i accomplished nothing today

That's weird.

Why, why didn't they take the bin?

Oh, I thought the bin men

would have come by now, but they didn't.

But it's so late. What? Why haven't they

come yet?

Hmm, don't know.

I'm bored.

Why is life so boring?

Didn't do anything today

apart from— well, I bought something.

Uh, I'm quite excited about it.

Guess what it is?

Oh, thank you, Angelica James.

Who is James? Oh, James Charles.

Who liked my James Charles video?

Not many, I guess. Got shit views.

It did 9 out of 10 on the last 10 videos

for views. Oh, thank you, Oliver.

James C, would you like to shag? I would

shag James C. For £1,000.

Daniel, I'm studying to be a psychologist.

Your mind is amazing. Oh, thanks.

Keep being authentic.

Oh, how kind of you.

Um, oh, thank you, Ray. I am army.

Yeah, my James Charles video I just did

it for views. I'm gonna be completely

honest, I don't give a shit about James

Charles or YouTube drama. I only did it to

try and get views. Didn't work, did it?

Well, it's still early days, you never

know. A few days later it might get picked

up by the James Charles fans. I thought

I'd give it a try. What's the worst

that could happen? The James Charles fans

or the Tati fans could mass flag my

channel. That'd be bad. I don't think

they'll find it.

I'm getting desperate.

I need— I need views. How can I get views?

Put YouTube— YouTubers in the title. It's

worked every time before, but why would it

not work this time? James Charles is even

bigger than anyone I've ever made a video

on before. I made one on Nobita 4 times.

I made 4 videos about Nobita. First 2

times got about 40k, then the 3rd and 4th

time got about 20k-ish. Rachel and Jun

video got 50k. Chris Broad video got 50k.

Texan in Tokyo got 40k. So I

don't know, maybe the James Charles one

would get— hopefully would get at least

20k.

Who else could I make one on? My problem

with— who

else do I have a problem with?

Nobody else made videos about them. So is

that why you think they, they did well?

Because usually all this YouTube drama,

all these commentary channels, they make

videos about people that's trending and

that's generally hated, so there's a lot

of videos about them already. But if you

make a hate video on a YouTuber who's

actually liked, then it comes as a bit of

a surprise.

Oh, thank you, Ray. How's life? It's

pretty boring, actually.

I feel like I'm starting to go crazy.

Oh, Angelica, thank you. Make one on

Trisha Paytas. She's so,

um, unattractive looking. I mean, she's so

ugly. I mean, she's a very nice

lady.

I'm not sure who to talk about next.

I could do another one on Rachel and Jun,

maybe talk about how boring their content

Do one on Onision. That would be

quite funny. The Asian Onision roasting

the original Onision. I'm surprised no

one's gotten the whole onion thing yet.

You know, everyone calls Onision Onion

Boy. That's kind of why I've been making

onion Cooking with Daniels recently. I

thought people would get it, but I guess

So today I spent £250 on

a sex doll. It's coming tomorrow. It's a

pretty good one. I had one in Japan. It

was a bit cheaper in Japan, cost about

£150. The one I had in Japan was— I

can draw it if you want. I've got MS Paint

here. So the one in Japan I had was like—

I don't know if this is safe. No, I'm not

gonna risk it. I'm just gonna describe it.

So the one I had in Japan, it was cut off

above the thighs and below the belly

button, so it was just like the buttocks

and a bit of the lower stomach. But the

one I got today is the entire

upper torso, so it has boobs and shoulders

but no arms, no legs.

And I'm a bit nervous. I'm hoping my mum

will be at work tomorrow because it'll be

kind of embarrassing if the postman comes

with this massive box and then she's

going, Daniel, what did you buy?

Should I unbox it tomorrow on stream?

No, I get a strike. I don't know, I've

seen sex toy videos on YouTube, they just

get age-restricted. Well, it should

be about maybe this big. It's supposed to

be life-size, so if it's— it's got boobs

and shoulders. I'm just wondering where

should I keep it, because my mum sometimes

comes into my room and she rummages

around, which is kind of annoying. She

keeps— some of her stuff is in my closet,

otherwise I'd put it in the closet. I

might just get that bag, this blue bag I

This is quite a big bag,

but I could just stuff it in here and then

put it in the corner during the day.

I don't know why I'm hiding it though. I

just— I feel embarrassed. I'd feel ashamed

if my mum knew I had a sex doll.

It's not like I'm doing anything illegal.

Why don't I just— I can't just leave it

out on the bed, that'll be weird.

It's just a bit embarrassing.

