I got DOXED

I'm so happy right now. I bought one of

these. It is a USB to USB-C OTG

adapter, and I've plugged it into my

phone, and I'm actually using my Blue Yeti

USB microphone on my smartphone, and it's

recording audio. It should be recording

audio. Can you hear that?

So the audio should sound way better now

than when I was using this thing. This

thing was rubbish, wasn't it? Even though

it was pretty expensive, it was about £50.

And the audio was crap, and it did all

these weird things like if you left Wi-Fi

and data on, it would start making this

crackling noise. I had no idea you could

actually use a USB microphone on your

smartphone. I didn't know it was this

simple. So something really interesting

happened to me over the weekend, and I

desperately want to talk about it, but

unfortunately I can't talk about it

because somehow someone found out about my

something and said that I need to stop

making videos about something. And I need

to take down a whole load of videos about

something, otherwise I could lose my

something. So I'll leave you to figure out

what that meant because I can't say

anything more about it. And I have no idea

how that happened because there's millions

of videos on YouTube and the chances of

someone just accidentally finding one of

my videos is like 0.00001%.

It's like finding a needle in a haystack

when you're not even looking for the

needle. So I feel like something fishy's

going on. I'm kind of suspicious. I don't

understand how what happened actually

happened. But it's unfortunate because the

whole point of this YouTube channel was so

that I can talk about things that are

going on in my life, and now I can't talk

about a certain aspect of my life, and I'm

pretty irritated about it. So thanks. I

will tell you what happened when the

circumstances allow for it, but right now

it's kind of tricky, so you'll just have

to be patient. If you really want to know

what happened, then just send me a private

message and I'll tell you everything that

happened for the cheap price of $5. So

hopefully I won't get in trouble for

saying those things. I've kept it pretty

vague, so I think it should be okay.

Anyway, today we're going to be answering

some Patreon questions from a Patreon

supporter. Question 1: For someone who

describes himself as socially awkward,

xenophobic, and shy— I wouldn't say I'm

xenophobic, I'd say I'm more

people-phobic— you seriously put yourself

out there, which is amazing. You travel by

yourself, speak confidently in non-native

languages, approach women online and in

social situations, stay at guesthouses,

And of course expose your entire life to

judgmental petty strangers on YouTube.

These are all situations calling for

extreme self-confidence, self-esteem, and

courage. How do you square these 2 things?

In real life, in social situations, I'm

really awkward and I don't have much

confidence and I'm super shy and I barely

say anything. But because when I make

videos I'm alone, I feel fine. I don't

feel awkward, I don't feel strange talking

to my camera. I actually prefer talking to

an object like a camera than I do to

actual people. Even though thousands of

people watch my videos, I don't really

feel like there's thousands of people

watching because I'm just talking to my

camera. No one's here. I'm by myself. If I

was on a stage talking in front of

thousands of people, it would be a

completely different story and I wouldn't

be able to do it and I'd be a complete

wreck. I'm really introverted and most of

the time I prefer to be alone, but there

are times when I desperately crave human

interaction, mostly from the opposite sex.

And it's those times I find myself going

to Japan and staying at a guesthouse.

It's actually sex that's the main

motivator that makes me want to seek out

human company. What are 2 really memorable

events from your childhood? When I was 10,

I used to have this best friend that lived

next door to my house, and there was this

time when he and his sister came over to

my house to play with me and my sister,

and I suggested that we go to my parents'

room where they had 2 double beds side by

side, and I said, hey, let's turn off the

lights and roll around on the bed, and the

only reason I wanted to do this was

because I wanted to touch up his sister.

Another experience from my childhood which

remains pretty fresh in my memory was the

time when I was a teenager and me and my

sister were fighting, And my mum got

really angry and she just chucked my

PlayStation 2 out of the window and it hit

the concrete and shattered into loads of

pieces. And then she started chucking out

my video games as well. She tried to chuck

out the TV, but it was too big and it

couldn't fit out of the window, so she

smashed it on the floor. And I was just

devastated. I was crying. I hated my mum

so much then. My mum actually did this

quite a lot as a punishment. So there was

this other time when I had this

remote-controlled monster truck and I was

fighting with my sister again, and my mum

got really angry and she just took this

hammer and smashed it to tiny pieces. It

was just— it was brutal being a

10-year-old seeing something you loved

being smashed to tiny pieces. Question 3:

Do you see where the current version of

yourself came from? Did you see these

traits that you have as you were growing

up, and did others see them in you as

well? Ever since I started secondary

school and started to get bullied, I've

always been kind of weird. I've always

been really shy and super quiet. I never

spoke to anyone. I was always by myself on

lunch break. I was always in the library

playing Pokémon on my Game Boy. Even the

teachers used to make fun of me. There was

this one teacher who gave me this

nickname, Chatterbox. Box, and then all

the other kids started calling me

chatterbox. And then there's this other

teacher who said, if you want to make eye

contact with Daniel, you have to lie on

the floor, because I always used to look

down at the floor when I was walking

around or doing stuff. But it's kind of

ironic, isn't it? I used to be such a

quiet person during school, and I used to

get bullied for it, but now I make videos

where I talk and talk and talk, and

thousands of people listen to me. So it's

funny how things turn out, isn't it?

