange.

And then she said we should meet up and make content together, but then she never chatted to me, so I don't really feel like she's interested in me.

We used to chat when we were married. I mean, when I was married, she would chat to me. She also used to send me videos of her and some guy doing it. She's kind of weird.

So you deleted the videos for nothing? Actually, I put them back up. That was the quickest flip-flop in my entire life. I went from, oh shit, I should take down these videos because this girl is phoning me. And then I woke up today and I just had the best jerk-off session ever, and I just felt like,

actually, I don't care that much. And I put them back to public, and guess what? She didn't message me all day today. So just as I expected, she probably checked out the channel more today and felt like— I don't know, she said she wasn't going to because she wants to meet me without her opinion being affected by

my channel.

What was so good about the jerk-off session? I don't know, it was just really good.

And then I discovered something amazing. So for the first time ever I changed my Tinder location to Bangkok and my phone just blew up. I got like 70 matches in a day. I set it to Bangkok yesterday. I woke up the next day and I had like 20 matches, and then I boosted my profile and I got

like 50 matches within a couple of hours.

I should go to Thailand. I just can't believe it. I've been in the UK Tinder, UK Tinder, since I got back in, in January and only matched like 2 people.

I don't get any matches here in England. I can boost my profile, I can try and have nicer pictures. English girls don't find me attractive.

6 months and I get like 2, between 2 and 5 matches, and then a couple are just kind of fat old ugly people. I match, I switch it to Bangkok, and in under 24 hours I've got 70 matches. And there's cute girls in there. Yeah, there's some chubbies, there's some ladyboys, there's some MILFs, but there's 70. And

there's a lot of cute young girls in there as well, in the mix.

And these ladyboys look good. Some of these ladyboys I matched look more feminine than the actual women in this country. I wouldn't mind doing them if they look like that. Wait, let me get my phone. I'll show you.

Some of these girls— I mean, ladyboys— are really good-looking.

I don't know if that's some kind of filter

or FaceApp thing. Okay, what do you think of this ladyboy?

Don't you think that he— do you call them a he or she? Do you think she's cute?

That's cute. I don't care if she has a penis. Definitely a filter, but what's the filter filtering? If it's just like skin filter, or is it like changing the face structure?

Yeah, this picture doesn't look as good.

Looks a bit more manly.

Okay, I can't show that picture.

And then this one's also a ladyboy.

Matched him/her.

They look better than English girls, and then at least they match me back here. I mean, on Bangkok Tinder. So I got like 70 matches with Thai people, so that's nice. Look at all these matches I got. If I just scroll, look, it's like endless, all Thai girls.

Imagine I get a ladyboy boyfriend. That'd be

pretty funny.

This one looks like Mila but Asian. Look,

I think this one's an actual girl.

Well, doesn't she look like an Asian Mila? The cheeks are like Mila cheeks.

Looks like this.

Yeah, I met some pretty cute Thai girls.

Oh, it just sucks I have to go to Asia cuz no one likes Asian guys in Europe. Yeah, funny, you have more luck as an Asian guy in Asia. Figures, I guess. If you're Asian guy in Europe, you're fucked

unless you got really masculine features and you got like really—

you don't have really Asian features.

That's what I've been saying all the time. But people say, why don't you date in England? Because it's so difficult. I can be on Tinder in London for months and get nothing, and then I just switch to an Asian country— Korea, Japan, Thailand— And I get matches with attractive girls.

Can you travel to Thailand now? I don't think so.

Someone I was talking to said they're only allowing tourists into Phuket. I don't know how to— Phuket, something like that. But I think you need a vaccine and I haven't had mine yet.

Am I turning gay?

If, if the guy looks like that, I'd turn gay right now.

I'm not against being gay if the person doesn't look like a guy.

I've said that the whole time.

Mom's playing some kind of weird music.

So she doesn't realize how loud her phone is. One time it was 2:00 a.m. in the morning, I could hear music coming from her room.

Yeah, my main— the main thing I'm attracted to is a feminine face and body, but more, more importantly, a feminine face is what reels me in. I don't really care that much. Well, I guess I prefer them not to have a penis because I've— that's still kind of weird for me. But I think I could change.

Hold on, what the fuck?

Someone sent me this.

Oh, she's just singing. I thought it was something else,

some weird thing.

So keep down, you're really gay then. Be honest with us, come clean, lol. No, because being gay is you're attracted to men. If you're attracted to a ladyboy, because She looks like a woman. That means you're attracted to a woman. So keep down, you're really gay then. Be honest with us, come clean, lol. It's not gay.

Did I watch Ice Poseidon's Thailand streams? No, I didn't even know he went there.

Which female match? I think this ladyboy actually looks prettier than the actual girls.

Would you prefer a really hot ladyboy or an uglier girl? That's a difficult question.

One of them recognized me. I hope I don't get recognized in Thailand. I don't think I'm known in Thailand.

She unmatched me. Oh no, she didn't.

Look, she said, no way, are you really Daniel? Yes, why? Hiding in my room? Yeah, that's my channel name. No way, I didn't know Thai people knew me. I mean, not really. When a girl says bro, it's so unattractive, don't you think?

Bro, it's like, what a young guy says, isn't it? When a girl says bro to me, I feel like I'm talking to a guy.

It's like when they say mate in England. When a girl says mate, it's just really weird. Thanks, mate. I remember this one woman at the petrol station. She would come in every morning to get petrol and she would say, thanks, mate. It was really masculine.

I hate all this bro and dope and all this weird language young people use these days. It's always bruh, bro, that's dope, bro. It's just stupid,

but I guess languages change, don't they?

I guess she's not interested. I hate it when they match me just so they can go, oh my God, are you Daniel? Yeah, I am. I guess you just matched me so you can say, oh my God, are you Daniel? And you're not actually interested.

Very annoying.

Yeah, so I have to arrange my vaccine appointment. Problem is it's a bit far. The closest appointment center they gave me was in some place that begins with an L near Maidstone, and Maidstone's about a 15-minute drive, and this place is like a 25-minute drive away, so I need to ask my mum to take me. My mum

got it done in the nearby village in Lenham. I don't know why I can't get it there,

but I'm a bit worried because you hear stuff like the blood clots But that's the AstraZeneca vaccine. My— I don't think over-30s are getting AstraZeneca. I think we're getting the Pfizer vaccine or Moderna, and I don't think there's been blood clot. I'm a bit worried about blood clots because remember I went to the dentist in Rotterdam? This

was ages ago. I'd be surprised if any of you remember, but do you remember I was in the Rotterdam Airbnb playing Fortnite and I made a video called I Went to the Dentist and she poked my gum with the metal pick And I bled so much. And she said she only poked me lightly and I bled a

lot. And she said I should get checked out at the doctor because that's not normal.

I don't bleed all the time.

And then, you know, sometimes when I stream over there, I scratch my leg and I'm like, I'm bleeding. And then there seems to be quite a bit of blood coming out and I didn't even scratch. Whatever it was very hard.

It's always in the same place, and here if I poke on the inner part of the gum with like a toothpick or one of those dentist picks, it does bleed a lot. I can taste the blood running down, and I'm worried that, I don't know, maybe I have low amounts of platelets, and apparently the AstraZeneca vaccine For

some people, it, it makes your body lose the ability to clot, and then you just bleed loads.

So I'm a bit worried I've got some kind of problem,

but it's only when you poke at hair. I just, I try not to poke it. It's like in the gum in between the 2 back teeth. But it's not all my gums, it's like just in that area. I could probably make it bleed now if I get my toothpick. Sign of health problems. Yeah, that's what she said.

She said I should get checked out, but I can't be bothered. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I don't smoke or drink or do drugs or anything.

I never had a wisdom tooth taken out.

But the weird thing is, when I was taking the HIV test and I was trying to make myself bleed, my finger kept clotting before I could draw enough blood. Remember when me and Chihiro came back for Christmas before my dad died? People thought it'd be funny to send HIV test kits to my house, and I tried doing

one And I used 3 of the prick things and I kept clotting and I couldn't get enough blood. So that must mean I don't have a bleeding problem.

Do I still have my wisdom teeth? I do. Why? Because they don't cause me any problems.

The upper 2 don't cause me any problems, but the bottom right one

sometimes gets a bit infected. But I just use my toothpick and I try and keep it clean.

I don't think the dentist would suggest me having it taken away— I mean, taken out. Because usually they say, I wouldn't recommend having your wisdom tooth taken out unless it's causing you pain or problems. And I'm not in any pain or anything.

And the left, bottom left one, it's not even there. I don't— there's just an empty gap. But I heard some people, um, that the final wisdom tooth doesn't come out until their 40s or their 50s.

And my dad had his wisdom tooth taken out the year before he died, I think 2017 or '18. I remember he was talking about his wisdom tooth being pulled out.

Can I make a Discord? I don't know, I heard something about Chihiro's Discord getting wrecked, but no one explained What happened?

What happened?

If food gets stuck in the gap, I always use my toothpick.

Why do I ignore messages? Which ones?

Ah, my new video is 13 views away from taking the number 4 spot. Didn't do as well as I was hoping it would.

First it got number 4 and then it dropped down to number 7. It slowly climbed back up to 6, then 5.

I think it's a bit of a slow burner. People aren't rushing to click it.

Oh well, I guess it wasn't an amazing— amazingly clickbaitable title.

It just kind of shows trying to put effort into the video to make it a proper video doesn't really make any difference.

It's all about whether the title is appearing or not. Whether I use a mic or film my face,

I just don't— I don't agree that it makes any difference. I could have just put a screenshot, like a picture of my cat

And I feel like it wouldn't have done any worse.

What happened after the phone call with the London girl? Nothing really. She said she was gonna message me today, but she didn't. I guess she changed her mind.

I don't know.

I had a feeling she would.

I'm not really too bothered.

I kind of lost interest in going to London, to be honest.

I'd rather just stay at home.

Yeah, the other girl, she doesn't message me either. She said end of May. There's 2 days left in May. I don't think she's gonna message me.

Why do girls say that? They say we can meet end of May, and then it's end of May, and then she's gone.

Oh, thank you, Ben. Very kind of you.

Very generous.

You only get $1 because you blocked me. She kept spamming my messages.

How many times do I have to say I get annoyed when people keep spamming messages at me about random stuff I'm not interested in? That's why I blocked the Hong Kong guy.

If I don't reply, it means I'm not interested in the conversation topic.

Have I been playing Rainbow Six? I've been playing less of it, kind of lost interest. It's just the same thing over and over.

You blocked the guy for telling you about volume issues? Yeah, because he kept spamming it and I kept telling him I can't turn the volume up. It's already at max.

Free Fanuelord. Why did I block him? Because he kept asking about Mida's profession

in Korea. I don't know, she's probably done a bunch of odd jobs here and there. Why does it matter?

And he kept sending me pictures of Chihiro as well on Instagram. He's, he's weird.

I had to block him on Instagram as well because he was sending me— he was taking pictures of Chihiro on the video and then sending it to me. Why? Why do some people do weird stuff like this?

I matched quite a cute girl on Bumble.

She lives in Essex. Not the Essex girl.

Wow, she's actually really pretty.

The hell? She actually lives in the same town as the Essex girl. It's not the Essex girl, is it?

No, that 6th girl was older.

Hi. How— what should I say for my first message? Hi, how are you? Is she white? Yeah, she's white and she's got like reddish purpley hair.

She's really cute.