Yeah, it costs £250 and it's supposed

to be life-size. And you might be thinking

that's pretty expensive, and yeah, it is

quite expensive, but if you compare it to

the alternatives, it's actually the

cheapest option. Because if I go to London

to meet a girl, that would be £30— no,

it's actually £27.

Uh, train ticket to London, and then about

£150 for a hotel, maybe £100 to £150.

So even if I met a girl in London, that's

just £100— that's already £170 just for

one day or one night.

And if

I got a hooker, that would be about £200.

Just for one time.

It's usually around £200 for a hooker,

but then I can't bring the hooker here,

so I'd have to rent a hotel. That would be

another £100. So it's like £300 for a

hooker. And then there's always Japan,

but obviously Japan's going to be a lot

more expensive than £250. So if you

compare it to the alternatives, I think

the love dolls a pretty good investment.

Uh, they also have a full-sized,

full-body Love Doll, which is £2,500,

but it's, it's really big and it weighs

about 45 kg, same as me, and it's a proper

life-size one.

£2,500.

But if you think about it, That's actually

cheaper than going to Japan for a few

months, isn't it?

Full size,

£2,500. No, I'm not gonna get the £2,500.

That's just crazy. I wouldn't get that

until maybe, maybe when I'm in my 40s,

45, and I'm living alone and more

old and ugly. Maybe I'll get that. Give up

I would like a full-size one. The thing I

dislike about the torso one is it has no

legs, and I really want the legs. Legs

would be great. It just feels more

realistic. So I decided to

get that,

and then I might just give up on women.

It's just so much trouble. Go all the way

to London, and then

they're always not that— I don't want to

say it. It's always not how you imagined

it would be, isn't it?

So I might just go to MG Town and get a

love doll. I just feel fed up with dating

in general. It's just

so much effort, hard work. And then how

much money have I spent on Tinder and

Japan Cupid? My Japan Cupid membership's

renewing soon. That's another £120 for a

year membership. Should cancel that,

really. Just get a love doll.

What else am I supposed to do? I keep

thinking about Japan. What would I do if I

went to Japan? I'd be doing exactly the

same as what I'm doing now, but I'd be in

Japan. I'd be playing games, making

videos, streaming, being depressed. The

only difference would be I would hopefully

be meeting up with girls on Tinder.

Is it really worth it? I don't know.

But if I don't go to Japan, I'll just end

up staying here for the rest of my life.

Oh, I don't know what to do with my life.

Having Japan as a goal is the only goal

I've ever been motivated to aim for.

If I don't have that goal, then I don't

have any goals. I need at least some kind

of goal, even if it is just sex.

If I don't have sex as a goal, what would

I have? Obviously making money is

always a goal. That's a stupid goal

anyway.

Trying to get views on YouTube is always a

goal. It's not really worth mentioning

now. I think everyone, everyone knows I

want to get views on YouTube. I need some

other goal, like a mission. I just don't

know what it is apart from women.

Couldn't I go to jail if I go to Japan? I

don't think so. Pretty sure my wife hasn't

sued me, and even if she did, I wouldn't

get, get arrested because— is

it illegal? I don't think it's illegal.

It's not a criminal case, it's a civil

case. If it was a criminal case, they

could arrest me, but if it's a civil case,

all they can do is summon me to court and

fine me potentially.

I don't think I'd be in trouble going back

to Japan.

Hmm. Get a job, get a hobby, volunteer,

go to therapy.

Um, but what if I get a job and I hate it?

Sometimes I think that having a job might

be nice. Getting out into the world,

interacting with people, making some extra

pocket money. But then

I just imagine all the riffraff I'd have

to deal with during the day, and I just

want to distance myself from the riffraff.

And then I started thinking about

education. How can I distance myself from

the riffraff? And usually the most obvious

solution would be get educated,

get a job that the riffraff won't be

around or involved with.

Something cool like graphic designer in

an office full of cool people. Hot girls.

That'd be fun. I always imagine myself

working in some kind of cool tech company

with a bunch of cool nerdy guys, maybe

some hot girls, and then we're doing

something. I don't know, maybe I'm doing

art design.

Oh, thank you, Measure Twice. Get a quiet

part-time data entry job. But it's so

boring. I did data entry before in my

dad's company. They just made me make tea

and coffee all the time. My most important

job was remembering how everyone wanted

their tea to be made. I felt so degraded

as a human being.

My dream job would be— I'd

be amazing at art and people would think

I'm a great artist and Maybe I work

freelance and I have my own website.

Oh, thank you. Top Lists, check PayPal.

Okay.

Oh, thank you. I've received your PayPal.

Very generous of you.

I don't know if you want me to say how

much it was or not. It was quite a

lot actually. Thanks.

Uh, do you still in German? No, I'm in

England now.

