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My Problem with the Turkish Girl

2021-11-20 · 8 min

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  1. 2 years ago, shortly after the passing of

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  2. my dearly beloved father and the collapse

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  3. of my ill-fated marriage, I decided to go

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  4. to Germany to meet this cute young German

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  5. girl. Unfortunately, things didn't quite

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  6. work out between us, and I found myself

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  7. stranded all alone in a hotel room in

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  8. Düsseldorf. I was so sad and lonely, I

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  9. cried into my pillow every night. I

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  10. dreamed and prayed that a cute girl would

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  11. come and see me. A few days later, my

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  12. prayers were answered and salvation came

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  13. in the form of a Turkish girl. She said

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  14. she had been watching my videos for a few

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  15. years and she really liked me and would

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  16. love to be able to meet me. So I said to

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  17. her, okay, then come to Germany and come

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  18. to my hotel room. Surprisingly, she said

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  19. yes, and thus a plan was set into motion.

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  20. A plan that started with such high hopes

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  21. and expectations that would fatefully end

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  22. in blood, sweat, and tears. Upon summoning

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  23. her to my hotel room, I started to get

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  24. ready for her arrival. I laid out my

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  25. finest linen sheets. I prepared scented

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  26. candles of lavender and thyme. As a final

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  27. touch, I scattered rose petals all over

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  28. the bed. I was ready to welcome her into

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  29. my lair of passion. When she finally

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  30. arrived at the hotel, I went down to meet

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  31. her and bring her back up to my room. The

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  32. first time I set my eyes upon her, I was

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  33. very pleased with her physical appearance.

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  34. Her hair glowed orange like a blazing

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  35. star, and her eyes twinkled with feminine

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  36. abundance. I took her by the hand and

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  37. guided her towards my den of love. She was

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  38. quite a small person. Her head fit snugly

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  39. beneath my armpit, and the faint smell of

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  40. pine nuts exuded from her scalp. Her

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  41. tantalizing odors wafted up into my

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  42. nostrils, and my body prepared itself for

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  43. for what was about to come.

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  44. As we approached my hotel room, I could

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  45. feel the excitement bubbling up from

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  46. within me. I sat her down upon my bed,

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  47. and few words were exchanged between us

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  48. before physical intimacy was initiated.

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  49. We gazed into each other's eyes, and a

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  50. crimson red flame ignited, bringing us

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  51. together. The flame flickered and rippled

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  52. like waves in the ocean. Fingers entwined

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  53. and flesh flubbered, the deed was done and

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  54. the consummation was complete. We lay

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  55. there in those sweat-drenched bedsheets.

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  56. I felt satisfied and fulfilled. It was

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  57. everything I had wished for. However, the

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  58. time for pleasure had passed and the time

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  59. for pain was to begin. I promised to her

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  60. that she could stay in my hotel room for a

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  61. few nights, and as a man who keeps to his

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  62. word, I had to stick it through to the

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  63. end. During the day, we explored the city

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  64. and went on walks for many hours. I

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  65. struggled to find things for us to do,

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  66. and we always ended up going back to the

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  67. hotel in the afternoon or the early

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  68. evening. Düsseldorf was a pleasant city,

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  69. but there wasn't much to see and not many

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  70. tourist attractions nearby. And as the

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  71. days went by, I started to feel more and

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  72. more suffocated by her constant presence.

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  73. I didn't realize that having someone stay

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  74. in your hotel room for 4 days straight was

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  75. not a great idea. And the excitement I

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  76. felt in the beginning started to turn into

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  77. regret. Things started to get awkward and

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  78. bad between us when I wanted to play some

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  79. video games. I just really felt like I

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  80. needed a break from her and a break from

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  81. going outside, and I really missed playing

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  82. some Rainbow Six Siege. I thought it'd be

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  83. okay to switch on my laptop and have a few

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  84. gaming sessions. However, I was wrong. By

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  85. turning my back to her and taking the

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  86. attention away and focusing it onto my

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  87. laptop, It upset her greatly. She became

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  88. very silent, and I could sense she was

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  89. bored. I was also bored, and I didn't know

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  90. what the solution to this problem was. I

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  91. really wanted her to leave, but I just

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  92. didn't have the heart to tell her. So I

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  93. thought if I acted moody and did other

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  94. things and stopped talking to her much,

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  95. she would want to leave voluntarily.

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  96. However, my plan backfired and the

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  97. opposite happened. The more I ignored her,

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  98. the more she would latch on to me. She

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  99. refused to allow me to continue gaming,

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  100. and she took my phone away from me. She

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  101. sat on my lap and prevented me from

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  102. accessing my laptop. This was kind of

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  103. unexpected, and I wasn't sure how to

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  104. react. She just sat on top of me, and I

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  105. wasn't able to check my phone or do

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  106. anything else. I couldn't stand up, so we

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  107. just sat there in silence. She stared at

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  108. me with these eyes of burning anger. I

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  109. knew she was annoyed, and I knew she was

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  110. frustrated, and I wasn't sure what was the

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  111. best way to deal with this situation. I

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  112. thought to myself, there's only one day

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  113. left. I'll just grit my teeth and bear it.

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  114. So I decided to turn my laptop off and

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  115. redirect my attention and focus back onto

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  116. her. The next day came, and I was so

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  117. excited for her departure. I was looking

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  118. forward to being alone again so much. She

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  119. packed her things and we said goodbye,

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  120. and that was the last time I ever saw her.

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  121. If I could go back in time, I think I

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  122. would like to do it again, because even

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  123. though it ended up in frustration and

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  124. disappointment, in the beginning it was

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  125. quite fun and exciting. And it was an

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  126. interesting experience. I should have put

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  127. my laptop away, and I should have put more

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  128. effort into trying to find fun things for

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  129. us to do together. We could have taken the

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  130. train or bus to a neighboring city. I

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  131. could have found more interesting things

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  132. and activities for us to do. We could have

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  133. even gone to a different country together.

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  134. Unfortunately, I let my moodiness and

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  135. gaming addiction get in the way, and

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  136. that's what ruined what could have been a

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  137. magical 4 days together. I took the

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  138. opportunity for granted, and now I'm

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  139. worried that I may never get to experience

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  140. something like that again. And even if

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  141. another opportunity like that arises,

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  142. would I be able to change how I react to a

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  143. similar situation? I do feel a bit bad

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  144. about how I treated her, and I wish I

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  145. could have given her a better memory. And

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  146. even though she probably regrets meeting

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  147. me, I don't regret meeting her. For me

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  148. personally, it kind of became a fond

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  149. memory that I look back to when I'm in bed

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  150. at night. Maybe one day I could visit

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  151. Turkey and we could meet again. That would

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  152. be very nice.

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  153. So that was the tragic tale of the Turkish

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  154. girl. Hope you liked the video. Also got

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  155. some new merch using the artwork that I

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  156. made for the video that you might be

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  157. interested in. Got some hoodies,

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  158. t-shirts, cups, stickers, bags. If you

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  159. like these illustrated kind of voiceover

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  160. videos, then press the like button. And,

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  161. um, yeah, don't really know what else to

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  162. say, so goodbye.

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