5 foot 3.

Short.

Or should I say, hi, how are you? I don't know what else to say. That just seems really boring, doesn't it?

Hi, nice, nice hair. Hi, I like your hair. Is that weird?

I don't know what to say. I said hi, I like your hair.

Wait, I'm gonna screenshot her picture in case she blocks me.

Wait, if I screenshot on Bumble, do they know?

I get paranoid now because I was screenshotting pictures on Instagram and people knew because Instagram tells them when you screenshot it. Record the screen. Isn't that the same thing? I think even Instagram knows when you're recording the screen.

Okay, screenshotting.

I'm nervous now. What if she says, did you just screenshot my picture?

What should I say next?

Um, she said, thank you, darling.

I feel paranoid now that she might know my channel. The last 2 girls I was talking to and I matched on Tinder, they knew my channel.

The other one hasn't said anything yet, but I know she knows because I've seen her face following me on Instagram.

How's your evening?

So boring. I don't know what to say.

Who's this messaging you now? It's a girl in Essex who matched me. Essex girl number 2.

So weird, she lives in the same town as well. That means I can't say the town. Oh no, what if I go there and I vlog it and then people would see the town I'm in?

Ah, my mind just goes blank when I match a cute girl and I have to say something.

If, if she's not that pretty, then I don't really care. I just go into like semi-troll mode.

You guys are not very helpful. Can I suck on your nipples?

Even her outfits are really nice. She has like knee-high socks and a skirt.

How's your evening? I can't think of anything else.

I'm so bad at this.

How about I ask, are you single?

Ask if she plays Rainbow Six. Her profile says she plays, uh, Animal Crossing.

She's gonna see your Animal Crossing sucks video. No, I took it down because it had stolen footage. Gonna get copy striked again by some weirdo.

I wonder if PewDiePie would copystrike me. Doesn't seem like he would do that. He doesn't seem like someone who would do that. Engage conversation with her, but I don't know what to say. I don't want to sound all creepy.

Maybe I should just be really forwards and just say, so are you looking for a boyfriend? Did I watch Matt versus Japan versus George Trombey pitch accent debate? Oh, I haven't seen it yet. They did a live stream together.

I think it's a good— a pretty good tactic of George because George's channel is pretty dead. He has like 200k subs and he gets 2k views, so it's a pretty good idea for him to like get into beef with these more popular teachers, and then he can kind of get his foot more into the whole Japanese learning

community.

It's interesting why George's channel is so— the sub-to-view ratio is pretty bad

compared to my channel. Uh, my views don't look too bad in comparison,

but look at PewDiePie. He's got 100 million subs and he gets on average about 2.5 million views. That's like the equivalent of me getting 2K views. Yeah, it'd be like me getting 2K views.

If, if I get 20K views, that would be like PewDiePie getting 20 million views every time, which he doesn't. He gets like 2 million.

She's a bit young though.

22. Is 22 too young for me? I'm 10 years older.

It's difficult to get consistently high number of views. Yeah, who does?

It's pretty hit and miss for most YouTubers.

Oh no, I need the toilet.

10 years too much?

Hmm, I mean, I wouldn't say no to a 22-year-old, but when I was with Mila, I felt really old. And Midou was only 27, 5 years younger, and she made me feel old. When I was with Chihiro, I felt young. It's funny that— I need to pee.

I'm back.

Yeah, I felt really old when I was with Amina. Imagine how old I'd feel with a 22-year-old. I guess feeling old isn't a bad thing compared to what you get from it.

She's not replying.

Guess what else made me feel old? So I finally downloaded TikTok, and I felt so depressed watching TikTok. I couldn't stop watching it. I was watching scrolling through TikTok for about an hour, nearly 2 hours, and it's just full of hot, attractive, happy-looking people who are doing really fun and cool stuff. And it made me feel like

shit, to be honest. It either made me feel depressed because I feel like my life is so boring, or it made me feel horny because there's like cute girls on it. Doing miming lip-sync stuff.

Uh, it's so depressing because you see the hot girls and you think, I wish I could get a hot girl like that. And then you see the, the hot guys doing like the moonwalk dance, you think, I wish I was cool and attractive like him.

It's just like nonstop this kind of stuff.

I guess some of it's funny,

but it just really bummed me out.

If I see a hot girl, I just— I only want to see them I don't know,

when they're just dancing, or what's the word, you know, like Twitch girls, they look hot but they're not really doing anything sexual. It's like they're teasing you, and then because they're not actually showing you anything sexual, your mind creates it, your imagination creates it, fills in the blanks.

You should try TikTok to grow your channel. I actually made one because someone else said that. I don't know what to put on it. I've got one follower. I just called myself Hiding in My Room 1.

I

don't know what kind of stuff to put on it. I searched hiding in my room and there's like one video. Some guy calling me a psychopath again.

I don't know why people keep calling me a psychopath just because I've got some kind of strange videos on my channel. Are they really that stupid?

Some people think I need to be arrested and locked up because I'm a danger to society. Because I cheated on one relationship. That's so weird.

There's actually people who think I need to be locked up

and kept away from women.

I can't find it now.

Wait, where is it?

He can't have removed it, can he? Why would he remove it?

Or is it because I've clicked on it?

Yeah, I don't see it now, but there was a TikTok of my channel and there was just screenshots of the videos, video titles.

And I thought by now people would realize that the video titles are designed to attract attention. That's why they've been made to be weird as possible. That's the whole point, because I want to get views, so I'm gonna put clickbait kind of shock, shock factor titles, aren't I? They take it so seriously,

like the sex doll videos. They, they think it's actually genuine. It's,

it's, it's content. I planned it and I thought it out and I chose a title that would get clicks and get attention. It's not real. I didn't actually get an STI from a rubber doll.

I mean, I did buy the doll and I did use it.

But people see it and they're like, oh my God, he got a sex doll, he needs to be locked up. So stupid.

I don't know why I can't find it now. I typed in hiding in my room last time and it popped up.

Looks like it's gone.

It's weird, it's gone.

Another thing I find kind of weird is sometimes the comments, people say stuff like, people don't like you because you're an asshole to women and other people. They're being an asshole to me by saying that. But everyone is an asshole to someone. Name one person who's really, really nice to everybody.

So they're just hypocrites. So it's okay for them to be rude and to be an asshole to me, but if I'm an asshole to other people, then apparently I'm a psychopath.

And the reason why they're being an asshole to me is because in their mind they think I deserve it and they think it's justified. Yeah, well, in my mind I think the people I'm being an asshole to also deserve it because they've upset me.

So how is that weird? It's just normal.

They're criticizing me for being rude whilst also being rude to me, but they don't think it's bad because they think I deserve the rudeness. But I have the same thinking when I'm rude to other people. I think they've upset me, I don't care if what I say upsets them because they've upset me, so I'm going to be

rude to them. And then they, the comments, say the same thing to me. It's just, it's like a circle.

Yeah, I am rude to some people, not to everyone. If people are nice to me, I'll be nice back. But if I feel like someone upset me, then yeah, I'll be rude to them.

Do you think they should be nice to you when you are rude? I mean, they can be whatever the fuck they want. I don't care. I didn't say they can't be rude. I'm just saying,

you're saying my personality is bad because I'm rude, but you're also being rude to me. So by your own logic, your personality is also bad then.

If your personality was so good, then you wouldn't be being rude to me by your logic. So you just owned yourself.

Destroyed. That's like one of the criticisms I get. My personality is so bad because I'm rude. I'm not rude to everyone. Jesus. And they say because I cheated. I don't cheat on everyone. It's like they just give me these blanket insults as if it applies to everyone that I've interacted with. I've been nice to plenty of people.

I can write you a list if you want.

Prove to you right here, right now,

who I cheated on.

So we got

Sayaka, first girlfriend. Sayuri, second girlfriend.

Korean girlfriend. The French girlfriend.

Chlamydia girlfriend. Single mother. Is Tomoko a girlfriend? I don't really think of Tomoko as a girlfriend.

And then Chihiro,

and then Mina. Okay, so apparently I cheat on all my girlfriends, so let me just correct that for you. So Sayaka, did not cheat. Sayori, I did not cheat. Korean girlfriend, did not cheat whilst we were officially together, but we kind of had an off and on thing. French girlfriend, I didn't cheat. Actually, she cheated on me

with the Spanish guy. Chlamydia girlfriend, I didn't cheat. Single mother,

uh, I went on a date whilst we were supposed to be together, but

Um, I didn't have sex with her with the date. I just— we just went for a meal and that was it. But I guess that's a bit— maybe. But I wasn't really serious with a single mother. We only were together for 2 weeks. It's not like it was a proper relationship. And yeah, okay, Chihiro, I cheated on

her, but Mina— I didn't cheat on Mina. So is that one relationship out of 8 relationships.

And according to the comments, I cheat on all my girlfriends. And because I've cheated once before, that means I'm 100% gonna cheat again, which is wrong because I didn't cheat on Mina.

How can we believe you? Well, I don't know how I can prove it. So you kind of just have to believe me, don't you?

And then how many people was I rude to?

Yeah, I was rude to Casey, Chihiro, Konaito,

Tomoko, Turkish girl.

Uh, who else was I rude to?

Yeah, well, Casey deserved it. Uh, Chihiro didn't deserve it. Kanaito deserved it.

I guess I went a bit far saying how old Tomoko looked, but that was just because I was trying to make the point that she lied to me about her age. Turkish Girl, yeah, she didn't deserve it.

Who else?

Anime Man, was I rude to him?

Abroad in Japan. Oh, that's not genuine rudeness, that's just like banter.

Rachel and Jun. Oh, YouTubers don't count cuz I'm just doing that for views.

Yeah, but what about all the people I wasn't rude to? Like George and that Eugene guy. I forgot his actual name. What was his actual name? Eugene is such a weird name. This reminds me of that fat guy from Walking Dead. Did you remember the fat guy Eugene, Walking Dead? He was supposed to know the cure to

the virus, and then that ginger guy was trying to take him to the army camp or whatever. And it turns out he's lying about the whole thing, and then he was spying on the ginger guy effing that hot Spanish girl. What a storyline that was.

Walking Dead used to be great. Just shows when things get dragged out too long, they end up going downhill. Happens every time.

Yeah, okay, maybe I was rude to a few people, but I don't think it was that bad.

What happened with the anime man? I don't know. What happened to the girl from last night? Don't know, she didn't message me. She probably got freaked out after checking out my channel more.

Oh, uh,

did

I actually talk to her on the phone? Yeah, I talked to her during the stream.

Therapy seems the way to go. I mean this in the most down-to-earth way. You're a handsome guy with a nice voice, but the stuff you post is very incel-like. If you want women to like you, maybe a good idea not to post your failures.

Bit too late for that now. But my best videos are my failures in dating. The highest viewed videos are stuff like I got dumped, I got kicked out, I got divorced.

But yeah, I should focus on making those videos less inselly.

I don't know how— stop blaming them for the failure, I guess.

But there's plenty of people I wasn't rude to.

As long as they didn't annoy me, then I'm usually not rude to people.

You were rude to Chichi's family. How? I never said anything about her family. Who hasn't ever annoyed you? George, Eugene,

and my cat.

You said almost everyone annoys you. Well, a lot of people are very annoying, to be honest, especially people that just constantly talk about themselves. And then you're just listening to them talk all the time. That's so annoying.