If I wanted to be some kind

of artist who uses a tablet to make

concept art or something. What should I

I feel like that would be a cool job.

If you really want to make money, you have

to be self-employed.

Yeah, but I'm not

really thinking about money right now. I

want to do something that's cool.

Maybe I could take a course on, I don't

know, concept— conceptual— concept

art. Where they draw cool characters for

games and stuff. Maybe I should look up

some YouTube tutorials. But then I have to

buy something, don't I? And then I'll just

give up after a few days or a week. I'll

just give up because I'm not that amazing

at art. I've done a few art pieces that do

look not too bad, quite good. It took me

ages, and you know, it's nothing special

that I created in the end.

I don't think I'm naturally gifted or

talented at art. I just spent

a lot of time drawing and trying to get to

that point, but I just kind of hit this

wall where I felt like I couldn't get any

better, and I gave up.

And I never made money off my art, apart

from one time this guy called George paid

me. He paid me $250 to design

a character for him. I don't think he ever

used it, but he let me keep the money.

And it was really stressful because I had

to design the character how he wanted it

to be designed.

And I had to do it in an art style that I

wasn't used to and I wasn't interested in.

Oh, it's just a dream. It's not gonna

happen.

It'd be nice if I could find a way to make

money off art somehow.

Maybe I'll just put art on a t-shirt and

then try and sell the t-shirt.

Was it George Trombly? Yeah, it was him.

I met him in London, 2017,

and he told me— he really encouraged

me to quit the job at the petrol station

and try and pursue artwork as

a career. And he was really helpful. He

was giving me all these ideas. He even

offered me work to do with him,

but I just got lazy and I got fed up.

Do I know Xiaorishu? Yeah, she used

to watch my streams, but then I said that

she sounded like a chipmunk and she heard

and then she got upset. I'm sorry, but she

sounds like she inhaled 20 helium

balloons. Why does she sound like that?

She must be faking it. No one sounds like

that. If she's not faking it, then what

the hell? Do people really

have voices like that? I'm not trying

to be rude, I'm just saying. Oh, thank

you, Ray. Man fears the darkness, so he

scrapes away the edges of it. That's a

quote. I know that quote. I watched

Evangelion like 20 times when I was 18.

Man fears the darkness, and so he scrapes

away at the edges of it with fire. I used

to love that anime.

You are being rude is the issue, but I'm

not trying to be rude. I'm just saying

that her voice is weird because it is

weird. The definition of weird is not

normal, and people's voices aren't like

that normally, so By definition, it's

weird. Doesn't mean I'm saying it's a bad

thing.

It's like when I call someone fat. I'm not

saying it as a bad thing. I'm just saying

that they are fat.

You shouldn't hide your sub count. Why?

Why do you want to know my sub count?

It's going down still. It went up a bit

and then it went down again,

and now it went down even more because of

this stream, probably. It's at 8,8878 now.

Yesterday was at 8,8920. Now it's gone

down 40. I don't know why people

keep unsubscribing, but why would

you unsubscribe because I hid it? That

doesn't make sense. Why would it hurt my

If Coach Red Pill hid his subscriber

count, I wouldn't stop watching. I'd still

watch every time he uploads. I don't

really care if he shows his subs or not.

I just don't like people going onto Social

Blade and then screenshotting my subs

going down, cheering over it. It's

You'll get new people if they see you are

a good-sized channel. I don't know.

If people like my content, then they'll

subscribe, won't they? Why does the size

of the channel matter?

I'm just losing a lot of subs recently,

and it hasn't stopped ever since the

Turkish Girl incident. I've just been

losing— oh, thank you, Ray,

again.

It's like every time I open my mouth, I

lose a dozen subs.

When I don't upload, then the subs start

going back up, and then I upload, and then

I lose a load again. It's just

Humans cannot create from nothing.

Humans cannot accomplish anything without

holding on to something. Humans are not

gods.

Um, yes,

humans are stupid.

Because I treat women as if they were H.

What?

The Essex girl didn't complain. We're

still friends. I treated the Essex girl

pretty well, I think.

I don't treat all women badly. I just

treat the women that I think deserve it

badly. If they wronged me

or I've had a bad experience, then why

am I not allowed to express my opinion on

the experience? Why do I have to keep

quiet?

If I had a shit day with a girl, then why

can't I say I had a shit day with this

girl today? Doesn't mean I treat women

horribly.

And no one ever complains about me

treating men horribly, do they? No one

ever says Daniel treats men horribly.

They always say I treat women horribly.

Don't you care about men? I say a lot of

bad things about men as well. I used

James, the Canadian guy, for content. Did

anyone say, oh, he used that poor James

for content and then doxxed

him or trashed him on streams? No one

cares about men. It's always poor women,

so defenseless, need protecting.