Question 3: As a fledgling student of

Japanese, I was surprised to hear you say

on one of your videos that you stopped

studying one day when you felt you were

How would you say your kanji knowledge is,

and do you think you'd have to pick it all

back up again if you moved to Japan? I

think my kanji knowledge is pretty good

when I'm chatting to Japanese women

online. I don't have any problems reading

what they're saying. Maybe there's the

rare occasion that I can't read one word,

but then I just look it up in the

dictionary and then I remember. I don't

have any issues with forgetting how to

speak Japanese because I still use it on a

daily basis on apps like HelloTalk and

Japan Cupid. And even if I did stop

speaking Japanese for a while, I could

easily pick it back up again. It's kind of

like riding a Even if you haven't rode a

bicycle for years, you can just get back

on one and you might be a bit wobbly at

the beginning, but then you remember how

to ride one and then it's fine. I'm

actually speaking to several Japanese

women right now and things have gotten

pretty sexual with one of them. I'm not

sure if we're going to meet or not because

she said that she doesn't feel comfortable

with meeting people from the internet,

but you never know, it might change. I

think she's just looking for like an

online companion and I'm fine with that

because I'm kind of looking for the same

thing. It would be nice if there was some

possibility of meeting her in the future

at some point, But right now I'm not

really worrying about it. We're having fun

and I'm enjoying it. Question 3: Would you

like to illustrate for computer games?

What genre? And have you taken any steps

to pursue this? If not, why not? I saw

your older programming videos. Is that

side of the industry of interest to you?

A few years ago, back in 2015, I was

really interested in coding and making

video games, and I actually finished 2 or

3 video games for the iPad and iPhone.

They're not on the App Store anymore

because I didn't renew my developer's

membership and they got taken down. They

weren't very good games. They were just

like like 2D scrolling games. I really

enjoyed doing the artwork for the games,

but the actual coding was a nightmare. I

don't like coding or enjoy coding at all.

It's just a real pain in the backside,

and looking for bugs in the code takes

ages, and it's just so frustrating and

irritating. So here's one of the games

that I made. It's called Zombies and a

Tank. I did all this artwork myself,

and I did all this, all the coding as

well. So zombies come down the screen kind

of like Space Invaders, and you kill them

and you get coins, and then you can buy

upgrades— towers, uh, walls,

speed upgrade, ammunition, repair— and you

move side to side. There's this, there's

this white bar at the bottom because

that's where adverts used to be. It's

really difficult, by the way. I purposely

made it really difficult so it can be a

challenge, and they just come down the

screen. And you just kind of mow them

down, I guess. It's really difficult to

play and film it at the same time. So if

you kill all of the zombies and you

complete the wave, you can upgrade. You

can use the coins that you got from the

zombies to buy upgrades and stuff. It took

me quite a while to make this, about 5

weeks, I guess, and it only got downloaded

about 15 times, which made me sad. I

stopped coding because I really didn't

enjoy it, and it was just too much work

for too little gain. If someone approached

me saying that they wanted me to do

artwork for a game, they working on, I'd

be more than happy to do it, but I would

never get back into coding. Question 7:

You've said that you're the type of person

that prefers sex first, then the

relationship, but don't you feel that

making an emotional connection to someone

first is important? If all you have is the

physical, you've got nothing to build on.

It's just sex. Haven't you met a girl that

you've just wanted to get to know as a

person before becoming intimate? For me,

having sex is more important than having

an emotional connection, and sometimes

even if I've had sex with someone, I find

it difficult to form an emotional

connection with them. I think that's one

of the reasons why I found it so easy to

break up with so many girls in the past.

And one of the reasons— the main reason

that I broke up with them in the first

place was because I didn't feel like there

was any connection or bond between us.

And after the sex gets boring, which it

always does, I don't really feel like

there's any point in continuing the

relationship. It would be great if someday

I could find someone where the sex is

great and we have a strong emotional bond

to each other, but for some reason I just

find it difficult to connect or relate to

people in general, not just girls, but

everyone. It's not that I don't understand

how other people might feel about certain

things. It's just that I, I don't really

care. I find it very difficult to show any

interest in people because in general I

don't find people very interesting, and

I've never met a girl in my life that has

made me think, wow, she's really

interesting. I really want to get to know

her. No, the only thing I think to myself

is, wow, I really want to have sex with

her. If I completely lost interest in

having sex. I would be perfectly happy

with spending the rest of my life alone.

I have cats.