Ah, that's, that's the reason why it didn't work with Mila. I tried so hard to listen, but I just couldn't care.

How do you fix that? I'm just not interested in people.

That's a very tricky one,

and girls are going to get upset because they want you to be interested in them as a person. But why can't I be interested in them as a person But not interested in their life story.

What do I want to talk about with a girl? I don't know, maybe current affairs, like what's going on in the news.

Check Bitcoin. Is Bitcoin going back up yet? It crashed again.

Stupid thing keeps crashing.

Yeah, that's the thing. Women like talking about people. And gossiping, and they like

to talk about people. And then men are more interested in things like computers or engines or stocks, inanimate objects. It's like Jordan Peterson said, um, in Scandinavian countries, majority of women

lean towards social caring jobs, like care worker jobs, and then men lean towards more technical computer-related jobs.

It's just, you know, the wiring of the brains of men and women are different.

Women are more wired towards social dynamics. And then men are more wired towards objects.

So you have a group of women and a group of men hanging out. The conversation topics are going to be different. The group of women would be like, did you see what so-and-so said yesterday? Or did you see something about so-and-so. And then men would be talking about, like, did you see the new Tesla Cybertruck?

That's why men have men friends and women have women friends. And then they get married, have kids,

and then they have a family. But the man and woman

have a different kind of relationship that's different to friendship.

And then if you're lucky, really, really lucky person, then yeah, you would have a girlfriend or boyfriend where you're like best friends. But I feel like most people aren't that lucky,

and then they usually just settle before they get too old, or they start getting too old and they start getting less picky.

Very tricky. I think this is the trickiest challenge for me, more than making money or looking attractive. It's

Finding a girl who isn't too bothered if I'm not really that interested in her life story— very tricky.

Don't know how to do it. Mila was obviously upset because I wasn't interested.

I remember Jahira asked me, what is— what's Casey's job? And I was like, I don't know. And she said, what do you mean you don't know? You've met him like 4 times now. I said, yeah, but I don't ask him stuff. I don't know anything about Casey apart from he's Hong Kong and he's a guy. He's a

Hong Kong guy. And he lives in Japan. I don't know anything else.

That's funny though. I just find it funny. Chihiro expected me to know what his job is, as if she thinks I would ask him. Imagine me showing interest in someone else.

That's a good one.

So what do you do for a living? I can't even imagine myself asking it.

I've asked it in the past and it never led to anything interesting. They just say, oh, I work in an office, or I work in a kitchen, and then I'd say, oh, That's nice. So you make food? What kind of food? Is it good food? Yeah, I'm pretty boring to talk to, I guess.

This is why I like interacting with people either via livestream where I'm talking, or via consuming someone's content where I'm just listening and I don't have to interact back to them. I can just let them talk whilst I'm listening and playing Rainbow Six, and I can listen to what they say. There are people who I'm interested in

what they have to say, otherwise I wouldn't watch any content creators.

I like watching that Asmongold guy. He says some interesting stuff sometimes.

And I like watching that Traveling Trader guy. He's pretty cool.

He does trading and he travels. He's like what I want to be.

I don't watch any women. All the guys, all the people I like to watch are guys because they talk about stuff I'm interested in. Women don't talk about anything I'm interested in. It's always makeup or beauty or I don't know.

Even when you talk about games with girls, it's always boring games like Animal Crossing.

It's not that I'm not interested in people, it's just I'm not interested in women. I'd rather listen to a man because I want to learn about what they know. That's why I'm watching them.

And I, I look up to the men and I aspire to be like the men that I watch. I don't watch a woman and want to be like her or relate to her.

I think that's normal. I think most guys watch mainly guys and then most girls watch mainly girls.

On YouTube.

You know what I also noticed? Women seem to be interested in,

um, criminals. You know, documentaries about

criminals, that's examining the psychological mentalities and trying to find out how the brain works. Me, they like that stuff too. I find it really depressing. Yeah, these criminals have broken minds and they probably can't be fixed.

And they need to be kept in isolation, high security, and then they have doctors trying to figure them out. That's what I feel like sometimes. I feel like a lot of people watching my channel, they're trying to figure me out and find out why my brain works like this and why I say stuff like this. And then

once they've gone fed up or they feel like they figured out they lose interest. They don't want to watch my content because of my content. They just want to watch because I'm weird. How's Huel going? It's going fine.

I haven't died.

I had it for lunch. I couldn't be bothered having lunch, so I just had some Huel. Then for dinner, I had a pizza.

Am I eating other stuff? Yeah, I have snacks in between. I have banana, packet of crisps, but the hule is so filling.

Why not go straight soy then? Because my mum did shopping, there's loads of food everywhere, and I feel like it's a waste if I don't eat it.

If she didn't go shopping, there was no food, I'd probably just eat the hule.

There's probably a female version of yourself. People say that Brittany Venti girl is like me, but I watched a couple of her streams and I don't really find her very attractive.

And then she's just— she seems so bitchy all the time, like she's just complaining all the time and she's really negative. After watching a couple minutes of her

I don't know, I just feel kind of down.

I, I want to watch a girl if she's like nice and bubbly

and welcoming, has like a welcoming aura.

Brittany just seems a bit scary.

Like she would call me a fucking idiot and then slap my face

and then walk away.

Which girls do I like?

I quite like Venus. I said it before,

Venus is nice,

but she hates me.

What about Erica? No, she looks too miserable. She looks really depressed, worse than me.

I made muscular gains, can't you tell? My arms, look at those forearms.

What's the story on Venus? I don't know why, but she seems to not want to have anything to do with me. And if you go on her livestreams and you even mention me, the mods just delete your message and they threaten to ban.

They won't even let people talk about me. Even if you say the word Daniel in the chat, they'll delete the message straight away, no question. It's just weird. I haven't even done anything

to Venus.

I just mentioned her now and then.

She was the one who said she wanted to do a collab, it wasn't even me. And now all of a sudden she wants nothing to do with me because I got these stupid annoying viewers who go and harass people to try and scare them away.

So it's not even me that's bad, it's the stupid crazy viewers that go and harass them into not wanting to be connected with me. It's just harassment.

Those viewers are sicker than I am.

At least I don't go and harass people.

Been cutting my hair a bit recently.

Don't know if you noticed.

When Elvis was about to meet me, he said he got loads of emails from people warning him. And you just know these same people are warning everyone else, like Venus or any other person I mention. Probably warned George as well.

It's the same people from 2017. They did this stuff back in 2017 when I was talking about George. They went on to his subreddit Japanese from Zero, and they were saying stuff like— they were trying to turn him against me by attacking his business, saying stuff like, what do you think your customers would think if they found

out you were supporting Daniel Lord?

These people go to insane lengths to get people to turn against me.

And it doesn't even matter if what they're saying is true or not.

So you get enough people warning someone who doesn't really know much about me, the person will just think that these people are telling the truth.

I'm not sure what they were saying in 2017 because back then obviously most of the stuff, like the cheating stuff, hadn't happened yet.

I think they were just saying stuff like, Daniel goes to Japan to have sex with women.

That was like the main reason why you shouldn't associate with Daniel.

Obviously they got more stuff now.

What happened to the Tinder date?

Uh, probably not gonna happen.

Yeah, so no London trip. Well, at this rate, probably not. Don't have any goals.

It's funny, at one point I had so many and then they all disappeared. The Japanese OnlyFans girl, 2 Tinder dates. Well, actually, I ghosted the other Tinder date cuz I found her following my Instagram.

Uh, that 19-year-old girl who used to message me, I don't know why she ghosted me. I mean, we were doing like jerk-off videos for months,

and then I said, so when do you want to meet up? And she just read me and then didn't reply. How's 19 underage? 19 is not underage.

There was Essex girl as well. She also vanished. The Essex girl only seems to message me when I'm either married or in a relationship, and then when I'm a sing— when I'm single, she says, oh, I'm not sure about meeting because I'm worried that you're only meeting me because you have no one else. Isn't that a good

thing? But what am I supposed to say to that? Am I supposed to say, oh no, no, don't worry, I've got loads of other girls, you're just like one of my side girls? Or am I supposed to say, yeah, I don't have anyone else, you're the only one, that's why. So which one am I supposed to say?

Isn't it a good thing that you're the only one I'm interested in right now? And I don't have loads of other girls.

So if I suddenly make up like a fake girlfriend, maybe she'll start messaging me again.

Actually, she did start messaging me again when the whole pier thing was happening.

Interesting.

Your entire life is about girls.

Yeah, and making money and stocks and Rainbow Six.

But there's not really much to talk about stocks. It goes up, it goes down, you buy and sell.

Oh, thank you, Koukiku.

Was your video about choosing between YouTube and girls real? Yeah, it's true.

I do kind of have to choose one or the other. I either nuke my channel and try and make it really family-friendly to improve my chances to get a girlfriend, or I just kind of give up on the idea of getting a girlfriend and I just carry on making the content I make. Which probably repels girls.

And you saw how miserable I was when I was with Mila because I had to try and clean up my act and I couldn't talk about what was going on. That's why I had all those fake videos last year, like the therapy thing, the sandwich factory job,

because I wasn't allowed to talk about the relationship stuff. And I didn't want to make weird stuff because I knew Mila didn't like it.

She said it attracted the wrong kind of people. But if I can't make weird stuff, then what am I supposed to make? 5 amazing things I learned in January.

5 ways I cope with loneliness. Like this boring kind of stuff. I'd rather make fake stuff.

I want to make weird stuff like I used to, like the ex-tier girlfriend tier list thing, the sex doll stuff. I like making weird stuff, it's funny.

I wanted to do one called My First Black Girlfriend. And then I got worried that people call me racist,

and then I'd worry that black women— I might match a black woman and then she would see the video and then get triggered.

Have I been watching any anime?

No. Oops, I turned the sound off.

Oh, here we come. Have you been watching any anime? No, I don't watch anime anymore. Last time I tried to watch, I tried to watch Attack on Titan, but it was really boring. The characters were just all dweeby. The only cool thing was watching the giants eat people.

It was loud. Okay, let me turn it down.

Anime is just kind of lame now.

I used to really love Death Note. That was my favorite one.

Oh my goodness.

Have you been watching any anime?

I can't imagine that there is literally no freak girl willing to date you. Yeah, I know. Where can you find the freakiest girls? I don't get it either. There's loads of weird girls who do porn and OnlyFans and stuff. How come— how do I get them? I can't imagine that there is literally no freak—

David Bond has girls all the time, and they appear in videos, and he has sex with them, and he's got a bad history as well. Where does he find them?

I guess that LA girl seems like a good one. But why does it keep playing the same one?

Trying to play this one from Faniel. Unban me from chat.

I guess I could. Okay, I'll unban Faniel Lord

since you asked nicely.

For some reason, my channel doesn't attract The freaky horny girls. They— it attracts shy girls

that don't want to be an OnlyFans star.

How do I unban people?

Banned.

That Ham 5000 person was so annoying as well.

Oops, I nearly banned myself.

Where's Faniel?

Unban. Okay, Fan New Lord unbanned.

Oh, the cute Essex girl's not replying. Essex girl number 2.

Maybe to get Essex girl number 1's attention, I should just go to Essex and make a vlog there. And then she'll be like, oh my God, why is Daniel here?

Is that creepy?

She used to message me when I got back. But she always messaged me in the middle of the night, like 4 AM. She would just message me. Now she doesn't.

After I broke up with Mila, loads of girls messaged me,

and then they all just disappeared one by one.