No one ever complains about me

shit-talking guys, but as soon as I say

something insignificant like, this girl

was boring, or she was annoying, or I

didn't feel attracted to her, then all of

a sudden, Daniel treats women

disgustingly. So I could say the most

horrendous things about guys, no one gives

Why? Because you're white knights and you

won't admit it. You can spot a white

knight a mile away.

I don't only shit talk women, and I don't

shit talk every girl that I've ever met.

I shit talk anyone who I have a bad

experience with. So don't say

I treat women disgustingly. You can say I

treat some women disgustingly, but if

you're just gonna assume that I treat

every woman disgustingly, then you're

I treat everyone,

um, disgustingly. Oh, I have a question.

If I hate one group of people,

um, if I hate an ethnicity of people,

that makes me a racist, doesn't it? But

what if I hate everyone? Does that still

make me a racist? What if I hate every

ethnicity equally?

Am I a racist?

I'm a nihilist. I keep forgetting what

nihilist means. Is it someone who's just

negative? I don't

hate everyone, I just hate most people in

general.

That's why I find it very difficult

finding people I actually like. I just

kind of dislike people straight away.

Even if I don't know them at all.

Is the Essex girl disappointed? I don't

think so because she didn't really expect

anything. We were just meeting up to see

how we connect and then we

would see how it goes and then if we don't

feel the same way about each other, then

we'll just be friends. Because we do get

on quite well, I think.

Uh, we have talked about meeting again,

but the problem is she's so busy all the

time, and she said the next time we can

meet will be in June. And I said— I

asked her if she wanted to go to a museum.

In London, the one with the dinosaurs. I

quite like dinosaurs. She said she won't

be free until June. She's so busy. She has

work, and then she also volunteers, and

then she does online courses or something.

I think I might just go to Japan. Oh,

thank you, Ray. You like to be by

yourself, correct? We are many, but you

are alone. You hate it, don't you?

I don't know if I want to be by myself.

I want at least someone to be with me,

but not all the time. For example, I liked

it with my wife. She wasn't there most of

the time because she was at work, but I

liked it when she came home

and we spent the evening together.

It's just strange that someone— I know

people are busy working, but most

people have at least the weekend off, or

at least 2 days off. Well, she's a

manager, so she's busier than most normal

people managing I guess being a manager is

very time-consuming. You have extra tasks.

You don't really have days off, maybe.

Oh, the bin men! Watch, watch.

See? Hey, where are you taking my bin?

Last time the gypsies stole our bin. We

had to get another one. Cost £25. Better

go and get it quickly before they steal it

again. Thieving bastards.

Bit late today, aren't they? They had this

massive mobile home blocking the entire

road this morning. It was huge. And then

later on, they were having this massive

argument. I could hear this Irish guy

screaming his head off and the little girl

crying. And then he stormed out the gates

half naked, got into his car, and drove

off. I recorded it all as well. So it's

pretty funny. I might post it on YouTube.

I'm thinking of getting a better camera

because this camera is really low quality.

You can barely make up— make out anything.

I have to bring the bins in now.

Otherwise my mum starts shouting at me.

She says, why didn't you bring the bins

in? You sit at home all day long, do

nothing! Useless boy! She sounds Indian

now. I can't do her accent. Isn't it

funny? I can't even do my mum's accent.

Oh shit, someone's coming out. I can't go

and get the bin if one of the gypsies are

coming out. They might beat me up. That

the gate's opening.

I need to get a better camera.

Why did the gate open?

Oh, it'd be so funny if they stole it.

Right now on the livestream, 490

witnesses.

Why is that? Is it closing?

There's about 4 families living in that

field now. They're multiplying. It started

off just one family, and then they kept

bringing in more mobile homes. Kept

constructing things. It's like they're

building their own little gated community

in there. In 20 years' time, it's going to

be a little town, isn't it? With their own

shopping center and their own shops

and stuff in there. Oh, it's closing.

Okay.

Yeah! Haha! Hahaha!

Oh, that was fun.

Oh, my work

for today finished.

I sprinted.

Oh, that's the most exercise I've done all

My hair clip moved out of place.

Let me fix it. The bin men saw me.

They must have thought I looked gay. I'm

not gay. I like Women.

Oh, thank you, Topless. The Twitter

obsessive is here. I had this argument on

Twitter with this guy.

Please confirm the dono and read the note

attached to it for him. I can't even

remember what we were arguing about. The

same old stuff.

How you got married when you run like

this? I run like a— an Olympic sprinter,

don't I? Did you see how fast I was just

now? I could outrun any of you, you

fatties.

Oh, that was a nice run. I should run

more. It's quite fun, actually.