I need to move to like ripple, make some ripples in the water. In order to make some waves, I need to splash move locations and then do a big video saying I'm moving to blah blah blah.

I don't want to go to Essex. Why? Unless there's a goal to meet, there's no reason to. How's Thailand Tinder looking? I matched 70 people in a day. Look at this ladyboy I matched.

Look how cute she is.

Cuter than my exes.

Right now I'm interested in Thailand. Look, this is another ladyboy I matched.

Not bad.

I would do a ladyboy.

So when you do a ladyboy,

are they going to want to do you too, or is it like a one-way thing? Or after you've finished, is it their turn to do you? I'm a bit confused.

I think I'd prefer it if they do me first so I'm still horny, and then I do them last, so when I finish, then we both finished.

But from the videos I've seen, the ladyboys always have really tiny wee-wees, and they're always kind of floppy during cheesecake time.

I thought they would be hard.

Plus Thailand would be really cheap. I could probably just live there for a few months in a hotel and it would be really cheap and I could make a load of content

and it would be a completely new experience for me. I see a lot of pluses to going to Thailand.

I see a lot of minuses going to America, like it'll just be insanely expensive and it's just not really my cup of tea. And America is just way too big. I don't like countries that are really, really big. It's just overwhelming. Japan's nice because it's small.

Plus America has all the crazy sorting stuff that happens.

Girls in Thailand are poor and desperate. Yeah, I could pretend to be like a rich English boy from a privileged background. I'm gonna take a picture of myself in front of my mansion. That might make me more attractive.

Do you wanna see my Tinder profile picture? I look like a K-pop boy.

Look, this is my Tinder picture. I'm wearing that shirt Chihiro picked out for me, but I lied about my age and I can't change it now. I swear I didn't lie about my age on purpose. It was an accident.

I look good, don't you think? And then this is my second picture.

Uh, third one, I'm watering flowers.

I don't think it's a big deal to say I'm 30.

Oh wow, thank you for the gifted sub. Would I suck a ladyboy's peepee? Would you suck a ladyboy's peepee? Also, there was a gifted sub.

Hmm, I guess I might try, but is it salty?

Maybe it's nice. Maybe I should try gay. Would you suck a ladyboy's peepee also?

Thanks for subbing. How many subs do I have?

Wow, 51 subs. That's pretty nice.

How did David Bond get into Thailand if they're not open? I think they're only open in Phuket.

But you need to be vaccinated.

I need to get my vaccine sorted out. I have to ask my mum when she can take me.

I could go by myself. I'd have to get a taxi.

You unbanned the wrong person. I thought Faniel123 is the Faniel Lord person I banned before.

I could do a vlog going to get the vaccine. I could film myself on the train.

Oh, I got a new match.

Hmm, I think I'd swipe left. Not very pretty.

The funny thing about Thai girls is some of them are cute, but then a lot of them just look kind of weird.

When you swipe— when you're swiping in Japan Tinder, most of them are cute. But on Thailand Tinder, it's like half are cute, half are kind of weird looking.

They have a look to the weird ones. I don't know how to describe the weird ones.

It's just a different look to Japanese girls. Japanese girls don't have that look,

that kind of face.

It's like the Filipino look.

Yeah, there's a very clear distinction between the kind of Han Chinese ethnic group and the Malaysian tropic Asian island countries Asian ethnic group. There must be some kind of mixing. It's like the Polynesian mixing with the Han Chinese.

Like, the native Australian groups have much darker skin, and then they probably mixed with the Han Chinese to create the Filipino look. A lot of weird mixing going on.

I'm just scared to get the vaccine. So I heard some people get really ill. They get fevers, they get muscle aches.

Do I know which vaccine I can get? I think it's the Pfizer one because the AstraZeneca one's for 50 and over.

But they've only just recently started inviting 30s and over. I might wait a couple of weeks to see if anyone starts dying. I don't want to be the first one in line to get it. I want to wait until there's like a couple million who've taken it and had no problems, and then I'll weigh and see if

there's weird

side effects that other people experience.

Yeah, maybe I'll wait a few weeks. I'm not in a rush anyway. No one wants to meet.

People more scared of the vaccine. Yeah, it's just— it would suck so much to die from the vaccine when you probably wouldn't have even died from the virus. The people who died from the vaccine probably would have been fine. Imagine you survive until now for 2 years in lockdown suffering, and then you die from the thing that's

supposed to save you. That's the most depressing thing ever.

You need 2 doses. Yeah, they said that you need to wait 12 weeks for the second dose.

Why are they forcing you to get it? I don't think they are. I don't have to get it. It's an invitation.

I'm sure it's fine if only a couple people died out of millions.

Can you get Johnson& Johnson, or is it only in the USA?

Um, I think Johnson& Johnson recently got approved,

but I think they're using Pfizer for 30s and over and then AstraZeneca for 50 and over. My mum got AstraZeneca and she's fine.

You know what I want more than a girlfriend though? I want back my passion for making videos. That's what I want more. Because during my peak, when all the girls were interested in me, they were probably into me because I was so creative. And I was making videos that people liked and the channel was doing well. It's

like your success in your profession results in success in attracting women.

It's kind of connected in that way.

So if you succeed at your job, You don't have to put any effort into trying to get a girl. They see the success, they see the confidence, and they find you attractive. They want to message you without you having to like beg, please message me, I'm so lonely. That's like the worst thing to do. So I wish

I could somehow get back into making videos and enjoy it and look like I'm enjoying it.

But it's just really difficult now because I feel like people don't care anymore, or they care less.

Look, my new video, it's down there.

Number 6 out of 10.

At least it's not as bad as this Why I Hated School one. I don't know why this says zero, zero views.

I just, I don't know what kind of videos I want to make anymore.

I lost my way. I feel like I lost my, my mojo. I lost who I was

because I used to think that I made pretty good points and I was pretty good at backing up my points and had valid arguments. But then everyone was always saying, no, Daniel, you're wrong, you're stupid. You're not making any sense. Everything you say is contradictory.

You're racist. You're a misogynist. It's like everyone's against me all the time. I lost,

I lost my passion

for it because I guess back then I wanted to be like— it's embarrassing, but I used to think of myself as like iDubbbz or Ben Shapiro, and I was bringing up good points, and I felt like I was explaining my points pretty well, and I thought people would be on my side, like how everyone was on iDubbbz's

side when he was attacking Leafy. I wanted to be kind of like that, and I just failed so badly. I had the worst takes every time, and I explained things really badly. People just disagreed with everything, or they didn't understand what I was trying to say.

I want this to be like, uh, maybe kind of like a commentary channel, and I give my opinion And I'd have interesting takes that were outside of the box, but people would think, oh yeah, that does kind of make sense. But instead they were like, you stupid, you're so dumb, you're racist.

I didn't expect people to get so angry.

And then I got angry back at them because I feel like they're stupid for getting so upset and not understanding my point.

It's like my Why I Hated Living in England video. I explained things like I hated working at my dad's company because of the tea thing, and then I get all these English people saying that I was dumb because I didn't

try to fit in with the culture. It's just like everything I say is always I'm wrong, it's my fault, I'm dumb. I just— I can't be bothered anymore. It's like I'm just fighting against all these people.

It's not fun anymore when you feel like that.

Do I miss my dad? Yeah, of course.

2 years now.

I can't decide if it feels like it's been a long time or it feels like it was just yesterday. It's kind of a mixture.

I started doing the fake videos out of spite because I felt like, oh, they hate me so much, so I'm I hate them too, here's some fake videos, screw you. That was my mentality. I thought, these people hate me so much, why should I give a fuck anymore? Fuck them. Fuck them back.

When I was genuine and real, all they did was attack me and insult me and call me a psychopath.

And then they said I'm a misogynist. Now, I was real and genuine, and then they just— people just constantly insulted me about it. Like, oh, he's such a weirdo, he called his girlfriend ugly.

I, I was watching TikTok and there's one TikTok clip of a guy telling a joke, and the joke went something like, there was a fat girl dancing on a table and I said to her, yeah, those are really nice legs. And she said thanks and giggled. And I said, the table has really nice legs because other tables

would have collapsed by now or something like that. Imagine if I said something like that. People would be saying I'm fat shaming. People think I fat shame all the time just because I say fat.

I saw one girl in the comments, I had to ban her because she's just annoying,

attacking me because I— she said apparently I describe people as fat if they have a 30-inch waist, which I never said. I probably said something like, it's really hard for me to find trousers because there's so many fat people in England, and 30-inch waist is the smallest size in most shops. I didn't say 30-inch waist is fat.

I said 30-inch waist in most shops is the smallest size they have because there's so many fat people, and I No one would buy anything smaller than 30-inch. And then her comment was like, Daniel's rude to people all the time. He thinks people who have 30-inch waist are fat. No, I don't.

People always accusing me of stuff that's not even true. I don't know where they get this stuff from. I never said anything like that.

Why do some people get so triggered when I talk about fat people?

If I was a fat person, do you think they would have reacted in the same way?

Because they're fat, probably, and because I'm really skinny, so they feel like I don't have the right to talk about fatness. I bet if I was a fat person, they wouldn't really care, because it's like saying the N-word. Black people don't mind if you're a black person saying it.

Can you get Johnson's?

Everyone looks fat besides you. No, when I say fat, I'm talking about actual fat people, not slightly chubby.

Why do people just assume that I think everyone's fat because everyone's bigger than me? I don't. There's normal size and there's a bit chubby, and then there's like really big fat, like Tokyo Sam

or Aki Dearest. I mean, she is fat.

Why are people getting upset just because I said she's fat? And then people say I'm skinny all the time, and that's fine.

It's not an insult.

Your entire existence is fake. You don't really exist, and everyone knows that.

Yeah, I probably would be.

I would also be fat if I didn't have this metabolism because I'm not extremely active. Oh, I remember now. I remember my French girlfriend and the American guy. The American guy was saying to her that she's not fat, and I was thinking, yeah, she bloody is. Yeah, maybe in America she's not fat, but in Japan

In compared to Japanese girls.

I think in America the standard of what's fat and what isn't fat is completely different because so many people in America are fat.

There's a stereotype of Americans being fat for a reason,

and then they get all triggered about it. I wonder if that woman was also American.

It's also fun to say the word. It's a very satisfying word.

Fat. It's almost as good as disgusting.

That's my second favorite word.

I like the— it's like it builds up the energy and then you release it with the ah, and then it climaxes with the It's a very nice word to say.

Skinny.

You're so skinny.

Skinny, skinny Woody.

My top 5 favorite words: annoying, disgusting,

irritating. Oh, Essex Girl Number 2 didn't reply. Maybe she went to bed.

Oh, I want to show her picture. She's so cute. What's the worst that could happen if I showed her picture?

Oh,

this is why I hate having to keep girlfriends secret. If I got a really cute girlfriend and I had to keep it a secret, I'd be so annoyed. I'd be like, please, I want to show everyone how cute you are.

Show us really quick.

Message me on Instagram. No, I don't want like a bunch of people messaging me.

How can I show it without being— getting in trouble? Is it against Twitch rules? To show a picture. I know you're not allowed to leak phone numbers.

I don't know what the— I feel like it's not good.

Don't dox people. Hmm, does it count as doxing? She's so pretty.

What if I describe what she looks like? So she's got long hair past shoulders and it's like purpley reddish, and she's got nice lips.