So yeah, my sex doll's coming tomorrow.

Um, quite excited about it.

Also, this guy's coming over tomorrow to

buy my Switch. A bit nervous about it. He

said he wants to pay in cash. I've got it

all boxed up. So I'm not

wasting— I'm not wasting money. I made

£400. Selling my GoPro and my Switch, and

I spent £250 out of that £400 that I

wouldn't have gotten anyway because I

wasn't planning on selling it. So now I've

got a bonus £400, I thought I'd splash

out, get myself a sex doll.

So I don't feel like I've wasted £250,

and I think I can get quite a lot of value

out of it and satisfaction. I might

just cancel my Japan Cupid

a waste of money. I bought the 1-year

membership on Tinder and Japan Cupid,

cost over £200 in total,

and I'm not getting any matches anyway.

Might as well get a sex doll, save me more

money, wouldn't it? My sex doll was £250.

I decided to get a full torso one with

boobs.

I put a picture on my Discord. I might put

one on Instagram. I don't know, it's kind

of embarrassing actually. Maybe I won't.

My relatives might see it. Daniel changed

his wife— exchanged his wife for a lump of

I used a website called Honey

lovehoney.co.uk. They also have a

full-sized proper version,

£2,500, and I am tempted,

and I will be getting a bit of money soon,

so I could get one. Have you ever shot a

load onto your sister's underwear like you

did to your cousin's? That's disgusting.

No, I would never do such a thing to my

2,500 for a realistic life-size

sex doll. Do you think it's a waste of

money? It looks pretty good,

but I don't like the face. I'd like to get

But I don't think the face matters that

The faces always look kind of weird.

Hmm, I could dress it up as well. We could

stream together, Daniel and his new

girlfriend.

And people in the review section were

saying if you get the sex doll and then

you use virtual reality for VR porn, it's

apparently amazing. And I can imagine that

being pretty good. Yeah, because you'd

be able to feel the sex doll. But you'd be

looking into VR, and in VR you'd be

looking at the real— the real thing.

So I can imagine that being pretty good.

But then I have to get one of those

headsets. I have one actually, but it's

one of those cheap ones for your phone. I

don't want a cheap one, I want to get the

Oculus Rift or something.

Can I show a picture of it? No, I'll get a

strike if I showed on livestream.

No way.

How can I show it to you?

I just don't want to risk it. If you want

to see it, come onto my Discord or my

Instagram. Message me on Instagram, I'll

send you a picture of it.

Or you can just go on to lovehoney.co.uk

and go on to the men's sex toys. It's on

there, love dolls, sex dolls.

Do you think this whole sex doll plan is

better than going to Japan?

It's definitely a lot more affordable,

but it's kind of boring. It's nice having

a girlfriend, not just for sex, but for

companionship.

But what if I feel completely satisfied by

the sex doll and then I lose interest in

women?

Completely. I could have the sex doll to

fulfill my sexual urges, and then the

Essex girl can be my friend, and that— and

then she can fulfill my companionship

needs. How about that?

If I stopped chasing women, what would I

do though? Just play Rainbow Six, make

videos about YouTube drama. Who's next?

Apparently now they're doing Jeffree Star.

Apparently Jeffree Star is worse than

James Charles, and apparently he's

deleting a lot of tweets, and he also

makes advan— advances on straight guys.

Predatory behavior.

Maybe I'll just become a commentary

channel. Jeffree Star, ugh, what a

disgusting creep.

Pfft. If I get good money off the

James Charles video, might do more. It

doesn't have to get amazing views, you

see. Yeah, I'm getting less views, but

look, the Essex Girl video actually made

just slightly less than the Turkish Girl

video made, and the Turkish Girl video has

46,000 views. So you'd think the Turkish

girl date made loads more money. It

didn't. It made about $20 more money,

which is really strange since it has

double the views. I don't understand

YouTube. Sometimes you have videos that

have half the views but made the same

amount of money as videos that made double

the views. It's really weird.

But I need a goal. If my goal of

chasing women is taken away or satisfied

by the sex doll, then what is my goal?

I need a new goal. My past

goals were moving to Japan. I can still

But why? Why would I want to move to

Japan? What for? I miss— I

miss 2010 Daniel who loved Japan and

thought Japan was amazing and thought it

was like a holy land, heaven, paradise.

I miss that Daniel. Where did he go? He

was so innocent. I wish I could love Japan

again like I used to. Get all excited.

Oh, I'm gonna go to Japan and eat ramen

like a Japanese boy.

Why can't I get excited over things

anymore like that?

Get excited about another country. I'm

just not excited about countries anymore.

They, they're just Boring.

It's just a place with buildings and

people. Oh, thank you, Ray.

You're very nice to me.

But I've noticed that these are all

Evangelion quotes.

Study more cooking. I actually signed up

to this website called HelloFresh. They

send you a box of ingredients and a

recipe, and I'm gonna make some videos

using that.

Oh, thank you, Levante Davis.

You can get referral links on HelloFresh,

so if I make a video and ask people to

click on my link and sign up, then you get

a discount off of your order. And I get

£20 off my next order, so I

could get free food.

I could get free food by,

uh, by, um,

getting people to click on my referral

link, and I can get money from the ad

revenue, and then I won't have to pay for

food, and I'll have stuff to make videos

about. Sounds like a good idea.

Maybe I'll do one standalone HelloFresh

cooking video, just cooking, and then the

remaining boxes they send me I'll put onto

the end of other videos as Cooking with

Daniel. That might be a good plan.

Will I ever do a live Q&A? I guess this is

kind of like a Q&A. I'm answering

questions now.

I, I'm answering them.

What happened to the livestream wheel? I

decided not to do it because I don't feel

like doing push-ups. I made this wheel of

fortune, and then you can add options,

and then you click it and it spins around.

And I thought, what if for Super Chats I

spin the wheel and then you can get me to

do stuff? And I put 10 push-ups,

5 sit-ups, remove a layer of clothing, do

a dance.

But then I'd have to do push-ups and

sit-ups. But I'll do push-ups and sit-ups

for Super Chats. How sad have

I become? Jackmate was doing it.

He was giving out money for Super Chats.

He was doing a spinning wheel and then he

was giving Super Chat donators gift

cards and PayPal. I'm pretty sure that's

against YouTube's rules. That's like

gambling, isn't it? It's a lottery. It's

an illegal lottery because You're getting

money and then you're giving people who

give the money a chance to win money.

It's literally gambling.

How does he get away with it? I'm not

sure. I thought that was against YouTube's

rules because you could take advantage of

people easily. Getting all these kids

to donate a pound so they have a chance of

winning £10. Sounds a bit, I don't know,

unethical. I would totally do

it if I didn't think I'd get banned, but

I'm not risking it.

I did something like that ages ago, a few

years ago when I was giving away my

phone. I made a spinning wheel and I said

if you sign up to my Patreon, you can get

extra entries into the The raffle.

Luckily I got away with it though. I don't

think it's against the rules. I don't

know. Really? I gave it to

some guy in London called Daniel.

I thought he was a girl. Those people are

weird. They pretend to be girls online.

He had this name, a girl's name, on his

YouTube account. I thought he was a girl.

Turns out he wasn't. Why do people pretend

to be girls on the internet? It's just

So they can get free stuff, I guess. I

wonder if he still uses it. I'm not

sure if he still watches.

I used to play female characters in World

of Warcraft, and it was actually kind of

nice pretending to be a girl. Everyone's

nice to you if you're a girl. Guys are

extra nice to you.

Why do you think people watch your videos?

I don't know. It, it must be

because they think it's interesting. If it

wasn't interesting, why would they watch?

I'm guessing it's interesting to them in

some way or another.

I'm waiting for your drama. Don't really

have any right now.

The best drama I think was with the German

girl. The Turkish girl was pretty good. I

think the German girl was better because I

didn't lose 500 subs.

Essex girl, nothing really happened

between us,

which is fine. It's not like I'm expecting

drama so I can make content on.

How long do I think I'll be on YouTube?

Well, for as long as the website is

available.

Why would I stop doing YouTube?

Who's next on my list? I have no one.

That's why I bought the sex doll, and

that's why I'm thinking about going back

to Japan.

There's no candidates. Well,

there's— oh, there's actually 2, but I

don't really want to meet them.

And there was another one, but she ghosted

me. And there's another one,

another English one, but she wants to meet

me in Barcelona for some reason. She said

she's going there to work and she asked me

if I wanted to come and hook up. Don't

really want to go to Barcelona to hook up,

to be honest.

There's one girl in Japan who wants to

meet me. I met her before, we went on one

date. She keeps asking when I'm coming

back to Japan. I keep saying I'm not sure,

so I could meet her. She's okay, I guess.

Oh, thank you, Ray. German girl was loony,

lol. Tried to open the window. Yeah, she

was trying to open the window. I said,

what are you doing? She said she wants to

jump out. She said she's suicidal, and

then I said, oh God, not another one. Why

do I keep meeting these suicidal girls?

What does my sister think about the fact I

broke up with my wife the way— and the way

you are always not satisfied about the

girls you meet? I don't know. I didn't,

didn't ask her.

She's understanding.

She understands my point of view.