It looks like she has freckles.

She's like exactly my type.

Maybe I've got a chance. I mean, she did match me,

and it's Bumble, not Tinder. I feel like Bumble was a bit different.

And she lives nearby. What? I need to see. I need to get in there before she loses interest.

She's got like a round face like Mila. Like a chubby face, not a fat face, but like a face with round features,

which I like.

Poor Daniel had put hundreds of dollars on Tinder.

Is it 100? I paid £30 for Tinder Gold

and it's, um, not really paying off.

Well, I got a lot of Thai Gold matches.

I should have invested in Bumble. They had a dip and a nice rise back up.

I've got like 60, 70 Thai girls to message. It's gonna take ages. I might unmatch some. Some are not very pretty.

I like Bumble because When a girl matches you, she has to make the first message. You can't message her first.

So it means they have to stop being lazy and initiate conversation.

I'll show her if she unmatches me or if nothing happens. Or if she rejects me, I'll put her in a thumbnail, make her famous. Make her famous.

Could be deepfakes. I don't think so.

Where's the other cute girl?

No, this one's not cute.

What

about this one?

Can't really see. She looks nice.

I wish I was a cute girl. If I was a cute girl, then I wouldn't have to bother. Just look at myself in the mirror.

Okay, this one's really cute. I might have to screenshot it. I mean, screenshot her. Women not objects. Look, she's like Asian Mina.

Screen record that.

I love those cheeks.

I love the pigtails as well. Reminds me of Mila.

What's that Windows XP theme? Yeah, it looks cool, doesn't it? Retro. Isn't it sad Windows XP is now retro? Uh, I feel old. Back in the day, MSN Messenger, this was state-of-the-art. Messaging app.

It's like in Friends when Rachel had a new boyfriend, looked just like Ross. I would love it so much if I got a new girlfriend and she looks just like Asian Mila. That would be so funny.

Yeah, well, I think you would be fatter.

I can't believe I use Windows 95. Windows 95 just sounds so old now. Remember when it would crash and you dragged the box around and it would like duplicate itself and there's like a trail of the, of the window and then you couldn't really do anything, you had to wait, and whilst you're waiting you would just drag

it around all over the place and make a massive mess? That used to happen all the time at school. 100% be fat if you didn't have a crazy

That doesn't happen anymore. Windows 10.

I remember when Windows 10 came out and everyone was non-stop complaining about it, about the tile menu. Oh, the tile menu is so stupid.

I remember my dad was complaining about it too, saying— he was complaining, saying, oh, we had to change to Windows 10. And it's so much worse than Windows XP, Vista.

I like Windows 10. I think it's nice. I don't know what people were moaning about.

That was Windows 8.

Oh yeah, wasn't Windows 8— they got rid of the desktop mode and they only had the big fat tiles and people were complaining, so they brought back the desktop mode.

Forget now.

The hell? That's not family-friendly.

I do not accept those kind of messages.

I need to show that I'm actively moderating. Stop that now.

That's against my stream rules.

Book your trip to Thailand. Oh my God, stop that!

I pressed accept and it popped up 3 times.

Mac is better than Windows. I never used Mac before. I might have to take this stream down now because of that donation. Is it against rules?

This— I don't know which words. I know N-word is against rules.

Yeah, I never used Mac operating system before. I want to get a Mac, but I need to play Rainbow Six. Why don't they make a gaming Mac?

You say things way worse than that on stream. Yeah, I know, but

I don't know.

I never said the N-word.

Let me Google it. Is sexual talk allowed

on

Twitch. They should make it clearer what you're not allowed to talk about. Like, do not talk about

N-words. Do not say this. They should have a list.

Are you allowed to casually talk about adult stuff with your viewers?

Unfortunately, your answer is bloodline.

As long as what you're doing on stream, whether it be vocal or physical, is considered legal and non-abusive, then you're fine.

Oh, this was 5 years ago, this post.

All

of those hot tub streamers must constantly live in fear of crossing the line and then getting a ban or suspension.

Did you see that one Twitch streamer where she's barely wearing anything and then when she gets a donation she writes the name of the person who donated on her naked body in pen? And then at the end of the stream she looks like she's just covered in names. It looks so gross, like she's got all these tattoos

of men. That gave her money. Like, they made her mark on her body. She looks weird.

It's like they're marking their— making their mark on her.

Maybe I should do that. For a $5 donation, I'll draw a massive penis on my face. No, that's just stupid.

For every $10 donation, I'll take off a piece of clothing until I'm just in my underwear.

No, I don't want to degrade myself that much. That's just embarrassing.

And then they're all linking their OnlyFans as well. It's become so degenerate. And then they ban people like Dr Disrespect and Ice Poseidon and AnythingForViews just because of toxic communities and n-word stuff, but then they're fine with their website turning into like a softcore OnlyFans chatterbait thing.

If I get banned on Twitch, I have to take it over to OnlyFans. OnlyFans livestream,

then I can get naked.

Long-term review for the iPhone Mini, I'm not actually that happy with it. I dropped it again. Well, I got this nick at the top and then I've got this

fading here. The zoom is not good. You know, I've got ducks in the garden now. I want to take the video, but the zoom is rubbish. There's like a digital zoom and it becomes all grainy.

I wish I had the Samsung S21 Ultra. It's got a 10x optical zoom.

So this is a video of the ducks.

Wait,

they're so cute. They're getting bigger now. S21 Ultra looks really nice. It's got like a 100x zoom as well.

Took a video playing football.

Look at my football skills.

Do I feed the ducks? Yeah, we give them oats. They will come running when we bring out the oats.

I was kind of nervous because I'm filming. I didn't do very well with the kicking.

I swear, sometimes I get a really good rally and I can do about 40.

It's like nonstop until I lose balance and then I

drop it.

Yeah, this one's quite good.

Not bad,

not bad.

That's what I do for about 2 hours every day.

Now this one's quite good.

Look at that sidekick.

Did you see that sidekick? That was nice.

Look, watch this.

This one, that was smooth.

Pretty good. I think most people can't even do one.

Do I play with Sabrina? You must be joking. Sabrina just sits on her laptop all day long working.

She doesn't play with me anymore.

Oh, look, the duckies.

It's like they're hoovering the ground. It's like they're cleaning.

Eating up all the insects.

Wait, let me focus the lens.

Can see better. Oh, I doxxed myself. Shit.

Look at them! Oh, so cute!

And then I found this mushroom in the garden.

White mushroom.

Look, the bridge my dad built.

There's 11. I keep counting them every day, make sure there's still 11. And this is them eating.

Feeding frenzy.

Why should I disable clipping? Because people keep clipping weird stuff.

Hmm, what else do I have?

Got a weird video.

Don't know what that was. Oh, this is the ducks swimming.

I think they eat the green stuff.

Excuse me.

Look, this is my new Tesla.

Going to buy it when I get rich.

Why don't I turn off comments on videos? Because I think Having comments drives more views. That's what I heard. It increases engagement. You need engagement for the algorithm to be able to determine if people are enjoying it or not. More comments means more engagement.

I don't know how much it actually affects it.

I don't really pay attention to them. It's always the same stuff, people saying, Daniel, your personality is the problem. Baby, baby, baby. These dumb comments I get,

they keep giving me advice. It's always the same advice.

The comments on my new video.

Then why are you uploading to it? So I can make money. Why do you think I make videos, idiot? I don't think it's only the channel which is ruining your life.

Focus on developing yourself. As if I haven't heard that a million times since 4 years ago. Therapy seems the way to go.

Oh, this stupid Jessington Bear twat has been commenting for 4 years and he's always whining. So only eating fuel lasted like 2 days? No, I'm eating it every day, you idiot. I just don't film it.

You need to make friends before you get a girlfriend.

Wrong. Focus on what you love and the girls will follow. Yeah, that's true. I didn't really care that much about girls when my channel was blowing up because I was married, and then I got success and all the girls just were attracted to me because of my success.

He's sucking my—

Now your channel is dead. Yeah.

People see the low views and they think, oh, he's not relevant anymore. One girl actually messaged me asking me, are you still relevant? I said no, and then she said, oh well, are you still hot? Set up some kind of G@Y $X Discord and is demeaning people about it.

Also, he keeps pretending to be G@Y guys on Discord. Do you think McOwen actually has a crush on you and that's why he does all the things he does. I think he's a special guy.

What other comments do we have? Need to find a woman who is also a YouTuber and accepts you. That would be great, but there's no female YouTubers who want anything to do with me. Even Venus, and she's like an even bigger freak than I am. McGovern set up some kind of G at Y dollar X Discord.

If even Venus doesn't want anything to do with me— Venus is like the weirdest girl on YouTube.

Yeah, comments aren't too bad on the new video. Just a couple annoying ones. Delete the channel. As if I would ever delete my YouTube channel. My greatest accomplishment in life. My biggest paycheck. And then I just delete it. Sure, great idea. Then I'm back to how I was when I had no money,

leeching off of the Jobcentre.

My YouTube channel is the only thing I succeeded at, and then it failed, just like my stocks. I succeeded at my stocks until I lost all my gains.

The only girl who wanted me was Pia.

Even Shin wanted to meet me, but now she got scared off as well.

I hate this guy. I hope he's not here, but this guy pisses me off. This Alan hero. He always says the dumbest stuff like, you're responsible, or you reap what you sow, or you chose your bed, now make it. He's always saying really irritating stuff. I think I'm going to ban him soon.

Just shut up

saying stuff like, oh, it's your fault,

you made your bed, now sleep in it. I hate that phrase. And that you reap what you sow, and that what comes around goes around. All these irritating phrases I wish people would stop using.

P and Shin fit your description for a girlfriend, but you don't want them because I didn't find them attractive. I need to feel attractive to them. I mean, I need to find them attractive. Otherwise I just won't care. Like the Turkish girl, if the Turkish girl was a hot girl like this Essex girl number 2, there's no

way I would have let her go. There's no way I would have said that stuff about her if she was attractive.

I mean, if I was attracted to her.

Yeah, I got Essex girl number 2 now. She even lives in the same town,

but I think she's gone to sleep.

If I'm not attracted to the girl, then it's just not gonna work.

I just— I can't imagine

being with a girl who I don't find attractive.

Did you message her? Who? Essex girl number 2? Yeah, I said, how's your evening?

And then she didn't reply.

Beta message. Then what was I supposed to say? Wake up, bitch, I wanna fuck. How's that?

They just— they didn't quite have the face that I like. I like Mida's face,

and I like this ladyboy's face. I like this girl's face. This is not a ladyboy.

This one's cute.

And

this one's a ladyboy. She's cute.

Why does she look like a robot?

I should make an album of girls' faces so when people ask me what kind of faces do you like, I can show them.

Trying to find a girl that I find cute

so I can show you.

That's a problem with the human face. There's too many variations. There's too many things that can go wrong.

And there's only a small percentage of humans that have a well-balanced face or that have the features that I like.

Take for example cats. Almost all cats look the same. There's not much probability of having like a weird-looking ugly cat face. They all look— they all have similar faces, cats.

But then humans, I don't know why there's such, such a wide variety of different face shapes and facial feature shapes and things that can go wrong that can just make a person not look very attractive. There's just too much variety. It's like an ant. Ants all have the same face, so 100% of ants look like a normal

ant. But then humans— most humans look ugly, to be honest. I mean, I don't look that great either.

Got wonky teeth and stuff.