Actually, my sister said it would be

better if we did break up and get divorced

if we're not happy, if I'm not happy. My

sister broke up with her boyfriend for

pretty much the same reason, not feeling

attracted to him anymore.

You have to think about yourself in these

situations. There's no point forcing

yourself to stay in a relationship when

you don't feel attracted or in love with

the other person. It's better to break it

I guess me and my sister have that in

common. We, we don't have any problems

just breaking things off and then finding

someone else pretty soon. It's just

logical. This is being, being logical,

I think. Some people, they break up and

they're heartbroken and they stay single

for years and years and years. I just

think that's a waste of time. Yeah, it's

very romantic. Oh, poor so-and-so.

He's so heartbroken. He doesn't even want

a new girlfriend. It's been 5 years. He

can't stop thinking about his ex. Yeah,

it's very romantic, but it's

just a waste of time if you think about

it. Move on. We're not getting any

younger. Move on as quickly as you

My ex-Korean girlfriend, before she met

me, she was single for 9 years. 9 years.

And she's probably still single now, ever

since we separated, which was For— I don't

know, actually. Last time we met was 2016,

but we weren't really together. We were

like sex friends. We were properly dating

in 2010, but just for a few months. But we

carried on meeting each other every year

until 2016. I would go to Korea to

stay with her, and then she would come to

Japan for a week or 2 just to meet me. We

would stay in hotels, travel around, have

sex. We went to Norway, went to Paris. I

brought her here as well. She met my dad.

So I guess we were kind of like sex

friends, weren't we? She was a nice lady.

The best thing I liked about her, apart

from the sex, was when

she would give me facials I—

she would sit down on the floor and then

I'd put my head onto her lap and then she

would exfoliate my face, give me a

massage, clean my ears. It was so

relaxing. I used to love it. I was like a

little dog lying there being pampered.

I didn't make her do it. I didn't ask her

to do it. She wanted to do it.

It was like she enjoyed doing it.

I miss that.

My wife never did that for me,

and I wouldn't ask a girl to do it. It'll

be weird. Hey, can you clean my ears?

That'll just be strange. But it's nice

when they voluntarily want to do it for

How old was the Korean girl? She was 15

years older than me, so she's 45 now. Bit

old. That's why I decided to move on.

She was nice.

But the only problem was she wasn't very—

she wasn't a very sexual person. It was

very hard to have sex with her because she

never wanted to do it, and I had to pretty

much beg. I felt so pathetic. The first

few months we were doing it nearly every

day, and it was great, but then every time

I went back to Korea, to see her.

She never really wanted to do it,

and we only did it about once a week. She

said it was because I slept with the

French girl, and after I slept with the

French girl, it,

it kind of upset her, and she

didn't feel the same way about me as

before, but she still liked me enough to

let me stay with her. And she didn't

like doing anything apart from missionary.

If I tried to do doggy style, she said she

didn't like it because it made her feel

like an animal. That's kind of the point.

It was just really frustrating. I felt

sexually frustrated all the time when I

And she always made me use a condom,

which was boring.

It's crazy her dad's still alive. She's

45. Her dad must be over 80.

I find it really strange now when I

imagine 40 and 50-year-old people still

having their parents alive. Some people,

they're 16, they might have their dad

still alive.

Weird.

Who's the youngest girl I've dated? My

first girlfriend was— I think she was the

same age as me. She was 21 at

the time.

I was also 21. I've never done

it with a girl below 20.

The youngest was probably 21.

Opinion on Korea? I didn't like it.

Everyone looked kind of scary and

depressed and intimidating and angry. It

was like everyone seemed angry. You go

into a shop and then there'd be some

angry-looking woman there shouting

at someone. Go into a

clothing shop and get a bunch of sales

assistants yelling at you. They kept

yelling at me in Japanese because they

thought I was Japanese, and then I would

speak back to them in English and they'd

be all surprised.

The food is too spicy. Some of it's okay.

I like the fried chicken,

but most of it's just too spicy.

There's too much traffic everywhere, and

the roads are huge. They have these

massive 6-lane motorway roads everywhere.

Just in residential areas, you had to

cross a bloody motorway to go to the

supermarket, and there were just so many

cars all the time everywhere, horning at

each other. The Korean people are very

aggressive drivers. They just horn all the

time. I remember coming back to the UK

after living in Korea for a few months,

and it was so peaceful. Didn't hear a

single horn. And it was weird because,

because I was used to all the honking for

so long. I remember saying to my dad, I

haven't heard a single car horn at all

during this car trip home from the

airport. English people don't horn that

Some of the food I liked— I like Korean

barbecue, and I like the little cubed

radishes that they give you with fried

chicken, and I like the green leaves.