There's just too many things that can go wrong. That's why human beings as a species, we as a society, that's why we love attractive people so much. It's because they're so damn rare. If everyone was attractive, people wouldn't care about how attractive people are. There's celebrities and people who are famous just because they're attractive.

We love attractive people because it's kind of a rarity. In daily life, you go to work and school, everyone around you is pretty fat and ugly, and then you got a couple that are really good-looking.

There's too many ugly people in the world.

I don't understand why though. Is it just bad genes? So you can have really good-looking people like Johnny Depp, Leo DiCaprio, Brad Pitt, like really good-looking people, but they're just a small percentage of the human race.

And then everyone else is like,

uh,

Leo DiCaprio, Leonardo DiCaprio, so good-looking, especially when he was younger.

Why can't we all just be good looking? It's not fair.

I don't think I'm only attracted to really good-looking people. I think most people wouldn't even say Mida was good-looking. If I— should I do a poll asking if you thought Mida was attractive or not? Yes or no?

I found Mila insanely attractive, but most people were like, she's okay looking. I mean, she's not that great looking. And then some people said she had like fat cheeks or something, or they didn't think she was very attractive. And I thought, what? Mila's like a 10 out of 10 to me.

So I don't feel like I'm saying that I'm only attracted to A-list celebrities. People think that I think that I deserve like an A-list celebrity. I don't. I'm just saying that I've got a certain type of face that I find attractive,

and it's not an extremely common face.

It's more common in Asia, I guess you could say.

Ah, I love Mila's face. I just wish I had like a copy of it I could hang on the wall, like a sex doll version.

Would that be weird?

I wonder what she'll look like in 10 years' time.

Could be interesting.

Maybe some weird Redditor still stalking her Instagram, you could tell me in 10 years' time what she looks like. Depends if she goes back to drugs.

It's just funny because she looked nothing like her mum or her dad. Her mum was black, or maybe half black, but she looks pretty black. Black hair, black curly hair. She looked nothing like me though. I could kind of see a resemblance in the cheek area, the mouth area, and she looked nothing like her dad, thankfully. Imagine

a girl that looks like her dad. Oh yeah, um, talking of girls who look like their dads, have you seen Gordon Ramsay's daughter? I saw her TikTok. She has like 13 million followers on TikTok, and she does all these TikToks with her dad. They get 50 million views.

Don't tell Gordon, he'll beat me up if I said that about his daughter. Imagine I made a video why I want to date Tilly Ramsay and then Gordon sees it and he beats me up. Imagine Gordon Ramsay. Imagine he was my stepdad. He would hate me so much.

I could take on Gordon. Look at my muscle.

Yeah, it's strange. I always thought if you had a half-black parent, then the, the kid of the half-black parent would also look at least a bit black. But Mila didn't look black at all. Even her hair was really straight, not curly at all.

Genes work in mysterious ways. I don't look anything like my dad. People— no one would even suspects that I'm my dad's son.

But Brazilians have a lot of mixture over there. They've— they had— first they had the Native Americans, the Aztecs and Incas, and then the Spaniards went over and colonized them, and then they brought their black slaves as well. So it was like a massive mixture of Aztecs and Spaniards and, um, slaves.

It'd be really interesting to see a DNA test of a Brazilian person.

Not Spaniards? I thought it was the conquistadors that Colonized it.

Who's that guy's name?

Brazil was colonized by Portugal. Oh, maybe I'm thinking of Mexico. Yeah, I think I'm thinking of Mexico.

Don't you hate it when you're talking in English and then instead of Mexico they pronounce it Mexico in the proper way?

Can't we just pronounce things in English the English way when we're speaking in English?

I hate the way the X in Spanish is pronounced like an H, or the J Like San Jose is not San Jose.

Jalapeño.

It just looks weird. It says J but it's pronounced H.

Which province in China am I from? Do you mean where my great-grandparents are from? Because I'm not from China and neither is my mum. But according to my DNA test, it says Guangdong.

Wait, let me get my— and, uh, 23andMe.

I don't know if there's doxxing information here. Okay, so this is me.

51.2% Asian, 43.5% Chinese, Guangdong.

Explore your Chinese heritage.

Guangdong, Jilin, Fujian, Shanxi.

So I've got DNA traces from these areas. North Korea.

Wait, let me change lens.

Oh, I hate it. Why can't I flip between the outer lenses? It's a selfie mode and then my face is so close. Look,

so mainly

Guangdong, which is like the Hong Kong area, makes sense.

That's why Hong Kong and the Chinese people in Malaysia mainly speak Cantonese, because most of them came from that Hong Kong area, the southern shores.

And then your skin looks red and irritated. Yeah, it always does, especially around my nose. It's always like reddish.

I don't know why, there's nothing there. There's no pimples, but there's always like a red patch.

I must be eating something that makes it flamed up.

And then I've got 7.7% Vietnamese. Look,

so that means my mum must be 15% Vietnamese if I'm 7.7%. I don't know if my calculations are right, but if I'm 7.7%, then she must be 15%, and then one of her parents must be

A third.

Ho Chi Minh,

7% Vietnamese.

And then European, it says

European 48%, British Irish 31%, French German 15%.

Greater London.

London.

Highly likely match.

Essex.

It's a sign. Essex Girl number 2.

Look,

I've got Scandinavian DNA and French and German,

plus Vietnamese and Chinese, but none of these Southeast Asian countries are in my DNA. So that means my mum's family,

um, they didn't mix with the Malay. Well, my auntie did. She married a Malay guy. So a lot of my cousins— yeah, I've got a bunch of cousins who are half Chinese, half Malay,

and they had kids too.

British and Irish.

That means my dad must have been 30% French and German.

That means my grandparents, one of them must have been over 60% French-German.

What was my grandmother's maiden name?

Her name was Dorothy—

was it Winch? I forgot now. Dorothy? No, it was Rose. Was it Rose? No, can't have been Rose. That's not really a family name.

Why did our happas get angry at Daniel? Because I advocated

sex with Japanese women. Such a dumb reason. Because I didn't try hard to succeed in life and I just became a sex tourist.

I failed them. I didn't go to university and get a respectable job, and I didn't marry a white lady. I resorted to going to Japan and sleeping with old women.

They disapproved.

And I guess I also triggered them because I didn't join them in self-hating my Asian side. And then I said stuff like, oh, I'd like being half Asian.

That really triggered them.

They don't like it when people like what they hate.

Very sad bunch of people.

There was that post, if you Google it, Give Up on Hiding in My Room. This guy wrote a massive post He sounds like such a loser.

Look, this guy says he's quarter Filipino. The anger and emotion coming from our happas always seems to be because we want more from our lives and to grow, develop ourselves, and be proud of ourselves and respective identities. We're upset because of the bamboo ceiling. Hiding in My Room is completely content with being a complete and utter loser.

He's like a poorer, dumb, half version of Mark Zuckerberg.

How am I anything like Mark Zuckerberg?

A poorer version of Mark? Yeah, Mark Zuckerberg's like the 4th richest person in the whole world. 99% of people are poorer than Mark.

He's embraced being a sexpat, endorses emboldened sexpats, sees nothing wrong with them. How low can you go?

This post.

He thinks he can turn his YouTube channel into a career.

Well, it's lasted 4 years, so I don't feel like I failed at doing that.

He spills his guts out on video on how he's so depressed, lacks motivation, and feels like he's in a dead end. But when faced with constructive criticism, he has selective listening, gets defensive.

Doomed to wake up one day as a 40-year-old that's lonely. Yeah, I, I guess it's not wrong. I can see myself becoming 40 and still being the same.

Now look at the ending. He has to dox me, doesn't he?

It's so pathetic.

I upset this guy so much because I refuse to better myself,

but why dox me at the end? And make fun of my job.

I wonder what he's talking about now, 4 years later. What's wrong in the mind?

Another mentally ill loser.

See, look at his post history.

Obtaining sex through false info was made a felony after a white guy So he's still obsessed with white guys and racial stuff.

San Francisco DA office misled Asian man who was assaulted. Chinese church burned in Sacramento. Asian identity.

Asian identity. Asian identity. It's quite a long time ago now. A year ago.

Seems like he's obsessed with Asian identity stuff,

talking about Lucy Liu. What's he going to say now? Give up on Lucy Liu's son?

Where's his post?

Oh, he created the

post. Lucy Lou and Happer Sun. Why is he so obsessed with people's children?

Why do Asians fetishize mixed race? Quappers don't look Asian. These terminology words they use, so stupid sounding. Happers and quappers and wasians.

Now he's trying to become mod of this r/Eurasian sub. You know, on Reddit, if a sub is abandoned, you can become the subreddit's moderator by requesting it. So now we try and become mod for this Eurasian sub. Happens to be better than we had— look, these were the idiots hating on me back then.

His entire post history is all about this nonsense.

Half Korean girl gives her perspective of teaching.

Weird.

I find it very strange when someone's entire post history is all about racial things.

I don't know why they keep using the word happa.

Why are you obsessing over someone's post history? How is it obsessing? I'm just bringing it up to see, because I'm curious to see what else he talks about.

How is that obsessing? It's like 2 minutes that I just brought up his post history because he wrote this massive post about me. So he seems to be so interested in me, so why can't I show a little bit of interest back?

At least he's done obsessing over you. Yeah, he gave up, remember? Gave up on hiding in my room.

I mean, I can't really say that what he said was wrong. I mean, a lot of it was right, but still, it's kind of rude of him to speak so lowly of me.

Yeah, I guess we have 8 years until we find out if I'm a 40-year-old

lonely and sad Probably will be, actually, at this rate.

But to be fair, when I was married, I wasn't exactly really happy either.

I always felt lonely and sad, even in relationships.

Okay, Cheesy, you're banned. I've been very tolerable of you, but you're just getting too much. So you obviously have no manners or decency, and you seem to want to get banned.

The societal expectations on Reddit piss me off. I don't fit a lot of the expectations either. Yeah, I know, they're insulting me and then they're probably also insulting at the same time millions of other people who have the same struggles I do. They're so condescending and judgmental and they think they're so much better.

And then they get all pissed and angry because people don't want to take their great, amazing advice. If their advice is so great, why don't they write a book? Like, who the hell do they think they are?

Getting all pissy at me just because, because I didn't live up to their expectations. And I'm not trying to better myself in the way that they want me to, like going to university, getting a job, and going to the gym.

Fuck off.

Eat my fucking egg.

I mean, if they want to work on themselves and they're happy and they've achieved success, then great, good for them. But don't start shitting on me or other people just because we don't want to or we don't feel motivated enough.

I mean, it's already a struggle enough to get out of bed.

It's just annoying.

Not everyone has amazing determination and drive.

At least in my defense, at least I found a way to monetize my laziness and depression.

At least I, I use it in a way to make money.

I think that's pretty cool.

Monetizing laziness, depression, and my loser-y— what's, what's a good word? My loser-ness. My misery.

What was the bedtime phone sound? I don't know, but my phone started giving me a bedtime

and then it keeps waking me up as well. I don't remember setting it.

Don't tell me when to go to bed. I'm not tired.

I can stay up all night. I'm a grown man. Shut up, iPhone.

What? I lost 50 subs.

I went down from 108k 150 to 108k 100.

I don't know, I still feel baffled about those people who write those essay-long posts about how disappointed they are with me. Why do they feel disappointment as if I'm their son or something?

If I see some failure of a person on TV, on the internet, I wouldn't feel disappointment. I'd feel— I'd think, well, that kind of sucks for him, but I wouldn't be like, oh, I'm so disappointed in this random person on TV. Why can't he just pull himself together? I'm gonna write a whole post about him. It's just

weird.

And then you start shitting on them as well just because

they're not trying to improve their situation. I mean, I am trying to improve my, my situation, but I'm just trying to do it in my own way.

But that's what it was like back in,

in 2017. They were just non-stop making posts about me. If you go onto the r/Happa subreddit and type in Hide in My Room, there's like 100 posts Just all of them dogpiling onto me, whining about how much of a loser I am.

It's just so weird.

And then they would get pictures of my family and say like, oh, what a disgusting looking family.

Oh, typical white guy, Asian woman. Couple family with weirdo dysfunctional kids. It was just sick, the stuff they were writing.

So judgmental. And then they got all pissy at me because I didn't want to be part of the hate gang

Maybe if I, I joined them and I was like, yeah, look at this white guy and that Asian girl, what disgusting— maybe if I joined in with them, they would like me. Because I'd be like one of them.

They just sound— they all sound mentally ill.

And those are the people who run my subreddit. They didn't move on. They just created a whole subreddit just for me so they can carry on the hate crusade. So sad.

Recently people have been saying they think I have, um, ADHD or ADD, attention deficit disorder.

Maybe I do,

but who cares? I probably have stuff. Everyone has something. Does it really matter if you find out if you have it or not? What does it change?

That's basically when I became a troll. Most of 2017, I made videos just trolling them because they were so annoying, and I thought, I'm just gonna make videos that trigger them even more.

And then they finally realized, and then they banned everyone from talking about me because it was giving me views. Stupid idiots.

Some Canadian stock market YouTuber featured you. See that tiny, tiny channel who has like 1K subs? I mean, who cares? If Meet Kevin featured me, then that'd be great.

Canadian guy has 11K subs. Really?

What's his name?

One guy made a video and it popped up in my notifications. It said some— someone

featured you. Oh, this is the guy. Someone mentioned you. Abbas Lasiel.

Oh yeah, that's the guy. Oh, he had— he has 11K. I thought he had 1K subs. I only got 1K views. Did he really? When did he talk about me? In the space of one year, and you are looking at the chart. Oh, here it is. The projection room laser to scan a barcode. It's not the only

use. These are a variety of laser scanning and lasers over the long term. Now, this YouTuber, if you've never heard of him before,

his distinctive trait is that he— oh no, that other people are dishonest about. Shit, nearly doxxed. YouTube channel somewhat interesting, even though he lives a life that is frankly very boring. What? My life? Boring? How dare you.

How do I turn off notifications?

It should be fine, it just says Instagram. I'm worried now.

That other people are dishonest to them. And that makes his YouTube channel somewhat interesting. What do you say?

His distinctive trait is that he is honest about things. I'm honest? Half my videos are fake. I'm like the most dishonest honest YouTuber on YouTube.

Over the long run, some of it's honest. This YouTuber, if you've never heard of him before, Hiding in My Room, his distinctive trait is that he is honest about things that other people are dishonest about, and that makes his YouTube channel somewhat interesting, even though he lives a life that is frankly very boring. And he was brutally

honest about what his method of research was before choosing which stocks to invest in. I went on WallStreetBets. He would just go around to the most popular YouTubers and he would listen to the stocks that they were hyping up. And he defended this at some length as being a good or a great method of doing stock market

research. It was working. It was a good method until the whole market went tits up. And he recommended it. To you in the audience. Oh, oh, it's calling me out. Of faith, blind faith, belief, and imagining yourself as being engaged in making a moral judgment and engaging in a kind of moral exercise, making the world a better

place. That you, yes you, have chosen a good company and you are going to be rewarded for supporting that good company in the good work that they do because you, you're a good person. In this sense, again, it's not a religion, but it's a completely pragmatic area of human problem solving that religious attitudes start to creep into.

And there's this strange moralization— I don't understand what these people are doing— often enough. What's he saying? He's saying I'm part of a cult. Into them bankrupting themselves. Virgin Galactic.

The problem is

you could have picked any company in the NASDAQ and they all would have crashed anyway. Even Apple came down like 10-15%. Don't blame me.

You could have picked any stock in the NASDAQ and it all would have just dropped in the same way.

The only way to have avoided that crash was to not have NASDAQ stocks and to have

Dow Jones stocks, industrial stuff which no one cares about. Like, who cares about ExxonMobil? Or Chevron. Everyone's hyping up Tesla and NIO.

She

asked me why do I— said I feel good recently. Now she said why. I'm not sure.

I bought more Tesla. I bought $2,000 of Tesla at $570, and now it's at $630, so that was quite a good decision. I'll probably sell when it gets up to $700, so I feel like it could easily drop back down again.

The lesson I learned was When you're up 20, 30, 40%, then sell and don't put it straight back into the same stuff. Put it into different stuff that's in a different sector. Why do I feel good? I don't know why, but I do feel in a better mood.

Is it because of the Thailand thing? Because I got 70 matches in Thailand.

Because

I changed my location on Tinder to Thailand and got like 70 matches in a day.

So easy to make me happy.

You know, actually, you should have gotten Ford. Ford went from a $10 stock to like a $15 stock now. That's a 50% gain.

Are you going to Thailand? Thinking about it.

I've been in London for Tinder. For months and got only

2 or 3 matches.

If I stay in England, I'm doomed to a life of no sex. And singledom. No social life.

At least if I go to Thailand or Asia, I can get dates.

Have I used KakaoTalk? Not recently. Why? Do you have any gossip?

Yeah, I even have better luck in Korea. At least in Korea, I had about 6 dates, and I could have had way more if I just stayed there longer.

What happened to the Korean call girl? Oh, I don't talk to her.

She just wants my money. She said when, when you come back to Korea, let's meet. Which means you give me money, then we bang.

You aren't happy in Korea?

Hmm.

Not happy anywhere, that's the problem. Name one place where I was really happy. I wasn't happy in Rotterdam even when I was with Mina, the girl of my dreams. You would think, oh, Daniel should be happy now. I was not happy.

Even married in Japan, I wasn't happy.

I guess I was happy in the beginning when it was new and fresh and my channel was blowing up and everyone was all really interested in, oh, what's Daniel gonna say now? What's Daniel gonna say next? Oh my God, Daniel's saying stuff! New upload by Daniel, let's watch, he's gonna say something crazy.

I miss that feeling. I miss the feeling of people caring about what I say.

Yeah, I miss the old days. 2018, I could make a video about what my shoe smells like and it would get 40K views and people would think it's like comedic genius or something. They'd be like, ah, Daniel's so funny, he's talking about the smell of ass.

I could say, today I want to talk about what my shoe smells like and why I love smelling my shoe. There's a certain cheesy smell that I really like, and then people would think that was amazing. But if I did it now, people would be like, who cares?

People used to love my videos back then, even if they were stupid things like why I hate being skinny, why I hate people calling me Asian.

It's just weird. People can go from finding everything you say fascinating to just not caring anymore.

You had a bigger variety of topics back then. Yeah, it's true, because I was so confident I didn't have to worry about views because I could just make a video about literally anything and it would get good views. It would get like 40K minimum.

I don't even know what kind of topics. I keep trying to trick my brain into thinking it's 2018 again and thinking, what would 2018 Daniel make? If I, if I had all the viewers back again, what would I make?

And I just— my mind just goes blank. I don't know. I can't shift back into 2018 Daniel.

What would he make? He'd make something weird, but something that's also heartfelt, like

Why I bought antifungal cream.

My computer's so noisy.

Your life is boring. Yeah, but the thing is, my life has always been boring. And when I was married, nothing was really happening. I was just staying at home all day, but my attitude and my mentality was different, and I was able to make interesting videos even

though my life was boring.

Even before I went to Japan, I was just working at a petrol station, and then I was at home all day,

but I was still able to make the videos interesting.

I'm still just living the same way that I've always lived, 99% of the time in my room playing games, watching YouTube, jerking off. Nothing has changed apart from I don't have a wife anymore. And I don't live in Japan.

Apart from that, it's not really that different.

I just ran out of— ran out of ideas, I guess. Ran out of topics. It's bound to happen after years of making videos. You're going to run out of stuff to talk about.

Then you have to start talking about trending topics, don't you, to stay relevant? I have no idea what's trending now.

What is trending? Resident Evil 8 was trending for a bit. I, I feel like that's died down.

This YouTube video will probably be demonetized and censored because I just said the words Virgin Galactic. Gaining lots of money in my investments with all of that money. I remember I got into stocks for— why do you put this weird music right in my video? And I ended up losing pretty much after a few weeks or a

few months. They were up 10, 20, 30%. And I was making thousands, and I felt so great. I felt like that weird music you put over it.

A Bassless Seal, that's such a difficult name to remember for a channel.

Biomutant is trending. Oh, I saw PewDiePie promoting it.

What does he talk about? He talks about veganism, political philosophy,

my 7-year-long divorce. Wow.

I guess I got off pretty lucky with my divorce. It was very quick,

but there was nothing really to settle or

to— there was nothing to— what's the word? I don't know, you know what I mean.

Do I make money reselling graphic cards?

No. Oh look, he made one about TKO Sam. Cholesterol, one day you're here, the next day you're gone. He's got TKO Sam's face in the thumbnail. Why does he have like the J-vlogging community in his thumbnails?

Boris Johnson, what's he up to?

Having more babies. Doesn't he have like 5 wives now?

You'll have a team of between 6 and 8 individuals, you know, 24 hours a day. Is this the thing that makes you go faster? Yes, yes, sir.

No idea what he's saying half the time. It's just mumbling.

Oh yeah, Dominic Cummings is now Betraying Boris, pointing the finger at him.

It's a partnership that convulsed our politics on Brexit and then regrouped in office, now shattered. Dominic Cummings today said the man he served in Number 10— look at his hair— for the highest office. Dominic Cummings looks evil. Unfit for the job, and I was trying to create a structure around him to try and stop what I thought

were extremely bad decisions. They're all blaming each other now.

Dominic Cummings is saying

Boris Johnson did a bad job, and then Matt Hancock saying Dominic Cummings is wrong.

They're all just trying to blame each other now

to avoid responsibility.

Dominic Cummings said— Dominic Cummings is such an unfortunate name. I am now setting the goal of 100,000 tests. Hancock's not great either. What is with their names? Hancock and Cummings and then Johnson. Per day by the

end of this month. Dominic Cummings said he should have been sacked long ago. In April we had this terrible pledge which was hugely distorting the whole system. We also had constant repeated lying about PPE. The Cabinet Secretary said to the Prime Minister— Victoria McDonald. What do you think? It was an extraordinary portrait of, as Dominic Cummings would

like to present it, a dysfunctional government with a dysfunctional Prime Minister. A government that lies to you, he would argue, did argue repeatedly. A government that's the victim of groupthink, something you'd have thought someone like Dominic Cummings is meant to come in and puncture. Air homes, and we were getting constant pushback on it. There's nothing interesting on

YouTube anymore. What's Ice doing? Gambling. Oh, he deleted them now. He did like a bunch of gambling streams and they only got 10K views.

That must hurt.

YouTube's so boring now.

What's up, YouTube? This video is brought to you by— oh no, Chris Sane saying buy AMC. I've still got my shorts open on AMC. I'm gonna get wrecked on Tuesday.