They have these green leaves soaked in

soya sauce. Which are really nice.

And I like the whole wrapping meat up in

lettuce and kimchi way of eating things.

It's really nice.

Yeah, perilla leaves. I forgot what it's

called in Korean, something like Gennip or

something. Gennip.

It's like a tangy

green leaf that's been marinated in soy

sauce. Very tasty.

Do I still like My Chemical Romance? Not

really. I don't listen to them anymore. I

listen to Bullet for My Valentine. I tried

listening to Slipknot, but I didn't like

it. There's just not much melody and it's

just too aggressive sounding.

Some of their songs are okay, but most of

them I don't really like their style. And

it's like they're trying to be too edgy

with their music videos, all the blood and

the violence. It's like they're trying too

hard to be some kind of horror movie. Oh,

thank you, Nick. Juh,

hello to you too.

How much do I weigh? 45 kg.

I can't wait for my sex doll to come

tomorrow. I'm just gonna be effing it all

day long, so no videos or streams

tomorrow. I'm gonna be very busy.

Hopefully my mum's not here. Oh, I don't

have any lube. I have moisturizing cream,

aloe vera. Hopefully it doesn't burn.

What's going on with the Essex girl?

Well, we planned to meet again, but she's

so busy we won't be able to meet until

June, and I might not even be here because

I already applied for a new passport, and

that might be coming this week or next

week. And then as soon as I get my

passport, don't really have any reason to

stay here. But then I would have wasted

money on the sex doll. Maybe I shouldn't

rush off to Japan straight away. Maybe I

should go in June.

Then at least I'll have A month's worth of

use with the sex doll.

I just need something to do. I thought

getting a sex doll would be a good idea.

I'm just so bored. Every day is the same.

Don't see anyone, nothing happens. I don't

have anything to do, plan to do.

I just don't know what to do with my life.

The only thing I have planned is selling

my Switch and waiting for my passport.

That's it.

Am I attached to my sister? Not really.

We talk sometimes, but we're not really,

really close. She has her life.

I have mine. I don't really

know what she does in London all the time.

She just works and then goes out with

Isn't that what everyone does? What else

is there to life apart from working,

going out with friends, and looking for

Am I serious about the sex doll thing?

Yes, it's coming tomorrow. Do you want

me to stream when it comes?

I can show you the box, but if I take it

out and I show you its features, I don't

think YouTube would be happy with that.

Pretty sure I'd get a ban— I mean, a

strike— because it's very realistic. It's

just like showing you a rubber pussy.

Don't want to get a strike. I need Super

Chats so I can fund it, so I can make the

money back from, from how much it cost.

It cost £250,

so it better be good. I'm not cheaping

out. Before, I had a little flashlight.

It was about this big. And that cost about

£20. It was alright, but it wasn't really

satisfying. I want something that's big

and heavy so I can pound against it

without it moving around too much and

without using my hands. The best bit about

it is you don't have to use your hands.

You can go hands-free, and that makes it

feel more realistic. Oh, thank you, Ray.

Can I recommend music? Yes, I recommend

Anything by Bullet for My Valentine. My

favorite album is Venom and Temper

Cleaning it— oh, that's something I didn't

really think about. If it's about this

big, it shouldn't be too difficult to just

carry over to the bathroom and rinse it

out.

Do I like dubstep? No, I hate it. It's

horrible. It just sounds rubbish.

I like guitars and drums and screaming.

How many times do I masturbate? I

masturbated once this morning and then

twice in the afternoon, and then I'll

probably do it again before I go to sleep,

so maybe 4 times.

I think I have a problem.

It just feels good. Doesn't cost me

anything to do it. Why not?

After I've done it, I feel like my mind

has been cleared and I can think about

other things more efficiently.

If I don't do it, I just keep thinking

about naked girls all the time. I can't

concentrate on anything. Oh, thank you,

Veronica. Very kind of

you. How can

you be so damn horny? Because I'm bored,

and ejaculating is the only stimulus

that I have in my boring life.

It's the only stimulating thing that

stimulates me, makes me

feel less dead inside.

I just don't know what else to do.

I go out into the garden, I kick the ball

around, and then I

look at the tree where my dad's buried and

I feel depressed. I keep thinking about

his Weetabix and his bananas. He always

had Weetabix, but he didn't put sugar and

he didn't put milk. He put soya milk and

bananas. And it's just so annoying that he

put so much effort into eating healthily

for nothing. He was so—

it's like he was

so careful about what he ate.

Because he wanted to live long,

longer, and in

the end didn't even matter. He might as

well have had bacon every day for the good

that his Weetabix banana did him. It's

just annoying. If he had a really terrible

diet and he was a heavy drinker and he was