Well, I shorted it from $36, so as long as it doesn't go back up and blows past $36, I should be still in the green.

I'm hoping it, it does shoot back up to like mid-30s and I open more shorts and then it just crashes down and I make $100.

Meet Kevin, still streaming. Let's see here,

2.7K. We're gonna have to do a coffee break here in a minute.

It's just, he's just milking donuts, isn't he? Why is he doing a 32-hour straight Fundraising livestream. Doesn't he make like $5 million a month? He's trying to run for governor.

Why is he running for governor of California? Some people just don't know how to take a break. I mean, the guy makes millions every month. Can't he just sit back and relax? These people are mental. Like bloody Jeff Bezos.

Already got hundreds of billions, and then they don't just sit back and drink some tea. They don't know how to stop.

Hmm, I might go down, make some hule. Getting a bit peckish.

You should take inspiration from these guys. Yeah, I wish

there was something I wanted to work hard on.

I just can't be bothered.

I can't be bothered. I just want to sit on the floor bitching about people.

Like that stupid man I met last year.

It's just funny, some people have no motivation at all, and then some people have too much motivation.

That's not always a good thing either. Look at Hitler. He had way too much motivation. He wanted to take over the whole world.

Oh my God, crypto's crashing again. I thought I bought the dip already.

I already bought the dip on crypto 5 times now. Now look.

-100 BTC, -60 Ethereum, -4 Doge.

The dip keeps going.

Look at all my positions on Bitcoin, all red.

What's this

stupid Bitcoin?

People kept saying buy Bitcoin, Daniel.

Now Bitcoin crypto is in a bear market. Look at this.

Look at that for Bitcoin.

That does not look pretty. It's forming a mountain. The ugliest image in stock

But then if you look at the Bitcoin rainbow chart,

um, it's supposed— maybe it's just gonna do a U like this and then it's gonna shoot back up here because it's supposed— every halving is supposed to have like an all-time high around the middle. So we haven't reached the middle of the halving. We're only a quarter of the way to the half of the halving. Every time

it does a halving, in the middle it spikes and then it crashes and then spikes. So we haven't reached the middle bit where it should reach up to here, which would be 100— it'll be 250K.

That is a technical analysis.

I do feel a bit worried though. I've got way too much in crypto now.

The ladyboy replied, This one.

What should I say? They said hi. What time is it in Thailand?

Time in Thailand,

it's 8:50 AM. Maybe they just woke up. It's a bit early, isn't it? I thought ladyboys work in the night.

So do ladyboys think like a girl? So do I have to treat them like a girl,

or do they think like guys? I'm very confused.

They must have the guys' brains.

Also, what does this mean? In her description it says milk bottle tick, green snake tick.

Does it mean he has a dick and he lactates? What? Can I show this bit? It's got the name. I can cover it.

Look, says milk bottle tick, green snake tick. What does that mean?

Should I ask?

What does

the green snake

mean? Should I ask that? I have no idea how to interact with this person.

He wants his snake milked.

Booby, yes. Dick, yes. He has both.

But the greenness is weird.

Why is it green?

Maybe he'll apply fungal cream for me.

Who knows what song that is?

What song is it?

Oh, I can't remember now.

Is it Big Camera?

Big Camera.

Oh my God, Japan nostalgia.

Big camera.

Wow,

my favorite shop in Japan.

No,

it's not that one.

Was it Life Japan theme tune?

Supermarket. Maybe I should type it in Japanese.

No, I don't know which shop plays that song.

This was the— it was like a really cheap shopping center, but Everyone at the guest house would always say, let's go to Don Quijote, because it always had weird stuff and it had that funny music.

Ah, memories. Used to go there a lot. I bought my first iPhone there, iPhone 4.

I can't remember which one that was from.

Maybe it's that camera one.

Yodobashi

Camera.

Yeah, we'd always go into the adult section and giggle at the sex toys at Don Quijote.

This is an American song originally.

No, don't remember.

Uh, getting nostalgia.

I had a lot of memories in Japan, now I think about it. The music just brings you back. Every store you go into had like its own BGM, and then you'd be walking around doing your shopping and then the melody just gets drilled into your head.

There's just something so memorable about life in

Japan. Oh, it gives me goosebumps.

That's why I went back to the same guest house in Arasaka before in 2017. First time I went there was 2010. It was really weird just being back,

but everyone's gone, all the people you knew. It's like a bit like time traveling. You can go back to a place in your past

and it's still the same place and all the buildings are still there, but all the people are gone.

I keep thinking about going back to to my house in Sutton Valence, where I first lived. It would be so strange. 20 years later. 20 years doesn't sound like a long time, but then in 20 years everything changed.

I kind of wanted to go back. I could cycle there. It would take an hour, maybe. But I feel like it would be too weird just seeing all the same stuff

my dad built.

Oh,

what if it's too late for for you.

Ladyboy replied.

It says he said it means he has a dick.

No,

wait, it means I have dick. What should I say? How big?

Can you be— I don't know how to talk to them because they're guys. I'm guessing they're all like dirty-minded

and you can talk to them like a guy. You don't have to

Treat them like they're girls. Now I can't just say to a girl, can you send me a nude? She'd be like, no, you creep.

Treat them like a girl. I don't know, I'm so confused.

What do I ask? Do I have to do the whole pretending I'm interested in their personality thing?

So I'm pretty sure guys don't really give a crap if you don't show interest in their personality. Us guys, we don't really care that much.

I feel like girls care way more about personality stuff.

They take hormones to make them like women.

Okay, what should I say? I'll say,

oh, I don't mind. Should I say I don't mind?

That— I don't know what to say. This is actually harder than just talking to a normal girl.

That's hot.

I just said that's hot. Me too.

Should I put me too? Me too.

Actually,

I remember now, there were 2 ladyboys at the guest house. They looked like girls, and I heard them talk. They had men— man voices.

Oh no, I've got 19% battery.

Did you see I lost like 40, 30 viewers when I started playing music? That's why I don't play music.

Ah, doesn't Japan make you think? All the '90s stuff in Japan must be so nostalgic for the 50-year-old Japanese people.

Let me find the train station that me and that Japanese married woman met. It always played this melody. Every train station in Tokyo, they have their own individual melody. Maybe I remember it.

Melody.

No, I don't really remember it.

I thought it might give me a— what's the word— goosebump feeling. Let me try Osaka. That might give me something.

Melody. It might remind me of Chihiro. Chihiro.

Oh,

whoa, actually, yeah, that does give me tingles.

Oh, oh, flashbacks.

They're the first one.

The first one kind of gives— oh, that last one maybe.

No, not really. Maybe number line melody.

No, I don't know. I don't like it anyway. It feels weird.

It's like memories are getting triggered by the sound.

Oh, oh, this one gives me a bit of a feeling.

Oh, I get those feelings of anxiety that I used to get when I go on a date. When I went on all these dates, I was waiting at the train station.

I used to get so anxious.

I miss the trains in Japan.

They're so fancy with their hand gestures.

Japan will always have a special place in my heart. So many memories I had there.

And you guys don't even know the half of it. You only started watching when I was married. You didn't even see any of the stuff, the 7 years worth of Japan content I had that was

undocumented, pre-YouTube times.

Oh, I'm getting very complicated feelings right now.

It's just weird, you got these memories and they get triggered by certain sounds and smells.

Miso soup used to trigger my Osaka memories from 2010.

When you live in Japan, getting the train is like such a huge part of life. It becomes part of your memory of life in Japan, like running to catch the train, trying to get on before the doors close. Trying to get the train during rush hour and you get squeezed in there, and then all of the jingles

and the melodies.

Ah, just getting the train is like an experience on its own

that sticks with you.

I remember when I worked at the convenience store, I had to get the train during rush hour every morning, 6 AM. And then they would push the people into the train. That was horrible.

We always met at that train station.

Me and that married woman went to love hotels.

Okay, back to wide angle. Wow, I lost like 40, 30 viewers just from doing that. Jesus. Why do so many people leave when I just play a YouTube video? Isn't it weird?

This is why I don't play games or react to content, cuz every time I pull up my YouTube and I play something, 30% of the people just leave.

If I played a game, half the people would leave.

And then when I start passionately ranting and complaining about something, everyone stays. And then people wonder, why do I always complain and rant about stuff all the time? It's because that's obviously what people want to hear.

Obviously I'm going to keep doing the stuff that I think people want to hear and see.

Stop making— look, stop making such angsty, negative videos for a start. If I did that, people would stop watching.

Angsty and negative stuff is what gets people's attention, and that's what people watch.

If I try and be all wholesome and good,

I get way less, way fewer views. Is it fewer or less? Oh, Bitcoin's going up. Nice.

Yeah, I feel very conflicted about Japan because on one hand I've got a lot of memories and I miss it, but then that's all in the past. Even if I go back to Japan now, I don't feel like it would be the same.

It'll be like I'm trying to recreate the past.

And usually when you try and recreate the past, it's never as good as the actual past. It's always like a sadder, emptier version.

Got to move on to something new,

like ladyboys in Thailand.

The ladyboy said,

I have a dick. I said, that's hot, me too. And then they said, do you like it?

What should I say? Should I say

I want to try?

I want to try it. I haven't tried before.

I want to

give it a try.

I'm curious.

Should I fuck a ladyboy in Thailand for content?

What are you reading? I'm reading my Tinder chat with this ladyboy.

But they always look kind of manly. That's the problem. There's only so much you can do with surgery.

There's very manly traits that you can't just get rid of, like the bigger hands, the wider shoulders, the Adam's apple,

the kind of frame.

I think I'd be a pretty good one actually, cuz I've got a very slender feminine body and frame.

You can get rid of the Adam's apple. Oh, I can't even imagine the surgery

that they do for that. Just imagine they cut open the neck and then what, they, they pull out the cartilage? How? It's like part of your neck.

My Adam's apple, if I press it, sound like this.

I had so much more confidence in 2017 when it came to streaming. Remember I would just go into a Japanese store and livestream it and walk around streaming myself shopping?

I don't think I could do that now. I lost a lot of confidence.

And then I just walk around shopping centers streaming and just talking into the stream. I probably looked weird doing that. At the time, I didn't care because I was so into it.

Yeah, I walked into that changing room and I tried on women's clothing.

That was before anything bad happened from viewers

That was when I was really into Ice Poseidon and I was inspired. I felt so inspired by Ice back then. I don't really feel very inspired anymore by anyone.

Okay, turn off the computer.

Oh, I could go to bed. I don't really feel hungry.

I don't know if there's anything to eat.

Sunday, then Monday, and then market opens Tuesday.

I

think my leg's got a bit of muscle now. They were like straight lines in winter. Because it was so cold. Winter was so cold, I didn't even go outside until— I didn't step outside until May, I think, or April. It's way too cold.

Yeah, I might go down, get a drink. Have I brushed my teeth?

No, I don't think I have.

It's very dark.

Oh no, why is the light on? That's creepy.

That's creepy. Oh, it's Mrs. Meemaw.

Why is

alive on.

Mrs. Meemaw.

Meemaw.

When Pia came, she was out there and

I was lying like this, and she was sitting over there on the doorstep. It was funny. Should have streamed it. Imagine if I streamed it when she came. That would have been so weird.

I was so against filming it, trying to make it into content, because I felt like I was just— cesium giving me problems again.

What's in the fridge? Why is this milk in this funny container?

Glass.